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Quizá de manera inconciente siento culpa.

En primer lugar, intenté ser una persona que no era.

Alguien inteligente, que le gustan las matemáticas. Para creerme mejor que los demás. Para presumir.

¿La peor decisión después de esa? Comenzar a drogarme. Aún sabiendo que tenía historial de problemas con adicciones por parte de mi padre. Lo hice. Y de nuevo, quizá la raíz de todo es la culpa que siento por no tomar buenas decisiones.

Quizá tenga una oportunidad más. O quizá no.

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He pensado en suicidarme tantas veces que me da miedo. Se que es para cobardes. Para débiles mentales.

Pero esa es justo mi situación. He dicho tantas mentiras que vivo en una.

Lo he pensado. Y he llorado.

Solo tu y yo sabemos eso. Nadie más.

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Estoy en un, muy mal momento. Voy a decepcionar a mi familia cuando se enteren que no he sido la persona que aparento.

He fingido.

He mentido.

He desperdiciado recursos de mí familia, que no merezco.

¿¿¿Quién soy???

Evitó mis responsabilidades. Para estar cómodo. ¿Que persona hace eso?

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Tantas veces te has cuestionado sobre lo que el futuro te tiene preparado. Que te olvidas de vivir el presente. Por desgracia piensas tanto en el pasado, que tu mente divaga todo el día.

Te la pasas arrepentido de no haber actuado mejor y de todo el tiempo que has desperdiciado.

Debes encontrar la manera de parar.

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De: mí

Para: mí

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Hopin’ my 20 somethings won’t end Hopin’ to keep the rest of my friends Prayin’ the 20 somethings don’t kill me, kill me.

Doves In The Wind – SZA, Kendrick Lamar

Dontcha – The Internet

Summertime Magic – Childish Gambino

Feel Like A Fool – Kali Uchis

Pink + White – Frank Ocean

Boredom – Tyler, The Creator, Rex Orange County, Anna Of The North

In My Feelings – Drake

Broken Clocks – SZA

Tomorrow – Kali Uchis

On My Mind (Jorja Smith X Preditah) – Jorja Smith, Preditah

Don’t Matter To Me – Drake, Michael Jackson

Along the Coast – Azealia Banks

All To You – Sabrina Claudio

Psycho (feat. Ty Dolla $ign) – Post Malone, Ty Dolla $ign

After The Storm (feat. Tyler, The Creator & Bootsy Collins) – Kali Uchis, Tyler, The Creator, Bootsy Collins

Prom – SZA

Crack Rock – Frank Ocean

See You Again – Tyler, The Creator, Kali Uchis

Matt’s Apartment – The Internet

Sky Walker – Miguel, Travis Scott

20 Something – SZA

Come Over – The Internet

I Feel It Coming – The Weeknd, Daft Punk

Feels Like Summer – Childish Gambino

God’s Plan – Drake

Location – Khalid

Tyrant (feat. Jorja Smith) – Kali Uchis, Jorja Smith

Waterfalls – TLC

Go Gina – SZA

Sometimes… – Tyler, The Creator

911 / Mr. Lonely – Tyler, The Creator, Frank Ocean, Steve Lacy

Sober – Childish Gambino

Heebiejeebies - Bonus – Aminé, Kehlani

Flight 22 – Kali Uchis

Girl – The Internet, KAYTRANADA

Banana Clip – Miguel

Teenage Fantasy – Jorja Smith

Summer Games – Drake

The Weekend - Funk Wav Remix – SZA, Calvin Harris

Your Teeth In My Neck – Kali Uchis

Dang! (feat. Anderson .Paak) – Mac Miller, Anderson .Paak

Redbone – Childish Gambino

Coming Home - Interlude – Kali Uchis

waves - Tame Impala Remix – Miguel, Tame Impala

Supermodel – SZA

Passionfruit – Drake

Garden Shed – Tyler, The Creator, Estelle

White – Odd Future, Frank Ocean

Diddy Bop (feat. Cam O'bi & Raury) – Noname, Cam O'bi, Raury

Forrest Gump – Frank Ocean

Just A Stranger (feat. Steve Lacy) – Kali Uchis, Steve Lacy

After Dark – Drake, Static Major, Ty Dolla $ign

Wavy (Interlude) – SZA, James Fauntleroy

Normal Girl – SZA

Where This Flower Blooms – Tyler, The Creator, Frank Ocean

Creep – TLC

Wicked Games – The Weeknd

Nuestro Planeta (feat. Reykon) – Kali Uchis, Reykon

Am I Wrong – Anderson .Paak, ScHoolboy Q

Coaster – Khalid

Special Affair – The Internet

Hold On, We’re Going Home – Drake, Majid Jordan

Fertilizer – Frank Ocean

Thinkin Bout You – Frank Ocean

Stand Tall – Childish Gambino

Cloud of Our Own – The Internet

Starboy – The Weeknd, Daft Punk

Blue Lights – Jorja Smith

Glitter – Tyler, The Creator

Pretty Little Birds – SZA, Isaiah Rashad

Miami (feat. BIA) – Kali Uchis, BIA

Unstoppable - FKJ Remix – Lianne La Havas

Movin’ On Up (Coco’s Song, Love Beats Rhymes) – Azealia Banks

Tellem (Intro) – The Internet

Pothole – Tyler, The Creator, Jaden Smith

Amphetamine – Smino

Get You (feat. Kali Uchis) – Daniel Caesar, Kali Uchis

All I Want Is You – Miguel, J. Cole

I’m Upset – Drake

Ivy – Frank Ocean

The Palisades – Childish Gambino, Christian Rich

They Say – The Internet, Tay Walker

Dead To Me – Kali Uchis

Love Galore – SZA, Travis Scott

Foreword – Tyler, The Creator, Rex Orange County

Baby Boy – Childish Gambino

Carry Me Home – Jorja Smith, Maverick Sabre

Pupil | The Patience – The Internet

Energy – Drake

Summer Friends (feat. Jeremih & Francis & The Lights) – Chance The Rapper, Jeremih, Francis and the Lights

Nights – Frank Ocean

Empty – Kevin Abstract

Best I Ever Had – Drake

Sunset – The Internet, Yuna

Oldie – Odd Future

Garden (Say It Like Dat) – SZA

Self Control – Frank Ocean

Fake Love – Drake

Roll (Burbank Funk) – The Internet

Wasted Times – The Weeknd

Big Fish – Vince Staples

BBO (Bad Bitches Only) – Migos, 21 Savage

Escapades – Azealia Banks

Retro [ROUGH] – Childish Gambino

Dark Red – Steve Lacy

Drew Barrymore – SZA

Analog 2 – Odd Future, Tyler, The Creator, Frank Ocean, Syd

Solo – Frank Ocean

Partners in Crime, Pt. 2 – The Internet

Get It Together – Drake, Black Coffee, Jorja Smith

Where Did I Go? – Jorja Smith

GLOWED UP – KAYTRANADA, Anderson .Paak

The Bird – Anderson .Paak

Confidently Lost – Sabrina Claudio

Chanel – Frank Ocean

Runnin’ – The Internet, Tay Walker

February 3rd – Jorja Smith

I Was Never There – The Weeknd, Gesaffelstein

Provider – Frank Ocean

Sunflower – Rex Orange County

C U Girl – Steve Lacy

Wait a Minute! – Willow

Shadow Man (feat. Phoelix, Smino & Saba) – Noname, Phoelix, Smino, Saba

Fine Lines – Jorja Smith

Caroline – Aminé

Belong To You (feat. 6LACK) - Remix [Bonus Track] – Sabrina Claudio, 6LACK

The Big Big Beat – Azealia Banks

OTW – Khalid, 6LACK, Ty Dolla $ign

Young Dumb & Broke – Khalid

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