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DO NOT FOLLOW THIS ACCOUNT ITS SHADOWBANNED

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I got shadowbanned again 😤😤😤 I’m not even doing anything wrong to get banned what the actual hell

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SHE LOVES ME, HE LOVES ME NOT … part one

pairing : yunho x idol!f!reader (background poly ateez)

genre : angst, hurt / no comfort, idol au

warnings : insecurities used in an argument, yunho is a big jerk in this, language, y/n blames herself, brief mentions of a car accident

word count : 1.2k

tag list : @tannie13 @icyb3rry @cookiechristie @atinytinaa @jcngh0-hq @kurosism

an argument breaks out between you and yunho which results in yunho saying somethings he shouldn’t have. now you begin to question your place in the relationship.

YOU DON’T EVEN REMEMBER how the argument started.

all you remember is yunho and the others coming home from promotions and you greeting them. you could tell that they were tired and so you tried your best to help them relax.

you had made dinner for the nine of you, something which was rare in itself as you all knew how much you couldn’t cook, but you were determined to make them the meal wooyoung had showed you a few months ago. you had been practicing your skills for this exact moment.

wooyoung had come up behind you to observe your cooking. his head resting on your shoulder as his arms wrapped around your waist.

“i know it won’t as good as yours,” you begin to say as you both watch the food cook, “but i’ve been practicing cooking it ever since you showed me how to make it,” you finish as you give your energetic boyfriend a side glance.

wooyoung smiles at you as he takes to spoon from the side of the counter and gets a small taste of the food.

“it taste great,” he says with a smile before kissing your cheek. wooyoung leaves to go rest on the couch with some of the others.

you can only assume that wooyoung just threw himself on top of hongjoong thanks to loud grunt the leader let out along with curse which is followed by wooyoung’s laugh.

when the food was done, seonghwa was quick to help you set the table as the others came and sat down.

you took your place in your usual spot between san and yunho. you noted how your taller boyfriend looked exhausted, the circles under his eyes doing nothing to hide his tired expression.

you placed your hand on top of yunho’s causing the male to look over at you. “how was your day?” you asked once the others began eating and chatting away.

“fine,” he muttered as he moved his hand away from yours. he didn’t make attempt to expand upon it or to look at you.

he’s just tired, you think as you push the odd feeling bubbling in your chest down in order to eat.

“wow! y/n, this is good! you’ve really gotten better at cooking,” mingi says making you and the others smile and laugh at his words.

“thanks, i’ve been practicing while you all were on tour! eunji-unnie has been a great taste tester.”

after dinner, san and jongho clean up and you try to help, but they are quick to send you off.

you make your way over to yunho who is sitting on the couch, watching as wooyoung and seonghwa bicker over what show to watch. you sit next to him, your head immediately resting on his shoulder like you always do.

however, before you can get comfortable, yunho is quick to shrug you off of him. you’re about to ask him what’s wrong, but don’t get the chance as he quickly stands up and leaves the living room. you all flinch as he slams his and san’s bedroom door closed, making all of you go quiet.

the odd feeling from dinner makes a reappearance as you make eye contact with mingi who takes in your shocked face.

“he’s just tired. you know how he gets sometimes when he gets overwhelmed. i’m sure he’ll be fine tomorrow.”

HE WAS NOT FINE as the next day rolled in as you all got up to get ready for the day. you give each boy their usual greetings which consist of you telling them good morning and a quick kiss to some part of their face.

however, yunho acted like your touch would burn him as he quickly moved away from you. you were honestly starting to feel annoyed by his sudden attitude change. you needed to figure out what wrong before you had to leave for practice.

“yunho what is going on with you? you’ve been acting like i have the plague or something since last night,” you say as you call him out before he can hide away in his room until you leave.

“nothings wrong, you’re just being dramatic,” he says with a huff as he runs his fingers through his hair.

“then why are acting like it’s a hassle to talk to me?”

“because maybe it is a hassle to talk to you!” he suddenly shouts catching you and the others off guard, “have you thought about the fact that maybe i don’t want you clinging to me all the time? have you thought about that maybe i’m just done!”

you stomach twisted as his words, like you were going to throw up, “done with what?” your voice is small as you ask him.

“done with you,” he says looking you dead in the eyes and you know from the look on his face that’s he’s serious. “i’m tired of you being so insecure about yourself and me having to try and make all those worries go away. if i had known that i would have to do that when i asked you out then—

“yunho stop talking,” hongjoong says from his spot behind you. he knew what yunho was about to say and the leader knew that yunho would come to regret it later. “you’re just tired of promotions, that doesn’t give you any reason to take it out on y/n when she’s done nothing wrong.”

“you’re one to talk hyung,” yunho spat with a frown, “last time i checked you’re the one who almost ruined our whole relationship because of some bitchy sasaeng producer. and who did you have that fight with, huh?”

you knew what he was getting at. if you weren’t in the relationship, if he didn’t ask you out when you were trainees then none of this would have happened. if you have just left yunho alone then maybe you wouldn’t be having this argument at six o’clock in the morning.

if you hadn’t accused hongjoong of cheating back then, then maybe he wouldn’t have said those harsh words and you wouldn’t have ran out. if you hadn’t of ran out then maybe you could have avoided getting hit by that car. if you hadn’t gotten hit then maybe you could have actual did some promotions and not caused the relationship to almost fall apart.

maybe it would be best if you—

“yunho, let’s break up.”

“what?” yunho seems taken back by your words.

“you obviously aren’t happy being with me anymore, so let’s break up,” you repeat as you look up to meet his eyes.

“now hold on a second,” seonghwa tries to jump in but yunho speaks before him.

“okay, let’s break up.”

“yunho!” everyone looks between the two of you as you nod your head at him.

“wait a minute you guys—

hongjoong tries to speak up, but is interrupted by the sound of the front door opening. you all look towards the door to see your manager standing in the entrance way.

“what did i walk into?” she asks, but no one says anything as you quickly grab your bag and rush over to her and out the door without a word. your manager looks confused as she looks at the boys before quickly following after you.

the two of you say nothing on the elevator ride down and it isn’t until your in the van that you final break down. tears running down your face as you sob loudly at everything that just happened.

“hey, what happened up there?”

“me and yunho broke up!”

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Mirror Palais Collection IV

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the witch and her loyal shadow

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for exile her, has there been moments where you wanted to step away from the spotlight?

“oh yeah, definitely, haha! i really thought about it when me and the boys did that reality show. I thought about it the whole time we were filming. how what it would be like if we could take just a regular vacation without anyone filming us or recognizing us if we go in public.”

“i want to one day go on a trip with the boys where we can just be ourselves, but i know it can’t happen any time soon especially with how popular the boys have been recently. maybe someday!”

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EXILE HER IS LIVE — send her any questions to either here or @atzher and she’ll answer them!!

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I wanna ask if there have been any close calls where exile her almost wanted to break up with like one or all of ateez 🤔

“umm… there have been a few times. the first time i thought about breaking up with them was when me and hongjoong got in our big fight. i remember crying myself to sleep a few times because i thought he didn’t love me anymore. i did end up taking a three month break from them and our relationship and it definitely made me rethink about everything.”

“me and wooyoung have also gotten into petty arguments that turned heated and it has made me consider breaking up with him. but i think we love each other too much to actually go through with actually breaking up.”

“then the most thought was with yunho. we’ve been together since like 2018, a whole year before i started dating the others. he knows all my secrets and insecurities. i just never thought he would use them against me and it makes me wonder if he still wants to be with me but, i’m sure me and him will make up eventually…”

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YENA / Smartphone Outfits

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xu yiyang for xinwei magazine

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xu yiyang by xin rui for purplepearl makeup by wang yi, styling by susan chen

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hii could i request a ateez reaction when y/n has baby fever 😊 thank you and love your work 🫶🏻

[ PROMPT ] —— after watching seonghwa play with a staff members daughter, you can’t help but think how good a father he will be.

pairing : seonghwa x idol!f!reader (background poly ateez) genre : tooth rotting fluff warnings : none but talks of the future

you watched seonghwa play with the young girl. both of them smiling widely at each other and laughing as seonghwa picked her up and held her over his head.

you couldn’t help the smile on your face as you watched seonghwa. he was always so gently and had that parental nature about him. you knew he wanted to one day being a father, and you knew he would make a great one one day.

you only decide to make your way over to your eldest boyfriend when the staff member had come to take her daughter.

seonghwa waved happily to the girl as she left before he allowed his eyes to trail up to meet yours.

seonghwa opened his arms as you got closer, a smile on his face as you walk into his arms. he placed a kiss on top of your head as you hugged him back.

“you know…” you begin trailing off a little catching seonghwa’s attention. “you would make a great dad some day.”

“oh? where did this come from?” he asks with a smile.

“watching you with that little girl just had me thinking is all. i know you want kids one day and i know you would do a great job at caring for them.”

“maybe after i retire, i’ll become a stay-at-home dad,” he says with a smile which makes you think about him staying at home taking care of the kids and waiting for you or one of the others to come home.

“i like the thought of that,” you say as you feel a heat rush to your cheeks the more you think about seonghwa as a father.

“would you want a boy or girl?” he then asks suddenly.

“a girl,” you answer without hesitation, “she would be spoiled and such a daddy’s girl.”

“like you?” seonghwa teases making you playfully smack his shoulder as he laughs.

“can we have a baby?” you ask as you look seonghwa in the eyes.

“of course we can,” he answers with a smile. “the nine of us can move somewhere quiet and cozy. there will be a big yard for all of us, enough rooms so we can all have time to ourselves if needed, and hongjoong will even have his own at home studio. then we can all decorate the baby’s room. wooyoung and mingi would argue over the colors before we end up using both, it’ll be perfect.”

“you’ve really thought about it huh?” you say with a smile. you’re glad he has though, it makes you happy knowing he’s thought about your future. “would you still be okay if the baby wasn’t yours?”

“of course, it wouldn’t matter who’s the father cause at the end of the day we’ll all be there to raise the child and love them.”

you feel tears begin to form at his words and you are quick to hide your face in his chest. seonghwa let’s out a hearty laugh as he hugs you close and kisses the crown of your head.

“i can’t wait to grow old with you and the others,” you whisper, “i love you, future stay-at-home dad.”

“i love you, too, my precious y/n.”

tag list : @tannie13 @icyb3rry @cookiechristie @atinytinaa @jcngh0-hq

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espresso // momo

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Castillo Soneira, Montevideo, Uruguay, photo by fedelectro

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