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You know what I hate? At the end of April when my mom passed away by suicide, all my "irl' friends and acquaintances sent their 'condolences' and then you want to know what happens? They forget about you when you need them the most.

I'm just beginning to feel the serious effects of grief. My insomnia is out of control, I'm eating like nothing every day because I can't afford it, and I have no caregiver and best friend. My mom was my everything. My BPD is out of control and I'm on the brink of a hospital admission.

I wish people just understood and had an ounce of compassion for the fact that grief is not linear. Its an ongoing process that never really goes away. I will live with the 'what ifs' everyday. Losing someone is never easy, but losing someone to suicide is something I never wish on anyone.

I have made it my purpose in life to advocate for mental health disorders that are more stigmatized, like Cluster B personality disorders and anything that makes someone feel misunderstood. I'm currently trying to start a not for profit organization that helps people get mental health care for Cluster B disorders as they are often overlooked.

Part of my work is recognizing the flaws in the current mental health systems in most countries. I call for the dismantling of psychiatry, particularly in regards to the way they treat people with Cluster B disorders. People with Cluster B disorders often report harder times gaining access to compassionate and accepting care, peer support and even safe environments. This is inexcusable and inhumane.

I just beg you to have compassion for people that are struggling whom aren't yourself in some way. I know for some people it's hard to put yourself in other people's shoes and that's okay. When I say 'have compassion,' I mean don't degrade people with problems you don't understand. You don't have to like their actions but there's no reason to spew hate. Compassion goes far in life.

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Illustration by Sophie Lucido Johnson

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im at the beach and im red as a fucking lobster

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i will never be a mans peace idgaf

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i actually just cooked the fuck outta my back i can't feel my legs

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I hate having skin, this body is a nightmare

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i need attention so bad but idk what to post...

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screw recovery!!! ill get worse anyways so let me be >XP

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smoking with somebody is such a romantic concept if you think really hard abt it (trust)

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“finally summer break!!!”

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guys plz

somebody plz talk to me, we don't gotta be moots im just so fucking lonely rn

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vodkaaaa

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Why do I get insulted so easily when it comes to him, I sent him a picture of my tanline and I was like 'u can save it' bc he acted like he really liked it, and then was like 'nah its fine'. So you think im disgusting and ugly and fat, fuck off.

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surely posting to tumblr will magically solve all my problems

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borderline personality disorder?? i have big penis disorder wdym

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this is your daily reminder that people with schizophrenia are bodily human beings who are the same species as you and deserve the same amount of respect as you do. we are not inherently lesser than anyone, especially not neurotypicals.