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I see how you move

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I have an inner feeling that every time I hang with someone, they truly don’t like me. And that’s a different type of hurt, how do I deal with this? It could of been a great night but I feel i’m still incredibly unlikable.

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I will continue to grow and learn but I will NEVER take disrespect. You either take the time to know ME or walk away. Don’t ever try to change my perspective on things I’ve lived. Either understand it, have conversations about it, or move on.

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Speak where you feel the other is silent. At least you showed your heart in the purest form. Where you are willing to learn your inner soul without speaking in silence.

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You either fuck with me or you don’t. Quit trying to dissect me.

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I’m falling for someone who would never choose me in a room full of beautiful women

But will continue thinking about me as they are laying with them.

I will continue growing your heart and your soul

and when their body is old and brittle, and saggy in ALL the wrong parts, you’ll then realize that you should of chose me

and at that point,

it’ll be too late.

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I will get drunk and kiss strangers

And i will dance all night with my friends, and I will cry for you on the kitchen floor,

but I won’t ask you to come back.

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If I were dying and your favorite song was playing,

I would not be scared anymore.

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Dear 4am

We have to stop meeting this way.

I’d much rather sleep with you.

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My home will be a home with no loud anger, no explosive rage, no slamming doors or breaking glass, no name calling, shaming or blackmail. My home will be gentle, it will be warm. It will keep my loved ones safe. No fear, no hurt and no worries. I may come from a broken and twisted place but I will build something whole and safe. I’ll sing in the shower again, cook with a smile and dance in all the rooms. I will heal.

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Surrender your heart. Remove the guards and relinquish their shields, you need to feel this thoroughly.

Love was never to be safe or measured so, love irrationally. Jump off a cliff without considering consequence.

Love specifically. Pay attention to the smaller details of the bigger picture.

Love unconditionally because there will be days when you don’t like them, but the love must remain.

And in the event that love breaks you, let it break. Do not close yourself off, or shut yourself down, your heart will be shaped and reshaped, but in the end it will still be yours.

As humans we are blessed with the skill of adaptation, it’s kept us here for eons.

You will adapt.

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Anxiety.

If i’m silent for a while, it is because I have to fight with her before I can fight with you.

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The the body. rf

Dear eyes, there are things I don't tell you. We both know you are terrible at keeping secrets.

Dear brain, you're a good listener, but you give horrible relationship advice.

Dear heart, I trust you. Don't fuck this up.

Dear legs, walking is easy. Now pick a destination.

Dear feet, some days you are all I have left to stand on.

Dear hands I get it, you like writing poetry but come on, you cant bring a metaphor to a fist fight.

Dear fist, you are not always the solution to my problems

Dear voice, it is your job to make sure my fists never have to solve my problems.

Dear voice, the people are listening. I'm going to close my eyes and let you take over.

Say something worth remembering.

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I wanted to kill myself and you were yelling about dirty dishes.

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Don't you worry, there my honey

We might not have any money

But we've got our love to pay the bills 😛

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Curly headed cutie.

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Because you are so dear🌻