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Shirley Jackson, The haunting of hill house

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We float like embryo

Sideways and upside down

I want to take off your skin

Make little teeth shaped incisions

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You can recreate me

From every imagination of every hand

That once held me, that once reached

That could piece me together

From the wishes that hung off my eyes

The stains I left on church floors

The hearts I reached through lips

You can recreate me

And find I'd gone again

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If I am ever to be found

I hope that it is in fondness

When you arrive, I hope you see me

And meet with the spiders in my room

They talk, they are visitors for you

But you still kill them

I waited for blood once too

Kept track of days I haven't seen it

But do you have to seek it

In my room

We haven't said a single word

Your eyes still haven't yet met mine

It seems I have to wait

To be fond enough by you

Goodbye spiders in my room

I'll let you know when it is safer

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Hey little brother what have you done

You say you can't see

White irises

Hey little brother what have you done

You say it's a pumpkin

But it reeks of blood

Hey little brother, is it okay?

You say we can walk

We are not dogs

Hey little brother, are you replete

Did you tell anyone

Of your long slow goodbye

Hey little brother, you're in my arms

The darker the berry

The sweeter it is

Ashen Devlesa, Romale

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This is a canopic jar

I'm sick to my stomach

Sick it can't go very far

You say it's nature

That I live in my own

That I speak as fixture

From inside your bones

Am I your casual penalty

When your story's over

You tell me, battery

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You wanted to know what haunts you

A ghost in the glass house

We are see through, we are see through

You can throw stones, as I'll bleed too

I see you

I see you

I have followed you home through your window

If you are not there I will wait here

Right here

And when I see you, 4 fingers

On your skull and my thumb

My trepenation thumb

I will push right into

Your glass home

It's far more fragile when I poke and I push

I will do it slow til I reach you

An apology won't harden the dust

I want an obsidian palace for my lucidity

You feel me? You'll feel me

Ghosts are worse than the spores you've spread

I'll give you a head, my very own head

Sit behind me and watch what you caused

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You're a casualty of war

On a list you call your own

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check your body for spores

check mine too if you find it

check what’s growing on a whore?

why are you looking at my spit?

I thought I gave you teeth

gnawed you down and made volcanic

you spit back ashes

your bedroom pot half infested

you’ll ask your enzyme

and check your chloroplast

am I hungry or thirsty?

are we undressed centipedes

there’s no shame in an exorcist

but they’ll kill my fungi activities

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What does the back of my throat mean

In its squeaks

In its slumber

Why does it speak when you aren't looking

Crawling in to find its secret

Gagging on treasures I haven't understood

Since I was young

Since I was a brother

And where is it now for these two colours

Slighted sounds not from me

From when I was younger

From when I remember

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I'm cashing in broken promises

Banking on a warranty

Wearing it down with eyes

Taken aback by peace

Branded by my own

And still searching

I am cashing in broken promises

For what I didn't have

For what I wasn't given

And I can't get settled down

But I can sit still until 11

And by 12, I remember

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I feel empty

And from lack of sleep and lack of food

It seems to be

Truth

But more than truth

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You don't have to break your arm to hold my hand

I'm just sitting in the backseat

I'm just sitting in the backseat

Never mind my gasps

Look past and smile

Look past and smile

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Were all your pleas for me

And did I listen

Show me guilty?

Give me heaven?

I need a change of scenery

If I ask you my petitions

Give me filthy

Show me vicious

Will your change agree with me

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The dirt dug in, and all my friend

Silence and understood

Hunger with no stomach bends

And a snake

A voice and a heart

Bitter, but promise of flesh

Where is my content

Father, will you bring it to me

Will you be my teeth

will you let me taste what has been stolen