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hidden inventory

when else have we felt both the most alive and almost dead? and what else lingers on your mind like it happened just yesterday, but also like it never happened at all? and where else will you find that passion, those moments that still feel infinite? and what is more painful than your teenage years?

*spoilers for the entire manga*

the hidden inventory arc is there to express exactly that: “two best friends, and the tie they lost forever.” to say that the dynamic between satoru and suguru isn't the central point of jujutsu kaisen is like saying the whole point of the manga is the fights. their connection, their relationship, whatever it could have been (definitely more than platonic in my perspective), their haunting storyline is the foundation of gege's jjk.

two teenage boys, 15–16 years old, both excited in their own way to come to the academy: satoru leaving the clan behind, dying to escape from his family; suguru moving into the dorms earlier than everyone, talking to his mom on the phone about his dreams. what they didn’t know was that, soon, they would become both the most important and the most devastating thing to happen to each other.

the new scenes and photos and sketches of their teen years literally broke my heart. they were so excited, drunk on their friendship, on their youth. satoru finally felt like a normal kid, finding everything suguru did to be cool, being silly together with shoko, taking as many photos as they could, always hanging out as if they were attached at the hip. they were kids together. the strongest one had once been just a kid who thought he would always have his best friend by his side. if only they had known...

i remember, before reading the manga and before the hidden inventory arc was animated, how confused and skeptical i was about all the people who claimed you wouldn’t be the same after satosugu. i really thought there was no possible way something could be that impactful. but god, wasn’t i wrong?

it’s been 3 years and they’ve never left my mind. and even if they do for a moment, they always come back stronger, with more heart-wrecking realizations.

satoru and suguru are literally all that. once the best of friends, then separated for 10 years, still thinking about and talking about one another. forced to “kill” each other, dying on the same day, one year apart. suguru wearing his gojo-kesa while trying to create a world where satoru wouldn’t have to be the strongest. satoru dreaming about the hidden inventory arc, waking up with teary eyes. kenjaku knowing the only thing that could stop satoru, even for a split second, was his best friend. satoru slightly smiling when kenjaku appeared in geto's body, maybe with a little bit of hope that his best friend was back, replaying fond memories of their younger years. suguru's body resisting kenjaku, trying to defend satoru because it was like "muscle memory" to him, even dead. satoru first doing after being released from the seal being to give suguru's body a proper burial, even if the world was in the middle of a cataclysm.

and lastly, satoru’s final thoughts were of suguru, in his monk attire, accepting his perspective, saying how unsatisfied he was: “if you were among those patting my back... then i might have been satisfied.”

i think i’ll end it here, but i could talk about the two of them for hours. one last thing i want to mention again is how sweet but also so deeply sad their high school photos were. as much as i like to bash on gege, he really did a great job writing about teenage years: how a few years can be so detrimental throughout your whole life, and how those moments linger on your mind forever

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nanami mhm mhm yeah yes mhm mhm

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forests, forest paths, forests roads

autumn, rain, fog, cold

heartache, queer love, sins, her

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then and now 🏐

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Guys I’m unwell. Hinata shaking on his tip toes, THE FACT THAT EVERY OLYMPICS WHEN THEY PLAY TOGETHER THEY CHOOSE THE 9/10 JERSEY NUMBERS!! Goodnight happy olympics

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that's exactly why I wanted to share my part of the experience because I was absolutely sure that there are lots of us who were positively impacted by it! I'm so glad that there were something for you in those years to help and guide you through your journey and I hope and wish that your life will be beautiful 🫶 and btw I remember writing in my notes that I got to experience teenage-hood and highschool through animes like this, since covid took 2 years out of it

it's not something strange or unique to say that after the last haikyuu movie, most of us got into it again, but at the same time, I know for sure that I'm not the only one who benefits the most from this re...union.

I went to see the haikyuu movie alone, and at first, it didn't hit me that much. maybe it was because I couldn't help but wonder how much I would have enjoyed it with my best friend, but we are grown-ups now and long distance.

after a couple of days, the internet was full of haikyuu content again, just like during lockdown, and because of that, I also got into it again and realized how much of a masterpiece it is.

haikyuu is well known, but in my opinion, it is underestimated and categorized by others as just a silly volleyball-sport anime. it saddens me so much that there are so many people who will never get to embrace this piece of art.

Furudate not only created a coming-of-age story, a story that inspired and still inspires generations to fight for their dreams, to engage in the complex mess of relationships, teamwork, and partnerships. haikyuu teaches you that if you really do have a dream, and if you are really ambitious, if you work hard for it, your time will come too. but it also teaches you that not choosing to be great is not a tragedy; your dreams of what a good life means can be different from the ideals of others: "life is unfair, but damn it, at the same time, it is really fair too."

so why did I go on writing about this? because I can't comprehend how haikyuu manages to be there for me at the best time—or the worst, better said—how it really took its "comfort anime" title seriously for me. I started haikyuu in my last year of high school: extremely stressed, depressed, and anxious, so scared of what the upcoming end would mean for me that I'd tricked myself into living by coming to the conclusion that I'd simply not make it to 18 if I didn't see a future for myself. it seemed only fair and the universe would do its thing, no? I know, kinda depressing and triggering, but it did help that miserable me then, it did help but not in the way I prayed it would. the universe didn't send me "death," it sent me life and hope through haikyuu. feeling so empty, so bland for such a long time, haikyuu managed to make me laugh and cry. it doesn't sound like much, but real ones know what I'm talking about. seeing their connection, their ambition, the troubles and feelings I was so desperate to put into words right in front of me saved me from my misery. I began to wish to live, to wish to be like them, to wish to fight, to wish to connect again with people.

now, after almost 4 years, I'm in my last year of uni. the main reason for my depression back then in high school was because I didn't know what to do with my life, what uni and career to choose. hell, I didn't know I would take this path until last autumn, but here I am, on my way to becoming a teacher. it's hard, really hard, but right now, after the new movie, I finally committed to start and finish the manga even though I knew bits and pieces of what happens. it was the best time to read it now. over these 3-4 years, I pondered why I couldn't start getting into the manga and see for myself what happens, but damn it was the best time to read it now. seeing them go all out on their path, learning that in order to succeed you need to fight and fight and fight, to push through, to overcome your limits, to push yourself, to not take it easy if you really want it, came at the best time as I got into a slump and a burnout from learning too much but also not learning enough. I've got to see all of the characters continuing to be pros while fighting for their way, but also choosing to let go of something they once loved in order to live a normal life.

haikyuu is like a reminder that there is more to life than just your high school/childhood years, that your path could take a 180-degree turn at any point, but at the same time, it makes you appreciate those times and not want to sweep your childlike wonder, your growth, and mistakes under a rug. Furudate was a genius for creating haikyuu, and I really hope and pray that haikyuu will continue to be there, to comfort and save future generations until the end of time.

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Huge fan of how in Haikyuu every setter is absolutely off the walls insane w it and suga is Just a setter. No stressful mind games he’s just playing volleyball. Which trips up every OTHER setter so bad that he changes the entire game every time. I love suga

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quick noya-san manga redraw to test out stuff

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panel redrawing

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Silkworm

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as if you’re holding the world in your hands

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Shoko Ieiri

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I got to see the haikyuu movie in theaters and it sent me spiraling so I decided to redraw old art from 2017 to celebrate how far we’ve all come ✨🧡🖤

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So I heard there was an epic battle happening in theaters

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it's not something strange or unique to say that after the last haikyuu movie, most of us got into it again, but at the same time, I know for sure that I'm not the only one who benefits the most from this re...union.

I went to see the haikyuu movie alone, and at first, it didn't hit me that much. maybe it was because I couldn't help but wonder how much I would have enjoyed it with my best friend, but we are grown-ups now and long distance.

after a couple of days, the internet was full of haikyuu content again, just like during lockdown, and because of that, I also got into it again and realized how much of a masterpiece it is.

haikyuu is well known, but in my opinion, it is underestimated and categorized by others as just a silly volleyball-sport anime. it saddens me so much that there are so many people who will never get to embrace this piece of art.

Furudate not only created a coming-of-age story, a story that inspired and still inspires generations to fight for their dreams, to engage in the complex mess of relationships, teamwork, and partnerships. haikyuu teaches you that if you really do have a dream, and if you are really ambitious, if you work hard for it, your time will come too. but it also teaches you that not choosing to be great is not a tragedy; your dreams of what a good life means can be different from the ideals of others: "life is unfair, but damn it, at the same time, it is really fair too."

so why did I go on writing about this? because I can't comprehend how haikyuu manages to be there for me at the best time—or the worst, better said—how it really took its "comfort anime" title seriously for me. I started haikyuu in my last year of high school: extremely stressed, depressed, and anxious, so scared of what the upcoming end would mean for me that I'd tricked myself into living by coming to the conclusion that I'd simply not make it to 18 if I didn't see a future for myself. it seemed only fair and the universe would do its thing, no? I know, kinda depressing and triggering, but it did help that miserable me then, it did help but not in the way I prayed it would. the universe didn't send me "death," it sent me life and hope through haikyuu. feeling so empty, so bland for such a long time, haikyuu managed to make me laugh and cry. it doesn't sound like much, but real ones know what I'm talking about. seeing their connection, their ambition, the troubles and feelings I was so desperate to put into words right in front of me saved me from my misery. I began to wish to live, to wish to be like them, to wish to fight, to wish to connect again with people.

now, after almost 4 years, I'm in my last year of uni. the main reason for my depression back then in high school was because I didn't know what to do with my life, what uni and career to choose. hell, I didn't know I would take this path until last autumn, but here I am, on my way to becoming a teacher. it's hard, really hard, but right now, after the new movie, I finally committed to start and finish the manga even though I knew bits and pieces of what happens. it was the best time to read it now. over these 3-4 years, I pondered why I couldn't start getting into the manga and see for myself what happens, but damn it was the best time to read it now. seeing them go all out on their path, learning that in order to succeed you need to fight and fight and fight, to push through, to overcome your limits, to push yourself, to not take it easy if you really want it, came at the best time as I got into a slump and a burnout from learning too much but also not learning enough. I've got to see all of the characters continuing to be pros while fighting for their way, but also choosing to let go of something they once loved in order to live a normal life.

haikyuu is like a reminder that there is more to life than just your high school/childhood years, that your path could take a 180-degree turn at any point, but at the same time, it makes you appreciate those times and not want to sweep your childlike wonder, your growth, and mistakes under a rug. Furudate was a genius for creating haikyuu, and I really hope and pray that haikyuu will continue to be there, to comfort and save future generations until the end of time.

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飛べ fly high!

Haikyu!! The Dumpster Battle

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now our blood is one.