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also remember how u gave me shit for using electricity freely but now u leave the aircon running overnight with no timer but I get to feel unsure every time I use electricity even though I pay for it

see also I charge my power banks at work so I help to save on electricity

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Bothering the beast

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It has apparently been ten years since the time one of my professors pulled me aside to tell me I had to clean up after making out before going to class because my lipstick was everywhere and I realized "actually my tapdancing group decided we all had to dress like the Joker for our performance" was an infinitely worse explanation so I just said I was sorry

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abstract and modern art haters are sooo snobby like klein literally Created an entirely new pigment and then painted a canvas in a way where the brush strokes wouldn't be visible. the insinuation that people with no skill could reproduce that is so annoying because unless you are skilled at color mixing and painting you definitely couldn’t lmao

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Annalaura_art

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rain doggo 

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gonna try using tumblr on my 3DS

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"I hope I can make it up to you" how

how were you going to make it up to me pray tell

what tangible actions or action plan have you taken to secure this

bc you haven't turned your alarms back on

and you haven't shared location again

plus I don't know anything

shouldn't you tell me what the plan is??

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oof something to confirm I definitely have repressed trauma from the relationship when it was bad is me watching a how to protect ur dyed hair from chlorine video while doing the laundry and thinking oh I should put on something while cleaning and then going I can't put on my usual psychology related stuff bc I don't want to remind us both that he's not doing learning so I'm like oh I'll put on interesting stuff like that podcast where I learnt about the brain and then I had a flashback of how he hated me when I listened to that podcast and how I went to excitedly tell him about it but I was so nervous because he was madly deactivated and now I'm feeling like

unprocessed anxiety from that time that I'm struggling to get rid of and it's dampening me so much so I'm here to write it down to help me feel more valid and that my trauma is real and not me making shit up or worse than it actually is bc he acts like it's not a big deal 89% of the time which gaslights me into believing it's nbd so I then invalidate myself when I have big feelings about it instead of listening to them and processing them and getting to heal

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some loser: humans are innately selfish creatures

my psych book:

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and that's what you missed on glee

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my love language is watching the TV shows i recommend you bc this is my deepest interest

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there's a cherry blossom tree in DC that keeps blooming every year even though it shouldn't and the park service keeps thinking it's dead and then it keeps blooming! well they're removing a lot of trees to rehabilitate the area and they've said it's finally time for stumpy to go and they're going to mulch it and use the mulch to enrich all the other trees so it can help everything else keep going. and they're also going to plant spliced little pieces of it all over so that stumpy can live forever and this is genuinely sending me into a spiral

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Kristen "the greatest cleric of our age" Chilis Applebees