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you never really liked me, did you?

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I don't know who needs to hear this but:

-"it only hurts a little" is still pain

-"I can ignore it" is still pain

-"I can cope with/manage it" is still pain

-"it's bearable" is still pain

-"I can push through it" is still pain

-"it doesn't hurt that much" is still pain

-"it doesn't stop me from doing x" is still pain

You don't need to be in agonizing pain to be in pain.

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Me when my stomach decides to spontaneously stop digesting:

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“Pain is always new to the sufferer, but loses its originality for those around him… Everyone will get used to it except me” - The Invisible Kingdom by Meghan O’Rourke

Being sick is my everything everyday. There is no moment escape, no break. It dictates every minute of my life. But everyone around me is done talking about it, thinking about it. I don’t blame them. It’s been years

I can’t expect them to sit with me in this forever. They have lives to live, and I would give anything to not be stuck here myself

But god I feel so alone in it

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One of my biggest tips for people with chronic illness…get yourself a nurse practitioner.

I told my nurse practitioner what happened at the ER and she immediately got ahold of her hospitals Cardiology department and bumped my appointment up three weeks so I could get in tomorrow.

I hear all the time from both doctors and patients that some how nurse practitioners are able to hang on to their compassion & empathy and believe me when I say that’s exactly the type of person you need fighting for you in the medical community.

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Shout out to disabled people who are, ya know, existing with symptoms - whatever they may be. Who are exhausted/fatigued some (or all) days. Who are in pain. Who live in a world that doesn’t understand them, a world that isn’t built for them.

I hope you have the time to cuddle your favorite stuffed animal. I hope you watch an amazing episode of your favorite show. I hope you meet a doctor that smiles and sees you and works with you. Much love to you all.

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A spy, an assassin, and a telepath

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This fucked me up

<3 Cats have 7 lives, right? <3 Well, Katsuki has only 6 left now.

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poor boy just needs a hug

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Broke: The Angry One is soft for the Sunshine One.

Woke: The Sunshine One is feral for the Angry One

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"Hot girls have stomach problems," I whisper to myself again as I wince and turn up my heating pad