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[christyingram]

I'm glad my circle is small. It's unfortunate the circumstances that's caused me to have such a small circle, but clearly the universe said "focus on you and yours, and fuck everyone else." The disrespect and hate my circle has received the last year is disgusting, and there are at least 2 people who are rolling over in their graves. We were not raised this way. We were not told to disrespect each other. We were not given the authority or permission to act this way towards each other. I have kept my mouth shut mostly this entire time. Only have I expressed my issues and concerns within my circle because expressing them outside of my circle would fall upon deaf ears or it just wouldn't matter. But the way my mom and sister have been spoken to by others outside of the circle, I hope you all rue the fucking day when it's YOUR judgement day at the "pearly gates" and the savior asks about that time in March - May, 2023. You all know who you fucking are and I hope you have all lost sleep over this. Whether it be regret, sorrow, or mournful, may your sleep forever be disturbed and may *God" have mercy on your soul. Oh and, Bless your hearts too.

[christyingram]

Let me tell y'all about this man right here.

My husband, Justin, is one of the hardest working men I have ever met. He asks for nothing in return, he doesn't require repayment, and he is always there when ANYONE asks for help despite their past. We have been through almost everything together. We bought our first house together recently, we bought our first brand new car back in 2020 together, and we have traveled to 20+ states together. We've experienced death, birth, growth, sadness, happiness, marriages, moving, learned a thing or two, we are blessed.

[christyingram]

Been a minute, been busy.

Feeling off the last few days. Not feeling pretty, or good at anything I've been doing. Just feel like I'm in a slump. I feel like I need a week to recoup from whatever BS I've got in my brain. Work is exhausting having to clean up other people's fuck ups and dealing with patients is a whole other thing. Just wanna feel normal again.

[christyingram]

If I would have known how convoluted buying a house was, I probably never would have started this fucking bullshit. You need all kinds of stupid stuff to prove how much money you have and make, they need to know who your HR person is at your work, they need closing docs on the home your selling before you can even close on the new home. I know it's gonna be well fucking worth it in the end but God damn the before process is a fucking struggle. I cried so much last night because of how much this has taken a toll on my mental health and just the anxiety of "what if we don't sell this home?" "What if we can't actually afford the new mortgage?" "What if the buyer wants us to fix things before they buy it?" Like shit that's gonna cost us money has me so fucking worried, I almost threw up last night.

And I feel like I can't talk with J about it, he's so wrapped up in moving to the new one he's not thinking about all the other stuff with our current home. "We're selling it as is, babe." Yeah I get that but still. "They are gonna have to either move it or follow the rules of the landlord." Also, understandable, but the reason we're moving is to get away from those rules and have our own space because rules are fucking stupid here. And I feel like I can't talk to our realtor because I feel so ignorant asking and complaining about these things...

[christyingram]

Instagram/Facebook is a plague and I didn't really wanna post anything there anymore. But I wanted to share my new popsocket I got that is for my nanny ❤️ her favorite flower was iris and she always had them planted in her yard.

[christyingram]

When your husband doesn't listen to you and just completely ignores you. To give some context, he's playing Fallout 76 with his family and asks a question where/what something is and I tell him and he completely ignores me and my knowledge of the game. I'm over his obsession with this fucking game.

[christyingram]

Probably gonna be here more often than i have been. Facebook is trash, Twitter (X) has been dead to me for years, and Instagram never works for me. So here I am I think. This will be a safe space for myself and everyone who follows or chooses to join me on the chaotic ride called life.

[christyingram]

Good morning ❤️🔆 (at Lake of the Arbuckles) https://www.instagram.com/p/CV-q4aDLBf4/?utm_medium=tumblr