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Over the years, James had convinced himself that he would never come out. He didn’t want the attention, or to have to field questions he couldn’t answer. His sexuality didn’t make sense to him—how could he possibly explain it to other people? “On TV I was seeing all these traditional families,” he tells me. “At the same time, I was watching a ton of gay porn, where everyone was super ripped and single and having sex all the time. So I thought those were my two options: this fairy-tale life I could never have, or this gay life where there was no romance.”

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Just over 3 weeks until match day!

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Donald J. Trump makes history as first presidential candidate to hire disgruntled grandmother as social media coordinator.

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I’ve cried so many times today. I keep watching this video, knowing that this could have been my mom. 

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This is my friend Drew, on the right in the top pic and in the yellow pants in the bottom (back in my ~days as a twink~ 7 years ago). His boyfriend Juan is the other guy in the top pic, I’m just hearing that Juan died in surgery.

Drew’s still missing. I hope he’s okay but it’s hard to be optimistic now. I can’t lie and say we were close, we just hung out a couple times in our group of friends and have been Facebook friends since. I’ve lost touch with most Orlando friends from college. if he’s indeed gone I wish I had gotten to know him more than I did - he was super smart and kind and so comfortable in his own skin. He had so many friends. There’s probably a thousand people thinking of him now.

Most people probably won’t remember him. I don’t really remember the names and faces of other shooting victims, but the names and faces of the shooters are seared into my memory. It’ll probably be the same thing here for most people.

But I’ll always remember Drew. I hope he’s okay. Keep him in your thoughts please.

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I don’t know. Fly casual.

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She is perfect.

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There was a time when I was preoccupied by the the ebb and flow of human life. I was so entangled in the philosophical underpinnings of the world around me that I lost sight of my purpose. But now, fuck it, I’ll just be the best I can,even if I can’t understand it all.

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Know your double, a doppelgänger field guide - John Martz

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clicks send on a text halfway through accidentally

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Once, I thought I was too enlightened to be concerned with vanity.

Now, I crave his attention --- I live for the moments he looks at me with desire.

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Every day of the third year of medical school.

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Masculinity is so fragile