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gonna do a few others at some point, but for now, heres the guys’ swords

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so originally i was just doing a ref of the twins for the sake of my own memory. but then i realized "hey i can also make a blind felix au ref outta this"

i chose to dress the bfau boys as i did for specific reasons and i yap about it all under the cut so if you wanna see an autistic person lose their mind about character design uhhh open it ig

• Felix likes wearing thick, baggy clothing because it makes him feel more weighted and secure. also, he often runs into stuff during his first few months of blindness, and the thicker clothing helps reduce injury. it just kinda subconsciously became his preferred style of clothing after that. yes, he will wear a knitted sweater in 90° heat. no, he's not okay

• Felix's shoes are also noticeably thicker-soled than Ted's bc, again, he's scared he's gonna step on something on accident. his shoes are also velcro instead of lace so he doesn't struggle with putting them on by himself

• bc Felix Sr/Mr. Huxely is an Asshole who teaches his kids Assholish Values, Felix is very much ashamed of having to use a cane for a long, long time. he normally has Ted carry it around for him and only uses it when he absolutely has to. normally TED is his living cane so he doesn't need it much agdhagsgaha

• Felix replaces his bandages the start of every day, and every night before he goes to bed. ...or, Ted does it for him. a few nurses have tried before but Felix always complains about them 'not doing it right' or 'making it too tight' and even if they manage to get the bandages on, Felix would just rip them off and demand for Ted to do it afterwards (this is my way of subtly saying Felix only wants and trusts Ted to do his bandages and he's terrified of everyone else lol haha)

• He's still a little snobby asshole but he gets better every day, especially after meeting other disabled people. it's a slow process, but he's getting there. slowly. sooooo slowly.

• ong the whole time I was drawing bfau Ted the more details i added to him the louder that at one Markiplier audio played in my head. 'oh, it's adorable! ...oh, it has anxiety. oh, it's traumatized-'

• the only positive about this situation is that since Felix isn't on his ass about upholding a formal appearance for the family name anymore, Ted can dress more to his style, which is like. how any 5 year old would wanna dress ODGOSGAIG

• also, Ted not only primarily wears red bc it's like. His Color, it also hides bloodstains very well. and as I said in my first bfau post, blood comes out when Felix cries, Ted just.. doesn't mention that

• there's not much else to say about Ted's design other than that I slapped the top of that bad boy and saw how much guilt I could fit in em. spoiler: its a lot

• Ted doesn't get very good sleep a lot of the time, and when hes not with Felix, it's bc Felix Sr is dragging him to a business meeting so that he can 'learn the ropes'. Ted sleeps the best whenever Felix is in the same room as him, so thats why he has the eyebags. he doesn't get to, often

• as I said in my last post, Ted blames himself for what happened, even if it like. isn't at all his fault. he smiles a lot less and has lost a lot of his joyous whimsy. he still is the kinder and more positive twin, hes just. hes really Sad

• if someone makes fun of Felix for being blind Ted will beat them with the cane, fullstop. don't test him

• ...okay this isnt an au-specific thing its just how I draw the twins but every time I get to do it it makes me go 'teehee'. Felix's little hair part thing is shaped like an apple, and Ted's is a heart. teehee. I love details

okay that's it thank you for reading the rambles of an autistic maniac now shoo shoo sprays you with spray bottle

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it's me i'm the someone you know

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don’t you just love it when a book you’re studying for english lit spirals into a hyperfixation

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"being with you, it awoke something in me. i think it reminded me that deep down, i'm still... human."

"you might not want to admit it, but you're not just a human; you're a good person."

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Laurance animation originally made for the 10 year anniversary <3 I’m a little late but oh well

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thinking about them too long makes me genuinely ill

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which romeo & juliet character are you?

totally normal and chill uquiz that i definitely didn't make in a 1AM fever dream

feel free to reply / rb with results !!

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we’re reading Romeo and Juliet in class rn and- act 3 scene 1 got me MESSED UP

like Mercutio tells Tybalt “Here’s my fiddlestick. Here’s that shall make you dance.” And Ik what it actually means… but it literally sounds like Mercutio is trying to get Tybalt to ride him😭😭😭

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Happy (very late) 10 years to Minecraft diaries! Here are my interpretations on the character that showed up in Aphmaus video. Lots of love to this series for putting a worm in my brain that i just cant keep away.

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No but the way Júlia and Tybalt (In Rómeó és Júlia especially but in every adaption actually) perfectly mirror each other in the way they are being stifled by the role they play due to their gender and how it fucks them up, as well as the way they completely reject their roles (specifically in Rómeó és Júlia)? We have Tybalt, who was forced to be as violent and protective of his family as possible despite the heavy implication that he was a sensitive and dreamy child, not to mention the way his views of sex and love were shaped by social conventions (and specifically his father).

I’m going by the Italian Renaissance societal mores here, even though resj presumably takes place in a quasi-dystopian or post-dystopian future/Alternate Universe. During the Italian Renaissance, male children spent very little time with a nurse because that was considered ‘feminine’, and were sent off to school at a very young age. Although family was still considered the most important thing, actual familial relationships were hard to cultivate presuming that child was away at school. Now, it could be that I’m looking way too much into this and no one even thought about Tybalt’s childhood regarding him going away to school or being taught by a tutor at home, so I could be way off, BUT my point is that the emotions regarding family were strictly based on the masculine ‘protector and provider’ aspect rather than tenderness and actually spending time with family.

You can even see this in modern western society! It is only within the past few decades that men started to spend more time with their children, and do traditionally ‘feminine’ things for their kids like changing diapers, feeding etc. The idea of a Father being a provider rather than a caregiver has even carried over to society today - men are still praised for running errands with their children and doing activities with them without the mother present. These men are just seen as being ‘babysitters’ ���helping out mom’ when they should simply be seen as parents doing their job as parents. It’s unnecessary to go into the negative impact this has had on both men and women, but my point is that this ‘nuture vs provide and protect’ view is still prevalent today, and was 100x worse in the Itaian Renaissance Era (and presumably society in resj).

So Tybalt is burdened with the duty to protect his family, but we see he, unlike his father, actually wants to be close emotionally to his family. The best evidence for this is his relationships to women in his family. I’ve made another post about this, but basically Tybalt’s father has taught him that women are literally ‘objects’, and the goal is to sleep with as many women as possible with absolutely no emotional attachment or respect for the women they sleep with. Tybalt, per his own admission in Ez A Kéz Utolér, mentions sleeping with many women indiscriminately, and not being emotionally attached to any of them. But as the song goes on we realize that he doesn’t want that. He is in love with Júlia, and clearly does not see her as an object. He doesn’t believe any man is good enough for her (least of all him).

Now, I’ve seen it argued that he doesn’t actually see Júlia as her own person, only the ideal of her, and even has the whole ‘Madonna/Whore Complex’ going on, which is certainly a valid argument, but I’m not sure I agree with it.

I think he sees himself in Júlia - the sensitive and loving child he never got to be. It’s possible a part of him does not want to see Júlia lose her innocence (not necessarily in a creepy way), and become like him.

Don’t get me wrong, his love for Júlia is definitely creepy and a good amount of his rage comes from romantic (and presumably sexual) jealousy. He mentions that he never loved any of the women he slept with, and has only ever loved Júlia. According to his father, love is just a weakness and women are just for sex, but clearly Tybalt doesn’t agree.

Possibly the ONLY healthy relationship he has (err, had) in his life is with the Nurse - he is seen holding her hand at the ball and she embraces his body after he dies, and has to be pulled away by a servant. I believe this is possibly a nod to when the Nurse calls him the “best friend she had” in Shakespeare (another reason I love resj is the Shakespearen nods while doing its own thing).

Lady Capulet obviously loves Tybalt (judging by her reaction to his death), though his uncomfortable attraction does not seem to be reciprocated. The inclusion of his attraction to her could be another nod to Shakespeare - though it is not actually in the text, a fairly popular theory is that Tybalt and Lady Capulet were lovers (it’s possibly worth noting that Lady Capulet was likely closer in age to Tybalt than Lord Capulet). Personally I don’t think there was any inappropriate relationship in Shakespeare, but in a way it works specifically for the Capulets in resj - the relationships they have are not healthy at all: they lack boundaries, can’t communicate, and can’t express their (familial) love until it’s too late.

Obviously, Tybalt doesn’t have a healthy relationship with his aunt and has some kind of weird attraction to her, possibly as a result of only caring (in general) about the Capulets. Yet he seems to listen to Lady Capulet in a way he doesn’t to Lord Capulet - Lady Capulet orders him to find Rómeó, and later presumably to kill him (when she talks to him in his room).

So, my point is that Tybalt, despite claiming that women are just objects, has the most important (and possibly only important) relationships with women.

Anyway Tybalt is messed up and complex and the Capulets are even more dysfunctional than in romeó et juliette send tweet.

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Tybalt at the masquerade ball in Rómeó és Júlia (I don’t think he had a super fun time)

bonus: Mercutio giving him the double finger in the last gif

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Mercutio do you know about Tybalt’s stupid walk? Have you seen it?

You know, I don’t want to hear him complain about me being overly theatrical when he literally walks like that 🙄

Day 10: get a load of daddy long legs over here

(Stupid walk gif below)

✨high kicks, high kicks, this is how we do it✨

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the man!! the legend!!

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burnout makes the week last longer…

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i unironically enjoy mystreet!gene as a character. don’t get me wrong he’s absolutely disgusting in high school (black-mailing and i think tryna kiss a 14yr old), even though i do enjoy him as a villain. but i also like that he’s introduced in my street as being way chiller now. he’s just some guy down on his luck who needs a job. he really struggles to stay afloat (as we can see when aphmau literally has to get him a house cause he doesn’t have one) and i think it just shows that he peaked in high school, which, in a way, is a punishment for his past actions — as he deserves.

but it kind of takes a dip into tragic when he’s discovered rummaging through garroth, laurance & zane’s bins for food. or when he’s visibly exhausted working as a bin man. sure working a tiring job is one thing, but having to steal from your neighbours in order to eat is just depressing. and the fact that he hides it when garroth and laurance question him; he’s clearly ashamed of his financial situation compared to the way more well-off protagonists of mystreet (namely the people on the street itself), who, to my knowledge, never have to worry about such a thing.

i also like how, immediately upon sasha and zenix moving in to his home they spray paint the shadow knights logo, and do so on all the bins on the street. idk what it is but to me it shows how zenix & sasha are clinging to their high school days, because it was the best time of their lives too, compared to gene who isn’t. it shows to me that he has grown past that while they have not.

and we can tell gene’s experienced growth rather than just suddenly changing because when ivan insults him he immediately takes on the ruder tone he had in high school (“no one takes that tone with me,” etc). so it’s very clearly still in him to be horrible, but he chooses not to be.

idk i just really like the growth he demonstrates even if it’s subtle or just me interpreting things weird.

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i feel like dante had a chair reserved for gene at his wedding and he couldn’t help but stare at his empty chair knowing that he’d never want to see dante ever again