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when you argue

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You sighed heavily when the time to go home finally came. You were always super excited to go home after work as your boyfriend would be waiting for you there, happy as ever to see you. Today was a bit different though. Last night you got into an argument with your your boyfriend. A lot of mean words were thrown about as you both got more and more frustrated. He ended up crossing the line at the end of the night as he brought up a big insecurity of yours. You haven't spoken to him since.

The idea of going home and seeing him just made you tired and upset at this stage. You hated fighting with him and missed him so much already. But you had to stay strong.

After finally making it home, you entered your shared apartment and pulled your shoes off. You heard the TV playing some or other anime he was probably watching but you didn't look up as you passed him on the couch, keeping your eyes on the ground and quickly walking to your room.

Another heavy sigh escaped you as you started undressing. Getting into your most comfortable clothes, you made your way to the bathroom to wash up. The silence surrounding you lasted only a few seconds before you sensed someone in the doorway. Not wanting to acknowledge your boyfriend's presence, you continued on with your routine.

"Hey," he said softly.

"Hi Beomgyu," you forced out, suppressing a sigh.

Silence. He stood there for another few minutes before speaking up again.

"How was your day?"

The awkward small talk was killing you, but you entertained your boyfriend as he tried mustering up the courage to speak to you about what he said.

"It was okay. I'm just tired now," you mumbled as your started finishing up.

"Me too," he whispered, eyes flickering between your face and the ground.

An uncomfortable silence fell over you again. You finished drying your face before walking past him and into the kitchen this time. You could hear the shuffling of his feet as he softly followed you through the house. While you were making ramen for yourself to nibble on, Beomgyu stood by the counter and watched you closely. You could almost hear the gears turning in his head as we formulated his sentences. Standing with your arms crossed, you leaned against the counter and looked at your feet, waiting for the ramen to start cooking. This was unbearable, but you weren't going to crack first.

You only realised Beomgyu was infront of you when you saw his slippers come into your view. You looked up slowly and made eye contact with those same eyes you love looking into. Only this time they were filled with so much sadness.

Beomgyu reached out and slowly took your hands into his. He didn't speak for a while and only looked at your intertwined hands. You let him hold you, sensing he was getting his thoughts together.

"I really am so sorry Y/N," his shaky first words came, "I fucked up so much last night by saying that to you. I don't know why I said it. It's not even true. I was just upset and I spoke without thinking. I am so sorry baby."

By the end of his little speech, he was in tears. He still hasn't looked at you since he started speaking. By now his thumbs were rubbing anxious circles on your hand.

A few tears have now made their way down your cheeks as well. You were exhausted and just wanted to be in his arms. So you put his arms around you and wrapped your own around his neck to bring him closer. Your boyfriend tightened his arms around you and cried into your shoulder.

"I'm so sorry jagi," he whimpered softly.

"It's okay Gyu," you murmured, rubbing a comforting hand over his shoulder.

You stood there long after the ramen finished cooking, just glad to have made up with each other.

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when he helps you

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"Fuck!" your yell attracted your boyfriend's attention immediately. His head snapped up and he turned to look in the direction of your voice.

You barely had time to really register what had happened when he appeared at your side. One hand placed on your shoulder and the other gently holding your bloodied hand.

"What happened?" he said, trying to see where the blood was coming from.

"Nothing, I just cut myself a bit," you mumbled, trying to move away from him. But before you could really move, he pulled you closer again.

"Let's rinse it under the water and I will bandage you up." Yeonjun didn't actually acknowledge your words. He was focused on getting you sorted first.

"Jun, I'm fine. Let me do it," you sighed as you tried pulling away again.

"Jagi, I'll help you. It looks like it hurts a lot," your boyfriend said with a pout on his lips.

"I said I can do it myself. You can go sit down again. Don't worry," you shrugged him off successfully this time and walked out towards the bathroom.

Yeonjun's jaw dropped a bit at your sharp tone. He wasn't used to you dismissing him like this. So he decided to follow you and headed off after you. Entering the bathroom, he saw you with a frown on your face as you held your hand under the water.

"Are you sure I can't help you?" he started softly, trying to gage your emotions.

"Yeonjun, I said I'm fine. Stop coddling me."

That was the last straw.

"I'm not coddling you, I'm just trying to help. I want to take care of you because I, you know, care about you," he said curtly before turning around and leaving the bathroom.

Your shoulders fell and you rest your hands on the edge of the sink. Why did you have to snap at him? He was really just trying to help. A big sigh left your mouth again and you finished cleaning your cut. Taking a bandage in your hand, you headed out to find Yeonjun.

A quick search later and quickly found him sitting on the couch scrolling through this phone. You slowly walked up to the couch and sat on the opposite side, facing him. He didn't acknowledge your presence. You must have pissed him off quite a bit.

"Jun-ah?" you tried, but didn't get any reaction from him.

Trying to keep a clear head, you looked down at your hands, "I'm sorry for how I spoke to you earlier. You didn't deserve that. You were only trying to help."

You could see he stopped scrolling, but he still didn't look at you. So you continued.

"I'm struggling to admit that I'm struggling," you chuckled humourlessly, angry at yourself for being like that. "I've always had to rely on just myself. I've gotten used to doing everything alone. But I have you now. Can you please help me?"

As you finish the question, you hand Yeonjun the bandage. A little sign you want to apologise for earlier. He stays silent as he takes it from your hand. Pursing his lips, he starts opening it and gently takes your hand into his.

"You know," he starts as he wraps one end of the bandage around your hand, "I really do love you. And it's not that I don't think you can't take care of yourself."

As Yeonjun pats down the last edge of the bandage, he looked up at you. Softly, he reached out to rub your cheek lovingly.

"I just get worried about you. My protective instincts kick in and I can't help myself."

You felt the tears well up in your eyes again, so you quickly moved to tuck your head under his chin and wrapped your arms around his waist.

"I love you Jun," you mumbled against him.

He rubbed your back comfortingly as he pulled you closer.

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hi omg to answer your last post yes yes yes please i would love to see you write for &team! thank you for considering it ><

hiii! yes! i am so excited to get your feedback and requests for &team. i love them so much it's crazy lol

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omg!!!! yesyeyeseyesss pls write for &team as well!!!!!!

yayyyyy!! so happy to hear you guys are excited for the &team content. i have made a whole new blog for it. will post the details of it soon! ♡

[bluhourz]

i have a problem :(

i might be slightly obsessed with &team at the moment. should i write for them as well? i might only do requests then but i'm so ready for that. what do you guys think?

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hi! can i req when beom gives u silent treatment?

I hope this turned out how you wanted it to :)

when he gives you silent treatment

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A quiet Beomgyu was never a good sign. He was usually bouncing off the walls and you could hear his bright laugh from miles away. So when you came home late to an unusually quite house after getting side tracked with friends, you were surprised and a bit scared. At first you thought maybe your boyfriend was not home, but then you saw his shoes neatly lying next to the door. He was definitely home. So now you had to find him.

"Gyu? I'm home!" was your first attempt to get his attention. But you were just met with the silence again. Slowly you made your way through the house, checking each room to see if he was there. It was only when you reached your bedroom and you slowly opened the door that you saw him.

Beomgyu was sitting on the bed with his phone in his hand. He was staring straight ahead, not even acknowledging you.

"Baby?" you tried again. Still nothing.

"I'm sorry I'm late," you started off. You kept your distance and slowly walked over to the opposite side of the bed he was on.

"You know how Y/F/N gets. She started a story and then we were there for another hour," you tried to say it lightly, however, Beomgyu didn't even glance at you. Now you knew for sure this was why you were getting the silent treatment.

"You won't believe what she told us though," you glanced at him quickly, "You know she was seeing that Hongdae boy she met a few weeks ago."

You knew your boyfriend was just as invested in the gossip stories as you, so you tried getting him to speak like this. You could see it working already as he pretended to be on his phone even when you could tell he was listening intently now.

"So they were going on a date last week, but he just ghosted her a few hours before they had to meet," you sighed, it was time for the money shot.

"I mean, I was surprised. He seemed like such a nice guy," you turned to look at him for his reaction. However, your boyfriend beat you to is as he immediately sat up and nearly crashed into you.

"What do you mean you thought he was nice? You said you hated him a few days ago!" he said with a big frown and pout to go with it.

You really tried your best but you couldn't hold the laughter in. A small giggle escaped you as you finally looked Beomgyu in the eyes.

"First, are you going to give me more silent treatment or have I served my time?" your eyes glinted as you asked him.

Beomgyu's face fell into a straight line. He narrowed his eyes at you as he pondered the question, "Do you really think he is nice?"

"No, Gyu, I don't think so. He is an asshole," you said confidently.

Before you registered it, Beomgyu grabbed you and pulled you down to lie with him.

"Okay, I forgive you then," he sighed happily.

You giggled as you got comfortable. A few moments of silence followed before Beomgyu's soft voice filled the room again, "Did you at least have fun?"

"Yeah, kind of. Y/F/N was a mess afterwards so we all had to comfort her a bit. I think she's okay now," you replied, "I missed you though. I'm sorry I didn't message you earlier to let you know." You snuggled further into your boyfriend's side.

Instead of responding, Beomgyu just pulled you closer and left a kiss on your head. He was silent for a while before he spoke again. "It's okay. I was just worried about you. You weren't answering my calls and I was panicking."

You pulled away slightly to look up at his face. You smoothed out his hair as you talked, "I really am sorry. I didn't think about how you were going to feel."

He smiled at you gently, "Next time, I need hourly updates and your live location at all time."

You giggled at his idea, "It's a deal."

The two of you stared at each other for a few seconds, the love between you two evident.

"And I'm sorry I gave you the silent treatment," Gyu said hurriedly before pulling you in for a kiss. You couldn't even protest as his lips met yours already. You gave in instantly though, immediately melting in his arms.

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when he has a long day

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Taehyun has never been too good at expressing his emotions. He was also extra hard on himself and nitpicked every single thing he did, criticising almost everything. He was amazing at dealing with it when you shared your feelings. He always knew what to say and had the power to comfort you in an instant, making you change your thoughts completely. But when it came to himself? Good luck trying to get anything right with him.

However, as his partner, you have perfected the fine art of dealing with Taehyun and his feelings. That meant, the moment he walked into your home you sensed something was off. He opened the door just a little bit too hard. He dropped his bag instead of setting it down softly like he usually does. Something was just off.

"Tae!" you still said excitedly from the couch, feeling giddy that he was back at home with you for the night and wanting to brighten the mood.

"Hi baby," he sighed out tiredly. Taehyun's shoulders were hanging and his eyes were dull, you could see in he was tired just by his body language.

Your eyes followed him as he walked around to stand in front of you. Slowly, his eyes lifted up to meet yours. At your visibly concerned face that you were unsuccessfully trying to hide, your boyfriend's face broke into a small smile.

"How was your day?" he asked you.

"Not that productive, but I got some things done that I wanted to do. I finally packed away the laundry," you smiled triumphantly. Taehyun just chuckled at your proud expression.

"How was the recording session today?" you asked cautiously, not wanting to stir up any feelings.

Taehyun just shook his head in response. He rubbed his hands over his face tiredly before locking eyes with you again. "Can I lie down?"

Not even hesitating, you shifted to make space next to you on the couch before beckoning for him to come closer. He fell down as his limbs became heavier and heavier. His body was finally relaxing knowing he was safe with you now.

As he rested his head on your shoulder, you wrapped your arms around his frame. One hand was rubbing soothing circles on his back and you felt him relax against you.

After a few silent minutes you asked softly, "You okay?"

His response came a bit delayed as his brain registered your words, "I just had a long day. That's all."

"At least you're home now."

"Knowing you were waiting for me was the only reason I could push through the day," his mumbled sleepily, not realising the effect his words had on you.

You were suddenly grateful that he couldn't see your bright red face. You just kissed the top of his head softly in response. Taehyun snuggled even closer and finally fell asleep next to you. Just what he needed after the day he had.

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when he comes home

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Your hands have been nervously gripping each other ever since you arrived at the practice room. Every now and then you would wipe them down your legs as you sat. Your leg has been bouncing up and down from the moment you sat down on the couch. Eyes darting around, you looked at the equipment in the room. You were trying to guess what each thing did, trying to pass the time. Your hands subconsciously reached for your drink. Taking a small sip, you moved your gaze to the black screen of your cellphone.

Maybe the plane is running late? He said he would message you as soon as they land. It was way to risky to have you at the airport, so you were waiting here. Sighing, you grabbed your phone for probably the 100th-something time. You unlocked it and was met the exact face you were currently waiting for, but no message from said face. Just as you were about to put the phone down again, a notification flashed.

'Just landed. See you soon.'

A giddy smile took over your nervous features instantly. You quickly grabbed the cup and finished the drink before standing up to throw it away. Too excited to stay seated now, you settled on walking up and down the practice room. You breathed in deeply to try and calm yourself down. After what felt like an eternity, your ears perked up at the sound coming from the door. Your head shot up and you looked over, your breath stuck in your throat.

Your eyes followed the door handle as it moved. When you finally looked up and met Beomgyu's eyes you felt a weight being lifted off your shoulders. And when the rest of him popped around the door, you couldn't hold it back.

"Gyu?" you whispered.

"Baby," he sighed out.

Beomgyu pushed into the room and nearly ran over to where you were standing. You decided to meet him halfway. Both of you nearly knocked the other down with the force of running into each other’s arms. Beomgyu wrapped his arms around your waist and nuzzled his head into your neck. You in turn wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him impossibly closer.

After a few silent minutes Beomgyu whispered, "I missed you so much."

You repeated the words back to him as you pulled his body even closer to you.

The two of you stayed like that for quite some time. You were making up for the long time apart. You closed your eyes as you tried just soaking up the feeling of having your boyfriend back in your arms. After a while you reluctantly let each other go, although just enough to see each other's faces.

"How was the flight? Did you get some sleep?" your eyes scanned over his face, trying to spot any tiredness in his eyes.

Beomgyu nodded with a small smile, he rubbed his hands softly on your back. "I watched a movie with Soobin hyung and ate some snacks before I passed out for the rest of the flight," he smiled proudly.

You combed your hands through his hair as you matched his smile. You missed his face so much. Slowly your eyes dropped to his lips. Beomgyu didn't need any more confirmation from you before leaning in. Your lips met each other with the need of months being apart. You could feel him press his body into yours as you melted into his arms. You pulled away only when you needed so get air.

"I love you," you whispered, breathlessly.

"I love you too, jagi," your boyfriend giggled back at you.

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when he realises

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Kai let out another heavy sigh as he looked at his phone. No new notifications. He turned the phone around and put it down harshly on the table, huffing loudly. Yeonjun raised his eyebrows at the maknae from across the room. Deciding to ignore him at first, he continued silently on his own phone. However, when it happened again, he decided to say something.

"Hyuka? Is something wrong?"

"No, everything is fine," came the low reply.

It wasn't very difficult to see he was lying so Yeonjun got up and walked over to sit next to Heuningkai.

"You seem frustrated. Talk to me. What's happening?" he tried again.

Another sigh. The younger boy rubbed his hands over his face a few times before casting his eyes down to avoid his huyng's eyes.

"I'm just waiting for someone to message me. They said they would but I've just not heard from them yet," he started softly, but his voice ended up getting louder the more he spoke. "This is kind of important, you know? Like, I'm also busy. They know my schedule. I can't just wait around the whole day, right?"

Heuningkai's shiny eyes looked up at his hyung, looking for some sort of affirmation. The older of the two ended up letting out his own little sigh at these words.

"It's Y/N, isn't it?" Yeonjun asked gently.

Kai's whole body shot up at this question.

"How do you know?" he blurted out, "I mean... no?"

Yeonjun laughed slightly at the answer. Kai was very obviously caught out. To be honest, they all knew for some time now. Kai's whole face would light up the second you entered the room. He would always make sure you were okay and would nearly run the moment you let him know you needed something. Any person would be able to see how he is feeling.

"What do they need to let you know?" Yeonjun decided to start slowly.

"Just... we were talking about this new cafe we want to visit this weekend. But we were still talking about the time. They might have something else to do as well."

Kai's voice turned soft and defeated the more he spoke. His head had lowered completely and he was avoiding eye contact with his hyung.

"Ah, I see," Yeonjun nodded, "So you were waiting for their message about that?"

Heuningkai grunted as a response. Yeonjun decided to stay quiet for a while, hoping the words would sink into his younger member's brain. Did he realise how insane he sounded right now?

After what he felt was an appropriate amount of time, he spoke up again.

"You know, that kind of sounds like you're in love."

Seeing the shock on Kai's face, he realised it did not in fact sink in.

"What do you mean I'm in love? It's not like I care that much about the plans. It's just that we have been talking about it for so long. And we agreed we would go together. And I think they would really like this one. And I really want to see their face when they try their favourite coffe-"

"What is their favourite coffee?"

"Easy, caramel macchiato."

The silence that followed was deafening.

"Do you see what I mean?" Yeonjun asked gently.

"No, but... In love?" Kai stayed silent for a while longer, "Really? You think so?"

"I'm nearly positive," Yeonjun patted Kai's shoulder gently as he stood up, "Just something to think about."

Kai was left alone with his raging thoughts after that. Staring at his phone's black screen, his mind raced. Was he really in love with you? He always thought he just cared about you a lot, but as a friend. But his hyung's words made him realise. Maybe those were feelings weren't normal towards someone who was just supposed to be your friend. Maybe Yeonjun was right. Maybe he was in love with his best friend.

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Helloo! If you want you can call me Calc anon!! Just wanted to ask how you're doing, I really like your writing!! Your fics are really enjoyable to read!! They are a great way to let loose when I study!! I hope you know that your blog is really nice and that your fics are really good! Just wanted to leave a compliment for you I don't have a request <3

-Calc anon

hi calc anon!

i'm doing well, thank you :)

friday and monday are public holidays where i live so i don't have work, which is great so i can rest then

also, thank you so much for the compliments! i really hope i can continue posting things that you all enjoy ♡

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Hello, is it ok if I request a sick!taehyun and his S/O taking care of him? It’s just a cold, nothing serious but he always wants cuddles and like he’s always following you cause he wants some love? NOT SICK S/O. Idk I think that would be really cute, if it’s not a problem ofc!! ❤️

this was really cute! thank you! :)

when he is sick

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"Why are you out of bed?!" you asked bewildered as you saw your sick boyfriend enter the kitchen.

You were busy preparing some tea for him and asked him (so nicely) to stay put. Of course he would not listen and immediately got up after you left the room.

"I'm cold," his managed out between the sniffles.

"Baby, no, why didn't you do as I asked?" you tried sounding stern when you spoke to him. But anyone would immediately hear the concern and love in your tone.

He shuffled closer and fell against you when he reached you. You steadied yourself, and him, against the counter before sighing and you brushed your hand through his hair a few times, giving him a breather. Slowly, you made him stand up straight before helping him along back to the bed.

"Everything is done. I just need to bring it here. Please, please, please just stay here until I come back?" you pleaded as you helped him sit up straight under the covers.

You ran out and quickly brought everything you needed to the bedroom. You set his tea and medicine on the bedside table and handed him his soup.

"I need you to eat everything, okay?" you nodded at the bowl as you handed him a spoon.

"But baby, I can't hold the spoon by myself. Help me," he whimpered out, but you could see the mischievous smile trying to break through.

But who are you to deny this face anything. So what did you do? You fed him his soup. Are you completely whipped for your incredibly sick boyfriend? Yes, yes you are.

So you spent the day pamering and doting over him. Tucking him in when he was cold, bringing fresh tissues every hour, and making more tea than you have ever made in your life. Finally, after a few hours he fell asleep and you had a chance to relax. Leaving your bedroom quietly you made your way to the kitchen to make yourself something for a change. You crossed your arms and closed your eyes for a bit as the water was boiling. Unfortunately, the sound was drowning out anything else meaning you didn't hear the rustling behind you.

"Y/N-ah," you heard as Taehyun enveloped you in the blanket that was draped around his shoulders.

To be honest your patience was running a bit thin, but you held back the sigh threatening to escape.

With closed eyes you said, "How are you feeling Tyun?"

"A little bit better," he mumbled into your neck and pulling you even closer, "Thank you."

He ended his answer with a soft kiss to your skin. He probably felt how you melted into his arms.

"Can I have a kiss?"

"I'll get sick if you kiss me."

"That's okay, I'll survive," Taehyun replied with a heavy sigh to which you shook him off with a scoff.

"Will you look after me when I'm sick then?" you asked narrowing your eyes at him.

"Of course I will," he responded immediately with a big pout on this lips, "Please?"

You opened your mouth to start saying no, but how could you really be refusing him when his eyes were staring at you like that. His hair was sticking up all over the place from how he slept and he had the most endearing look on his face. You did miss him. And you missed kissing him.

Before you could even stop yourself you were leaning in and pressed a very quick kiss to his lips.

"Happy?" you mumbled as you stepped back.

Taehyun looked around a bit before nodding his head, "I'll take what I can get for now."

Giggling at his antics you reached to turn him around and pushed him back to the bedroom.

"I still need you in bed though."

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when you want to leave

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You slid down the bedroom door, holding your head in your hands. You hated fighting with Yeonjun. You hated the feeling it left with you. You suddenly felt your eyes sting and tears started flowing down your face. After a good long cry you lifted your head slowly and rested it against the door as well. Your vision was blurry and your heart was heavy. Deciding you needed fresh air and a coffee you got up and got dressed. The idea of walking past your boyfriend right now made your eyes sting with tears again. You thought you would just ignore him and left your bedroom, walking straight past Yeonjun. You didn't even have to look at him to know he was staring at you. As you started putting your shoes on, he realised what was happening and jumped up from the couch.

"You're not leaving, are you?"

"I just really don't want to be here right now," you breathed out shakily, not turning around. He didn't need to see how hurt you really were.

"Please baby, don't go. I don't know what I'll do if you go now," he pleaded as his hands grabbed your arm tightly.

You could hear the tears in his voice. You heard the tremors of hurt while he spoke. You didn't have the heart to leave knowing how much it would hurt him, even when your own heart was aching this much. So you stayed where you were.

"I'll go somewhere else. I'll leave you alone. Just don't go. Please, " the last word was whispered out.

Sighing heavily, you closed your eyes for a few seconds. You knew Yeonjun wouldn't keep to his words, knowing you were actually wanting to leave. Nonetheless, you started taking off the one shoe you managed to put on. You felt your shoulders droop and your body becoming heavier with each movement. Yeonjun hesitantly let go of you but didn't make any movement to leave you alone. He just silently watched as he felt the anxiety leaving him with each move you made. Finally, you turned around but pushed past him and quickly made your way to the couch. Just as you predicted you heard his footstep following you softly. Your boyfriend still somewhat knew when to not overstep the line though, so he sat on the floor, leaving enough space between the two of you. His eyes never left your face though.

You knew this would happen, so you closed your eyes and decided to lie down. You didn't think your heart would be able to survive looking at his expression. You wouldn't be able to hold it together as well as you were pretending to do now. But the fight had tired you out, so slowly you drifted off, your expression finally softening.

As soon as Yeonjun knew you were fast asleep he moved closer to you. He seated himself in front of your face, lifting his hand up to brush the hair out of your face.

"I'm really sorry, jagi," he whispered gently, "I don't know why I am like this sometimes. I never mean to hurt you, but I always end up doing it."

His eyes started watering slightly but he angrily wiped his tears away. He didn't deserve to cry when he was the one that messed up. But it was no use. The tears just kept coming. Yeonjun finally rested his head on the couch next to you, giving in to the tears and falling asleep as well.

When you finally woke up you were quite surprised to see the ruffled hair of your boyfriend in front of you. Frowning, you moved to sit up, which in turn woke him up. You gave him a soft smile as your eyes met that he reciprocated. Yeonjun ended up sitting on the floor across from you sitting on the couch.

"You feeling better?" he asked cautiously.

You nodded, "And you?"

"A bit," he nodded up at you.

Silence surrounded you two before you shook your head.

Shoving your hands out to him you said, "Give me your hands."

You could see the confusion in his eyes but he complied with your wishes. Slowly his hands reached up to take yours.

"You know, I don't even remember what we were actually fighting about. But I can tell you I know how I feel about you," you looked up to meet his glossy eyes, "I love you so much Junnie. I know that you love me just as much-"

"More than you actually think," he cut you off quickly.

Chuckling lightly you continued, "And I know you do your best when it comes to our relationship. You show me that every day."

Yeonjun quickly averted his eyes and looked down at the ground. As soon as you saw the slight shake of his shoulders you moved down to the floor next to him. You pulled him into your arms and felt him relax against you.

"I'm sorry for what I said yesterday as well. I love you," you mumbled against his shoulder.

You barely made out the 'I love you' from your boyfriend as he cried into your neck. The fight was long forgotten by now.

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hii i just wanted to ask what your guidelines and rules for requests are? love your work!🤍

you are too kind ♡ thank you so much!

um.. I don't really have rules necessarily. give as much or as little detail as you want. member plus small scenario is more than enough :)

I'm open to any ideas or thoughts you guys have!

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hiiii tysm for fulfilling my reverse comfort heuning kai x female reader request!! i absolutely love your work tysm!!😩💕💕💕

you are so very welcome 🥺 I hope I did justice to your request ♡

and thank you so much for the compliment, ily

requests are open :)

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may request a reverse comfort heuning kai x female reader where heuning kai feels jealous of y/n’s friendship with beomgyu and heuning kai is afraid of losing her, so y/n comforts him with reassurance and kisses and cuddles, leading to a heavy makeout session?

thank you so much for the request! I kind of got carried away... oops :)

I hope you enjoy anon!

when he is scared of losing you

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Kai woke up as the sunlight started to tickle his eyes. Who even left the curtains open? He was grumbling as he reached out to pull you closer. However, his hand only met the cold sheets where you once laid. Confused, he decided to get up and look for you. How dare you not be in bed with him?

"Y/N?" he called with an ever-present pout on his lips.

Nothing.

"Y/N-ie?" his pout tried once again.

He finally reached the kitchen. And that's where he saw it. A cute little cat sticky note on top of a neatly covered plate of breakfast.

"Hey bub! I'm going out with Gyu today. Didn't want to wake you up. I'll see you later. Love you! ♡"

He scoffed at the note. Out with 'Gyu'? Without your loving boyfriend at your side? Kai huffed as he sat down. Really? His mood was soured now. His wasn’t even hungry anymore. But he knew he couldn’t resist your food. Although, the frown never left his face as he ate.

Heuningkai spent the day moping around the house. Nothing he did was right. The show he wanted to watch suddenly irrirated him. The music he wanted to listen to was too loud. Even the plushies weren't comfortable when he lied against them.

He groaned outloud in frustration. He wondered how your day has been so far. Probably great seeing as you were with Beomgyu. He always made the time spent together fun. Like always. Maybe too much sometimes. Wait. Was Beomgyu more fun than him? Did you enjoy spending time with Beomgyu more than with him? Is that why you didn't invite him with you two today? Did you prefer being alone with Beomgyu..?

Without thinking, he had lied down sideways on the bed and grabbed a plushie. He only realised how much these thoughts freaked him out when he noticed his white knuckles gripping the material harshly. Slowly he let go and tried to relax. You loved him right? Right?

His last thoughts were anxiety filled as his mind raced to even more possibilities. Mumbling your name, he fell asleep again.

Later ~

"Baby! I'm home," you announced as you entered through the front door.

Met with an unusual silence, you were quite stunned.

"Kai?" you asked again as you walked to the bedroom, knowing he was probably there.

"Baby, are you.." your voice trailed off as you were met with one of the most adorable things you have ever witnessed.

Kai was surrounded by plushies, as always, and one was clutched close to his chest as he slept. Soft snores left his mouth, showing you he was sleeping deeply. But the frown on his face concerned you.

You tiptoed around the bed and sat down softly, facing him. Pushing some plushie friends away you made space for yourself next to him and lied down. Your eyes stayed glued to his beautiful face as you tried waking him up. You started by slowly brushing his hair back and whispering his name. Next, your hand wandered to the side of his face as you cupped his cheek. A series of cute nicknames were uttered gently as your hand moved. After a few attempts his eyes fluttered open. Usually Kai's eyes would brighten up the moment he saw you. This time his gaze was dull as your eyes met.

Knowing instantly that something was wrong, you asked, "Did something happen while I was away?"

He only shook his head, not trusting his voice.

"Then what is it? Why do you look so sad bub?" you kept your voice soft as your hand kept working through his face and down his face, trying to comfort him.

You gave him a few minutes to compose his thoughts. Finally, he sighed and closed his eyes before he started speaking.

"I.. I don't really know. I just had a bad day. I woke up and you weren't here. It made me sad to wake up without you. And then I saw your note saying you were out. With Beomgyu. And you didn't ask me to join. I know he is super fun and you enjoy spending time with him. And I just had a lot of stupid thoughts and I scared myself and..."

His eyes stayed closed the entire time he spoke. He didn't want to show just how much he was hurting and he knew you would immediately see right through his soul.

"And I'm just so scared of losing you."

If you weren't as close to Heuningkai as you were right now, you are sure you wouldn't have heard the last part. You felt your heart break a little more with each word he spoke.

Finally, he opened his eyes to look at you.

"I'm so sorry bub," you whispered, trying to convey your feelings through your eyes.

You pulled him closer, letting his head rest on your chest. You rubbed your hands down his back to comfort him and felt his arms wrapping around your waist.

"I'm really sorry we didn't invite you today. We went to the amusement park to try the scary rollarcoasters and I knew last time you felt sick afterwards so I didn't think you would want to go. I should have asked, I'm sorry. But please don't ever think I would just leave you like that. I love you so much Hyuka. You are my person, my everything. Yes, Gyu is a great friend, but just that. A friend. You are the one I love," you pushed him away slightly as you finished talking, "No matter what I'll always choose you."

A small smile broke out on his face at your words.

"I love you."

"I love you more."

Suddenly Heuningkai pushed himself up a bit and met your lips with his. What started out a soft and slow kiss filled with love for each other, quickly turned into something with urgency and need behind it. You layed down and he hovered over your frame. His hands slid up to rest on your hip under your shirt.

Breaking away breathlessly, your boyfriend looked at you, "So ypu agree I'm more fun right?"

"Of course, baby," you smiled, pulling him into you again.

[bluhourz]

Hii... Um.. I'm shy but here goes nothing.... I saw that your requests are open ..and i was wondering if I may request a short Soobin angst fic where either s/o or Soobin is feeling insecure??

thanks for the request, I appreciate it so much :)

hope you like it!

when he gets insecure

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It was a quiet afternoon. You and your boyfriend were tangled together on the bed, enjoying just being together. Soobin had his head tucked into your neck. Your one hand was threading through his hair and the other hand was rubbing soothing circles on his back. He didn't do this often. You knew something was bothering him the instant he came home and jumped into your arms. Knowing him, you needed to wait for him to open up on his own. Poking and prodding won't do anything. You have been lying like this for a while now and you were starting to fall asleep. If you could see Soobin's face, you would see the pout on his face and his eyes filled with worries.

"Jagi, can I ask you something?" his voice was soft when he finally broke the silence.

"Hmm?" you hummed sleepily.

"You know how we filmed the dance practice videos for the new album today?"

"Hmm," you hummed affirmatively and continued stroking his hair.

"Yeonjun hyung is a good dancer, don't you think?" his voice was tentative, as if he was scared of what your answer would be.

Immediately sensing that something was off, your hands slowed to a stop.

"What do you mean?"

"I know we don't have fixed positions, but don't you think he would be our main dancer?"

His face still smushed in your neck, Soobin couldn't see your frowning face. You were quite puzzled at his words. But you needed to find out where this was coming from.

"Baby, look at me please," you said quickly.

Alarmed at your tone, his head shoots up to look in to your eyes.

"Where is this coming from?" you whispered with a frown on your face. Your hands came to cup his cheeks to keep his eyes on yours.

His eyes shifted down quickly, knowing you had caught him out. After a few seconds of silence, Soobin sighed and decided to spill his feelings to you.

"Today at practice our choreographer kept going on about how he is a good dancer and how he picked up the new choreo so fast. He always gets praised for his dancing. It's like everyone forgets the rest of us are also good dancers," the frown on his face deepened as he spoke, "I'm also not saying he shouldn't get praised for it because I know he is an amazing dancer. It's just..."

Your boyfriend's ranting died down. Suddenly he looked exhausted. His eyes were tired. His hair was a mess. You pushed him off of you with gentle hands and made him sit up with you. Facing him, you took his hands in yours and looked up into his eyes.

"You know I love you, right?"

He nodded silently.

"And you also know you are in one of the most talented and popular kpop groups out there?"

Another silent nod.

"Yeonjun is a great dancer, yes. But so are you. You are so talented and you work so hard. I don't think you give yourself enough credit," your voice stayed low and soft, trying to convey all your feelings in your words.

Soobin looked down at your intertwined hands without saying anything. Pulling one hand away gently, you reached up to try and tame his hair.

"You are also one of the best leaders and you have to manage those four hooligans," you nudged him playfully.

Finally, a small smile broke out on his face.

"And do you know how difficult it is to dance well when you are as tall as you? Nearly impossible," you finished off with a proud smile.

Soobin let out a little chuckle at all the compliments, meeting your eyes again. A comfortable silence fell over the two of you.

"Thank you, Y/N-ah," he whispered.

"Anytime, my love," you said gently.

"So... do you want a spoiler for the new choreography," Soobin said raising his eyesbrows.

"Yes! Of course! What kind of question is that?" you exclaimed excitedly.

Soobin jumped off the bed with enthusiasm and instantly began dancing. Your heart swelled with the amount of love you had for this man. How could he not see how amazing he was?

[bluhourz]

when he sees you again

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It's been about four months since you and Beomgyu have broken up. You thought you would be okay, that the pain and heartache would pass. Well, at least sooner or later. But, here you are. It's 02:32 in the morning, and you were outside trying to keep yourself together. Around you, the snow was falling, slowly filling up the space. The two of you would always meet at this place, a quiet, not so busy spot along the Han River. Usually, no one would be here, and the two of you could be a 'normal' couple without worrying about fans seeing or bothering you. But now, you were all alone.

You stared out at the water, going through that day's event from the start. You were fighting about something, you can't even remember anymore. Both of you were screaming. You were crying. Somehow, somewhere, the two of you ended up deciding to break up. You can't remember who suggested it first, but both of you agreed it would be for the best. You could still see the broken expression on his face. It made your heart physically hurt.

You haven't spoken to him since that night. Soobin updated you every now and then when the two of you chatted about how he was doing, knowing you burned to ask but didn't want to overstep the boundaries. It sounds like he was doing fine, though. Deep down, you were mad at that. How could he be this okay after what had happened? Did he not love you? Did he not care?

You were so deep in thought you didn't hear the crunch of someone's feet behind you.

Beomgyu recognised you instantly as he walked closer. His heart started beating uncontrollably in his chest. Without even thinking, he took off his coat, draping it around your shoulders as he reached your figure. You jumped at the contact, instantly turning around. The moment your eyes met, it felt like the world came to a standstill. At first, neither of you spoke. You were trying to keep calm while also trying to read his face. He kept his gaze firmly on your eyes, trying to gauge how you felt as well.

"It's cold," he broke the silence first, motioning to his jacket.

"Thanks," you managed to get out.

You turned around quickly, feeling the tears threatening to spill. You didn't want him to see how much you were actually hurting.

Beomgyu stared at you for a few seconds longer before he came to stand next to you, also staring out at the water.

The silence was thick, both of you staying quiet now. Thoughts filled your mind. Why was he here? Did he feel the same way you did? Was he eating? Was he resting enough? Why did he give his jacket to you?

"Have you been doing well?" once again, Beomgyu broke the quiet atmosphere.

At first you didn't want to speak. You didn't know if you should give an honest answer or not. Finally, you forced out a small 'no'. Not turning your head, you whispered, "and you?"

"No," his voice was low, and he answered without hesitating.

Silence took over again. You stood next to each other, each lost in their own thoughts. After a while, Beomgyu let out a heavy sigh.

"You're in my head, even when you're not supposed to be. It shouldn't be this hard to let you go."

"You're telling me," you let out a bitter laugh.

"You know, I really fucking miss you. I think we made a massive mistake. I've been struggling. I mess up during practice. I can't focus. I haven't been able to write lyrics since I've lost you," his voice started wavering at the end.

As he finished his speech, you turned to face each other. You didn't even realise tears have started streaming down your face until his hand reached up to brush your cheek.

"I miss you too," you started crying.

Beomgyu instantly pulled you into him, crying too as he felt your body against him for the first time in so long. The soft snow kept falling as you both clutched each other.