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is it.. wrong to miss atlas? just a little bit?

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i still draw from time to time

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today is rapture's founding day.

am i allowed to celebrate that? is that a weird thing to celebrate?

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why am i awake

i am overthinking, i am paranoid, i am ... exhausted.

i need a smoke.

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mr. ryan, if you're out there, i wish i could say i hate you.

you died with the intent that i'd despise you and everything you ever stood for. and i do, but.

you really did try to tell me. i'm sorry i wasn't listening.

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you know what i do miss about rapture? the little cream cakes

the packaging was always super loud to open and by the time i got to them they were tasteless but it sucked in the good way, you know? maybe it was just the fact that it was flavour in a city of cold coffee and plain potato chips but i crave em some days ... can't really replicate them either :[

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i think. i need to be kinder.

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i thought i was over it

i really did

but i guess it's a testament to ingenuity how well they're able to sneak it into basic speech

it doesn't matter. we're improving, i'm improving, and i'll stop jumping to respond sooner or later

preferably sooner

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all those stories about being yourself and coming into your own don't resonate

people expect me to be so happy that i'm myself, that i'm free now, but. sometimes it's awful

sometimes i miss the absolutes. knowing exactly what i had to do, when, and why. it was easy, even though it was horrible. now i'm just. a doormat, i guess. passive. now i'm constantly lost in my own head

you can't be yourself if you don't know who you are

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i wonder, sometimes

if brigid looks at me and knows

she's always been able to read me. if she does, she hasn't mentioned it. and i could speculate as to why, but. better not to look a gift horse in the mouth

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it is time for your regularly scheduled despite-logic-and-reason-miss-the-place-that-hurt-you hours, episode six of two hundred thousand

i mean, where else do you get to see a blue whale so close

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Hey heh, just gonna uh, say sorry. -(a kinnie who’s afraid to reveal who they kin and why they strongly need to apologise for their kin memories)

you don't have to be afraid of me. but if you're really sorry, prove it.

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i think? i think today was good

not too shabby for a birthday

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it's my birthday

or, you know. the closest thing to a birthday i've got

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what counts as love

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i think i figured out how to get the inbox open so! you guys can ask things now!

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raspberries or strawberries or peaches

i cant remember which one it was

why does that bother me