hi guys, so i’m going away for a few days to a friends because ever since winnie went to her new home my mental health has seriously declined, im not doing well at home, so im going to see my best friend who’s about 4 hours away.
i will be still writing don’t worry, the next jingle bell ball fic is set to come out tomorrow and i have a lando one too. i just might not be super active on here other than that.
i haven’t struggled this severe in a long time and i think im finally at a breaking point where if i don’t keep myself distracted i wont be here anymore.
i love you guys, i appreciate you guys more than you know, thank you for being here and supporting me regardless❤️
i can never go like a day without someone in my family making a tone deaf comment about my eating and then wonder why i skip meals, hide from them to eat and don’t want to joint family dinners. like what do you expect when you make me feel disgusting about myself every single day?😃
𝐬𝐲𝐧𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐬: there is nothing more max loves than your homemade hot chocolate, especially knowing now he’ll get it for the rest of his life
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: none very fluffy and cute🏻
𝐚/𝐧: yay fic number two for my jingle bell ball! i hope everyone is doing okay! im feeling a bit better today but still taking it easy
The living room was dimly lit, the fireplace crackling, a candle filtering in the corner filling the room with a soft scent of fresh cut balsam, of course a necessity as you and Max has a fake Christmas tree.
The light was bouncing off the newly placed diamond ring on your left hand, your eyes still looking at it, it was beautiful really, and a surprise even you didn’t see coming.
“Is it okay?”
Glancing up you noticed Max, a smile on his face in his hands a santa mug and a snowman mug, you knew exactly what he was waiting to ask
“It’s beautiful baby, I love it..and I love you”
“I love you too, you deserve only the best”
His eyes almost twinkled at your confirmation, before you let out a soft laugh
“Are you waiting to ask me to make hot chocolate Mr.Verstappen?”
“How did you know Mrs.Vertsappen?”
You couldn’t help the way your face flushed at the future title you’d soon have
“Well you usually come and stand by me looking all cute and sometimes pouty…also the mugs gave it away”
In classic Max fashion he rolled his eyes, not wanting to admit that to you, but begrudgingly holding out the mugs to you
“Okay okay i’ll stop teasing, you set up the couch for a movie and i’ll go make us some cocoa”
“Thank you” he mumbled softly, the ghost of a smile tugging at his lips
“You’re welcome my big baby”
Pressing a kiss to his lips you disappeared to the kitchen, cutting up some milk and dark chocolate before setting them over hot water to melt. Stirring the chocolate as you heated some milk up on the element beside it, you’d been making this recipe since you were a little girl with your grandmother and now Max couldn’t get enough of it. None of his friends could either, and yes, last year you ended up making the biggest amount of hot cocoa you had ever made.
Truthfully it was the most fun you’d had.
You placed the mugs down on the countertop, pouring the milk into them before dividing up the chocolate mixture evenly, being sure to incorporate all the the ingredients before topping them with mini marshmallows, Max’s favourite.
“Alright my little grinch, here is your cocoa”
Max let out a laugh before taking the snowman mug from you, smiling as he noticed the marshmallows
“It looks amazing, thank you darling”
“You are very welcome my love”
He helped you get comfy next to him on the couch, pulling a few of the fuzzy blankets over your laps, Elf waiting to play on the television. As always you let him take the first sip, smiling as he closed his eyes and nodded
“I knew I was making the right decision asking you to marry me” he teased lightly causing you to gasp
“Max Emilian Verstappen did you only ask me for my hot cocoa?!”
He shrugged, a smirk on his face
“Your hot cocoa privileges have been revoked!”
As you went to grab his mug he moved his hand, his eyes widening
“NO DON’T TAKE MY COCOA!!”
“THEN TAKE IT BACK!!”
Max finally relented, letting out a laugh at your grumpy pout
“Alright alright baby, I asked you because I love you I promise…”
You narrowed your eyes at him
“Though the hot cocoa-”
Your fiancé might be the biggest pain in the ass, but he was yours and he also happened to be the biggest fan of your hot chocolate, which in your mind, made up for everything else.
Hi! If you don't mind me asking, how come your dog is going to a new home? Adorable doggo btw! And don't feel like you have to answer! I was just curious
Hope you're doing okay! 🏼
hi angel, i don’t mind it’s a bit of a long story: so i recently got out of a really bad domestic violence/abusive situation with my mother and stepfather who got the dog, she became my dog essentially from day one due to their neglecting tendencies and because they were both addicts. so not only was i being abused, she in a way was too and i did everything i could to protect her..
winnie ended up being mine and my grandparents and unfortunately they’re getting too old to handle her on their own and with my upcoming move to europe she just can’t travel with me due to anxiety and health conditions she acquired, so i decided to rehome her luckily to family friends of mine so ill still be able to see her and the family is so so amazing and loving.
trust me it was not something i wanted to do, and ill spend forever beating myself up over it but its for the best
dropped my sweet angel to her new home today and it’s hurting more than i thought it would, my house is too quiet, my bedroom is too quiet…she left the biggest hole where my heart is and i don’t think it’ll ever be filled…i can’t stop crying and i know she probably thinks i abandoned her and that hurts so much more…
i don’t know what to do without her…i don’t feel like myself anymore
(i don’t know if i’ll manage to write today yet or not im so sorry in advance)
hi hi everyone, so chapter six is up and i hope you all enjoy it, my dog is going to her new home tomorrow and idk if i’m going to write anything and if i do it will probably be sad and angsty because it’ll be how i’m feeling all day🙃