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[bravesecrets]

hey! it's me, you may know me as "bravesecrets" since i've never really said my name here before, but i feel the need to introduce me right now, so... hi, i'm emma... just emma.

i don't know how many people is gonna read this since i don't really have that many followers, but, to whom might be interested: i opened this account a while ago because i wanted a place to talk about my feelings, a place to vent, and tumblr seemed like the perfect platform for it. i started posting whatever thoughts were going to my mind, most of them were in moments of intense sadness, and i saw a lot of people identified with what i had to say and so i kept going.

i have depression as you may have noticed. i've been medicated, i've been in a mental facility for it and (TW/ su1cide) i've tried to end my life in multiple occasions. this depression has been going on for years now and even though i've tried all possible ways to get rid of it, it is not possible.

recently i've been thinking a lot about recovery and the process of healing and i've realized that my depression might never go away, but it might get a bit better, if i work enough i might be able to control it and actually function like a normal person lol. so, i've decided to actually put hard work on my mental health because i'm so exhausted of feeling like this all the time, and for the wellness of my life, i've decided to leave tumblr, it's been fun, it's been lovely, i'll stick around on tumblr to find positive things i'm interested on, but from a different account which i won't be revealing haha.

kinda hard to leave this behind but it's all for the best, and even though i know it sucks to hear this, i have to say it: everything will get better. you just have to try (ugh, try, i know, but it'll be worth it).

thanks to everyone who has read my posts, and thanks to the few people who follows me and has send me messages to check on me... something positive did came out of this and is i know i'm never alone, there's a lot of people going through the same things i am and that's a bit comforting.

this is a permanent goodbye, but my quotes will forever live in the walls of tumblr and the accounts of all those who ever reposted my posts, do with them whatever you want.

so, see ya in hell fuckers, hope you all find a way out of your depression.

with a lot of fucked up love, emma. ❤️‍🩹

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No matter how careful I am, something always goes wrong

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sucks

no one tells you how much harder it is to actually let go of a person you genuinely love because despite everything you still see the human in them and all the small beautiful pieces that no one else sees and the intimate moments you share and always living in your head and until you’ve in it yourself you’ll never understand how painful it actually is.

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Can I just go back to the time where my smiles and laughs were pure and real?

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I just wanna know what you're feeling

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Old messages really hit you hard when you know that bond will never come back

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It only gets sadder as we grow older

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I'm so scared of how this ends

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"I feel myself falling further down your priorities"

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I'm so sick of everything I am and everything I'm not

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Why did we have to end like this?

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Expectations can destroy you.

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Life is hard I know, but it get even harder when you know that no one is there for you.

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My problem is I never healed, I just kept going.

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I’m full of unsaid words.

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I replay every memory to keep you with me.

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I'm scared I'll run into you, cause I don't know what our reaction will be.