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Raindrops falling outside my window; cold breeze softly touching my skin. I’m thinking of the times we’ve shared together. How are you today? I hope you’re doing fine. If not, may you find contentment even on the littlest of things around you and try to enjoy them.

Sharing this gem I’m enjoying any time of the day and whatever weather. I hope this helps you on contemplating life. Have a good rest, my dear.

(Video not mine.)

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I have those lutang moments

Tulad ng isang styropor na naligaw sa gitna ng dagat, ang buhay ko ay palutang-lutang. 

Sumasabay sa agos ng buhay. Minsan nakatitig lang sa alon pero hindi gumagalaw. Hindi kumikilos. Walang ginagawa. 

Alam ninyo yung pakiramdam na mayroon kang gustong gawin at mayroon kang kailangang gawin pero hindi ka makagalaw. Para bang na-sting ka ng isang jellyfish na sa sobrang sakit, hindi mo na maipadyak ang mga paa mo?

Hindi ko alam kung paano magsisimula. 

O magpatuloy.

Napakaraming factor ang gumugulo sa akin, sa atin. Na nalilito tayo kung saan lalangoy, kung paano lumangoy at minsan, kung paano ba lumutang sa tubig.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta.

Doon ba sa kabilang isla? Sa pampang? Sa daungan ng mga malalaking barko?

Noong bata ako, excited akong lumangoy. Minsan nga. pinupunan ko na lang ng tubig ang pulang batsa na ginagamit ng tita ko sa paglalaba. Masaya na ako doon. Nagtatampisaw. Nagpapalamig.

Ngayon, hindi na ako makangiti sa gitna ng dagat. Nalulunod na ako, hindi sa tubig na galing sa Dagat Pasipiko, kundi sa karagatan ng responsibilities, expectations, insecurities, kaba at takot.

Mahirap yung ganito. Siguro dahil hindi na ako bata, kaya wala nang mas matanda sa akin na nagsasabi ng umahon ka na diyan, baka magkasakit ka o huwag mong paglaruan yang hose, sayang ang tubig. Kahit may mga tao sa paligid mo, sarili mo pa rin naman ang kikilos at magdedesisyon.

Naiintindihan ko na yung mga magulang ko, tito at tita, kung bakit sila nahihirapan noon. Kung bakit nagpapasaway pa ako sa kabila ng pagod nila sa trabaho, kung bakit nasasaktan nila ako kapag sinasagot ko sila nang pabalang. Well, deserve ko naman kasi talaga ang masinturon at makaluhod sa asin.

Hindi na ako bata.

Hindi na ako bumabata. Regalo na sa akin kung makakatawa pa ako o makakangiti sa kabila ng mga nangyari, mangyayari, responsibilidad at expectation sa sarili. Mahirap i-sustain ang happiness ah. Siguro dahil introvert ako kaya nasasabi ko ‘to pero sa tingin ko, halos lahat tayo, magdaraan sa ganitong stage. Kung saan para tayong isang styropor na palutang-lutang sa dagat. Hindi alam kung saan aanurin. Hindi alam kung saan mapapadpad.

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Thick glass, your eyes

What's behind those sad little eyes

Slow beats, bright lights

There is you behind fun lies

Dry, your dry humor

Soft heart beyond the rumors

Stern brows and quiet view

Billion colors, popping hues

Cold, the room felt cold

Shutting off, you once told

Stay, what it meant to stay?

Nothing else, what did you say?

She, there was she

Ah, before those sad little eyes

Me, i thought it was me

Inside the warm cavern, i see

Water, i see reflection

No, it was deflection

Sunset, it was sunset

Now it is sunset

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"Gregariousness"

m.d.

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At the end of the day, no matter how many times I’ve told myself, I can’t seem to let go of the words you’ve said. The fleeting feelings I had caused by your dry humor and the once-in-a-while smiles. I’m still affected by your distant regard online, this is stupid. I’m caught up. 

Imagine if I wasn't such a coward And I had the courage hidden somewhere in my heart To look you in the eye

- Imagine If | gnash

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Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing.  Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance.  I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing. But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings

i love u i hate u | gnash

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We shouldn’t be afraid of making mistakes. What we should really afraid of is repeating the same mistake.

antoniusrlim (via perfeqt)

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clock struck twelve i'm drunk with sad melodies and lonely proses; what else could fill these empty gaps and endless holes of my paper heart?

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are you in college?

i am in pain

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She did not want to move, or to speak. She wanted to rest, to lean, to dream. She felt very tired.

Virginia Woolf, The Years (via wordsnquotes)

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Detached is one thing, lonely is another but today I feel both.

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09/17/16

I see life a little bit more complicated than before. Still, I’ll tread life like I’m not strangled by these harsh realities and see the good that is left in fragments.

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If you don't turn off the spotlight and if you don't give up on your dreams, maybe then, something that's even more fairytale-like than a fairytale might happen.

Kim Hye Jin, She Was Pretty

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"moving on" what is in it that makes it so hard? the words, the smiles tears and laughter the scent of your hair everything about you and me, and everyone else the purple skies the burning incense those memories those feelings that matter and doesn't matter every little detail the sudden distance enveloped with awry goodbye that's what makes "moving on" bitter, and harder awful and painful but when i moved on, i felt freedom m.d.