bioaccumulation

[bioaccumulation]

ADHD is really the game of "what would it be like to live life with next to no impulse control?"

[bioaccumulation]

Breaking my shopping addiction is hard because I'm just so good at shopping

[bioaccumulation]

I just had the most unbelievable night seeing Cabaret on Broadway. Bitch I was pulled on stage for the post intermission conga line. They gave me a party hat. Night to remember.

[bioaccumulation]

one tells only truth the other also only truth they're really nice

[bioaccumulation]

I dont know what they thought they were doing choosing that picture he looks like he's having a great time and he looks cool as hell. Putting smoking a cig while playing the kazoo on my to do list.

[bioaccumulation]

A side reason I hope I'll be financially able to have a kid one day is I need someone to pass down all my cool shit to. I just bought this madomorpho bodysuit as a tax return treat for a truly horrible day and goddamn it I love the idea of passing down my small designer vintage clothes to my child for them to then be able to future party in their parent's buy-it-for-life investment pieces.

I am realizing lot of this fantasy is riding on the potential child having the same somewhat specific taste in clothing as me.

[bioaccumulation]

I think I gave my tongue a chemical burn because two days later it still hurts. Dune.

I carved up my tongue eating sour candy and now I'm trying to eat noodles with hot sauce while drinking sparkling water and I feel like I've put my tongue in the bene gesserit pain box

[bioaccumulation]

I think social awkwardness in movies puts me in more despair and fear than watching a real horror movie

[bioaccumulation]

I had sour candy for dessert after this. I must prove I'm not an animal. Like sifting sand through a screen...

I carved up my tongue eating sour candy and now I'm trying to eat noodles with hot sauce while drinking sparkling water and I feel like I've put my tongue in the bene gesserit pain box

[bioaccumulation]

I carved up my tongue eating sour candy and now I'm trying to eat noodles with hot sauce while drinking sparkling water and I feel like I've put my tongue in the bene gesserit pain box

[bioaccumulation]

warm baked goods are insane. something so beautiful and almost maddening about absolutely tearing into them when they’re fresh. feeling warm all over after. I really do get vampires for real

[bioaccumulation]

you can tell someone is aesthetically malnourished when they don’t like underarm hair

[bioaccumulation]

Things I did today

1. Yoga for 45 minutes

2. Went to Powell's and bought a Marxist politics reader

3. Smoked weed so I could do #4 without screaming

4. Cleaned the kitchen of my parents house like I do everyday and oftentimes twice because I am functionally a second house wife to my slob father who works the least in the family but both my mother and I have 40 hour a week jobs, and she often works overtime. I've been so conditioned into a life of constant cleaning I don't know what to do with myself when I'm not cleaning. I dream of one day living somewhere where the only person I have to pick up after is myself and I can live in a clean house.

5. Churned literal butter for a banana bread I made because I needed buttermilk for the recipe.

6. Cleaned the kitchen again.

[bioaccumulation]

sometimes i feel like im climing up this incline again alone but thankully sisypus and the itsy bitsy spider and here with me

[bioaccumulation]

(moved to europe from usa recently) even though the city im in doesn’t have a lot of staples i’m used to and miss its pretty easy to get them whenever traveling to/through one of the bigger cities and the travel options are really manageable !

Find me making trips just to get canned chipotle and masa 🚂 and congrats to you for making it out!

[bioaccumulation]

Re: my last post about moving to europe, i had a stress dream about being unable to find chipotle in adobo sauce at the store last night so i foresee food being a issue for me

[bioaccumulation]

Looking into how I can move to europe and its the only thing giving me hope and sanity rn other than my new lexapro prescription.

Being able to move is a huge privilege but also I'm so giddy looking at this master's program I'm interested in. It's amazing how in other countries all you have to do to be able to get advanced degrees is meet the basic requirements because good education is for everyone. And it's so much cheaper than US grad school.