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HSHQTASK059: FAREWELL !

i know i already yapped in the admin post but let me continue <3

1: when did you join ? what made you join ? what do you remember from the plotlines that were current at the time ? where were you in life when you joined and where are you now ?

i joined in 2015 as a high school freshman, jfc ! i don't think there was anything major going on, the rp was very much a rich kids rp so the drama was chill and petty; entertaining but not that deep. one thing that made me join ( aside from my obsession with royals ) was the fact that phoebe tonkin - THE most popular fc at the time - was up for grabs. i thought it was meant to be !

2: which characters have you written over the years ?

errrmmm... merjem/kalla, olivier, livia, florencio, alexander, anneli, lixun, nicole, maryam, blazej, definitely some other characters whose names and existence i cannot remember

3: what is your favourite plotline that you've been part of ?

i think this is just nostalgia but i think olivier-viggo-armani-lykke-anton-etc era was my fave. artistically it's very hollow but i think the lightness of it all makes it my favourite. i also sort of view it as a testament of my own naivety and youth. i'm not saying i'm old now but i'm not 17 without a single worry. back then ( because i wasn't busy and i could sat in front of my computer for hours ) the plots moved quickly and the threads were really fun to follow. there weren't that many characters so everyone was, in a way, forced to write with each other so the plotlines were very interactive. i appreciate the organic way things evolved. ( i do have a soft spot for annexei but i think it's mainly bc i admire alexei's characterization so much and elisa's ability to depict depression )

4: what about other people's plotlines ?

i was insanely invested in the zulu conflict of 2020. it had so many moving parts and i think if it had only gotten a chance to evolve even further, it would have been on a whole new level <3

5: who is your favourite character from the ones you've played ? why ? what made you love them ? what made them so fun to write ?

i think nicole or olivier. nicole's plotline was so well defined that it was fun to write her. i loved her relationships and it was interesting to write someone older. i think she's a character i could write a book about but she wasn't the best for an rp setting ? getting a chance to be involved in the english drama was wonderful ! olivier on the other hand... i think he's just a fave because he lets me connect to the old days ? when rp was a top priority and everything was exciting and fun. i don't want this to sound like it isn't that anymore but times were different back then and i don't think it ever felt the same after maybe high school graduation ?

6: if you could relive a plotline, which would it be ?

i think the finale of the english plotline maybe ? or the insanity of the lawn chair thing. possibly the rise of olykke too <3 but honestly i would like to experience all of it again, as cliche as it sounds. i will very think of the nights i stayed up until 4 or 5 am just to write/read the dash. waiting for a reply was such an addictive feeling and idk where i'll find my replacement for it. it really breaks my heart and makes me feel very old to realize that i don't know if i'll experience the excitement again. those sleep-deprived nights were some of my best. i've said "it's just rp" a million times but honestly, rping itself is such an experience and i'm glad i've gotten to get the best version of it.

7: is there a plotline that you'd edit now if you could ?

i think i'd improve the kalla era's germany. i didn't do much with it.

8: what's a plotline you wish you would have been able to finish before closing or just write more of ?

i would have loved to finish aurel x araya story, i mean i can probably still accomplish that but nbskdgbjs there were big plans for the slovakians and it's a shame we never got to write it out on the dash. i think i would have enjoyed writing the inner struggle of blazej. he had a lot of potential but alas, it could not be !

9: what is your favourite ooc memory ?

i have two that stick out but my trip with serre ? we were on my sister's couch writing the stupid lawn chair saga and i think it was the first time in a long time that i had that much fun writing ! the second one would be me visiting evy because it was a surreal experience and i have to admit i was so socially awkward that evy's family probably thinks i'm weird nfgbkdsgbj i just think it's amazing that those two meetings could happen ? prior to hshq, i hadn't really believed in online friendships, everyone felt just too remote ! a special mention goes to this crackthread thing we wrote: link just a random memory though: i remember when we did those feedback surveys. we sorta forgot them but they were so important at that one point. other funny thing is our old adminooc blog. snapchat replaced it and then some years later discord replaced snapchat. we should bring the admin snapchat back btw @armanicatherina & @barbiebraganca

10: where can others find you if they want to get in touch ?

i'll be on discord !!! you can find me on the hshq server ( which we aren't deleting if i can have a say ;) )

11: what else would you like to say ?

i said a lot in the admin post but i actually had to "keep it short" so here i will say so many things that you wish i had edited this. for me rping has been an amazing way to connect with other people, learn about people through writing and to experience emotions that i wouldn't otherwise. some of the words i've read here have managed to capture thoughts that i hadn't been able to put into words and it's been amazing to see how differently people think but also how alike some feelings among different people are. i often try to wrap my head around the fact that this group's been going for eight amazing years. i've gone through a lot in those eight years and the existence of this group has brought me a lot of joy. i am sad to let go of it and i guess i'm in a bit of denial because i keep thinking that 1x1 rping exists and y'know... even if a group doesn't exist, threads can still happen. when i think about hshq and the plotlines i've read and written, one thing really sticks out to me and it's the way we shifted from a p basic rich kids rp into something intricate and sophisticated ( yes, we had a drug related nye event and we've had a fair share of petty fights ). the range of emotions people have been able to write and the psychological work they've done to write a convincing and very realistic humans is something everyone can be proud of. i don't know if i look like a sadist but i was most impressed by the depictions of sadness, guilt and self-loathing. in my opinion it's not easy to write a piece of sad prose without it being a bit melodramatic. aside from hshq's longevity, the most amazing thing has to be everyone's willingness to get involved. the plot drops that i wrote wouldn't have happened without your input and when it got too tough for me to write them myself, y'all stepped up and continued the plotdrops with your newsposts. as an admin, it's been so so so so so awesome that we've been able to put some responsibilities on the members and have you guys perform better than well. i think we did something unique here and i'm so proud of us as a group!!!! i wish i could flex about this irl because hshq's history and way of working is something extraordinary. i really wish i could properly put my love for hshq into words. i don't know how to express its meaning and influence in my life. i feel like it has helped me to improve my writing but more importantly it has taught me a thing of two about empathy <3 i really hope we'll stay in touch and if anyone comes to europe, or more spesifically finland, don't be afraid to message me bc i'd love to meet up !

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" huh ? " he frowned softly. why did his mother have to be so pushy ? it was pushy to call her. it was pushy and oh-so-transparent considering the little hints and comments she kept slipping into conversations. " nah, you should come. i'm gonna be there a while anyways, it'd be nice to have you there. if i can pretend not to be in a long distance relationship, i will. like happily. " he could leave it at that. he could act oblivious and pretend there wasn't a more pressing question hanging in the background. he could ! he could but he had made a promise to wiebke wittelsbach not to run from responsibilities. " have you thought about... well, the future, i guess. what's gonna happen now that we're not part of the program anymore ? "

aug 2024

" so... your mom called me this morning and she invited me to germany after our trip which is soon and i didn't want to like... not tell you. just want to know your thoughts about that and if you'd rather me — y'know, not go. " ( @aurcls )

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NYE 2023 !

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aurel had to pause for a moment when the princess of china joined the conversation. was this one of the ones gahye liked or not ? this was... " yeah, it will be fun ! " if she was up for a pub crawl, she couldn't be a bad one. " i thought the sad girl was tame. do you have a secret personality no one but alex knows about ? " the question was directed at marisol but aurel kept his attention on her barely longer than two seconds. " how many places do we want to check out ? if it's a lot, we need to be efficient and that means shots. "

" a pub crawl? " she interjects. she's only ever seen it in american media. how exciting! if she hadn't already had two drinks, she would have rejected the idea, but the buzz made it feel totally worth it to join. " how fun! " ( @alexcnder or anyone else )

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" that's what i'm afraid of ! how is it possible not to know ? is the problem me or her ? " aurel groaned loudly and buried his face in his hands. " i rather be a king and single than a king and single and left at the altar or whatever. when i propose i want to be sure. so what the fuck do i do ? am i gonna wake up some day and realize that it´s time or am i just gonna feel lukewarm for forever ? " the whining got louder. " are you insane ? " he nearly shouted at her. " if i bring this up with her, all she's gonna hear is 'i don't love you enough to marry you, sorry love'. "

❝ WAY TOO LONG to be with someone without knowing if that's gonna go anywhere. just wasting everyone's time at this point. ❞ she nodded. ❝ while i agree that the mental image is almost absurd, i also kind of accepted that we're now at the age where that's normal. you wouldn't want to be like arnauld: king and single at fifty. ❞ what a shameful fate for an actually good-looking man. ❝ i don't know, i'd say they grow into it. but i also think you should have this conversation with araya, because there's a chance she's in the same headspace as you. ❞

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aurel looked between the two people in front of him. he lifted a brow. " i need at least ten people between me and whatever's going on here... " aurel informed them, his open palm vaguely gesturing towards the pair. " a pub crawl. starting here and now. " ( &. @alexcnder or anyone who wants to join the thread ! )

          “ at least half a dozen people, if not more. ” and with a glance to the person nearest, likely unaware, his reach extends to their arm, fingers coiling around. “ starting with you. ” a gentle tug pulls them into the growing inner circle of what only promises to be alcohol fueled bad decisions if they are lucky.　...　　( begging for hijacking )

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" five years is a long time... " and he and araya were half-way there. what did that say about him ? " too serious would be proposing, yes. try imaging me getting on one knee ! it seems absurd, jesus. " he huffed. " two years, yeah. it's bad, isn't it ? that i don't know for sure ? do people just know or do they grow into the feeling ? "

❝ LET ME SEE; when you hit the five-year mark, when she starts hinting that she wants more and when you start wondering if it should be more serious. ❞ not that she knew, silje never really got close to any of the three options herself. ❝ would the too serious be an engagement ? because then i'll say move in together. at least with the programme it won't feel as serious, not as it would if you'd asked her to move to berlin for you. ❞ she was surprised they hadn't yet. ❝ at this stage ? yes. yes, you should. how long has it been like two years ? ❞

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" at what point does it get awkward to be just dating ? like how can i make things between me and araya more serious without making things too serious ? is it bad that i'm still just seeing how things will go ? should i know if i want to settle down or not ? " ( &. @svljc / @siljcs )

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" i saw about fifteen bars on one street — should we do a pub crawl tonight ? we could probably round up enough people for it to be fun. "

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Charles Melton

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hello 👉👈 i'm going to try my best to be more active and consistent. if anyone is down for plotting and figuring something out for the future or something lmk <3 especially if u have some sorta plotline that needs more characters and i could help <3

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“ well... ” he felt incredibly ill-prepared for the conversation. the only upside from having spent a generous amount of time around wiebke was that she was no longer that intimidating. “ it’s just that if he has to choose between berlin, basel and saarland... berlin is number one and saarland number two but since kaspar isn’t lifting a finger to protect saarland... you know i think it wouldn’t be too bad an idea to maybe... like just maybe, y’know in these circumstances... maybe reconsider the whole basel thing ? ” 

“So he refuses to spare men? Even though we are losing land every passing day in Saarland?” Wiebke spoke slowly but firmly — just in case Aurel struggled to keep up. “Does his majesty understand that there will be no Saarland at this rate?” [ @aurcls​ ]

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“ wanna know a secret ? ” aurel attempted to whisper but his hoarse voice was still very loud. the chuckle that followed the question even louder. “ i’m pretty sure i’m drunk now. ” ( &. @arayamahidol​ )

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“ so this one’s supposed to have notes of... oak. do you get oaky vibes ? i don’t know. it tastes like red wine to me. ” ( &. @hshqstarters​ )

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aurel came wearing valentino pink <3

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“ i haven’t exactly chatted her up in a while. i’ve been preoccupied. ” for how long was it acceptable to dwell on what had happened ? when would it be time to act as if nothing had happened ? it must have already passed since wittelsbach had dived into work again. aurel was late and behind — and never before had it felt this bad. he could so clearly see where he fell short. “ dad hasn’t changed his mind. he wants germany to remain united even if it means supporting you for now. but i think... okay so– this isn’t based on anything he has said or anything but... you know if things keep going like this, you will have ruined germany’s reputation. especially if it spreads past basel and alsace. he does not want to end up like france. ”

The sunlight didn’t feel quite the same when it came through the glass of the window. Her toes were in a perfectly straight line facing the patio on the other side of the glass. Maybe eventually she’d want fresh air enough to step outside — that was for later though. Now she had made the crown prince move for her. “Kaspar is in Rhine.” Overseeing his own duchy, much like she should have been doing. Her fingers clasped tighter around her wrist. “Do you know what Karolina’s feelings are at the moment?” Wiebke hadn’t been able to keep her bases covered in June. She did not want to be slapped in the face with bad news regarding the strength in Basel. “Is your father still backing us?” [ @aurcls​ ]

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aribraganca​:

“watch it…” her little frown was only a touch disapproving, although her face paled at the mere thought. “crazy people fall through the cracks! the programme fucking up and literally driving us into pax aeterna is even worse… have you checked all of your guards?” 

“ i’m just saying... ” he shrugged. he wasn’t just saying but he had been curious to see ariel’s reaction. if there was something rotten, the details had not reached ari. “ yeah, a quarter of them are dead. ”