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I just have to say something

This is Jerry's song

[darkbluekies]

I hope that you like to read because the birthday oneshot is currently my longest oneshot for this account. I am not done yet

[darkbluekies]

Hello there lovely, how have you been? I'm really glad you have wonderful people like your family supporting you and helping you through tough times, it's heartwarming and beautiful to see! Changes are intimidating and it gets hard to adjust and I'm glad you have your family to help you and I hope your mothers wrist heals very soon as well, drink water, indulge in hobbies when you can and whatever helps you be in ease! hopefully you're doing quite well! Take care as always 🫶🏼

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i'm rambling again, you don't have to read<3 it became a bit long, sorry, but thank you a lot♡♡ I am taking care of myself♡

i love my family a lot, they're probably the most important people in my life. My mother is not liking having to stay home, our family does not like just laying around, we need to do stuff or we start to feel low.

But I'm feeling much better, I'm starting to be a bit excited for the future, escpecially when it comes to my own writing and what that can become in the future. I've realized that the pressure I've had since I was little, to publish as soon as I can, doesn't have to be like that. I don't have to publish in my teens, or my twenties, or even thirties. I can wait until I¨m forty to publish if i want, and that's reassuring.

I have looked up some story structures (save the cat method) and coming up with new ideas! I'm currently writing a (private/for a physical market) 80s thirller story that is a mixture between Mean Girls, The first Saw movie, Heathers and a swedish 1980s series called Ebba & Didrik. A story i came up with in 2021 and haven't been able to write before. It came to me as a nightmare and when I woke up, I drew a picture of it to not forget ... and now there's a full story about it!

Just look at these pictures from Ebba & Didrik, it was my absolute favorite series when I was a kid. I somehow loved the bully group lead by the brown haired girl. I don't know why, maybe the exclusive feeling of it? Not sure why, just look at this and tell me lmao (warning for loud sounds, the 80s microphones can't take their high voices)

Sorry that it became so long, it's just nice to share sometimes lmao?? <3

And I am indulging in hobbies! Especially kitchen things. If you didn't know, I love baking and cooking and making things from scratch. I have made my own butter, my own ice cream, my own raw juice etc. It's so fun. I made cupcakes and carbonara. I loved the cupcakes, hated the carbonara. I know that I don't like pasta sauces ESPECIALLY cheese sauces, but somehow i thought that it would be good. it was not. everyone else liked it though.

[darkbluekies]

Hello!

I just read your post about you havin sum problems, so stay healthy and we will wait patiently for you to come back to us and always remember, stay healthy and safe.

❤️❤️✨✨

thank you sweetheart<3

i'm making it bigger than it is, i just need to pull myself together and stop being so annoying haha

i'm doing much better so i'm probably back with normal content soon<3 right now i just need to catch up on my sleep lol

[darkbluekies]

Hiiii just wanted to check up (this is too soon?) how are you? Are you feeling better? Have you been eating well? Drinking? Sleeping? 😆 please stay safe!

Hi, sweetheart ♡ not at all too soon, I'm actually very happy that you checked in!! :((<33

I am doing a bit better! It's not on my mind all the time, but at night when I have the time to actually think, it still makes my stomach turn and I have had a hard time falling asleep, but I know that things will work out, they always do in the end, even if the "journey" there is uncomfortable<3 I'd say that the overall shock of the realization that life will have to change whether I want to or not soon has subsided, but I can't accepting it just yet. It probably tripled because of menstrual hormones which was why I had to so abruptly isolate myself!

I'm currently spending more time with my family and talking with my brothers who don't live at home to feel better. My mother has broken her wrist and has to stay home for now, so I'm making sure to help her and keep her company <3

I haven't been sleeping well this week, have skipped some classes, and when I have gone I haven't been able to listen very well, and my legs have hurt quite a bit, but i will try to make up for it this weekend<33

thank you sweetheart<3

[darkbluekies]

It’s okayyy!!! Take your time! Please don’t stress yourself out and please make sure to eat and drink and like get some fresh air 🙈😆 🫶🏼

Thank you, I will do my best♡ warning for life update lmao

Tmi, I can checkpoint breaking down in a public park of my bucket list 🤡 thankgully my best friend was there to help me!

BUT on better notes, I've talked to one of my dear older brothers and my parents about it and they have calmed me down and tried to make me see things from another perspective, so I'm not as scared anymore. I'm still kind of nervous and nauseous, but maybe it won't be as bad as I'm making it out to be♡ it's starting to sink down a bit (after 3 days of complete panicking and breaking down lmao)

I contemplated not going to my classes today, but I pushed myself to do it and enjoyed it because of my friends. God I love them<3

I've also been writing a little on the birthday oneshot today, but that was fun! And a project I've been working on since August 2023 was graded/accepted today so I don't have to think about that anymore!! I passed, they loved my assignment and my documentary film♡

Currently out running to clear my head and it's so freeing♡

[darkbluekies]

take your time and take as much break as you need and don't worry much about posting, please prioritize yourself ‼️‼️‼️especially your health. we will be waiting patiently 🔥🔥

Thank you so much♡♡

Things are just frightening now but they always work out in the end♡

[darkbluekies]

See you soon love! Take care, times like these are heart pounding and I understand that. You take your time, okay? We will be waiting with open arms! <3

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Thank you so much, i feel so trapped. I'm the type of person to be able to eat and do the same thing for months because it's familiar and safe, you know? So having my entire life switch makes me want to throw up. I don't feel like I'm ready for all these changes, i need more time, I'm not ready yet. I'll try not to vent too much on here, it won't so me any good, but please just know that I really appreciate your words.

I'll take some time off to try to process it all. Then I'll be back, better than ever♡ I love you all♡♡♡

[darkbluekies]

I apologize in before hand IF it happens that I disappear for a little. So many things are about to change in my life and as a person who cannot handle change, I'm currently scared to death and walking around with a lot of anxiety. I can barely think about anything else.

I just need to come to an acceptance that life won't be the same and be okay with it. Not sure how long that will take but I will make sure to finish the birthday oneshot and post it of course on time!!

Love you all, see you soon<3

[darkbluekies]

I LOVE YOUR WRITING ITS BEAUTIFUL!! Have you ever considered starting a c.ai account? I would love if you started to make bots on there! (Only if you want to of course)

since this isn't the first time this question has popped up, let me say this in the clearest way possible so that there won't be any misunderstandings: I despise ai with my entire being and will never, ever engage with it. The only time it is interesting is in fiction, not in real life.

but thank you a lot for liking my writing! I put in so, so many hours into my works. I write when I'm home, when i'm out on walks, when I'm in class, on the bus, on the subway, when I'm watching movies and in the car. Even when I go to bed at night, I think of new scenarios that I would like to write. The only time I don't write is when I'm sleeping and running.

I can't imagine putting in so many hours of my life, just to give it to an ai.

[darkbluekies]

Who knew sitting for 5 academic tests for 9 hours would absolutely fuck with your emotions

If I don't get to eat eggs on bread and be left in solitude promptly I will literally punch someone

[darkbluekies]

really random but whats your mbti? and how do you feel abt it?

I have no idea honestly. I'm not very interested in those kinds of things. I dont know, i feel unsure about categorizing a person just by a persinality test? Like what says that every person with this particular mbti feels the same and are similar? I don't know I just don't like labeling people at all, with any types of labels!!

but if I had to guess, I'd probably be a mix between introvert and extrovert because I love to do things by myself. I love my own company. When I'm going somewhere or such, my first instinct isn't to call someone and have them join me, I do it myself. I have a pretty low social battery, but I'm not afraid to speak to people or make small talk with strangers. I actually love it. Especially when it's old people. I love to hear about their lives<3

[darkbluekies]

I was actually going to sleep then I saw you respond to my ask, I'm actually very interested and intrigued so I wanted to respond immediately!

— Jesus fucking Christ they actually measured the entirety of the ship? That level of hm, how does one describe this, pettiness or determination? Perhaps a sense of both, I mean I'd get petty too if I lost something valuable and ended up getting an unfair compensation. I wonder what the reaction of the Germans were when they realized they actually measured it.

— oh god that's actually so fucking hilarious 😭😭 getting worked up over nothing, I mean, at least they had a design? 😭

— That's quite something, Grey Ghost? Why is QMS nickname Grey Ghost? Does it have relations due to it being not found?

— I... I have no idea what to say 😭 that's actually so ironic

— Holy shit a ship sinking in just 14 minutes is plain terrifying?? Why did it sink that fast anyways?

— Wow... That's actually really sad and quite brave of him too, I don't think I've heard of the Wilhelm Gustloff disaster and 9000 deaths in one night is crazy. Hopefully that guy is doing alright, it's possible he might get survivors guilt, I might research about the disaster and see what I can find!

— woah, the first design is quite pretty! The second one reminds me of a factory for some reason

Ahh this is what little brain juice I can squeeze out from my brain, though I actually enjoyed this and it made my night more interesting! :D I'll head off to sleep now, goodnight!

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— lol apparently? there were more petty things in that affair, such as painting a ship supposed to be given to White Star Line in Germany's colors, turnign the british officers' quarters to a cleaning supply room etc lmao

— it was a design alright ... just not a good one. The wings of the golden eagle fell of during a storm so they're at the bottom of the atlantic right now. The eagle looks even more stupid without the wings😭 (picture at the bottom)

—The ship was painted fully grey because it was used as a troop ship which made it hard to find it. The ship was extremely fast, so it was fast to catch her. These two characteristics earned her the name The Grey Ghost. (picture at the bottom)

— the ships weren't even alike???? one had an funnel and whatnot?? i'm not even sure how they thought that it would work ... and it clearly didn't.

— It was a foggy night and two ships were supposed to go past each other, but in the fog they couldn't see each others lights, so a norweigan ship called Storstad rammed the side of Empress of Ireland and cut up a gigantic hole. The ship itself was almost half the size of titanic. A lot of people died that night because they didn't have the time to get out.

— I'm not even sure it was legal to sink the WG? I know that it had been a hospital ship during WW2 (it's seen as a war crime to sink a hospital ship), but it seems like it had returned to a normal ship during the time WG was sunk. The reason (i think) why it was sunk was because a lot of nazi party members were on board with their families, supposedly relocating to another country, and was sunken by soviet submarines. WIlhelm Gustloff could only carry 1465 passangers, but had around 10 000 during its sinking. Although there were many bad people on board there were children as well. The actor was a small child, so i hope that he doesn't remember much of it, because I cannot imagine the horror he must live with otherwise.

— Unfortunately, the times were changing and the edwardian design was no longer popular :( I would have loved another Olympmic class liner :(

here's a before an after of the eagle lmao

From left to right: SS Normandie, RMS Queen Mary, RMS Aquitania

I could talk about ocean liners forever. If I got paid by the hour to talk about them I would be so fucking rich I'm telling you

[darkbluekies]

I am not sure if you have done it already but:

Yandere x affection-starved Black Sheep darling?

Hear me out: a darling who is so used that their golden child sibling takes everything from them, from nice clothing/stuff to dates with potential partners. The sibling just steals everything away. And the parents only praise the sibling but never darling. Whenever bad something happened, darling is the one who gets to blame.

Neglected, traumatised and emotionally deprived they meet the yanderes, 100% believing they are just "interested" in them bc they want their sibling and are absolutely convinced & annoyed by their shows of affection (when in fact they are just scared to be hurt which always had been the case before).

Saying stuff like "Y'know, why dont you ask them directly? Stop using me to get closer to them!" And are absolutely puzzled by the reaction, when yan stress that they dont want anything from their relative. They want their darling.

And proceed to be persistent on that statement until darling believes them.

Well, basically this 👇🏼

I absolutely LOVE this kind of dynamic ♡^♡

Not only would all of them DESPISE the sibling (and the rest of the family) for beating their darling this much down, that darling does not have the heart to trust and love - including themselves - anymore, but are on edge to wipe them off from the face of earth. I say on edge because:

It would be too easy just to kill them. No. They have to suffer at first.

The most fun part: all yanderes have some sort of power / & wealth, which appeals the siblings (bc they are basic beaches) and try to seduce and snatch them away from darling like they always used to. And yanderes noticing, pulling strings to slowly but surely for the sibling to fall into insanity and ruin them once and for all.

Dr. Kry, my most favourite boy (Bonus: affectionate!cured!Darling x yan!Dr as it just fits 🤌🏻✨ to my favourite ship dynamic like a glove✨🤌🏻 that picture above🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻)

Dr. Kry would be on a whole new level of persistence and pettiness. You thought he was controlling, manipulative and unhinged 100%? Make it 200% :)

I can imagine how he would look down at the sibling when they show up to "visit their little troublemaker", showing themselves off, bragging how good they are "to come by" (however they never seem to ask to see darling directly though) and proceed to claim that darling is just overly dramatic and should "give you a break, and you shouldn't believe everything what they say. They just making it up". Laughing behind the back of darling's "sickness".

Remember that bloodphobia thoughts I have written? Yeah, imagine the rage if our beloved Dr. Kry finds out that the sibling is the key reason who triggered the phobia in the first place. Like humiliation in front of the class when darling got their first time period and sibling "pranked" them by lying to them that they are dying or sm HOMAGOSH HE WOULD BE SO MAD >:D

After finally persuading darling that he loves obsesses about them and not and never anyone else, month after month reassuring his likeness to darling, (Dr. Kry, a patient man) they start dating once darling surprisingly gets better after startint to believe him.

As a well-respected doctor and a rich man (I mean to remember you said he hardly spended his money, thus posessing goods) their sibling tries to seduce him but he shuts them down every time. In front of darling, in front of family, in front of everyone, in a humiliating way. Absolutely no f*cks given that he is talking to the "golden child". Then he starts to pull on the strings really hard. From making their sibling's wedding/relationships plans cancel to destroying their career and material possessions. But no one would suspect them bc Dr. Kry had taken care of it and happily cut ties off between darling and their obnoxious family already before.

His little one will never have to suffer anymore. And they gradually heal. With him on their side. Forever.

He would definitely have a saviour complex in this AU lol

Blue, what are you doing lately? HOW are you doing? I wish you a wonderful day my dear and hope you enjoyed my thought process again ^*^ 💕

(btw, I am fine. Really, without sarcasm, I come from a very loving family with a wonderful supporting sibling lmaoooo. So, pls don't worry XD As a fellow overthinker I feel the need to clear that hah~

Just loooove the creepy but strangely endearing vibes of these relationships lol There's just something catchy about them right???) And your OCs are just.... so FUN TO EXPLORE???!!! Like OMG, I love them and your stories all so. much! It really gives me motivation and kicks me into writing AGAIN after so many damn years of writer's block (but oc x oc. I find reader perspective strange ngl) even though I am not very strong in writing xD I write. But not that good...

Anyway take care of yourself and have a great week! 🤭❤

Byeeeee~

Fun fact about the black sheep concept: I actually have a black sheep character. Check out the 'Secrets' oneshot and you will see how Ares talks about Silas🤭 but a black sheep yn could also be quite cool???

I love how you wrote Kry, that's so cool to think about. He would 100% go out of his way to ruin your siblings life after everything they've deprived you off!! Doesn't he already have a savior complex? A white knight complex? At least a little? This is probably one of the few times there will be a happy ending with Kry lmaooo

What I'm doing lately? I am taking an 5h 20min test this Saturday (the entirety of it is 8h 50 min including breaks) so that's not very fun, but I think that my life is slowly starting to get better. I think that my legs are starting to heal from my injury, I have saved up money and my best friend comes home next week!! She moved to Germany 3 years ago. I miss her so much, we have been friends for 11 years and she has always taken care of me. She's the type to give me her jacket if I say that I'm cold and to warm my hands under her shirt. Only princess behavior here🥰

Haha don't worry, I'm the same. I'm a big overthinker (its better now though) who comes from a loving family, but youre right about that there's just something so interesting about yanderes lmao. Thank you so much foe liking them, I love to create characters that really feel human, because they make rhe story feel more alive that way!!

I totally get that you mean by oc x oc, moat of my private stories are that way, bur oc x you works better for Tumblr which is why these stories have that format!! Normally I write in 3d person with a fixed main character!

Please please write and show me!!! Feel free to reach out if you ever need some writing advice!! I'm not professional, but sometimes it's nice to just bounce thoughts with someone else<3

[darkbluekies]

Heyy!! How's your 5 ocs oneshot going rn? Is it finished or are you still working on it? Take your time though!! Can't wait to see the full oneshot tehee

HAHA WHAT A TIMING I JUST POSTED A TEASER

I'm still working on it. I would say that I am 4/5 done with it! I think i know mostly of what I'm going to write for the end, though. I have ideas for a part 2, so i might leave the ending somewhat open~

I'm so excited to show you all!!!

[darkbluekies]

1 MONTH LEFT TO THE BIRTHDAY ONESHOT????? (and my birthday???)

Last teaser before a "trailer" that will be posted in May (maybe, if I post the "trailer")

I hope that you will enjoy the Agatha Christie inspired oneshot♡

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If you want me something please send in English because I don't know what you want!! I won't answer asks that I can't understand.