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Mr S Update

I'm gonna start going in after school again... I genuinely need the time to work but I'm so excited to see Mr S again 😭❤️

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Mr S

I've been purposely avoiding Mr S to get over my crush on him... Cuz Ik it's not healthy...

I had to go see him yesterday after school for some info for a club... I couldn't even hold eye contact with him or I might've had a breakdown... He probably thinks I hate him... But it's the total opposite

I'm in love with him.

Not just a little crush. And my feelings for him just won't go away, and like the cliché, his absence is only making my heart grow fonder.

I miss him so much 😭 and I just need someone like him in my life...

Ever since I stopped talking to him, I've been dealing with self worth issues... He made me feel good enough.

Even though he's gay and has a boyfriend, I wanted to believe I mean something to him, and it seemed I did for a while...

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97!?

Y’all find out I’m gone and suddenly a swarm of tc blogs are following me?!

Y’all are wild for that

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I’m not d3ad!

Hey y’all! Literally just came back to tell y’all that I’m not d3ad, I just have stricter rules on myself regarding social media rn due to mental health reasons. I have also completely been avoiding Mr S at all costs, because everytime I see him I think about his bf and how he’d never have feelings for me even if he weren’t my teacher… I hope y’all are having better luck than me.

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Does he like it up the bum?

Tbh, probably.

(Btw Ik this was meant to be a malicious joke but I found it kinda funny anyways. Comedy is my coping mechanism 🥲👍)

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Mr S' EA (Education Assistant, basically a TA) came to see me after school today...

I was waiting with my friend in the caf for my dad to come pick me up when Mr S' EA came up the stairs and came to see me. I waved nicely as always cuz I love her and love seeing her, and she said "Hey! Long time no see! Are you okay?" (She didn't know about my cat, she must've been referring to me leaving Mr S and the note I left for him) and I explained that I'm not exactly okay because my cat passed yesterday...

She comforted me and it was nice to talk to her again. I wanna see her still, just not Mr S. If I see Mr S, I'm gonna have a breakdown, I stg.

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Hey y'all...

I won't be super active for a while...

My cat died today. She was almost 16 years old. I don't remember a life without her.

This is hard.

I'm not sure when I'll be back and more active but I'll let y'all know when I'm back.

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(I don't have pictures rn but Imma just say them rn)

1. The screwdriver from Handy Manny 😭

2. Adult Bambi

3. Literally just staples (not the store, the metal things)

4. Hot glue sticks

5. The purple Elmer's glue stick (the jumbo one specifically)

(BRO WHY DO I FIND STATIONARY ATTRACTIVE 😭)

Hear me out chain!!

Don't do the basic ones pleaseeee

@pretttpinkprincess @prettiestgirlinthemorgu3 @euphoriavaiii @empatheticlove @riotgrrrl555 @iloveibuprofen1 @oceansxchild @strwbrryssvveets @strwbrry-stars @dollthedivine @virgvnsuicvde @bambibaby4eva @mochaisthesweetestofthemall

And like actually anyone who wants to, like do it DO IT

Also sorry I feel like jack and bowser are common, I just love them so much

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This is what I settled on with help from ChatGPT lol

OKAY. MR S. WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY TO THIS? I WANNA TELL HIM EVERYTHING BUT I CAN'T 😭

I WANNA RESPOND BUT IDK WHAT TO SAY

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OKAY. MR S. WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY TO THIS? I WANNA TELL HIM EVERYTHING BUT I CAN'T 😭

I WANNA RESPOND BUT IDK WHAT TO SAY

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"what's ur snap" shut up ask for my number you fucking loser

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(The final) MR S UPDATE - Friday

I did it. I said goodbye to Mr S today. And I didn't even get a hug.

It's officially the last day I stay after class to see him.

He helped me do some research for Journalism Club and then I just had to tell him.

I told him "Also, I gotta let you know too, today's the last day I visit after school." or something along those lines, I don't even remember rn, and he said "Oh why?" and I said "Personal reasons." and I looked down and tried not to cry, and he looked at me and said "Oh... OH- Okay" when I made eye contact with him. He knew.

If he didn't know before, now he does. When he was making eye contact with me, it clicked as I felt myself looking at him with a heartbroken "I love you" kind of look.

He said "Well, it was nice seeing you." and something along the lines of "I enjoyed our time together." and he started to pack up to leave.

As he started to pack up and leave he changed the subject to Journalism Club and my Bestie before he went to leave. He was clearly trying not to hurt me more.

And then after that he went to actually leave, and as he was walking to the door and whatnot I thought about asking him for a hug but by the time I mustered up the courage, he was on his way out the door.

He said "Well, good luck on your exams and on your classes next semester" or something along those lines. (Everything is a blur, I was so nervous to tell him and I'm broken.) AND HE HAD THE NERVE TO SAY HIS SIGNATURE "See you later!" with a smile...

No. I won't F'ING see you later. He should've just said goodbye, now everything feels incomplete. And I didn't even get a hug from him before he left. And I'm never gonna visit him in his class again.

As soon as he left I burst into tears, and I tried to cry quietly because people were still walking through the hallway. I was only able to hold it in while he was there. The second he left, it hit me.

I wrote a little note on a mini sticky note and left it on his desk. It read "For Mr S (Actual name tho) I'm gonna miss you sir. Thank you for everything. - A" I hope he cries.

My life is gonna be so different without him.

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Change of plans, not giving this to him (Thank you for the advice)

MR S UPDATE - Monday

Wrote him a goodbye letter today...

Here's the letter, I'll be giving it to him on Friday, which will be the last day that I visit him after school...

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MR S??? MR V??? UPDATE - Monday

HELP. I'M DEVELOPING A NEW TC??? BUT I'M ALMOST DONE HIS CLASS AND I'LL NEVER HAVE HIM AS A TEACHER AGAIN??? 😭😭😭😭

I know for a fact he's single, and slightly younger than Mr S 😏

Basically how this started was when I had his class for the first time (this semester) I was like "Wait he's kinda fine 😏 but I have Mr S so whatever" but lowkey he's funny and he sees me, like he SEES me, he doesn't just glaze over me cuz I'm part of the class, he actually SEES me.

Okay so basically how I came to the conclusion that I'm developing a crush on him was that today, he was helping me in Animation (my actually animation teacher is this new guy, let's call him Mr V), and he pulled a chair up next to me, but lowkey close to me, and he had to reach in front of me for the keyboard and mouse, and he brought them to himself, but he started to ask what my problem was with the modeling and stuff and he started to fix my problems, it took like the entire class so we spent basically the entire class side by side.

Anyways, when we were sitting close, we were so close that I could feel his body heat, and our knees were basically touching, and we touched feet a couple times under the table, by accident ofc. And, we also touched arms a few times, and he kept making eye contact with me and smiling as we were laughing at the problems happening in the program, cuz they just kept happening and he was like "Omg." and he explained to me that he enjoys the problem solving and that he wouldn't dock me any points for helping me.

And then he was like "You're getting a glimpse into my brain A (My name)" and for some reason that felt so intimate? Idk how else to describe it, but like comfortable? Idk. Anyways, he's like "Oh, A, A" in like a faux disappointed way like tsk tsk *finger wag *, and then he continued helping me. Mind you I don't remember the order of these things cuz my mind is jumbled rn. He also just generally keeps using my name, which like, THAT'S HOW YOU GET ME LIKE OML STOP IF YOU DON'T WANT ME TO FALL FOR YOU.

And we kept giggling together cuz someone from another class came in and was talking to their friends in the class about religions and cults and trying to get them to convert and reciting Islamic (?) prayers, and we were just so confused why he was doing that- and then the dude started talking about sex and rules on it in different religions and then Mr V was like "What are you talking about (Guy's name)?" and Mr V told me "I don't even know why he's here, he just loves this class I guess" (cuz he came in a few times before too)

There was also many times during a lesson that he said "Why don't we just rest today, and watch a movie or something, whadya say A? Nobody else is listening anyways, why don't we just take a nap." and other times where he's said "You're listening more than (the upper level students in the class)s." to their own lesson, cuz I was done my work and curious about the higher level stuff.

Idk, I just think I'm developing a crush on him cuz I was suppressing it before cuz I had a crush on Mr S, but now that I'm trying to move on from Mr S, it opened a romantic interest spot for me, which he is filling. For now tho, it's literally just a crush, though I genuinely think he's a great person.

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MR S UPDATE - Monday

Wrote him a goodbye letter today...

Here's the letter, I'll be giving it to him on Friday, which will be the last day that I visit him after school...

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send this star to your favorite accounts to show you that you love them! time to spread the love! ⭐️

(You have such a bubbly, kind soul, and I hope you always have a reason to tap into that joyous, loving spirit of yours. ❤️)

OMGGG TYSM <3333