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The woman was brought on to talk shows and celebrated for speaking and bringing her truth to the forefront of society but not me, my story Is suppressed to the longest lengths by the majority which is freaking nutz! Could it be because it was many against one man committing these types of crimes against minors!? Iām assuming thatās the case, but how did it go on for so long unchecked and why didnāt the woman writing the book get dealt a hand similar to mine itās not like the crimes are any differentā¦ The only difference I can see is instead of one man committing many crimes against many victims itās many men committing the same crime against a single individual and although the tables are turned the precedent is the same. I guess itās that canāt beat em join em facet most canāt get past. Orā¦ maybe itās because Iām resting on the soft underbelly of the beast with the tools to slice it open and expose those who reside deep within! Who knows but until next time check out some songs I have had on repeat as of late.
Strong Friend - Royce da 5ā9ā
Natural Born Killer - Highly Suspect
My Life - J. Cole & 21 Savage
Savior - Kendrick Lamar, Baby Keem & Sam Dew āare you happy for meā āheroes looking for the villains to helpā
Good Vibes - Rebelution, Feat. Lutan Fyah
Love ā¤ļø & Peace āš½
P.s. there should be more than a 10 picture limitā¦ this like the third time I have had to repost this HA!
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BORN IN BABYLON
For Iām Not Done Yet a...lot has happened since the last time we spoke but I wanted to reassure you Iām still alive and well amidst the the death threats that I receive on a daily basis. HA! Some times I wonder if its all really worth it and then IĀ think hmmm you know what, I think it is... look at how many millions of dollars just grossed from the Netflix series Dahmer. Where does that money go to....? DAHMER??!! I really hope not, I hope the money goes to the families of his victims. I donāt know about you but I couldnāt watch the series because of how true it rings in my own life, but if I knew the money was going to go to the victims families... I just might stomach it. All Iām saying is a man who conned the entire world into persecuting his brother, is a story I believe deserves to be told, and if not from the person who lived through it all then WHO?! 33 is Free for Amazon Unlimited go Check that Shit Out 3.33 to purchase (harmless promo there HA!)Ā
I wouldnāt really care about promoting my book, if I could find a job to pay my bills but it seems overly coincidental that nobody even responds... I think in the last year I have had three interviews all of which I never hear anything back from... even though they say Iām going to be called about a second interview... (nope) People will have me come in for interviews, just to make fun of me and waste my time... oh well maybe one day.
It seems like the more I do these days the more they talk and I think I should give you a couple updates. currently Iām working on book 2 of 3. I tried fitting everything into one book but it just wouldnāt be possible. Book 2 is in the final stages and has been changed multiple times by some elseās hands... (elaborate at another time. Iām hoping to get it published soon but Iām not from Russia, so I wont be Russian! This project has presented a lot of different problems/challenges which have only encouraged my growth. When I see my growth as a writer Iām impressed with how much has changed/improved since my first Tumblr scribble... HA! I donāt know how many of you have gotten a pirated copy of 33 but I would be fool to believe that there aren't any out there (I hope you enjoy). In my brief description I said I would have book II completed by 11/11/22 but it didnāt feel right rushing through to meet a deadline. On multiple avenues I was being told to slow down (Slow Down Nahko and Medicine for the People) played over and over. Then I was watching an Eminem interview on YouTube shorts and they asked him if he could have done anything differently what would it be?! He said he should have slowed... down... and at that point I knew it was time to turn out some quality and take my time like The Dirty Heads on Midnight Control (FIRE)!! After I slowed down and stopped rushing to meet my deadline Slow Down stopped playing. So It will be out when its ready āAsk Me Will I Stop?!āĀ MIND BLOCK (Stick Figure Feat. Eric Rachmany)Ā
Now today of all days, but... it may have been tomorrow or maybe even yesterday that I made a commitment to the creator to abstain from my vices and change my ways. Itās been 2 years and I cant believe how much has changed since that cold dark day on quarantine in the basement of a homeless shelter. I remember the date because it was right after I watched the live performance by Tribal Seeds on YouTube (Live: The 2020 Sessions). Iām beyond grateful for the changes I have made and have never been happier! I will elaborate more on this in Book III but it really was a turning point in my life. Thank you to those who read for I Get the Feeling that thereās More Like Me... š¶šµš¼
LOVE & PEACE
PS. I did create a Instagram Check it out @officially_deuce_duce, some interesting shits on there... take care of yourselves... Until next time!
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Am I...?? (Inwardly GASPS)!! Which Part...??
Today is March 2nd 2021 and I got my puter back and went to look at what I had last written on December 16th 2020. When I opened the file, it had been changedā¦ dates had been obscured and certain things had been rewordedā¦ Soā¦ I have decided to go back through all of my previous posts to ensure the integrity of what I am writing stays that way! During this process I will be putting together a collection of my favorite quotes and post fragments. Which I will dub Rock and Rollās Greatest Hits, if you live near me go buy airhorns Ill tell you why, When the greatest hits album comes out. What your about to read is primarily from Dec. 16th with a few changes or should I sayā¦ restorations?? Probably a little of both to be honest. Everything is still as it happened, I just add better descriptive words and fine tune the analogies so that they are easier to digestā¦ My English teacher always told me that was what I was good at! Along with many othersā¦ who have said the sameā¦ not only do I understand itā¦ Iām able to explain it in a way that others understand as well. ENJOY
On the seventh of December I woke up not too sure if something had occurred that night or notā¦ as I have mentioned before they use a numbing agent that basically masks the pain until it wears off approximately 12 hours laterā¦ When I a woke on this day I was having moments of clarity and for some reason just couldnāt keep them to myself. talking to one of the staff members of the homeless shelter I expressed my destiny that I actually had one, that was going to bring me to greatnessā¦ then out of nowhere I just blurted out there is going to be a power shift!!!! And at that very moment I couldnāt believe what it was that had just come out of my mouth. I didnāt even believe it at first because the guy at the desk was like IDKā¦ aboutā¦ thatā¦ but when I went back into my room, the look on my roommateās face said it all!! It seems as though those who pull strings and orchestrate a lot of thisā¦ put all of their eggs into one basket. I donāt know exactly what the terms of thee bet were but Iām assuming it had/has something to do with me not being able to control my compulsivity associated with my dissociation. Unfortunately for them I made a deal with God. It was while I was on quarantine and even though I was in a basement all by myself people kept F$%^&*!> with me. This is when I prayed stating that I would not falter, for my body his temple his craft and his glory. that I need to take care of myself and my destiny, for it is in his hands and I wonāt let my selfishness or imperfections stop him from fulfilling his plan. Over and over again I have cried and cried about how fundamental and powerful this is all going to be. EFFIN CRAZY!! And now that I know without anyone telling me and it literally being given to me somehow is what is freaking everybody out. How do I know or how the hell did I figure it out!! I really couldnāt tell you and the only thing that is possible is that our Creator endowed me with such responsibility. Crazy!! (this was before I considered the probability of God being a woman, A mother, A Lover)
Low and behold one of my favorite artists Mr. Kid, Maniac, Rager, Wizard, Pursuer of Happiness Cudi dropped a new album entitled Man on the MOON Three. Ill have to say itās a wonderfully made album! The album delves deep into who Scott isā¦ I know the Fans are going to love it.
Rewind a little bit sorry for my hiatus just needed to stay focused and well as your aware have been led here not by accident and had some things that I needed to take care of before I started writing again. Not to mention I have been dealing with a lot only to know that I am who I am for a reason Rockstar Knights off MOTM3 has a lot to say concerning who I am and what I have realized as a result to my struggle. The Song is a collab with Trippie Redd and really encapsulates so much, that its hard to describe in words.
I had a very interesting conversation with my mother the other day and came to a pretty profound thought. 1st I was telling her how I was being told that I am tooā¦.!!! Smart!! Like WTF!! REALLY!! Is that even a thing?? But I didnāt let it get to me too much as it probably is the reason I face so much adversity, No matter the community I enter into. This is how I have explained it to her and a couple other people in the community as well as the Rasta Man in the PNW. The best analogy I could present is if a plant with a fire burning so big and so hot on one side of the plant, a fire so big and hot that it probably would kill most other plants, but not this plant. This plant had sooooo much drive and will to live that instead of giving up it grew in the opposite direction of the blaze. While the roots could withstand the blazing inferno becoming one with the heat and pain Upon the journey away from the fire (society) the plant developed different characteristics colors and attributes that no other plant had. Essentially that journey completely changed that plants physiology Psychology and possible its genetic makeup altogether. Now that the plant has grown so far from the fire (Society) that its all alone. Now theres a different kind of fire where he once thought was safe. But as he grows back towards the fire to escape the new blaze (tyranny) he realizes he will never be able to be the same as the fire he grew so far away from. Now the only option the plant has with death being imminent is to grow as big and bright as quickly as possible before it is engulfed on all sides.
All this taken into account along with factoring in the two major belief structures in the world one Being Creation or Evolution (The Big BANG) this plant which has defied all odds still shines brightly displaying its colors and unique characteristics no matter how dark the room may be it still continues to bloom! Is this a Divine will and plan or are we experiencing the next step of Evolution??? My honest opinion is its both! For the mere ability to adapt and change and prevail in situations others couldnāt dream of or even have nightmares about is truly remarkable and in my eyes is an act of GOD! Just as any evolutionary step would be. The crazier part isā¦ he has no handle!! Nothing to grab on to leaving no way for anyone to grab hold and control! AYEā¦.
I thought this all might just be me being stubborn or simply an idiot until for some reason I opened up my meme App. Something I never open or even look at and the first thing that popped up was a picture and quote saying that many told Marilyn Monroe that she was only beautiful because of the clothes and dresses she wore. It then concluded Marilyn Monroe did a photoshoot in nothing but a burlap potato sack. The photos and the message she sent were completely opposite of that which was being said by spectators. Now!! As scrolled to the second meme I was expecting something funny!! That wasnāt the case what I saw next was the upcoming alignment of the two largest planets in the solar system Jupiter and Saturn. Not only does their alignment happen only every 20 years but the proximity of this occurrence to the earth as well as the proximity to each other hasnāt been the same for close to 800 yearsā¦ What does it all meanā¦ IDK but The Christmas Star is what their calling the alignment and if your familiar with the bible is the star that the kings, from other lands followed Ā to bring gifts to baby JESUS! Who knows what this alignment could usher in.?
So profound thought comes to me on a daily basis now itās so strange the way that it comes it will just be momentary thoughts that will pass through my conscience and as they go by I latch on to it delve a little deeper and experience an overwhelming amount ofā¦ IDK what to call it but it feels very powerful so much so that it brings me to tearsā¦ I donāt know exactly what the future holds but I think that is what makes this so great! I just keep my mind open Like apple IOS Systems letting everything come and go as it pleases when something goes by that strikes me, I latch on and donāt let go. Its weird how it all happens.
Steve Jobs once said that if he had never had an acid trip that he would have never of come up with the operating system for Apple and after explaining to you what I do as a spiritual and destiny seeking process I believe was his thought process as well. This in of itself is what I think they mean when they say to keep an open mind. Just so you know I didnāt come up with that little bit about the late Mr. Jobs by plan it just came to me when thinking about how to have, use and keep an open mind.
The reason I explained this to you was because this is how I Pray! After I pray I sit still with an open mind allowing multiple ideas thoughts and perspectives to pass through my brainā¦ until like an IOS operating system, something speaks to meā¦ when I latch on to it, focus on what it means and what it will meanā¦ āI Get Those Goosebumps Everytimeā (Goosebumps, Travis Scott, feat. Kendrick Lamar, Birds in the Trap Sing Mcknight, 2016). This is how you know! A little extra for ya, when I went to look up the info for my first Hip Hop citation it was 11:11 lol there they go againā¦ its really a cool feeling!
Can someone tell me if that APA or MLAā¦?? Ya know what!! Eff IT!! None of my writing is orthodox, besides I kinda like the way I did it haha
Kid Cudiās new video just dropped and I couldnāt be more amazed with all of the hidden messages that are in there. He is officially the man on the moon. Passion pain and demon slaying like a maniac on the pursuit of happiness. Love that DUDE!!
Thatās all I got for 12-16-2020 Five More Daysā¦
LOVE & PEACE
Songs
Heaven On Earth ā Kid Cudi
Goosebumps ā Travis Scott, feat. Kendrick Lamar
Dirty Heads ā Sound Of Change
Ā Just so you know the only thing I added this time other the cleaning up what I had already written was the praying part. Although I originally remember that being the purpose as to why I wrote what I did looking at it today March 2nd 2021 it wasnāt thereā¦ have a great day everyone. Ill post this on 3/3/2021
I've added parts to the story on my business cards and will leave then random places, what you do with them is up to you but I think It would be cool for those who want to stop me to have to work extra hard just like they make me!! Ā
LOVE
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Most importantly I have been thinking a lot about a friend of mine whoās life was tragically cut short... I hope you know how much of an impact you made in/on my life Ms. Kerri Elizabeth Giles this ones for you!
We all know this was your soul mate ā¤ļøā¤ļø
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Scott Scott Scott...
Iām not sure how familiar you are with evolution in a communal setting but obtaining more food and resources is the primary indicator that an individual trait or characteristic has been a leap in the evolutionary process. This is usually the result of a specific organism being immersed in such a harsh or unpleasant environment that they develop new traits and charachteristics to better equip them to be successful despite the harsh environmental conditions. I donāt know about you but I have never seen any thing in between two different species... but we will save that for another time.
A good evolutionary example is marijuana. Orgionally found growing wild any and every corner of the world, each plant developed special charateristics to survive in a specific geographical location.( Hindu, Afghani, Thai, Durban). Their names accredit the location to where they were originally found. After these plants were properly cultivated their genome expressed an array of different traits/characteristics that lay dormant in the genetic code. Once expressed these traits and characteristics are what differentiates strains. With different physical attributes the effects and smell, varied as well. These differences are what continue to fuel newer and better strains! This being said adaptation comes gradually from a long line of slight changes that arenāt always apparent until these physiological expressions are triggered either through stress or optimum conditions. Sometimes itās a combination of the two if your seeking a specific result.. this is called phenotypical expression. Sometimes these characteristics are surprising for all that encounter the organism and some donāt always perform or prevail like others from the same breed. While some exhibit strong desirable characteristics (color, taste, smell) other express characteristics that go unnoticed because they arenāt being looked for! This for instance could be something like drought resistance or something that isnāt color, taste or smell... this happens in us, as well!! š§¬ šµš¼š¶ (āI got I got I gotā). Now every farmer will tell you how important or how nice it is to have drought resistant plants but this feature is usually discovered on accident or through making mistakes...
So let me ask you something how would a human being, evolve any further physically?? Other then developing wings or gills I think we have reached optimal form! But as I mentioned about drought resistance in marijuana these evolutionary steps are presenting themselves throughout our genome as well But since weāre not allowed to have different ways of thinking or acting, hence societal norms, OBEY Consume... so on and so forth, these norms dictate the majority of human behavior, itās hindering us from expressing the traits and or characteristics that are supposed to take us to the next evolutionary step of our consciousnesses. Legacy ~ Eminem. Although a fictional film DeadPool shows this process and what may be out of the realm of reality for you or I, the concepts is somewhat the same.
For those who havenāt seen the movie it shows a man desperate to rid himself of cancer and agrees to rouge experimentation to cure himself once and for all! I mean he did just find the love of his life!! The specifics of said experiments were never divulged or described in anyway let alone the side effects! (This scenario applies to so many other worldly concepts of freeing people... ) back on track they inject Deadpool with some type of genetic accelerant and torture him until his genetic mutation manifests itself. This is being done today and is considered the excuse people do the things they do... ātheyāll be better for itā a very small percentage of people actually prevail and develop the powers they will need to overcome what they have been through or make any of their struggle worth it at all. In all honesty itās not something they plan for but when one starts to display evolutionary growth and prevails they use it as their excuse to continue breaking people. The moral of the movie is that the scientists who transformed and disfigured Deadpool lived just long enough to regret it... !!!! they created something that was unstoppable!! For me ... itās... All in a Days Work ~ Dr. DRE at the end of the day... itās just me, Talking To My Diary
If you get some time check out a Spirit Science Video called the the secret history of the earth or world. I found this video in 2015 and it made so much sense. While other parts I didnāt necessarily agree with, Or didnāt understand at the time. The narrator will tell you the same thing, I will. Watch this and have your own experience. None of it is proven fact. But I think there is a lot to it!! Itās just another perspective that should be considered... on top of that... itās very well explained!!
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February 25, 2021
P.S. if you saw someone continuously prevail in situations, that you couldnāt even dream of.... or have never been able to overcome..: then maybe that person know exactly what their talking about. Just so you know in society the finishing move isnāt up to the one walking what theyāre talking.... in Mortal Kombat they would end each round... Oomps Revenge Pt. 2 ~Trippie Redd
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So, I was going to go into the remaining portion of the different aspects and features of the evolutionary process, how weāre only allowed to adapt and evolve to a point not to surpass the string pullers and how and why the Bible says the meek will inherit the š. Itās a pretty in depth and deserves some time and effort. Unfortunately I donāt have a whole lot of extra time today but will in the next couple days following.
Whatās cool is I have cut my living expenses in half and actually have an address for the first time in few years... not living with anyone or on anyoneās couch but I got my own place with a lease and even a mailbox! It has its own š even! Donāt really know how to behave at this point... haha it all happened so fast and now Im just... idk lol
Over the last few months preceding me starting this whole thing primarily just to educate you on my situation primarily just where I was living. This was to show, how what were told to believe usually isnāt what is actually going on. Hopefully we have all learned something about each other but more importantly ourselves... I know I have. Life is a learning process and Iām always trying to learn something new. Since then things people say to me have changed from Good Luck (facetiously) or Fag or some other form of derogatory insult to... Your Dead, Leave....!!! Go...! Get!! Or my all time favorite... Please donāt Stay... I just miss hearing good luck, these days... especially with St. Patrickās Day right around the corner... š š oh well my luck has probably run out.
Cant wait for warmer weather! Did anyone see the if the groundhog saw itās shadow?!?!
Love and Peace
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Natalie Rize ~ Indestructible
Nas (Gods Son) & Damian (Jr. Gong) Marley ~ Friends.
Distant Relatives Album
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āAināt No Way Around Itā
Why I Listen to Hip Hop!
It hasnāt always been that way... I remember when I was 11 or 12 I stole my friends wallet after he asked me to come over and hangout! I know you have always known... never was able to, even later in life... but I do apologize! No excuses, thatās just who I was then... what did I do with that money??? I went and bought the new Backstreet Boys and Brittney Spears CD... haha š š thatās what I was into then. Then Hi My Name Is Came on late one night. It was on one of the music video channels in the 400ās that played music videos 24 hrs a day. After that there was no turning back! I shaved my head bleached my hair and waited for the Real Slim Shady to please stand up! During these times I never really understood what rap/hip hop was teaching me. Looking back though it taught me how to depict and tear the lyrics apart. Why is this important?? Itās because of the message hiding under the surface of whatās actually being said in the song. I mean hip hop taught me the game and as I progress through life realize it taught me about the system and the depths of corruption, systemic racism and the overall goal of the continual divide and conquer agenda! Itās Crazy! I was going to lay it all out for you like a very pretty picture but I feel like I would be doing you a disservice if I did. I will give you the fundamentals though.
Perseverance, strength, hunger, ambition and HOPE proliferate from oppression strife and hard times... and when true talent emerges from the depths of the mud, similar to a diamond in the dirt!! It demands attention!! I believe the hope of something better is what dooms a lot of us. I say this because weāre blind to the cost that our success may cost us! Iāve been approached a lot, by secret societies saying I could join or there are ways to be one of us... even approached on social media... itās crazy!! Iāll explain this more on my next post. This is a lot of peopleās only way out!! J.s. I understand and I love you all!! For Iām what your music has made!! š¤š¤ā¤ļøā¤ļø
Hip hop had been creating some momentum for years but it was primarily a black culture thing, until Eminem. As history progresses itās not just Black Americans oppressed anymore. Was this a thought out strategy or... did they just see it happen and take advantage of it, for this isnāt the first example of this occurring. Cole mentions this in his song. He sounds upset about it and misunderstanding the hands involved and the plot I totally understand why. He goes on to say heās just playing... ābut all good jokes contain, true š©ā and heās right! Itās just crazy how blind we are to how things are done. But itās hard to resist idk how I have made it as far as I have... Rockstar Knightsšµš¼š¶
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Music
J.Cole ~ Fire Squad
Kid Cudi Feat. Trippie Red ~ Rockstar Knights
Jay-Z ~ Smile
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Happy Valentineās Day!
If you do anything today just love yourself a little extra today!! The idea that weāre not good enough constantly shoved down our throats is enough of a reason to!!
Not only that but who doesnāt want their Bonnie or their Clyde!! It all starts with you!! š«š
Besides..... this is where it all started
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āI got some Passion and more Patience then I thoughtā
Back to the Nitty Gritty (not the bar). In the next couple of posts Iām going to try, to sum everything up and pull it all together. Bare with me... haha because although I make sense of it all in my mind... explaining it can prove to be difficult. Especially since I probably sound like a lunatic at this point... haha jkjk ā¤ļø since some of what I have mentioned is unorthodox and out of the norm as a whole but makes sense as individual thought or theory. Iām hoping me pulling it all together will help you understand the Big Picture!
Back to how I stay happy and within my ELEMENT (Kendrick Lamar) When I listen to music or scroll the gram Iām looking for things that peak my interest and illicit an emotional response. Sometimes this happens on accident and to me thatās the best. This isbecause itās something I didnāt expect but might be exactly what I needed to see or hear! Now if the emotional trigger is positive (happy, euphoric elated, encouraged, validated, inspired or funny) I save or follow where that post came from so I will feel that way again later on. Creating a stable and rewarding learning environment for myself.
If what I come across illicits a negative emotional response then I think about what it is thatās causing me to feel the way I do. Then I think about what I can do differently. A good example of this just occurred the other day. I was watching a video that I think I clicked on off of the search page. It was about the cruelty associated with animal agriculture. As I was watching I really wanted to turn it off and keep scrolling because it saddened me. Iām a meat eater, I enjoy š š š š š. But watching this video made me want to do more research concerning the issue. Wasnāt long before I realized that what I had saw was the truth! After that I thanked the creator of the video and said Iām becoming a vegan tomorrow!! The next day I went to a Greek restaurant I had been wanting to try and halfway through my meal realized I was eating lamb... I finished my food and came to a realization with myself that I might not be able to up and quit meat cold turkey like I did with cigarettes and my other vices. It does mean something to me though, so Iām going to make a conscious effort to minimize the amount of animal products I consume. No one said gradual steps werenāt ok, besides being aware is more then half the battle. By no means am I suggesting that you need to follow in these footsteps, this is what resonates with me and since it bothered me!! I should do something about it, for me!! Ignoring this sort of thing would end up bothering me more, so Iāll just make small changes until Iām where I want to be.
Why do I do the things I do on a daily basis? Which at this point Iām sure a lot of people see. Itās because of the feelings and impact it makes in my life and overall sense of well-being. I use to try and hide what I did because I do it for me, not anyone else. I donāt talk about it I donāt tell anyone else they should be doing it too! I do it because I like to do it. To me itās the right thing to do and I donāt need or want recognition for doing something I think I should already be doing to begin with. Itās like making your bed... do you make your bed because you hope someone is going to praise you for making your bed??? No! You do it because you like doing it!! Now donāt get me wrong it is nice when someone says nice job or something to that effect but itās not like your mining for compliments ya know!! I do it because for one I was an Environmental Science major and always think about lyrics from a song that goes something like āWhat if the š is a temple and not above us. Like something every human that lives among us, loves as a mother or a daughter or a sonā. For itās not a matter of fighting or putting on a show... ITS WHO I AM!! and Iām not changing for anything or anyone!! If what Iām doing makes you feel a certain way, maybe you should figure out why!
The one thing I have to remind myself of everyday is that itās not about strict adherence to what you want to do to proliferate change in yourself but to progress. I canāt stress this enough, always please always do your best. Iāll explain why this is so important at the end.
Why do I work where I work?? Good question!! Throughout my life I have always gotten into trouble and so I usually ended up working dead end jobs... oil change places, restaurants, cold calling (telemarketing), grassroots campaigns, canvassing shoveling rock, digging holes or working in some sort of a plastic factory. Most of the time I had to resort to applying for jobs that were always hiring, because most people didnāt want to do that kind of work, or it didnāt pay enough. When you need money to eat... it really doesnāt matter, ya know. Itās very humbling to say the least but when you get good at these positions it makes you feel good, while making you feel like š© at the same time... (Like is this all Iām ever going to be... ugh...). Up until recently I didnāt really put all of the pieces together... until I was like how do I know how to do my job so well?!?! And then it dawned on me... it because my job literally consists of all the skills I have become great at on an individual basis. I always wondered what I was going to do with skills like washing dishes, but when your upbringing is a chef for a father and your dead-end job skills come together, to provide you the ability, know how and patience to do what it is I do. Is it all an act?? Ehhh... Maybe sometimes, what isnāt an act, is how much I care!! Why you might ask?? I really couldnāt tell ya at this point Iām convinced itās something beyond my control and Iām ok with that. That mixed with my skills and never ending journey to acquire knowledge and grow past my next ceiling, are just some of the facets that make me WHO I AM!! How I ended up working for the company I do could be fate but weāll save that discussion for a later date.
Here... we... GO!!
While working the jobs I did in my past I always did my best! Because for 1 I needed that job in order to secure food, housing and general living necessities. I look back now and have actually realized a second reason as to why itās important to always do your best!! Itās so that at the end of the day you can look back and think well this worked, that didnāt, Iāll try this different next time and really evaluate your effort and how you did. This will help you get better and better at what your doing. For if you never do your best and do the bare minimum, yea youāll get by but will you be growing and benefitting yourself in the long run?? IDK... I donāt think so but hey what do I know!! Also at the end of the day you can rest easy knowing you did everything you could. No worry, no concern, instead your creating a sense of accomplishment and a steady foundation to know 1 what your capable of and 2 how to push yourself the next day.
Now why do the right thing... thereās no fun in that... or is that what they want you to believe. I have a lot of fun doing me so Iāll explain why I do the right thing. For a long time I just wanted to fit in. I wanted to chase women go to clubs get messed up do drugs get messed up more... and then wonder why my life just wasnāt going well... I then realized because of my past and the baggage I carry Iām never going to be good portraying that lifestyle... self medicating was cool for a while til it started causing me more problems then solutions... so I just decided that Iām going to do the things I know are right and that have always provided me with pure unadulterated joy!! Hard work knowledge music and wisdom that in of itself has provided me with so much clarity and purpose itās almost profound!! By me freeing myself from the second guessing of is this ok, what is someone else going to think... or I hope she likes me or I just want to fit in... It has literally freed my mind and spirit allowing me to continue growing and blossoming into ME!!
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More ~ SOJA
Discombobulated ~ Eminem
Just What I Am ~ Kid Cudi feat. Chip Tha Ripper
ELEMENT ~ Kendrick Lamar
02-11-2021 š° 23:00 (Eastern) I waited a few minutes...š¤Ŗššš
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This song has been on repeat a lot lately. Another artist/song I found in accident. When I heard it for the first time I was like ok ok I š see you, oh.... Dang...!, Mac Miller Tooo, SHEās just Taking her š°!!!! WHAT?!?! Hahaha itās really a good song!! š š
Oh and Spotify is always my go to for music. Premium is worth it, I have an IPhone and still choose Spotify. Itās a great place for everyone to discover Great New Music!! Plus the lyrics and history of the songs is... well... š„ š„
02-07-2021
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOB MARLEY!! WHAT YOU FOUGHT AND STOOD FOR WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN!! Thanks for making music TOO! ā¤ļøā¤ļø
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February 5, 2021 - 10:00pm Eastern
Wolves ~ BIG Sean feat. Post Malone
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Hydrate Hydrate Hydrate
Before I get going I ended my last post telling you why its so important to hydrate. which I do but after I started explaining I went off on a tangent that is obviously more important right now then me explaining myself and how I stay happy. Which is why it just kept flowing... enjoy.
Hydrate hydrate hydrate!! I say this because, essentially we are just a series of chemical reactions all occurring simultaneously while electricity courses through our veins. More specifically positively charged ions/elements (sodium, potassium and calcium). These elements are carried throughout your body by water making it possible for your synapses to fire and for you to function as a living organism. since electricity is naturally occurring throughout your being its important to have the proper amount of conducive substances present, like H20. (Like My Dad Would Tell Me Growing Up... LOOK IT UP!!)Ā
with a diverse amount of chemical reactions occurring thought-out our bodies it is essential that we provide our bodies with all the nutrients that we need. This is achieved by having a diverse diet, while feeding your gut what it needs to properly digest such a diet. (Your Gut Is Your Second Brain) Heterogeneity isĀ fundamental and essential in every healthy ecosystem which is what our bodies are. Malnutrition is the primary component limiting the elevation of our consciousness and Growth. So why is it more expensive to get something that is good for you opposed to something that provides no nutritional value. I'm sure you can figure that one out on your own...
Just as a diverse diet is essential to you, functioning optimally, this concept rings true for an optimally functioning society as well. Society=Ecosystem. This is where I will make two VERY important points. Remember when I mentioned that learning fundamental components and concepts in regards to life and really anything is very beneficial?? I said that because once your aware of the functionality of these concepts they lend themselves to many different subjects. For example, although the contexts are different, The Human Body, Nature & Society the fundamental components remain the same for optimal functioning.
This is where Point #two rears its beautiful head. In my last post I mentioned briefly how important your individuality is for you are an important necessary element to a healthy functioning ecosystem called Society!! SHHHH....!!!!! your not supposed to know this. For your individuality is one of many solitary elements needed to progress, grow and achieve better and better and better for everyone.
now although I have talked a lot about normalizing you feeling your emotions and it being ok for you to express them, I think today and always we need to start accepting and appreciating peopleās differences. For too long we have sat and used one another's differences as a way to create boundaries and judgement separating us from each other. Would the body function without certain elements or nutrients.... Sure!!! but it usually is a crap day for the person inhabiting that body. so why do we do it in todayās society???? I think this isn't natural and has been implanted as a means to limit and control us... J.M.O.
A very similar instance was the finches on the Galapagos Islands. Do you think that the birds loved... the young birds that had deformities and didn't look like them...? probably not because they saw that it was easier for that bird/birds to eat and acquire their food then they could. while the deformed birds had no clue that anyone had it any harder then they did, they were just using what they had been given the best way they knew how. the un-deformed/un-evolved birds eventually died off making the new evolution a primary genetic trait, essentially saving and preserving the species altogether. Is this why common day society forces us to conform?? I think it is... its so that we cant evolve further making the prior evolutionary life-form obsolete. Essentially sentencing us to our doom because were not allowed to have free thought or expression. one of the main reasons I think Our World is in the State its in today.
Science is Such a Prominent belief structure for many, throughout Our World. Yet we ignore all of the important aspects and instead instill our own ways. What do I mean... You might ask??!! Here are a couple of examples 1 of which I have already shared considering Heterogeneity. The other goes deep into the animal kingdom itself. So in todayās society the man picks his mate or who he wants to be with based primarily off of looks and sex appeal. āonāĀ beautiful or sexy... so on and so forth. Or its simply because they have to through necessity! should it be like this?? I donāt think so. For in the animal kingdom, and I get it not all species are the same but lets consider the majority. When looking at the majority its completely opposite from how society does things. In nature more often then not its the female that chooses the male. usually based off of genetic traits leadership and the ability to provide and protect. This is why the male always has more colors or attractive features such as manes or some other varying characteristic. Often times males will fight for one particular female, as it is the females mortal instinct to reproduce and she wants a strong partner with strong genetic make up to be passed on to their offspring. Hence only the strong shall survive. So if animals pre-exist humans... and still continue to exist today... only becoming extinct because of humans... do you think... maybe... we might have wrong...?? I mean Divorces are at an all time high!! most aren't happy and women are falling in love with a fake presentation of a man simply because the man wants to get her into bed... Down the road when the manās true colors come out, the woman has no idea how she could have been so blind... and has no idea how to get herself out... for 1 she loves them and 2... she just doesn't know what to do...it shouldn't be this way.
not saying everyone has to change tomorrow... just saying when it comes to things as delicate as relationships... there shouldn't be societal norms or certain ways to do things we should be able to do things the way that work best for us... for these relationships are going to be the breeding ground of our future... J.S.
another example of this is Government Bail Outs... Instead of the company going belly up because they weren't prepared for an upset or there business model become obsolete. they get government handouts to keep things the way they are because those companies are powerful and removing them could harm the economy even more. But in reality the economy always bounces back and if a company fails then they fail!! We shouldn't be rewarding failure for it only breeds more failure...Ā I'm probably wrong though... if these compaines weren't bailed out then another business would fill the void and more times then not its probably going to be a better more successful business then its predecessor increasing Chang and Advancement. Isn't This The American DREAM?? What do I Know!!
My last little thought for the day which is something I cant stop thinking about and is the reason I want to share... Is I think God is our mother... for who else would be so... forgiving and understanding and essentially be consider to be LOVE itself... A Mother. IF God is our mother then wouldn't Earth be our Father?? Providing all of the needs for all who inhibit its atmosphere... for some reason we led to believe that God is the Father...Ā I have my own theory why this is... but doesn't it make more sense the other way around??
Sunās Shining!! Enjoy the Day Every ONE!!
LOVE & PEACE
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Courage To Grow
Before I continue forward small disclaimer. Lol! During these activities I will be going over Iām usually listening to music. Music helps me maintain the mood and vibration that I have achieved through resetting and feeding my mood!
Picking up somewhere, where I left off, begins with feeding my mood by feeding my mind. For my mood essentially dictates my productivity tactfulness and my ability to absorb new information and skills so that they might benefit me when the right situation arises.
When I am in a bad mood Iām unreceptive, nothing flows and Murphyās Law begins to take full affect (anything that can go wrong, will go wrong)!! Things escalate, much quicker and always seem harder or more complicated then they need to be.
If my mood regulates what Im able to accomplish, then I better learn how to regulate my mood!! There are many different ways to enhance your mood and overall well-being, which Iāll discuss later. Right now I just want to explain how I get myself out of bed everyday with tenacity and a positive outlook to keep fighting the good fight!
Before I jump into that I have to explain a little... re.... wi....nd....!! To the 28th of January 2021.
So I really wanted to write on the 28th... I had it all planned out and really thought I would be able to pull it off. Unfortunately all the things I had grown accustomed to remaining the same and being unchanging i.e. the little things, were suddenly causing me discourse. I wonāt bore you with the specifics, in reality the people involved donāt deserve the time attention or energy. Letās just say I was In a place Iām not in very often because of how it makes me feel. Amidst the noise and haste I was still able to get done a couple of the things I needed to, laundry & a couple other things for work.
Off to work I went!! Frustrated and irritated... UGH.... shortly after embarking on my commute to work I was about to enter the park, then right in front of me were two pairs of birds soaring through the sky. These birds stayed in their pairs but would separate from the group and then reconvene. Immediately I completely forgot about the irritation and frustration and was ear to ear hahaha even after the birds were out of sight I couldnāt stop smiling! I think this was my sign that what I have been telling you is correct! For it really is the little things, the silver linings that really make the cloudy days worth living! It also gave testimony to even though my life has been really hard it truly is SO.... Beautiful!!
After a hellacious day at work LOL (really wasnāt that bad) I was walking home and as I cut through the park like any other day I crossed the Good Bridge and then the other as I was crossing I was looking down and realized that the ground and the water were glowing almost! I stopped dead in my tracks looked up and was confronted with the bright beams of Januaryās full moon! Dubbed the Wolf Moon. Now although this next part is just a coincidence, Metamorphosis was playing and the last verse had just started... Iām sure you know what happened next... I turned on my camera and took pictures!! Lol when my camera came on the music turned off I was like awe.... in disappointment but then all I could hear was the rushing sound of the river and felt at peace within myself! It was really cool! after I finished taking pics and continued walking I couldnāt stop looking at the š and then the clouds blew in front of it and it was gone... hmm.... maybe there really is a Man on the Moon...! The other strange part about this coincidence was it was literally in the same place I saw the 4 birds soaring earlier that day.
When things like this occur I never really quite know how to explain em. I feel crazy right now explaining this to you and what happened because of how far fetched it sounds and I definitely could be compounding events associating meaning with events that arenāt even meaningful. But being aware of synchronicities and patterns is the key to hearing that which is never said... āohhhh š© did he just say he hears things that arenāt said... like hears voices...??? CRAY!!ā But then again your opinion doesnāt matter this is my story and this is what happened to me. I think itās cool and crazy tbh but definitely worth it for me to share. Once again Iāll reiterate the song Be Aware by SOJA. I could also go into telling you how powerful the moon is and how it affects our planet and population but Iāll let you āļøthat out on your own. Once again itās the little things that really are the big things... sometimes weāre too concerned with things that maybe we shouldnāt let consume us that we miss on that which is going on around us. #stayinginthemoment
The 29th was a day spent enjoying all the things I like doing. I had a day off so I spent it listening to some new music sleeping... I even spent some time in the gym. Thought about writing on both the 29th and 30th but just wasnāt feeling it... and if you havenāt grasped it yet Iām definitely hooked on a feeling... it was also important for me to pay homage to modern day Kings. ā¤ļøā!! Then the 31st rolled around I worked something like 13 hrs and really didnāt think I would be putting my best foot forward if I did... and so I wait! Besides what better day to write then 02-01 of 2021 unfortunately they are coming at me like machine guns and couldnāt pull it off! But hey thereās always today and really it couldnāt be more fitting 2-2 is always a great day to drop. So before I go any further I just would like to say... thank You for without you there would be no me no 2-2 so I will salute you and bid you adooo all in one motion, Cheerio!!
Alright enough š¤”āin around... back to moods. As Iāve started discovering and uncovering that which keeps me in a state of tranquility, promoting spiritual growth and elevation of my consciousness I have changed a lot of what I follow on the Gram. Of course I still follow a lot of scantily clad lasses for I am a man... I just decided I should follow more of what makes my soul smile as well. To me thatās many different kinds of art; fashion, jewelry, photography, music, nature, awakening as well as different opinions and perspectives. Why?!?! Even though I might not agree or resonate with anotherās opinion or perspective itās still good to know. My English teacher would always drive home the point of the more ya know... the more ya know... I thought it was just so you could be a well refined individual but thereās more to it then that by increasing your knowledge you begin cultivating that which is called an open mind. Which could also be the opening of your 3rd eye. But we will discuss that after I explain how I get myself out of bed each day with tenacity and and a positive mindset to take on the day and continue fighting the good fight!
Why the Gram??? Thereās so much free thought on there that you literally could jump down rabbit hole after rabbit hole increasing your knowledge, know how and giving you subjects and skills to research on your own. Sometimes I watch movies by accident and then itās almost like I was meant to watch that movie at that time... itās crazy (Avengers End Game) šš so if a movie is calling out for u to watch it you probably should. 2 things I canāt stress enough!! Learn about that which speaks to you and moves you not someone else for your individuality is the most valuable thing you will ever have in your life. Is it good to learn about things others know YES! But if you realize that itās not providing you with anything and your just not feeling it... then... just let it go keep what you have learned but donāt put a lot of effort into it. Focus on what moves you. Stress point 2 when learning something new there are going to be things your not going to understand anytime that happens to me I open up a browser and figure out what is being discusssd or described. So that I have a better understanding of something. If you need to you can always ask someone as well but if it doesnāt make sense and doesnāt add up keep doing your own research!! I guess there are three points to make 3rd is question Everything!! Literally everything, when something is off or doesnāt sit right with you there is usually a reason. I realize this is a lot to throw at you all at once but this is what I notice in myself and what i do so hopefully something can benefit you.
When learning new things, it at times can be discouraging maintaining the information what I have done that works for me is associating what Iām learning with something I already know. For instance I have a really hard time remembering peoples names so Iām working on associating peoples names with people I already know. Start with small stuff thatās easy to remember and gradually build because although things are different and may seem complex the fundamental components and principles involved apply to most things. Once you figure those things out!! Youāll be boooommmmiiiinnnn! Because youāll be able to apply what you already know to what your learning... snowballs after that!
After I hit my ceiling in new information I just stop we all have our moments where weāre just like ugh!! Thatās enough!! causing me to get my rear in gear!! Now that Iām out of bed itās time to use what I have learned maybe not that day but I try to practice putting the things that I have resonated and agreed with into action. This solidifies what I have learned and opens my mind for more information. When I do this, it is what exponentially feeds my mood for that day and the next!! For it reassures me that I am capable and worthy! Giving me the confindence in myself to do it again the next day, boosting my confindence skills and the feeling that I can believe in myself once again!!
The one thing that I had to learn while going through this process was to be gentle on myself. Before I would get angry anytime I didnāt understand something. I would curse myself saying your so... stupid!! I realize now that was only causing me to lower my vibrational frequency making it even harder for me to learn anything new or... remember and use that which I already knew. So be gentle with yourself... you owe it to yourself and your worth it!
Iāll end with something I have kind of always known but choose not to practice. The most important thing you can do every morning is hydrate hydrate hydrate!!!! Then moderately caffeinate. Iāll explain why this is important on my next post. I canāt tell you when ... that will be... Iām going to plan for tomorrow but as we know... things donāt always go as planned
Have a great day everyone
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Songs for today
Courage to Grow ~ Revolution
My Life Alone ~ SOJA
Being Me ~ Jack and The Weatherman
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I will NOT!
January 27, 2021
You WON... go...!! Leave... Please... Leave... Your DUMB!! Stop!! DONT!!
One more time... I... WILL NOT...!!Ā
so when it comes to what keeps me going I couldn't really tell ya... but what i can do is explain to you the things I do on a daily basis or often that must be what keeps me grounded and my head in the game. As you know I'm going to make sure things are explained properly so this might take me a couple of days hopefully you don't mind.
It has been said that when one does the right things for the right reasons there is nothing that can stand in their way. So Iām sold on the other saying that, its the little things that keep me going for when we look back on our lives we realize that its the little things, that were actually the most important and meaningful to us. Im such a strong believer in this because no matter what I encounter I always go back to the little things that bring me joy not happiness for happiness is a state of being but joy permeates Happiness, feeding your mind body and soul. A Few Of My Favorite Things, Julie Andrews (Music Notes). Above all else its the little things no one can take from you/I and are the fundamental components that make us who we are. these things are usually out of our control they don't cause anyone any harm and in all reality is just a sense of appreciation for what's already there. This also translates into hobbies or anything you do that doesn't cause yourself or anyone else any discontent but instead continuously provides encouragement, love, purpose and guidance. ALL of these are fundamental components in Maslowās Hierarchy.
Over the last couple of months I've really searched within myself determining what it is that has helped me dance when I wanted to cry or rise when i wanted to die and TBH I cry when I dance and die so I can rise all while keeping that what makes me whole LOVE. Not only for myself but for my fellow human even the humans who make it difficult to love. The reason I have been so curious and delved deep within myself is so that I could share it with you. Unfortunately the only constant in common day life is hard times strife and adversity. which is something that IĀ have never been able to understand. My theory is that societal diplomats/cabal designed it that way for a couple of reason... 1 is so that people have an excuse to do the effed up POOP that they do... the other reason is so that we just write it off of our conscious, Whelp...! that's life... NO ITS NOT!! This mentality in turn breeds the attitude of cant beat em join em even when we don't want to... or know that what we were/are doing, doesn't bring us any joy at all. But everybody's doing it and all or any of us want is to belong and be accepted, Even ME. living this way though just make us succumb more and more to things we wouldnāt normally agree with digging the hole deeper and deeper to a point where no one even feels comfortable standing up for what's right or what they believe in period. This allows those who heap coals on your home to increase in size and rise to heights insurmountable to you or I. Happening so much it causes us to constantly question ourselves cascading through life confused of whether or not were good enough if were doing the right thing or worthy at all. Its my opinion that this constant state of second guessing ourselves is what stops us from growing into our individuality and blossoming vibrantly into a bloom of vibrant colorful thoughts, opinions, skills and emotions. For how can one go through Metamorphosis (Playboi Carti) If your lied to and belittled to a point that you question and doubt your ability to construct your chrysalis. Please pardon my scattered brainness (new word)Ā with wording the same concept in different ways for what I am explaining is complicated which is why its going to take a couple days. Its once again my opinion society is constructed this way because it just proves the point that its easier to OBEY (Consume indulge in your animalistic ways and never apologize) for asking for forgiveness is better then asking for permission?!?! now that I have explained what how and why let me explain what I do to ensure I'm happy every day.
So I don't know about you but I get into foul moods I wake up on the wrong side of the bed I even hate some things on a daily basis. somedays I don't even want to get out of bed. Some of it has to do with what I am eating but there is also something off chemically at that time in your brain. How do Fix that... I scroll the GRAM HAHA. seriously though i do, usually while listening to music. whether I'm angry depressed or just fed up and exhausted/overwhelmed I notice that triggering my emotions, usually the ones that make me cry Is almost like i hit the reset button on my mood and overall well being. there's a variety of things that trigger tears for me. sometimes its music, a particular song or verse that sums up what I'm going through or how I am feeling. sometimes I'm reading something thats reassuring me that what I'm feeling is valid or its supportive sometimes its something that is inspirational and beautiful. its not usually something that is sad that makes me cry... Although anger is a secondary emotion things that are truly sad invoke rage in me as they should everyone. once I have that moment where I've reached my emotional threshold and finish weeping lol I then focus on my favorite things music, sunsets, jokes, goals, aspirations and what I have already accomplished which fosters a better mood pushing me up the hierarchy on a regular basis. this in turn makes me a better person in the community and in life knowing I can handle what is thrown at me and that I'm going to make it through the day...
since I do have to work and all that stuff we have to do...ill continue over the next couple days sharing with you what makes me, the man I have come to depend on, Never changing for anything or anyone. #stubborn
Music and Nature Everyone!!
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January 12, 2021 @3:01 am
I was going to write but if you have been following along thus far, then you know that music has always been the vessel of the message. It is whats there when no one else is... it pulls us from the depths when all hope has been lost. It can stir up every human emotion and block out every bad memory. It can motivate you to keep moving when its eaier to stall, or rise when its easier to fall. When I think about how I continue moving forward, persevering, hoping, loving and striving for something better, I owe it to so many Beautiful People. Thank You!! One of the bands I really like says to "focus on the message dont focus on the rhyme." These 4 songs have I have just recently discovered. All were written a awhile ago but since I have found them cant stop listening to them. They make a lot of sense with the times were in. I just wanted to share what keeps me going and its nice knowing Im not the only one that thinks and feels this way!! š¤ā
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