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Zachary could not understand why a couple would find themselves in such a predicament. One had to hope that they were safe from all harm despite living in the mist of villains. “I promise you that will never happen.” He would not allow it, he promised to protect Chandler at all cost. Those warm eyes that soften as he sensed Adia’s glare, caused the male to tug his head upwards once more. “I hold you to that. You mustn’t forget,” Zachary uttered; he knew she wouldn’t. Distancing himself from her frame, Zach pulled gently at her hand. “How long are you here, again? I don’t want your time at the palace spent solemnly on making me feel better. Lets do something fun. How does that sound?”

“Of course not. You’re going to receive letters all the time from me. Up way into the future.” She teased. Squeezing his hand just a bit she shrugged. “I dunno, I was just planning it to be a day, I should visit Izzy and Colin but I think they would be alright if I came and went.” She had a feeling they would all be much too busy and she didn’t want to bother them and she didn’t want to spend too much time here and away from Toulouse. “Yeah I’m up for anything.”

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Zachary lifted his head slightly, attempting to pull the weigh off Adia’s body. “There is no doubt that either of us would die under such circumstances, I only hope Chandler is never put in such a situation.” A hand picked up from his side, resting gently up against her cheek, his thumb circled softly along her skin. Zachary had been relieved by her arrival. Knowing she was around, that she cared, had helped his thoughts slowly shift towards happiness: Adia always knew a way to make him feel comforted. Pulling his hands back to his sides, Zach drew his eyes towards his shoes. The feeling of her touch ignited a soft fire inside his cheeks, a broad smile appearing as he tilting into her palm. “I would have to come and visit you one day. You would have to tell me where you are living first, before I manage to take a trip somewhere. I would not want to be lost in some unknown land, you know.”

“I hope neither of you are ever put in that situation.” She couldn’t stand if one day she got word he wasn’t around. Unless he died of old age with happy grandbabies Adia wasn’t going to have any of it. Smiling into his touches Adia let her eyes connect with his as much until his eyes dropped to his shoes and even then she looked over him admiring him. Even if he looked tired and weighted there was always that spark in him that she admired and loved. The one where she always knew he would be alright. “of course, I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’ll write to you the moment I learn of where we end up. That way you’ll know where to come.” Running her thumb over his cheek she let her hand drop back taking his hand into hers again so they could walk forward.

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“That is true. Candler is quite adorable when he is jealous. I do hope he never really takes those troubles to heart.” Zachary never meant any harm. Jealousy was a rather normal emotion, one he exhibited countless times. Somehow, though, Chandler always reassured him that there was never any need to be afraid of a strangers interference. “I wouldn’t want him to die for me though,” he mumbled – he could never wish harm on his husband. “Being honest is good though. Humans should not have the capability to lie. What good does lying do for us?” Nothing. It only made matters worse. “Oh?” Zachary paused as if attempting to act innocent. He was aware that it sounded rather risqué, though Zachary felt comforted by the sweet sound of Adia’s laughter. “You know, I do miss that little laugh of yours. Took me months to hear it the first time we met.” 

“Nah I doubt it. There’s no harm meant in it.” She couldn’t imagine Zachary straying ever and Chandler should know that and vice versa she was sure too. Sighing softly Adia shrugged trying not to jostle him too much from where his head was resting. “He would though. Just as much as you would die for him.” As she would for Toulouse and Toulouse her. She could only compare the two with her limited knowledge of how relationships worked. “It does, I truly believe in honesty, all the time.” But he knew that. Melting softly at his comment about her laugh she pulled away just enough to rest her hands on his cheeks and pull his head down to kiss him on the forehead before pulling him back for a hug just because she didn’t know what to say.

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“Oh super jealous, just how I love him to be.” Zachary playfully added, “I believe he does, though I am not sure many of his friends are married.” He had not been aware of many married people himself. Benjamin was on the verge of marriage, but he could not think up many others. Zachary melted into her hug, his arms instantly wrapping around her smaller frame. Squeezing tightly as if to keep her close, his dropped his voice to a whisper of his own. “I just love him so much.” And while Zach understood his husband loved him so, he felt afraid that he was destroying their relationship. “Thank you,” he whispered into her neck, his head resting on top of her shoulder. “It is hard to fake confidence. But I never picked you for lacking in that department. You are always up front with me, you know. But if you want, you can create a whole different persona to try and fake your own confidence? She can be Cherry, or something weird.”

“Hence why we work. We make your hubby jealous in all the right ways.” She joked.  Feeling the grip of Zachary Adia held back just as tightly. Hoping to him it felt like she could hold him together. Still just playing with his hair she tried to help him stay calm. “He loves you just as much. Everything you would do for him, he will do for you.” She explained smiling against his shoulder. “It’s my little honesty thing. I could be scared but I want to always be honest. I don’t think it’s confidence.” Giggling though at the suggestion she shook her head. “No offense that sounds like a stripper name.”

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“I will want that title. I can hold it over Chandler, I bet he would be jealous.” Being a godfather was an honor, something Zachary truly wanted. He knew he would have made Adia a godmother, she meant far too much to not include her in his children’s life. “I don’t know. I am not sure what I should be doing anymore. I just don’t want to mess up our relationship. What if he thinks I am fucked up or that I am too much to handle?” Zach could not handle losing the man he loved. “I know I had multiple times. What if this is the last chance he can handle giving me?” While Zachary knew Chandler loved him, his mind was still tarnished by his parents abuse, forcing him to believe he hadn’t deserved love at all. “I think so? I’ve met a lot of people, but not many who I’d be jealous of. Wait. Why would I be jealous of her? Are you jealous of her?”

“He’ll probably be super jealous, does he have anyone that would make him the godfather?” She teased with a smirk. “I think the only thing you can do to fuck it up would to not be honest. It’s the main part of a relationship. You’re not fucked up and you’re not too much to handle.” She whispered pulling them to stop and him in for a hug running her fingers through his hair. “There is never going to be a last chance for you two. There will always be forgiveness, love and hope in your relationship.” She knew that much. And for someone like Zachary she knew Chandler could give him that reassurance.  “Just a little about how she carries herself. I wish I had that confidence even if she’s faking it.”

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“Of course. I better be a god parent to one of these kids. I will be very disappointed if I was not,” he stated truthfully. “What do you think he will say when I tell him I was talking to his brother behind his back? Do you think he will be happy? No he won’t. He’d be pissed and I am sure that will cause some sort of break between us.” It was painful to say, but Zach knew that this would hurt his husband. “A couple of years? So in two years? That is a couple, isn’t it? Ballet? Oh. Well I am not really interested in that. But if she is talented in ballroom, I will definitely try to find her. How does she look like again?”

“Well you better want that title a few years down the road.” Especially since it was still wasn’t going to happen for awhile. Or maybe not, all depended on how her and Toulouse grew. “He won’t but that’s not a reason to hide it from him. If you’re scared to tell him should you even be doing it?” Hell she was scared back when everything was rocky between her and Zach to tell Toulouse and Colin them she was talking to him again but she did and she learned a lot about the people she was around. “You guys can get past anything even if it getss rocky, You have multiple times already.” She explained gently. “I’m thinking 2 is a good time frame, its not a guarantee but an estimate.Super blonde hair, poise you would be jealous of. Almost always in a dress. Does that help at all?”

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“I would definitely visit you and your kids. I can just imagine tiny little Adia’s running around. Oh the nightmare,” Zach joked – they would certainly be cute. “No it isn’t. I just, maybe I am messed up? I don’t want Chandler to think he needs to save me and I rather not scare him. He already have issues of his own.” Perhaps Zach talking about his own mental state would cause Chandler to have a panic attack – he hadn’t wanted to do that. “Triplets? That’s surely a lot at once. This is all in the future, right? There is nothing wrong with living in the same city as someone else. I had to try with you, didn’t I? Look where it got me. She’s a dancer? Really? What sort of dancing? I’m interested in learning some new moves.”

“You would love it. We both know it.” She teased with a smirk. “You’re not, you’re absolutely fine. Having worries and being scared that’s just being a person. I know Chandler can accept that and he’ll help. And you’ll help him through his issues. It’s all about communication. Which seems like what starts all this, Just not talking enough.” She explained shaking her head at him. “Yeah, we’re not planning on settling down anytime soon yet, maybe a couple years. And yeah true. Ballet if I remember correctly probably ballroom too so you could learn something along those lines.”

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“Would you ever visit if I have children?” The idea had seemed like a lovely thought, though perhaps Adia would get scared of children then? “Me being upset is just a burden. I don’t want to tell him I am sad. Chandler would then believe I am crazy and regret our marriage.” It seemed extreme, but his insecurities always played a part in his thoughts. “Being themselves? Sounds boring. She isn’t going to want to be away from her siblings, I am sure they are very attached. I may have, though the name does not ring a bell. She seems interesting, perhaps you just have to get to know her more before she really opens up. Is she talented like Toulouse?”

“Of course. I would want to be there and get to know them. You would want to visit if I had any right?” She asked shyly rocking on her heels every so slightly. “It’s not. That’s what marriage it, it’s relying on each when the other is sad. Till death do you part, better and worse. This might be just a bad part and Chandler wouldn’t react that strongly if he does he’s an idiot. and he’s not an idiot right?” She challenged. “They are triplets. I dunno I just wanna make sure before we get our hopes up.  You really do have to try with her but honestly she’s a really good friend to me. She’s a singer and a dancer, and obsessed with coffee so that might help refresh your mind if anything.”

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“I am sure he is. But I cannot assume things, you must never assume.” After all, things could have changed in the future. Whether that was for the better or not, Zach was unsure of. “Straight to the hard questions, huh? Well I guess because he is never around. It’s kind of hard. I guess he always just assumes I am happy and never really asks.” It took a lot for Zach to even admit he was upset in the first place. “I am sure they would want you both. Why could they not? Do you like Marie, I am not sure I ever met her.”

“True true.” Adia nodded with a small giggle. She was sure he would still have children and she looked forward to the day for them. “Always. You know me.” She shrugged. “You have to tell him this. Whenever you’re unhappy don’t wait for him to ask.” She explained gently always thankful he could open up to her. “I dunno maybe they want to be off being themselves. I do, she’s a little guarded but when you get past it she’s a sweetheart. I think she’s just constantly afraid people will turn on her. You should meet her if you haven’t.”

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“For me, it is. Though it is a two person relationship.” While they talked about it before, Zach still had not been a hundred percent sure what will happen. “And it snowed the other say, it was very nice. Does it snow in Wonderland?” Probably. “Really? Where have you been thinking?”

“Oh true. I always figured he was as into it as you. But you do have time for now at least for it to come up.” She shrugged. “Zachary. Why haven’t you been confiding in Chandler? What’s going on there.” She asked cutting straight to the point. “No idea I mean it’s either or, I know Marie better than I know Berlioz and it’s not like he really favours either or so it could be wherever, If any of them even want us there.”

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“That is true. I would leave that for the future, if I ever have any children.” He knew he would, though when was the question. “My life has been interesting. My friend is living with me and Chandler now. It’s very difficult with three people and several pets, but we manage. What else has been going on in your life?”

“If? I thought it was a for sure thing?” Adia tilted her head slightly at him. “And....: She tried to prompt waiting for something els to come up. Like why he wasn’t confiding in Chandler. “Nothing too much, just a lot of couply moments. We’re thinking that we don’t want to end up in France or Wonderland so maybe we’ll go where one of his siblings are, or just settle somewhere random.”

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“Does he have anything on his skin?” Zachary asked, curious to know whether Toulouse thought to have tattoos on his own skin. “It would look weird?” Maybe Adia was right. “Alright. Well I could put a horse somewhere. I always did like horses.”

“No, just me.” She wasn’t actually sure if he would one day but she wouldn’t be surprised by it either. “Just cause it might look empty? I dunno it’s your call? Yo do love horses so I wouldn’t be surprised. But so what else has been going on in your life?”

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“He should practice it then so that he can start tattooing you later on. It would men a lot more then, I am sure.” Zach thought it would be cute, especially considering the two had though about marrying one another someday. “Guardian Adia? That’s a good one. Well, you kind of are. I’ll agree. And I already have a tree on my forearm, but maybe something like a family tree somewhere on my body. It would just me and Chandler’s name first, but when there are kids, I might add more? How does that sound?”

“I would love it, we probably will go down that route.” Adia would love if he would but knowing how much of a perfectionist he could be about art she wanted to make sure he was ready to see it everyday on her body when he put it there. “Ah you do. hmmm. Yeah? Would it make sense to do that more later on when you have kids? Just leave a spot blank for now? It wouldn’t look awkward with just two names?”

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“But he is thinking about it, it seems. Where do they do this, in Wonderland?” Or was in France? He hadn’t been so sure. At the tug, Zach obeyed and begun to walk. “Wish on you? That sounds wrong. Any other ideas you have, I may get more than one.”

“Sure, it would be really cool if his art was perfectly translated. So far everything was done in Wonderland.” She shrugged smiling as she caught a glance of it though. “Why? I’ll be your guardian Adia.” Sh joked. “Uh ummmmmmm. You could do a scenary peice? Like a forest? Strength and all that?”

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“That is sweet of you. Does he do it himself, the whole tattooing part at least?” He questioned, having known it could be possible. It didn’t seem hard, Toulouse was already an artist. “Matching tattoos? I already have a feather, but I could get a star. Somewhere on my torso?”

“Nah we didn’t really want to make me an experiment for the first time he ever did it. We bring the designs to someone and they translate it over. “ She shrugged slipping her hand into his and pulling him gently forward. “Anywhere you want. And then whenever you want to wish on a star you can wish on me.” She teased winking at him before laughing.

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“You want a tattoo behind a ear?” It seemed painful, though it would have most likely been so small to make a big impact. “That sounds like a good one, I like it. I am not sure what I should get. Have any ideas?”

“I want to leave my arms to let Toulouse keep designing it and so the ear seems nice and besides that connects the mind and body right?” She explained with a small shrug. “We should get matching ones, Get a star somewhere,” She teased half serious half not.

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