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Dear future husband

A guide to dealing with me xD

I am a HUGE dork and if I really like you and am comfortable with you that will be multiplied by 1,000,000%. I will terribly sing to 70′s and 80′s bops when they come on the radio or a playlist. I will always be down to annihilate you in any video game. I will ask random questions when I am bored because I am always thinking about stuff. I don’t need fancy gifts or to go to a fancy restaurant to be happy. Burgers are my favorite food and I will always be down to go to some burger joint for a date or diner. I love adventures no matter how big or small. I enjoy having fun but I am never reckless. I overthink everything so I always worry about stuff and when I am worrying about something stupid all you have to do is tell me I am being stupid. I am very hard working and I will always try and do something myself so I apologize in advance if I get mad at you for trying to help me with something. I may have my wild side but I do know when I should tuck that away. The only thing you need to do to impress me is dress like a greaser or in band shirts and jeans xD I’m a simple girl with simple needs hahaha. If you have a cool car I will always love the car more then you. I am super chill and honestly sometimes I would prefer to just lay on the floor listening to jams and thinking about life. I am not one type of girl, I am artistic, nerdy, a huge dork, super chill, adventurous, slightly girly, and so many more things. I usually don’t tell people exactly how I feel because I want to work things out myself so if you think something is wrong just ask because eventually I might tell you what’s wrong xD At the same time if I am mad I will tell you EXACTLY why I am mad. I will love you all the time as long as you don’t embarrass me in-front of my family or friends. A small complement goes a long way. If you think I am pretty tell me. At the same time don’t call me cute all the time xD shake it up a lil and use some of the other amazing adjectives we have in our language, we have them for a reason. And no matter what I will always be there for you, I will always help you achieve your goals and never make mine seem more important. 

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Aceflux pride

One day I will be able to come out on my instagram art account as Asexual but sadly today is not that day. I had to get rid of the Aceflux flag on her cheeks to post this on my instagram. But this is pride month and I am so happy! I remember just last year I was confused about my sexuality and I am so happy of my journey from then, I have found out I am Aceflux and I have been so happy! I went from Asexual to Demisexual to Aceflux and I am so proud of my journey. Happy pride month to all Aces, Aros, and every other member of the LGBTQA+ community! It doesn’t matter what you identify as to be a true member of the lgbtqa+ community, as long as you feel like you should be in it then you are! I hope everyone that is going to pride events is having fun and staying safe! Here is to the next pride month! Hopefully I will be out by then haha.

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Gemini Rose Turner. 

I might post this on my art account as well idk but I wanted to put this here because Gem is ace. 

Okie so about Gem! Gemini is Asexual and Biromantic. She absolutly loves people and loves being in relationships, she falls in love very easily. She is completly sex repulsed and would honestly love to do absolutly anything besides sex in a relationship. She is a photographer and the youngest twin, the eldest being Merylynn Ophilia Turner (I’ll do a post about her next). Gem loves vintage things and her favorite hobby is Rollerskating. 

I think there needs to be more Ace representation in art and media. I mean Jughead was the only ace charactor we had then Riverdale sexed him all up which made me so sad, I still lover Riverdale though and Jughead’s everything xD I always have some ace charactor in any of my stories and even other LGBTQIA+ ids I just don’t focus on it all that much because being LGBTQ+ isn’t a personality trait. Thank you for coming to my Ted talk xD

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Honestly I needed this

Nature, the planets, space, they are all in a constant state of flux. It is the natural order of the universe to be constantly in flux. Aroflux and aceflux who experience a similar shift in their attraction are simply another part of it.

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There’s that door metaphor to try to explain different sexualities

For aceflux, the door is basically a portal that functions via technology, but the problem is the technology randomly malfunctions and/or the portal disappears all together for unspoken periods of time and will randomly, for no reason, re-appear 

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Aceflux / With Punk Themes - moodboard for anon (mod Luna)

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Am I truly Demisexual?!?!?!???

So for the longest time I have felt like I am Demi because of how I feel about sex, I have never had sexual feelings towards anyone I haven’t gotten super connected with first but I am with this guy and I only sometimes feel sexual towards him. It changes all the time and idk why. I keep thinking that maybe it is because I don’t have any sexual feelings towards him at all but then I have strong sexual feelings. I have been feeling like it for months and I found out about Aceflux and I think I might be that because with a bunch of people I start developing sexual attraction towards them but sometimes it goes away. I still id as Demi because I still have never had sexual feelings towards anyone I haven’t gained a close bind with but I also really feel like I am Flux. Can you Id as Demisexual and Aceflux at the same time?

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Heres the full image for my header

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This is a pic I drew for my friend and it makes me so happy! The pic is adorable and I am happy to be friends with them.  They are absolutely amazing an fun to hang out with. They are a artist to so we have just been drawing each others ocs. I am not to good with friends because I suck at talking to people through text, I always need to see or hear them, so I never talk to them unless if we are hanging out but they have stayed with me for a long time! I plan on making this year a year where I hang out with my friends more!

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I think I only use this account as a vent now xD

I wish I had more friends. Like I know that is some cliche thing where everyone wishes they had more friends but I literally have no friends IRL. Well none that want to hang out with me at least. Like I am so nice to my friends and give them things or make them things but they never do the same, now I am soooo not trying to throw a pity party saying how I want things from my friends, but it would be nice to get at least something. And whenever I am finally free to hang out my friends suddenly cant hang out because they have to study or something then 10 minutes later I see them on Insta hanging out with their friends. Idk just a vent and I know I am going to have good friends soon but I am almost 18 and I have had no teenage life. I have never hung out with my friends at the mall or someplace, I have never been on a date, never been to a party, I haven’t been able to do anything. I am the eldest sister of three and we are all homeschooled, which I am not being salty about homeschool, I am actually very glad I am homeschooled. I was treated horribly when I was in school. Idk I just feel like I am getting out of my teen years and I have done nothing with them...

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I really wish I was one of those girls people just fawn over. One that is just effortlessly beautiful and you just instantly want to know, but I’m not. I work really hard to keep my skin clear and look pretty. You saw me when I was my worst, I had terrible self confidence and I just didn’t look pretty at all, but you loved me then. I look way better then I used to, my hair is prettier, I am prettier, I just hope you still love me now.

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Dear Willow Tree// A short poem

Dear Willow tree,

  If you cry but nobody is around to hear did you really cry? People come and go, they use your shade and leave. You are all alone in this huge forest, but don’t you fret. Keep your roots firmly in the ground and your branches in the clouds. Don’t let anyone hear you cry; because if a Willow cries while no one is around she never really cried in the first place. 

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Reminder to self

When you see him talk to him. Tell him how you feel even if he doesn’t feel the same. Tell him you like him and try to get to know him better. If he doesn’t like you then just know the guy who you will actually be with will be way better. 

 I really really like you and I hope you like me back. I hate that I wasted all of this time but I am going to spend as much time as I can with you. I love you SK and I hope you feel the same. 

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(Guess what mouse stans pop punk.)

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You get my thoughts all tied up in knots. Every second of the day I think about you. Everything I do is for you, either trying to see you or hoping you see me. I see how you look at me and I hope it means what I think it does. I hoped so bad you would be able to come but you never did. Maybe you got busy or just didn’t care. I pray every day I somehow get to see you. I want to get to know you. The real you. I want to know your dreams and fears. I want to know what music you like. What pizza topping you prefer. I want to know your favorite color. Every person I fall for never lasts long because it is you I want. I love how sweet you are, how you can be so calm just all the time, the way you are with little kids, I love how awkward you are, I love your hair and I want to run my fingers through it, I love your eyes and I want to get lost in them, and I love how tall you are and when you talk to me you lean down just a little to be more level with me. You are leaving in about 6 months and I want to be with you for those months. Please tell me you want me to be with you too...

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Happy Asexual Awareness Week!!! Because I fall under the Ace spectrum as Demisexual I would like to tell how I found out I was Demi. I have only known I am Demi for almost 6 months. I found out during pride month when people started talking about Asexuality. I read someone’s coming out story and I related to it so much. They where coming out as Asexual and said how they don’t feel any sexual attraction towards a person but doesn’t mind dating or kissing. I just turned 17 and keep seeing so many girls my age and younger talk about sex and how far they have gotten with a guy or girl and I just felt awkward because I couldn’t see myself doing any of that. I had no sex drive towards anyone. But then I got back with my ex (We dated a year prior to this) and after around two months I started feeling a sexual attraction to him. But I still felt no attraction towards anyone else, even after we broke up. So I was very confused with my sexuality. Then a couple months later I met this super amazing guy who I am with rn. At first again I didn’t feel any sexual attraction towards him but then as time went by I did. I realized back when I had a crush on my best friend I was Demisexual and when I found that out a weight was lifted and everything became so clear. Everything has become so clear now and I understand and accept who I am. I tried to talk to my folks about Demisexuality and how I am a Demi but they never understood and said I will grow out of it when I am older.  I am sending all my love and prayers to members of the Aspec to help them through this week. I hope y’all are accepted and feel loved because of who you are. Stay strong if you aren’t accepted because soon you will be! I love you all!

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Eating Disorder PSA

This is mostly for me but I really hope this helps others. So I have a eating disorder. It is not terrible where I look like a skeleton nor do I want to but I have one nonetheless. I am 5′2 1/2 and weigh 100lbs. I don’t see a problem with this like at all because of my disorder but my whole family is very worried for me. I don’t eat at all and when I do it is for dinner and I barely finish my plate. I am not a very active person because I usually spend my free time drawing, reading, playing video games, or texting my friends so never do anything that requires food to keep up my energy. I know I am skinny but I like how skinny I am, like I wish I was more skinny so that also contributes to me not eating. For a period of time I didn’t eat anything at all on a daily basis and I passed out regularly. I still to this day almost pass out every time I try and stand up. For the longest time I never accepted I had a disorder because I always thought you can only have a eating disorder if you throw up your food on purpose or if you are insanely skinny and I was neither of those things, but after telling one of my friends how much I pass out a week and the fact I barely eat he told me I need to start and eat more. It is very hard to do and I don’t eat as much still but sometimes I do force myself to eat more. I haven’t passed out in over 3 months but I still get blood rushes every time I stand up and I don’t have enough energy to do anything productive. Everyday I try more to eat and exercise to look more healthy. I am slowly gaining color back to my skin and that is a big improvement. I still am unhealthy skinny but not as much. I still don’t exorcise so when I gain weight from inactivity I go back into my rut of not eating but I still try. Please if you have a eating disorder no matter how small or what type please take care of yourself. If you feel you are overweight so you don’t eat trying to see if that will fix the problem STOP. That fixes nothing and it only makes things worse. Try and eat healthy and exercise. If you don’t eat because you are never hungry ,like me, then please try to at least eat twice a day and do some simple exercises. It will make a big improvement. We are all so beautiful and so are our bodies so we need to take care of them.