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taylorswift please i need your advice, actually i need anyones advice. i got into a fight with one of my "friends" and during it she told me that my friend group doesn't really care about me. she says it looks like a group of really close people... with me following behind them trying to be included. i've tried to forget her words or convince myself she was lying but i keep thinking what if it's true?

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im sorry

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taylorswift its 12:30am and im in my room crying my eyes out because i didn't get invited to another party and there's pics of all my friends there and i dont know what to do anymore why don't people want me what's wrong with me

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go follow my new blog please!!!

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for 2015 i want:

- emotional/mental stability - to appear confident, badass and sassy even when i’m not - clear skin - lots of money - to be kissed 1537828 times everywhere

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clean // taylor swift

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why i wasnt i enough for him. why am i never enough for anyone

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okay so this is going to be long and i can't put it under a read more because of mobile so sorry about that. ok so i dont think anyone will read this but i will pretend ppl will and so i'll explain from the beginning. earlier this year i realized i kind of liked one of my guys friends. i've known him since grade 8 and we're in grade 12 now. around grade 10 he had a crush on me and i turned him down. so when i realized i liked him i thought i'd missed my chance. that there was no way he'd ever like me back. but then something amazing happened. we were hanging out one day, waiting till my friend was working to go visit her at her families yogurt shop. we were at starbucks and still had two hours to kill and we decided to go to his house and watch a movie. we ended up cuddling on the couch. i was so happy, happier i'd been in a long time. that lasted about a week. i thought he really liked me and wanted to be with me. i was completely wrong. the next week we hung out again, watching a movie. this time he tried to go further than cuddling. he felt my breasts, tried to put his hands down my pants, etc. i told him no. i said if he wanted to get in my pants he'd have to date me. he told me he didn't want to date anyone right now. i was embarrassed but we parted on pretty good terms. two weeks later i found he tried to do the same to my best friend. which made me feel awful. but that wasn't even the worse. soon at after our winter formal he started dating this girl. who is a lovely girl and i'm friends with her but i feel so awful. he never said anything to me about it. never explained. apparently it wasn't that he didn't want to date anyone, he just didn't want to date me. why wasn't i good enough for him? why didn't he want me? i thought we were friends but apparently i'm just something to use for sex and something thats feelings don't matter. i can myself starting to destroy myself again. i keep comparing myself to her. she's prettier, smarter, and skinnier. skinnier. my mind keeps relapsing to thinking maybe if i was skinny he'd like me. maybe more boys would like me. i'm trying to stop myself but i feel like i'm being torn apart. i'm going to give in soon. i can't keep fighting forever. i don't know what to do. i don't know how to be okay again. i'm scared i'm going to destroy myself again right after i just finished putting myself back together

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hi all. sorry for disappearing again. my laptop is being taken in to get fixed so i'm only able to mobile blog right now. also i'm going to post some really emotional/personal things because this is my only tumblr where no one in real life follows me. so sorry about that

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raise your hand if you’re the person that everyone looks at when a Taylor Swift song comes on in public

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back up 

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Taylor’s performance of Blank Space on The Voice

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23 DEEP ASS Questions.

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

11. Does love = sex?

12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?

13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?

17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?

18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?

19.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?

20. Are you old fashioned?

21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?

22.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?

23.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

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I just got this reminder on my phone and I think it applies to everyone :)

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Taylor is my best friend. I drive down the street listening to her music and it doesn’t even feel like she’s the biggest pop star around. She’s just my super cool friend who just so happens to be the most talented person, like ever.