akinnie75

[akinnie75]

hi English is not my first language so I apologise for any typos.

I just finished reading pursuing happiness and this is the first time ever in my life that I genuinely cried reading a fic, is beautiful, and my heart feels warm, I experienced child abuse when I was a little but I'm almost a woman now and I could see myself in this character, I finally found someone who loves me so I'm not scared anymore, the nightmares are gone but even when they casually comeback I have someone to hold onto just like your character, and I can say that now I'm happy, this fic made me realize that now I'm finally free. thank u so much for this. hope you keep writing I'm looking forward to your other works since I already read all of your fics lol

Hi!

Thank you so much for sharing your story to me ;-; my chest was burning while reading what you said even if you didn’t explain in detail. And I am so happy you found the right person who makes you happy. I hope you and your special someone is happy for the rest of your life.

[akinnie75]

I am an emotional WRECK!!! The Promised Iris was absolutely heart wrenching and beautiful. Like I cried, hard, at the end of the first, and was on the edge of my seat at the climax of the second part. I try not to read stories that are too heavy or angsty before I go to sleep (nightmares are a b*tch) but I literally couldn't stop myself from finishing this story! It's amazingly written and I really liked that you gave them a happier ending than their beginning. Beautiful story dear!!!

Hi!! Thank you so much for reading it!!! And yes, I can’t handle sad endings because they make me sad for days XD But I’m glad u read it and have a wonderful day!

[akinnie75]

way and that you’re taking care of your mental health, i know that we don’t know each other but i’m glad that this amazing and talented person is doing better, always remember you’re a incredible and brave person, I hope you get better each day, even with baby steps, have a lovely day

[akinnie75]

Hello, I just want to say that at some point i get what you’re going through, i have anxiety and even now sometimes i’m scared to go outside and meet new people, so let me tell you something, you’re allowed to not feel happy all the time, to have bad days, to do things that makes you happy even if it is not “adult thing”, you can put yourself first, and not to feel guilty about it, the people who loves you won’t get sick of you, they will understand you. I’m happy this blog is helping you in a

Hiiiiiiii thank you for understanding ;-; I was really scared about what people were going to say and honestly it made me scared lol. But reading everyone’s support, I really don’t deserve all of you guys :’) Thanks again for reaching out even if we don’t know each other ^^ Have a wonderful day as well!

[akinnie75]

It’s Been a Long Time...

I don’t know if my followers are still here and I know it’s a little late, but I’m sorry I went on a sudden hiatus. I’ve been avoiding my Tumblr account because I was nervous to see people looking at my blog. But I feel as though I should update a little bit with what’s been going on.

I’ve developed a sort of an anxiety and depression. Every day I wake up scared for what the day has for me. Everything everyone said to me, good or bad, scared me to death because I don’t know how people truly felt inside. So much of my life has changed since I graduated college that everything broke in me and I ultimately had to go to the hospital due to my unhealthy mental state. I’ve since been discharged weeks ago and is currently looking for therapy.

I’m not in the right state of mind to enjoy pretty much anything right now, which is why I haven’t posted anything for months. I didn’t even want to watch BTS anymore because I thought that I should do more “adult” things rather than enjoy practically anything I used to do. I still have a lot of anxiety and get depressed some days but I play it off like nothing is happening because I don’t want the people around me to be negatively affected by it...I feel immature for wanting to do things for me but at the same time I don’t want people in my close circle to be sick of me for the requests that I want.

Life’s still not in the best for me at the moment but I think I’m finally ready to take steps for a better path. I want to go back to the same me that enjoyed reading and writing--back to the same me who loved listening to music and enjoy my old hobbies.

I’m posting this because I feel like the weights on my shoulder would be lifted. I want to be a bit more open on my blog, regardless if people read it or not. I just want a place where I can convey how I feel without such personal eyes applying pressure on my mind.

To the people who read this, thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to read a portion of a random person’s life. I don’t know when, but I’ll be back with another fanfiction one day, being a better person than who I am today.

[akinnie75]

I need to say that i avoided reading Ephemera as if it was a plague because you marked it as a tragedy and i was not ready for a heartbreak. Today i finally gave in and i hate you so much right now. I knew from the start that I'll cry and cry and cry some more. But this is too much 😭😭 how could you do this? (ps i loved it, as always you're the best writer out there and i love you so much. Thank you for every single word you wrote)

THANK YOU LOL I will take you hating me as a compliment LOL jk I get it I was in pain writing it too but thank you so much for reading it and thank you for reading every word of it ^^

[akinnie75]

i hope you're doing good! i luv ur master list sm frl

Thank you! I’ve been doing well but thank you for being worried for me ;-; I hope you’re doing well too ^^

[akinnie75]

Hi! Hope you're doing well. I come re-read your fics. I enjoy reading them on my free time. Something about your fics made me come back to read them more and more. I can say you wrote them amazingly well done. Startling fics ☺️😍 take care of your wellbeing alright.

Thank you! I’m sorry for the late reply but I appreciate that you read everything over again. I hope you take care of yourself too!

[akinnie75]

Hello! first of all, how are u? I hope you're happy and extremely healthy also your beloved ones and your whole family, your writing is always so goood! your stories never fail to make me cry, laugh, and smile. Now time for silly questions; Who's your bias? Would you mind if someone makes a fanart of your stories? Have you read Save on webtoons? anyway...Have a lovely day! :)

Hello!!!!!!! Wow, it’s been really long since I went on Tumblr lol. Thank you so much for your concern! I have been very busy since graduating college and currently adulting right now, so uploading is taking a very long time :( Once everything settles down, I’ll definitely return!!!!

I don’t really have a bias ^^ In the beginning, Jin was my bias, but eventually everyone was just so lovable that I couldn’t ignore them ;-;

I don’t mind if someone makes a fanart of my stories! If anything, that’ll make me very happy!

I think I have read Save...it’s the BTS webtoon, right? LOL

Anyway, thank you so much and sorry for such a late response ^^

[akinnie75]

Why I can't reblog 'white hibernation"? When I try to do it I don't know why Tumblr close._.

Hello! I’m not entirely sure either. I had some people tell me that too, and I think maybe the word count is too big to reblog? I know sometimes my phone closes a lot when I try to look on my account.

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OHHH AND BY THE WAY. YOUR WRITING IS ABSOLUTELY MESMERIZING!! The way it feels like watching a suspense movie at first, something eerie even at the mundane scenes. And then, the whole Tae appaearence and all that. I had a feeling he was the winter bear when the MC threw that rock, but then he seemed so... Innocent 🥺 and I mean he was! He suffered as well!! Thank you so much for putting that exquisite work of art out there ❤️❤️ - 🐻

Ha ha, thank you! Yea, I didn’t want it to be so black and white with who were the antagonists and protagonists since realistically speaking, many people are a mixture of both. Taehyung is the antagonist per se, but is also a victim of circumstance. I hope that makes sense, but again, thank you for taking the time to read my fic!! Be safe and have a wonderful day!

[akinnie75]

Instead of doing my homework for online classes I read your winter bear fic and HONESTLY I. AM. CRYING. No shit though, when Tae took her to the cave and was saying all those things my heart was beating super fadtm I thought he had been faking it all along, and that he was going to kill her or something. Then the one who was killed was ME. I COULDN'T HANDLE THIS FEELINGS. poor Tae. Poor, poor Tae. However, I have some questions 👀 was tae's mothers a winter bear as well? Did he eat the kids? -🐻

Hello! I hope you’re doing well ^^ To answer your first question, his mother isn’t a winter bear. They were both from South Korea and moved to Little Bare in hopes of restarting, but his mother couldn’t raise him anymore and left him. Taehyung came across a cave where long ago, a witch would hold rituals and left symbols on the wall. This lead him to interacting with it by accident and becoming a winter bear.

For the second question, he didn’t eat the kids but killed them in hopes that they would become immortal like him so he won’t be alone. However, he was never successful in doing that and would end up killing them and letting their spirits haunt the cave.

I hope this answers your questions! Have a wonderful day!

[akinnie75]

I just finished reading Black & White and it was absolutely amazing! You always have such interesting concepts in everything you write. You make some of the weirdest concepts into intriguing and heartwarming stories. I love it! :) 💕

Oh thank you!! I love thinking about weird concepts and see if I can do something about them. I also have some more that I’m thinking about and will eventually post ^^ Have a wonderful day and be safe!!

[akinnie75]

i just read your entire ml and do you know how many time i've cried because of your stories?!?!?! i LIVE for angst-y stories and yours are so beautifully written 🥺❤️

Oh no, I’m so sorry for making you cry so many times!! Lol, but thank you for reading them even though they’re a pain to read!! Have a nice day!! ^^

[akinnie75]

So i read Smile. I need to know what happened after 😖 did they stay with Sunya? Did his father ever found them? Did they got married? WHAT HAPPENS NEXT?! I love all your works so much 😭 sorry, I'm a mess right now (and it's your fault)

Hi!! Ha ha, it’s okay!! I thought about the after story for a while, and in the ending, they try living under a new name but it doesn’t work out because his father ends up finding them anyway. Hoseok is tired of living under his father’s rules, so he eventually confronts him by letting him know that he wants to live his own life. His father gives in and lets him live with Y/N and Suniya. A little anti-climatic, but yep! I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day!

[akinnie75]

I didn't know how to feel about the whole situation, the oc with all the flashbacks or the poor tea and his background or about him telling her innocently about how it always snowing I literally stopped and kept looking at the roof for 5 minutes to get my self prepared for the end lol. And the last thing the idea is wonderful, the whole how you came up with plots is wonderful 💕💕 I'll never disturb keep writing, please ☆☆

Hi! Thank you!! I appreciate you leaving this comment ;-; And I’m sorry for making you cry! I will make sure that the next fic is definitely a lot happier! Have a wonderful and safe day!

[akinnie75]

Oh, I really don't know how I'll describe this but I'll let you know that I absolutely loved ”white hibernation”, and I'm really amazed how I catch my tears from falling the whole thing, deep down I really felt the same as the OC, In her place, I wouldn't know how to deal with this tornado of feeling, but forgiving teahyung is a sure thing, he is a victim himself” his background tho 💔”, ugh and the part where they're walking in the forest and teahyung telling her all the confusing things,

Yea! Honestly, I was going to make Taehyung keep his memories, but I wasn’t sure how I wanted it to end. When I was replaying his backstory in my head, I was really sad too XD But thank you for taking the time to read it though!! Have a lovely day!!