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sick and alone

jj’s poorly but so is her sister penelope, being the smaller one, she gets lost in the commotion

JJ did not feel good. Her heart was pounding out of her chest, her eyes were watery, she couldn't breathe through her nose because it was blocked, sweat was forming on her head and she just laid there, in her bed, hoping she’d survive the night. Her stomach was in knots, she didn’t feel well at all but she couldn't tell anyone.

She looked over at the unoccupied bed in her room and sighed. Her sister, Penelope, was sick too but she was sleeping her their mama’s bed. Pen was really sick, throwing up sick, which meant she was scared and clingy and attached to Emily’s hip and that meant JJ had to try be a big girl and not a nuisance. Anyway, she wasn’t even that sick. It was only a little cold, she could manage it alone.

The night continued on and JJ tossed and turned. She hated not having her sister in her room with her, it felt off. She could hear Penelope getting up a few times and Emily going with her. She could hear their conversations and the comfort Emily was giving Pen. It was all JJ needed but she knew if she even tried to go and get her own comfort, she’d be pushed aside for Penelope. Which was okay, in her eyes, Pen was sicker. She deserved that comfort, that love and JJ was just going to have to manage, as she told herself.

The moon shone through the slit in the curtains and JJ snuck across the room to retrieve one of Penelope’s many stuffed toys. She hoped, maybe, if she had some of Penelope with her in her bed, she’d feel a little better, a little more comforted but it didn’t work. No matter how hard she tried she couldn’t sleep.

She heard her mama and sister get up for the fifth time and sighed, she felt horrible. She honestly just wanted her mama. She knew the next day was going to be even worse because none of them had got any sleep so they’re all going to be grouchy. Penelope gets especially grumpy when she’s sick which means more attention on her and JJ being pushed to the side again. She didn’t want it. It was never intentional. JJ was a shy little one, she never spoke up for herself or even really spoke without being spoken to - unless she was in a super good mood and that wasn’t going to happen with her sickness.

She’d tried blowing her nose, she’d tried coughing up the crap from her chest, she’d tried it all but none of it was making her more comfortable to sleep - even Penny’s teddy wasn’t helping and that always helped.

At around 5 am, although unaware of the time herself, JJ decided to bite the bullet and go climb into her mama’s bed, or at least try to see what they were doing. She hadn’t heard them for a while and she hoped if she maybe just went and snuck under the covers whilst they slept they wouldn’t notice her and ask questions. She tiptoed down the hallway and pushed open her mama’s door. She saw them both asleep, Penny closest to the ensuite bathroom and then Emily at the other side of the bed. JJ whimpered, it meant she’d have to crawl up the middle as that was the only room but that meant a huge risk of waking them up. She didn’t want that at all. Swallowing the ball in her throat, she left the room and shut the door quietly again. She tiptoed back down the hallway and crawled into her own bed. She held back the tears for as long as possible but the thought of being in her mama’s arms broke the dam. She cried silently until eventually, her over exhausted, crying body shut off for the night - only half an hour before Emily came to get her up for breakfast.

Emily was under the impression her good girl, JJ, had slept through the night and was going to be nice and refreshed for her day ahead. She left Penelope to sleep, still tired herself however and went to make her best girl some breakfast. As tired as she was, she didn’t want to break their 8am wakeup routine because that then messed up naptime and then messed up the whole day. Once breakfast was ready, she quietly headed into the girl’s shared bedroom and saw JJ sleeping soundly. She headed over to the curtains and opened them first, letting in some nice summer morning sun. She then grabbed a new pull up for her accident prone little one and her clothes for the day as she watched JJ begin to stir from the noise and sun.

“Mama,” she whispered, sitting up and stretching.

“Good morning, sleepy head. Are you ready to start the day?” Emily asked oblivious to her poorly girl.

“No mama,” JJ whispered and laid back down, pulling the blanket over her head.

“Oh come on, mama made your breakfast and got your clothes out. It's going to be a full day of playing and having fun, hm?” Emily said as she walked over. She sat on the side of the bed and then they both heard Penelope’s shout.

“Mama! I sick!” Emily sighed sadly and turned to JJ.

“You get up and get ready then go grab your breakfast whilst mama sorts out your sister, okay? Mama loves you.” She kissed JJ’s head, which was peeking out from under the cover and left the room. JJ sighed loudly, holding back even more tears. She didn’t want to get up and ready, especially not on her own. But nevertheless, her mama had asked her nicely and that meant she had to. Slowly, she peeled the covers off herself and got out of bed. She had no energy, her whole body ached as she took each step towards the bathroom. She wanted to curl up and cry. She took her time getting ready, she went as slow as she could without it hurting too much and had to stop to cough or blow her nose or even just rest her heart. She was exhausted. Her head hurt, it pounded if she bent down too fast or moved her head too quickly.

“JJ, your breakfast is going cold!” Emily shouted up the stairs. In the time it took JJ to get ready, Emily had showered Penelope and got her ready for the day. Although they weren’t going to try food for Pen yet, she needed some fluids and to get out of the bedroom, even if that meant sleeping on the sofa.

“I comin,” JJ replied as loud as her sore throat could let her. She slid her slippers on, using the wall for balance, and headed out of her bedroom with her blanket tucked under her arm. She took the steps one at a time like usual but winced as her head hurt if she went too fast. She just wanted to sleep.

“And the baby arrives,” Emily announced as JJ walked into the kitchen. Penelope, who was sitting at the table with a drink of water in front of her, giggled. “Took your time there, bed head. Did you brush your hair?” Emily asked, taking in the sight of her girl. JJ’s top was backwards, her hair was a mess, she had a bright red nose and rosy cheeks and her slippers were on the wrong feet. JJ sighed and shook her head, she forgot to brush her hair. But shaking her head caused a lot of pain, she winced and grabbed her head with her spare hand. But Emily didn’t see, she had turned to find a hairbrush.

“Sit down baby, mama will do it whilst you eat.” Emily said and JJ went to sit down by her breakfast. “I just warmed it up so it should be okay to eat,” Emily added.

“Fanks mama,” JJ whispered and dug into her porridge. Emily came over with a brush and began brushing through JJ’s blonde hair. She then decided to put a small braid down the back of her hair just to keep it out the way because JJ didn’t often like it too much in her face.

“Mama I go wash cartoon?” Penelope asked sweetly..

“Yeah, do you need mama to do it or are you okay?” Emily asked.

“I okay.” Penelope said and headed into the lounge area. She spread herself out on the sofa with her duvet cover and turned on the TV.

“What would you like to do today, Jay?”

JJ shrugged and took a small bite of her breakfast. Eating was hard, with her head and not being able to breathe properly and everything hurting, she was struggling.

“Sweetheart you've hardly touched your food,” Emily sighed. “Are you okay?” She asked and sat in the seat beside her. She touched JJ’s head with the back of her hand and JJ sniffled. Just as she went to shake her head, they heard the sound of Penny being sick - again.

“I’ll be back, stay there baby,” Emily said and quickly ran off. JJ sighed. She listened to the commotion whilst trying to still eat but eventually just pushed the bowl away. She couldn’t eat anymore. She put her head on the cold table and it helped her cool off. She tried not to fall asleep, waiting for her mama to come back but she couldn’t help it.

Twenty minutes later, Emily came back to see JJ asleep on the table. She couldn’t help but chuckle slightly. Penelope was back on the sofa, watching her cartoons half asleep. She had time to attend to her other sick little girl. She grabbed the thermometer first and stuck it against JJ’s head as she slept and it was way too high. She was sweating and shivering at the same time and even sniffling in her sleep. Emily cursed herself for not noticing it sooner.

“JJ, princess,” she rubbed her back and cooed at her as her little one’s eyes flickered open.

“Hm I sorry mama, no mean sleep,” she whispered. She pulled her sleeves over her hands as she sat up.

“It’s okay baby, how long have you felt poorly hm?” Emily asked and sat beside JJ.

“Not- not poorly,” JJ said and turned away, sniffling as her nose was still blocked. Emily handed her a tissue from the box.

“I know I’ve been busy with Penelope but that doesn’t mean you get neglected. Have you been poorly all night?” JJ whimpered and nodded, her eyes suddenly filling with tears. She wiped them, she didn’t want to cry.

“Hey,” Emily whispered and rubbed her back. “Shall I get you some medicine?”

“No need it,” JJ whispered.

“Yes you do, stay there,” Emily said. JJ sighed and stayed sat, she wasn’t able to go anywhere anyway, she was far too exhausted. Emily grabbed some medicine and came back over. She helped JJ take it and then sighed, looking at her poorly girl. She really didn’t look well.

“You came in for cuddles last night, didn’t you?”

“It otay,” JJ whispered and wiped her eyes again. Why was she so emotional?

“Come on my baby, let’s go cuddle on the couch. I think Penelope’s watching bear.” Emily picked JJ up from the chair with ease and JJ wrapped herself around her caregiver, never wanting to let go.

“Budge up Pen, your sister needs some cuddles,” Emily said as she entered the living area. Penelope pulled her knees up, letting her caregiver and sister sit down but never taking her eyes off the big dancing bear on the TV. JJ didn’t turn around to see it, she just buried her head in Emily’s neck and began nursing softly.

“Mama’s got you, now,” Emily said and rubbed her back. JJ didn’t respond, already half asleep.

“I love you my princess.” She whispered in JJ’s ear and that sent JJ off into a nice sleep, a restful one this time.

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I made a Bingo and Bluey moodboard!!

both paci's are from @/marshmallow.c0 on insta!!

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☆ can we normalize carrying toys / plushies in public? ☆

as an autistic person that struggles with social anxiety, taking my comfort plushies with me always helps me be more comfortable.

it's not wrong to have comfort items, and we shouldn't be shamed for carrying them around!

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penelope and jj are my fave dynamic ever ever

sisters to the rescue

the group get a surprise visit from jj’s mum and it sends the poor girl into a crazy, scared headspace

but penelope can’t have that! read as she looks after her big sister in the best way.

it had been a rough day. both girls started off quite small, jj smaller than penelope with her cute pull up on and nightshirt waddled into emily’s room this morning for nursing and cuddles and penelope trudged in with as many teddies as she could carry not long after. it was a slow morning for the girls, a nice one. they made pancakes, with their matching aprons from uncle rossi tied around their waists. then they went for a walk around the nearby lake which was needed to get their energy out and then it was nap time but they were all awoken by a rude intruder. jj’s mum.

the knock on the door was hard and sudden and woke up jj instantly. penelope stayed asleep. jj sat up and rubbed her eyes, she’d fallen asleep in emily’s bed but there was no emily, only her little sister and all her stuffies. she felt herself older but not by much. she stretched and slid out from under the covers before heading to the stairs to try get a sneak peak at who had knocked. she could hear her mama talking.

“you can’t be here right now,” emily said to the stranger at the door.

“she’s my daughter, i can’t pay her a visit?”

“not without permission. you know this sandy-“

sandy? it was jj’s mum. her throat went tight and she felt herself instantly going to that headspace she hated. she wanted to be sick. she needed to be sick. she hadn’t seen her mom in 3 years, ever since the restraining order had been put into place.

“sandy i can call the police.”

“oh please, just let me see my daughter.”

“no can do.”

“emily.”

“sandy.”

“fine. i’ll go but i’ll be back.”

and that’s what terrified jj. is her mother knew their new address, her mother very much could come back at any point.

“jj, is that you?” emily asked when she made sure sandy had left the premises. she turned to the girl curled up at the top of the stairs, sobbing into her knees.

“she found me,” she cried out. penelope then came out of the bedroom, smaller than before. she was confused why her sister was crying, who had found her?

“jj she won’t come back. i’m going to call the police and get this figured out.”

“no she will come back. she’s going to come get me, take me away!” jj sobbed.

“no jay, that won’t happen.”

“emily it will!” jj cried out! she got up from the stairs and charged to her bedroom .

“jay,” emily called out, heading after as quick as she could but was met with a door slamming in her face.

“jj otay?” penelope asked sadly, pulling at her caregivers shirt.

“oh pen,” emily sighed and turned around. she took the girl into her arms and held her tight and penelope hid her head in her neck. she hated seeing her sister hurt. so hurt.

that was hours ago and jj hadn’t left her room since and it worried emily. she was notorious for a lot of bad things when in this headspace and although her room had been checked for drugs and alcohol they hadn’t done a sharp objects sweep in a while and emily couldnt get it out of her head. derek was on his way over to look after penelope but pen wouldn’t leave the house without knowing her sister was okay.

emily had made penelope a snack to keep her occupied and decided to bed upstairs.

that was how we got to the current predicament. emily knocked softly and opened the door. jj was lying on the bed with her headphones on, curled up against the wall, in her safest place. having a bed in the corner made everything safer.

“how you feeling kiddo?” emily asked and jj glared at her; she hated nicknames.

“jay,” emily sighed and jutted out her hip.

“don’t want to talk. leave me alone.”

“jj, i have to make sure you’re safe can you at least come downstairs?”

“no.”

“jj, i can’t keep an eye on you up here.”

“you don’t need to, fuck off.”

at that, penelope appeared behind her caregiver and jj let out a mighty groan. penny whimpered and emily reached out to hold the younger girls hand.

“emily, just get out!! both of you! out!” jj screamed and threw the pillow at the door where her two bestest friends stood.

“jj, i know you’re upset but-“

“are your deaf? fuck off emily!” another pillow was thrown in emily’s direction. penelope whimpered from behind her caregiver.

“both of you,” jj added, more quieter and emily sighed. she turned around and put a hand on penelope’s shoulder.

“come on love, let’s give jj her space,” she said. penelope looked at emily, pleading her to stay and help her big sister who was so clearly in a lot of emotional pain but emily shook her head. jj was in no way able to communicate right now, not effectively at least. they had to give her space.

not an hour later, derek arrived but even two caregivers weren’t enough to keep an eye on the sneaky penelope. while derek went to the toilet and emily prepared dinner, pen gathered up as many stuffies as she could, two colouring books and her pencil case before scurrying up the stairs to her sisters room. she didn’t both knocking.

jj sat there with a scowl on her face as she took in the sight of penelope. pen shut the door with her foot and came further into the room. she dropped the things at the foot of the bed and jj moved her knees closer to her chest. she didn’t want to colour but she couldn’t turn down penelope.

“i came with some things to make you feel better,” penelope said in her sweet little voice.

“don’t want it,” jj grumbled and turned away.

“jj, no be grumpy,” penelope said and climbed onto the bed, she crawled beside her sister.

“leave me lone,” jj whispered and turned more toward the wall.

“no.” penelope said stubbornly. she crossed her arms and legs and faced jj. jj whimpered. “i not leaving.”

“why? i’m no good anyway.” jj sighed.

“cus you need a friend an i your best one,” penelope said. she reached over and grabbed jj’s favourite stuffie her teddy bear which looked just like your traditional teddy bear. it was jj’s favourite toy of all time.

“this you next best one,” penelope said and handed it over. jj whimpered.

“don’t want that pen.”

“take it, for cuddles.”

“don’t want to,” jj whimpered louder.

“it make you feel good.”

“no!” jj shouted suddenly. she desperately wanted to cuddle it but she felt so embarrassed in this headspace. she wanted to colour but she couldn’t. she wanted to cuddle with pen but couldn’t. she wanted to do it all and be nice to her little sister who was only trying to help but couldn’t. she felt useless and stupid. penelope sighed and crossed her arms on a huff and the door opened again. it was emily and derek.

“what’s going on here?” emily asked in her strong voice.

“nothing,” penelope said, glaring at jj.

“penelope, jj?” derek asked, looking between them.

“nothing, she said,” jj sassed. she climbed off the bed in a huff, knocking the colouring books and most of the stuffies off the bed in the process. she stormed to the bathroom but emily grabbed her wrist before she could.

“let go; need a wee.” jj whimpered and pulled at her arm.

“jj,” emily warned.

“just a wee for gods sake!” jj screamed and ripped her hand away, she went into the bathroom and slammed the door shut behind her. emily sighed and turned to penelope.

“what did i tell you about giving her space young lady?”

“mama i jus wanted to see her. be there for her!” penelope replied.

“but i gave you specific instructions to leave her alone.”

“she need friends.”

“she needs alone time.”

“i don’t always need to be alone,” jj said from the bathroom door. she shook her hands dry and walked through the room.

“jj you told me to fuck off.”

“that was earlier. pen can stay. you and derek can leave,” jj explained. she got herself comfy on the bed again, hiding in the corner and emily looked at her sadly but didn’t argue.

“dinner will be ready in 20.”

the caregivers left and jj sighed. she watched as penelope piled her teddies back onto the bed.

“sorry,” jj muttered.

“no need be. they all fall all the time, they clumsy.”

jj couldn’t help but let out a crack of a smile.

“clumsy huh?”

“yeah they always fall off my bed too,” penelope explained. “it’s just cus they’re stuffed.”

“oh yeah; stuffing does that,” jj teased. penelope nodded and smiled and sat back in her spot.

“you wan cuddle?” penelope asked and opened her arms. she tapped her lap and jj sighed. she did want a cuddle, not a proper one though- that was embarrassing. instead, she laid her head down on penelope’s lap and let the younger girl run her fingers through her hair.

“i know your mum is scary,” penelope said, almost coming out of her headspace now.

“pen you- you don’t have to,” jj said, going to sit up but penelope held her down.

“i’m here for you.”

“you can do both.”

“i know and i am. i know your mum is scary but you don’t need to act so hostile towards us all okay?”

jj sighed, she hated how she treated everyone. “i know i just get so angry.”

“i know but mama always says to take deep breaths when we’re angry.”

jj whimpered. penelope was right. “i’m sorry i got so angry at you penny, you don’t deserve that.”

“it okay sis. i understand,” she whispered, slipping again now.

“i love you penny,” jj sighed. she never said things like that in her headspace and penelope knew that. she smiled wide.

“i love you.”

not long after, emily entered again.

“dinners ready downstairs, come on you two,” she said, smiling softly at the cuddles they were having, jj was half asleep on penelope’s knee. penelope slid out from under jj and headed off downstairs and emily waited patiently for jj to move. she did so, slowly. she rubbed her eyes and whimpered, looking up at her caregiver sadly.

“you okay?” emily asked, knowing her girl was in fact not okay. and at the question, a flood of tears came. emily sighed sadly and walked over to her little one and sat beside her, jj curled herself up and emily pulled her into her side. jj tried to fight but emily was having none of it, she held her little one with a closeness of love and promise.

“mama’s here,” emily whispered and pulled jj’s cross her lap. jj clung to her caregiver.

“mama’s right here, you’re so so safe.”

“jj bad.”

“jj isn’t bad baby,” emily sighed and rubbed her girls back. “she’s so good but just hurting and that’s okay. it’s okay to hurt, it’s okay to have big feelings.”

“was mean.”

“you was mean but i know you feel bad about it and i know you want to say sorry and i also know you’ve already said sorry to penelope. everything is going to be okay.”

“jj scared.”

“oh baby you don’t need to be scared. mama is going to keep you so so safe.”

“even from mum?”

“especially from her my little love. you’re safe with mama, okay?”

“otay,” jj whispered and cuddled into her caregivers neck, feeling smaller than she has all day.

“mamas got you,” emily whispered and held her girl tighter. “i’m right here.”

for the rest of the night, jj didn’t let go of her mama. wether it was holding her hand, being in her arms, sitting on her lap, it was all about being close to her mama. penelope was just the same. emily didn’t mind having two girls stuck to her hips, it just meant extra cuddles in bed that night. and that’s how they slept, all three of them cuddled under the millions of jj’s comfort blankets and hundreds of penelope’s teddy bears.

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Misunderstandings

So I was chatting with @lilveeblog about their most recent fanfic ‘Monday Blues’ about how when Penelope goes to tell Emily something bad happened to JJ Emily asks if JJ had an accident. Well what if in Penelope’s regressed mind things got a bit confused and she thought Emily meant that accidents were bad.

- Word Count 2k

The team had just come back from a gruelling case keeping them away from home for the past week and the crime having an online aspect had Penelope seeing some of the worst of the action from behind her desk. She wanted nothing more to regress and had been between headspace’s all morning. She rubbed her eyes and shifted in her seat, writing reports was never fun, especially when you have to recount all of the horrors witnessed over the duration of the case.

She really needed to get this finished. As soon as she was done with these final searches she could wrap up for the day and regress fully knowing that it’s likely at least one other person would be finished too and could take care of her until it was time for everyone to leave. The team had the whole weekend off and they planned to spend some much needed family time at Uncle Rossi’s after the last couple of cases being particularly difficult.

Penelope wasn’t sure how much longer she spent typing away but finally she was done. She closed down her tabs and went to stand up when she realised she had a little problem. She was sat in a puddle and her skirt was clinging to her thighs uncomfortably.

Oh. Oh no. She hadn’t even realised she needed to go and she wasn’t even sure when it had happened but the cloying wetness had her slipping into her little headspace fast and she felt the tears begin to well into her eyes.

She was about to go ask for help cleaning up when she remembered JJ’s meltdown a couple of days prior. When she saw JJ was so upset she went to tell Aunty Emily something bad had happened and Emily had asked if JJ had had an accident. In the girls mind the fact that Emily thought JJ had had an accident after she said it was something bad, must have meant that she thought accidents were bad and she began to panic, tears now rolling down her face.

Penelope didn’t know what to do so she ran. She ran into the BAU bathroom and locked herself in a stall, curling up into one of the corners and letting the sobs she had been holding back free and clutching her knees to her chest desperately.

Back in the bullpen Tara had just finished up her report. She knew Penelope had been struggling between headspace’s whilst getting ready for work this morning, so she headed over to the girls office to see if she was almost ready to wrap up and play with some of the toys her and JJ kept in the office especially for times like these.

When she opened the blondes door however what she wasn’t expecting to find was an empty desk. Knowing Penelope was between headspace’s she knew the moment she left her desk she would struggle to not regress and the fact that there wasn’t a whirlwind of blonde hair whipping through the office ready to cause trouble was a little concerning, however she figured the younger girl had probably just popped to the bathroom and decided to wait for her just outside of her office.

After 5 minutes of waiting and still no sign of the rambunctious blonde Tara’s concern shifted into worry. Based on her initial assumption that Penelope had headed to the bathroom after finishing up her work she decided that would be the best place to start looking for the girl, knowing especially between headspace’s her motor skills were not always the best and she sometimes had difficulty with some of her more intricate clothing pieces.

Tara expected to walk into the bathroom to find a regressed Penelope struggling with her buttons or zipper, so hearing the gut wrenching sobs that sounded distinctly like the younger girl coming from behind one of the cubicle doors was a shock.

Penelope on hearing someone enter the bathroom began to sob harder. In her younger mindset what had likely only been 5 to 10 minutes in the corner in her uncomfortably damp clothes felt like hours. She wasn’t sure what to do, the clothes clinging to her body felt horrible and she wanted nothing more than to get changed but the fear of being punished for being ‘bad’ was still unbelievably overwhelming.

At the soft knocking on the door Penelope lifted her head, wiping her sleeve across her snotty tear stained face.

“Hey Penelope, is everything okay in there baby?” Tara asked softly.

Penelope sniffled. It wasn’t fair that she knew it was her right away. “go -way peas Tara,” she sniffled.

“Oh sweetie, I don’t want to leave you to cry on your own in there you sound awfully upset. Can you let me know what’s wrong so I can help?” Tara asked gently not wanting to upset the little further.

“Nuh uh. No wanna. Go -way peas.” Penelope cried again.

“I can’t leave you here all alone when you’re feeling small baby. Is there someone else you’d like me to get instead?” Tara question knowing that out of everyone on the team Penelope preferred comfort from Emily when things were really tough.

“No fanks. No grown ups peas. Wan- J,” she stated trying to sound firm with Tara even though the wet hiccups ended up making the request sound sad.

“Okay baby. Thank you for letting me know. JJ might have regressed already but I will do my best to see if she can come chat,” Tara replied.

Tara knew JJ had also had a tough time on the case and was looking forward to regressing this weekend just as much as Penelope. She was hoping however she was still in her adult headspace at least for long enough to find out what had Penelope hidden in a bathroom cubicle and sobbing so sadly.

When she left the bathroom however she saw Emily and a very clearly regressed JJ heading out of the brunettes office and into the bullpen, likely also in search of the stash of office toys.

Emily saw Tara exiting the bathroom and headed over to her with JJ to descend the stairs in the bullpen together.

When Tara didn’t begin to walk with them Emily spoke, “Hey Tara, is everything okay?” she asked.

“Penelope is locked in a bathroom stall sobbing, I don’t know why. She only wants JJ but it’s not fair to ask JJ to go help when she’s regressed,” Tara explained.

Emily had barely had a chance to process the information before JJ began speeding towards the bathroom.

“I help Penny,” the girl yelled pushing open the bathroom door.

Emily and Tara followed behind her, albeit at a much slower pace in case they needed to intervene.

JJ knocked on the stall door, “ PENNY!” she shouted, “is meeee, peas don- cry, i come in?” she continued carrying on knocking virtually the whole time.

Penelope still crying sighed in relief, she knew JJ wouldn’t think she was bad no matter what. Especially considering she was the younger of the pair and had accidents a lot more frequently than she did.

She slowly stood up cringing at the uncomfortable feeling on her skin before opening the door a crack and letting JJ slip into the stall with her.

Seeing her younger sister made Penelope’s tears pick back up again, the overwhelming emotions taking hold. She reached out for JJ hoping a cuddle would help her calm her emotions.

“Penny why cry?” JJ asked sweetly cuddling her sister back.

“Oh. Wet,” JJ stated as she took in Penelope’s appearance and the feeling of the girls wet dress against her, “it’s okay Penny peas don’t cry, mama help clean up!”

At that Tara slipped out of the bathroom going to see if anywhere in Penelope’s office needed to be cleaned and to grab the girls bag to get a spare change of clothes.

“Nuh uh. Emmy thinks accidents are bad. ‘Said so!other day,” Penelope hiccuped pulling away from JJ rubbing her sleeve against her snot stained teary face.

“No she never!” JJ stamped her foot, “my mama would never say accident bad. ‘Cause accident happens on accident not on purpose.”

Emily felt horrible. She remembered exactly when this had happened. The rambunctious blonde came rushing into her office to tell her something bad had happened with JJ. Knowing this likely meant the younger girl was upset she had asked Penelope if JJ had had an accident only in Penelope’s regressed mind the context must not have made sense.

Knocking on the bathroom door Emily braced herself for the look on Penelope’s face, trying to not show any hint of sadness about being the cause of the girls upset. She didn’t want Penelope to think she was in trouble, especially after how upset she was getting over the thought of doing something bad.

“Penelope, JJ, babies can I come in now please?” Emily asked.

JJ opened the door slowly and Penelope’s tears began to pick up again as she tried to push herself back into the corner.

“Oh Penelope sweetheart, it’s okay you’re not bad. I’m sorry I made you think so,” Emily said softly, taking JJ’s space in the stall as soon as the girl had walked out.

“JJ was exactly right kiddo, accidents are called accidents because you don’t have them on purpose, and if it’s not on purpose then it can’t be bad.” Emily said reaching her arms out for Penelope, knowing that as soon as she was upset all she craved was cuddles.

Penelope almost launched herself into the brunettes arms letting the sobs take over whilst Emily held her. Emily rubbed soothing circles on Penelope’s back and pressed small kisses to the top of her head whilst he cried waiting for her crying to slow and her breathing to even out.

During that time Tara had come back with Penelope’s bag and tried to get JJ to go with her to play and give her sister and Emily some privacy. JJ however no matter how young was ever the protector of her sister and refused to let Penelope out of her sight. When it became obvious the young girl couldn’t be swayed Tara had left to go and wait for the trio in the bullpen with the rest of the team.

“Right, let’s get you into some clean clothes,” Emily said once Penelope had settled enough.

Penelope nodded her head and smiled wetly, she really was glad Emily had given her a cuddle and now she was getting out of the uncomfortable clothing.

Emily grabbed a clean dress, some socks and a pull-up from the girls bag. At the sight of the pull-up Penelope whined. She wasn’t a baby.

“Come on Penny you know the rules, besides when we get to Uncle Rossi’s everyone is going to be getting into their pyjamas anyway,” Emily said lifting the hem of Penelope’s dress to pull it off and over her head.

At that Penelope relented and allowed Emily to get her changed, she even joined in with the silly clothes game JJ and Emily sometimes played.

Emily would put the clothes in all the wrong places until one of the girls got so flustered from all the giggling they grabbed the clothing showing Emily where it really went lest the brunette have them walking the streets with pants on their heads.

The silly game combined with the tickling spread intermittently throughout getting changed had Penelope laughing so hard by the time they were ready to leave the bathroom, it was almost as though all the upset had been forgotten. The rest of the team had also finished wrapping up their reports so it was time to head to Uncle Rossi’s for a relaxing weekend.

You can read Vee’s fic below:

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i think people really need to stop pushing themselves to do certain things and act a certain way when regressing.

it’s like people think there’s one way to do it. there isn’t. pushing yourself to be a certain way to fit nonexistent criteria only hurts you in the long run. this is YOUR safespace, do what genuinely makes you feel safe in your space, that’s the whole point!

don’t force yourself to have a cg if you don’t want one. don’t force yourself to be feminine if you don’t want to be. don’t force yourself to baby talk if you don’t want to. don’t force yourself to use gear if you don’t want any. don’t force yourself to fit an aesthetic if you don’t have one. don’t force yourself to regress to a certain age if you don’t feel like that age.

i went through this myself. i used to force myself into one singular aesthetic and forced myself to be a baby regressor when i’m not one. i did what i thought was the most acceptable. now i just do what comes naturally and what makes me happy. i encourage all of you to do the same, if you feel like you’re putting yourself into boxes that aren’t you.

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monday blues

jj is struggling on a monday morning

cute, angsty

1.4k words

it was a monday and jj was not feeling it. it had been a long weekend, playing with penny at rossi’s getting up to their mischief and mayhem but now she felt burnt out, tired and just not good in general. her head was spinning with thoughts, sounds, feelings, it was all so overwhelming. but she had to put on her brave face and face work.

“you ready to go love?” emily asked from the doorway as jj came trudging out the downstairs bathroom, she’d barely made it this time and that worried her. she felt so small and just … vulnerable.

“yeah,” she replied to her caregiver and they headed out the door together.

“so are you okay looking at the cases today? you brought your reading device? i know you had it out yesterday when you did work with uncle Aaron,” emily asked. jj nodded, she’d packed it, she had remembered- had she?

“you sure you’re okay pepper?” emily asked, moving her hand from her own lap to hold jj’s.

“i’m just tired,” jj replied; sending emily a soft smile. she was tired, that wasn’t a lie.

“okay well maybe if you do good work this morning you can have a lunch time nap hm?” emily suggested and jj nodded. that sounded nice. a nap.

“i love you jj,” emily whispered, looking over when the car stopped.

“i love you emmy,” jj replied.

half an hour later and jj was rustling through her bag, getting worked up because she had forgotten to pack her reading device. she cried out and let her bag fall to the floor in a huff. she’d have to go get her spare one from emily’s office which meant admitting she forgot it. she didn’t want to do that because that meant no sticker on her sticker chart for organisation but she was so close to beating penny last week , she wanted to beat her this week. why was none of this fair? she put her head in her hands and assessed the paper in front of her, all the letters were a mess without her device. she felt the anger build up inside her and she burst. she hit the files off her desk in a fury and let them collapse to the floor in a mess. she began to cry into her hands, frustrated and upset at everything. the sound of the papers falling went over and over in her head and she just wanted her mama.

“jj!” penelope cheered, entering the office enthusiastically. she’d missed her friend the night they weren’t together. however, she quickly paused. jj let out a mighty whine from the shout and penny quickly apologised.

“jj are you okay?” penelope asked, she hated seeing jj upset. jj didn’t respond, she rocked back and forth, curled in herself on the floor. her hands were covering her ears and she felt too overwhelmed for life. penelope assessed the room. something bad had happened and she needed to get auntie emily straight away.

“i’ll be back jj. i’ll get your mama,” she whispered and headed out, shutting the door as quietly as she could.

she headed, head down, straight through the bau desks, ignored her own caregiver and went into emily’s office.

thankfully, there was no one else in there.

“auntie emily,” penelope said, quietly still.

“hello, penelope, is everything okay?”

“jj needs you. something bad has happened.”

“something bad?” emily was already out of her seat and heading for the door. “an accident?”

“i don’t know. she was crying and curled up and holding her ears and the room was a mess and-“

“okay it’s okay penny. go find your dada, i’ve got jj handled.” emily said and headed straight out, rushing to jj’s office to check on her baby girl. sometimes she loved and hated that jj had her own office. it was so far from her own but she knew her girl would struggle in the bullpen with all the noises and the work load she had, she needed quiet.

“jj?” emily asked softly, she entered the office and shut the door quietly behind her. she could see the small girls foot behind the desk and got on the floor beside her. she’d had an accident in her upset, the room was a total mess, her bag and its contents were also all over the floor, some now wet from her little puddle and it broke emily’s heart to see her wet, snotty, teary face.

“okay baby,” emily sighed and took her hands from her ears gently. “we’re going to do some breathing together okay? calm down that little chest of yours.”

“not- little,” jj hiccuped.

“okay, okay that’s okay. we still need to calm you down love,” emily sighed. she was clearly pushing that side away, as she always did at work.

“we’re gonna go in for 4, hold for 4, out for 4 okay?”

jj let out a little nod and began breathing alongside her caregiver.

“good girl, two more,” emily said, she counted as they went through the technique.

“box.” jj said quietly.

“we can do the box breathing too. you ready?” emily asked and jj nodded again. she held her hand as they drew the box, inhaling up one side, holding along the top, exhaling down the other side and holding along the bottom. jj, herself, carried on the next one, inhaling, holding, exhaling and holding again before she felt calm enough.

“you did so so good, baby. now, can you tell me what happened?”

“forgot my device,” jj whispered, feeling ashamed. she wiped her eyes harshly and sniffled.

“your reading device?”

“mhm, left home.”

“okay but jj why didn’t you come and ask me for the one in my office?”

“shamed,” jj whimpered again, keeping her eyes down.

“you don’t have to be ashamed for forgetting something my love.”

“no ticker,” jj said.

“your right, no sticker but what’s one sticker in the place of the other 7 you could get?”

“beat penny.”

“jj, you did all of this mess because you wanted to beat penny on the sticker race?” emily sighed.

“stress mama!” jj whimpered and grabbed her hair suddenly, pulling at it.

“okay, okay,” emily said, grabbing her girls hands and pulling them away from her golden hair.

“how about we get reid in here to clean this up and we can go get your changed and you have a nap in my office? after lunch we can try again with your spare device, hm?”

“why reid do it?”

“reid reads fast so he can detect where the papers go. shall we ask morgan too?”

jj nodded softly and crawled over into her mama’s arms.

“ah baby we gotta clean you up, come on,” emily whispered. she tapped jj’s wet bottom gently, endearingly, and jj whimpered.

“sorry.”

“it’s okay, accidents happen, mama isn’t mad.”

emily went over to the cupboard with jj’s spare clothes in it and pulled out a pull up and a skirt so it wouldn’t be obvious. jj didn’t object, she knew the rules, plus it was going to be nap time so she had to wear one. she let emily help her change and sighed, rubbing her eyes, she was so tired.

“come on baby, let’s go nap,” emily said softly and took her little ones hand.

“see penny first.” jj whispered, looking at her caregiver with her doe eyes.

“yeah, we can see penny first,” emily kissed her girls head.

“jj you okay?” penelope asked, hugging her best friend.

“i otay. nap time”, she whispered.

“nap time okay,” penelope nodded. “good idea.” she kissed jj’s head and emily took her girls hand again to take her up to her office. she grabbed the little one’s paci, blanket and teddy they kept in the office before assisting her little one in laying down.

“mama will be right over there if you need me, okay?” emily asked.

“otay mama,” jj said through a yawn. “nigh nigh.”

“goodnight my little love,” emily chuckled and kissed her girls head, tucking her blanket under her chin. “mama loves you.”

“jj love mama too.”

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potions and fairies and mayhem

little jj and little penelope causing trouble at uncle rossi’s!!

all the cutest elements of my girls put together

1.6k words

tw: slight ed mention (jj)

it was one of the rare weekends where the bau team members were all off work. but of course they were together, all at rossi’s enjoying a weekend just chilling together, loving their family dynamic, as family dynamic which contained two hyper regressed kiddos.

penelope and jj were playing in the garden. they’d roped derek and emily into their games of course. spencer sat on the deck, head in his book, rossi was whisking away in the kitchen and aaron watched on from the deck, making sure everything was in order.

“can we pay duck duck goose now penny?’ jj asked, looking up at her big sister with her puppy eyes.

“no we playin tag,” penelope replied, tagging her little sister. “you’re it.”

“no wan pay tag,” jj huffed suddenly, crossing her arms and stomping her foot.

“girls, why don’t we play a round or two of duck duck goose before it’s dinner time?” derek suggested and put his hands on jj’s shoulders to try and diffuse the situation.

“nooo. no wan play that!” penelope groaned, throwing her head back.

“dinner amici!!” rossi suddenly shouted from the decking. jj suddenly let out a cry, she didn’t want to eat. she wasn’t ready to eat, not mentally. why did no one warn her?

“dinner!!” penelope shouted, running into the house, derek followed and emily grabbed her girl.

“it’s okay, you’re okay.”

“no wan to.”

“i know sweetheart. i know,” emily sighed. jj’s eating disorder had been playing up so much it had been difficult to get any food down her recently, the whole team had struggled to help.

“come on little love,” emily whispered and pulled jj up into her arms to carry her inside.

“mama,” jj whimpered, hiding in her neck.

“uncle rossi made your favourite, hm,” emilt said.

“carbonara?” jj asked, sniffling.

“yes my love; carbonara for the princess. come sit,” rossi said and motioned for jj’s special chair. emily sat jj down.

“jj eat all up!” penelope cheered and kissed jj’s head as a sweet endearing act.

jj whimpered, not wanting to eat it all up at all.

“you don’t have to. just try some for me okay?” emily said, tucking some hair behind her ear. jj nodded and sighed softly. the rest of the team took their seats and began eating. jj picked up her bluey fork and began eating off her decorated plate. it was safe.

after dinner, the girls were both a lot chirper and no longer angry or upset with one another.

“uncle derek can you come pay wif us?” jj asked with her sweetest puppy eyes.

“pease dada!” penelope begged, her hands clasped together.

“not if we’re playing princesses.” derek said.

“of course it’s princesses. go on mr tough man,” emily teased.

“you have to come play too!” derek said, throwing up his hands.

“nope nope nope. jj knows after dinner is mama’s wine time. you’re playing now,” emily sniggered and waved the bottle of rossi’s most expensive in derek’s face. he sighed in defeat.

“fine!”

“yay!” the little ones cheered and they grabbed a hand each before dragging him up the stairs.

the adults were downstairs and the little ones were getting their derek all dressed up covered in makeup. he looked beautiful to them, obviously, as handsome as ever to everyone else.

“allllll done!” jj cheered and took a step back from her makeup canvas. whilst nj was in charge of the makeup, penelope was on hair.

“i nearly done too,” penelope said.

“then we gotta show him to eveone!” jj muttered and did a twirl in a dress.

“do we have to?”

“mhms,” penelope giggled. “or else all work for nothing.”

“yeah got show eveone uncle derek,” jj said, huffing and sitting on the floor. she was tired but didn’t want to admit it. with penelope’s adhd, she hardly ever slept whereas jj was always sleepy, she usually slept a full 12 hours and more if she could. with it nearing 8pm, she was ready for bed. but she loved playing with her big sister!

“okay doned!” penelope cheered and stood back from the magic creation of bows and clips in her dada’s hair.

“okay let go show!” jj said happily. she jumped up from the floor and headed downstairs, dragging derek too.

“wait jj!” penelope shouted.

“inside voices ladies,” derek reminded his little.

“sorry dada. jj he not wearing his tutu,” penny said, holding it up.

“darn it. do i have to?”

“yessss uncle derek!” jj said and hurriedly pushed him back into their play room.

“darn it.” he said again.

they paraded their derek down the stairs and the rest of the team laughed and cheered at the handy work of their little ones.

“what amazing work girls!” rossi congratulated. “take a bow!”

both girls stood proudly beside derek, who was not happy, and took the biggest, most proudest bows.

“right girls, bed time!” emily said once derek went to get changed.

“not mineee. ha ha jj got go bed!” penelope giggled and ran off. jj stood there, looking between her caregiver’s open arms and penelope who had ran off.

“come on baby i can see you’re sleepy.”

“nope. i not.” jj giggled and ran off after her sister. she didn’t want to miss out on playing, no matter how tired she was.

“jj!” emily called and sighed as she saw the flash of blonde disappear up the stairs.

“it’s a saturday, let her play a little longer.” hotch said, grabbing emily’s arm and pulling her back down.

“she needs rest or she’ll be grumpy and bratty.” emily groaned.

“she’ll be okay. we can just let her sleep in the morning.”

“fine.”

however, what the adults didn’t know is that the girls were up to no good. in the bathroom.

“so we just have to put this in here and this in here and it makes a potion.” penelope said as she mixed the fancy, expensive shampoo bottles into the toothbrush pot in the bathroom.

“okay but what if it no work,” jj said, leaning in close.

“it will. we will be eal fairies in no time jay.” penelope said and handed over the ‘potion’. “you drink first.”

“why me?”

“cus said so.”

“just cus you said so doesn’t mean i have listen.”

“you do. i boss.”

“you not.”

“i older than you. i boss.”

“i wan be boss.”

“you just a baby. drink it.” she pushed it into her chest, causing the foamy liquid to burst out and splash onto the younger girls t-shirt. she hated wet clothes.

“nooo,” she cried, desperately trying to get the wetness off her.

“i sorry jj!” penelope cried. jj lashed out the , throwing her hands at penelope, causing the cup to go flying across the bathroom and soak the floor. both girls gasped at the loud noise and looked as the soap and water leaked across the floor.

“uh oh.” penelope said.

“off!” jj cried, pulling at her still wet top and now wet socks. she sat down, to try and pull them off but cried out as the wetness soaked into her bum and clothes even more.

“mama!” she screamed as she felt herself get more and more overwhelmed.

“no jj. not mama. she tell us off.” penelope urged and kneeled down beside her friend.

“penny help you.” she said.

“no! not you!” jj cried and threw her hands at penelope, pushing her back. suddenly, emily and derek burst through the bathroom door, to see jj push penelope back.

“jennifer!” emily scolded but suddenly saw the distraught state of her girl.

“okay, okay,” she muttered, more to herself and entered the room.

“what were you two doing in here?” derek asked, looking at the state of rossi’s bathroom.

“jj’s idea dada!” penelope instantly blamed jj and jj cried out.

“it not!”

“let’s get you out of here, come on,” emily said and picked up jj. jj clung to her, fussy about her wet clothes still.

“want off.”

“penelope explain what happened in here,” derek said, firmly to his little.

“dada!”

“none of that whining baby cakes, i need to know.”

penelope began explaining then, how jj encouraged them to make a potion to become fairies and insisted that they use rossi’s most expensive shampoos to be the best fairies they could.

“did you drink it?”

“no jj nearly did but she pushed me dada and it spilled so she got angry and pushed again.”

derek sighed. “you’re telling me you had no involvement in this?”

“no dada. i tried stop her!”

“tell me the truth or it’s time out.”

“dadaaaaaa!”

meanwhile.

“jj sweetheart calm down, they’re not on you anymore,” emily soothed her little as she fussed about the clinging wet clothes to her.

“mama they feel them.” she muttered, quickly becoming overtired and overwhelmed.

“do you want a shower?”

“not shower day!”

“baby,” emily sighed. she turned her little one around and pulled her into her lap, rocking her side to side. she began to sing softly, to help calm her down. the little one yawned but calmed down quickly.

“now, tell mama what on earth you were doing in the bathroom with rossi’s things and why i caught you pushing penelope.”

“penny made me.”

“she made you?”

“she said if we make potions and drink them we become fairies.”

“did you drink it?”

“nooo penny pilled it first.”

“how did she spill it?”

“i maybe push her mama but seee made me!”

“she made you push her?”

“mhm!”

“is that how you both ended up on the floor? did she push you?”

“no i falled.”

“so why did you push her?”

“maaammmaaaaa,” jj whined loudly and threw her head back.

half an hour later and both littles were cleaned up into their pjs ready to settle down for bed. emily hoped she’d get her little one to sleep in no time with the constant yawns and rubbing of her eyes it was inevitable but derek had a bigger challenge on his hands as all penelope wanted to play was fairies.

“it bed time penny,” jj whispered, sniffling and snuggling into her sister whilst the caregivers spoke in the kitchen.

“no mine.”

“mhm, you dada say so.”

“nuh uh. just wo cus wo baby.” penelope whispered and wrapped and arm around her baby sister. she kissed her head lightly and emily brought in a bottle of milk for her girl.

“oh look at you two.” she said softly and took in the cute sight in front of her. “my girls.”

“mama,” jj whispered, despite the cuddle she was already getting and raised her arms to be held.

“come to mama.” emily said and lifted sleepy jj up. she sat her across her lap and began feeding her her nighttime bottle, one full of nutrients she needed to help her ED. it was an easy put down. penelope got back to her colouring fairies and derek stroked her hair as he set her warm milk in her sippy beside her.

“fanks dada.”

“you’re welcome baby girl.”

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Me tucking in my stuffed animals :)

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safe zones 🫧

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girls night

the ladies of the bau have a girls night but jj’s regressed mind has other plans

1.7k words

inspired by the recent women of the bay’s adventures !

Emily climbed in first, her wine glass fullest and she slid into the warm water.

“Oh it’s so nice.” She practically moaned, closing her eyes and taking in the feeling. Penelope was next, eager to get in the water.

“Hm hm hm, this is what I’m talking about babies.”

Then JJ, she slid in next to Emily, making the girls laugh.

“Can’t get away from your girlfriend hm?” Tara asked, JJ stuck out her tongue in reply and settled next to her girlfriend. Emily slid one hand around her waist and kissed her cheek. JJ had had it tough at work the last few weeks but they didn’t want to talk about it. Strictly no work talk! Tara got in last, sitting herself opposite JJ and smiled widely.

“We deserve this.”

“Oh we do,” Emily replied.

“To the badass bau ladies!” Penelope cheered, holding up her glass.

The group chorused in reply and the familiar clink was heard in the hot tub.

The night went on, the women slid in and out, snacked and drank and most of them were feeling quite drunk, apart from the smaller blonde in the corner. All she felt was small. It was taking her longer to get the jokes, to be engaged and she was finding the bubbles a lot more playful than relaxing. The other women laughed whilst JJ spun her fingers through her bubbles and pulled them around her body, creating a border for her castle. Tara watched on, picking up on the quiet girl's behaviour. She left her too it, aware of what was happening but not ready to take her away from the fun just yet. She simply kept a closer eye on the slipping girl.

“What do you think Jay?” Emily asked, slurring her words. She slid over in the seat and wrapped both her arms around her girlfriend. But in the process, broke her girl's bubble circle. JJ let out a mighty whine and pushed Emily away from her and scrambled for more bubbles. Emily sat up immediately and looked at the other two.

“She slipped about half an hour ago,” Tara whispered.

“And you knew?” Emily asked her. “Why didn’t you say anything?”

“She’s content, happy, I didn’t want to make a scene of it,” Tara explained.

“Okay okay,” Emily said and leaned back, assessing JJ.

“Jay?” She asked. JJ ignored her, grumpy that she ruined her castle walls.

“Hey, little monkey,” Emily insisted and kicked her lightly under the water. JJ groaned and moved away, kicking her caregiver back harder.

“Ow. JJ!” Emily groaned.

“Eave me lone,” JJ whispered and turned away from the group.

“Do you need to go to bed?”

“Nooo! Jus payin!” JJ whined.

“Okay Jay,” Emily sighed, “if you need the toilet or want to go to bed you just tell me, okay?” JJ didn’t respond.

“Yeah, no peeing in my pool missy,” Garcia teased and JJ let out a little giggle.

JJ sat in her corner, playing with the bubbles but she couldn’t help notice how the other women had changed their conversation and their looks in her direction had become more frequent, she felt awful. She was fighting in her mind, she didn’t want to be small, not now. But she couldn’t help it, she was tired and stressed and exhausted from all the work and everything. As much as it was finally time for a girls night as they all get the time off, she hadn’t been able to slip in weeks- not properly at least and this was going to be her only chance and her brain just did it automatically. But she wanted to get involved in their jokes and them laughing and the wine. She felt alone and annoying. She did need a wee but didn’t want to tell them. She wanted to go to bed but didn’t want to put them out. She wanted to cuddle and nurse but she also desperately wanted to be big. Why was her brain so silly and stupid?

“Oh! Toilet time!” Penelope announced suddenly, jumping up. JJ’s head lifted too, she could sneak off with P and go pee and come back and she wouldn’t be upsetting anyone - right?

“Pen! Wait!” Emily said, JJ looked at her. Emily looked at her too and nodded her head.

“Go with Penny, you’re okay.” JJ didn’t hesitate, she jumped out the pool, being careful not to slip and caught up with Penelope. She was holding her hand out for her but JJ quickly crossed her arms. She was a big girl, she didn’t need to hold hands.

“Okay grumpy girl,” Penelope laughed.

“She hates herself for this,” Emily sighed when her girl was out of earshot.

“What do you mean?” Tara asked.

“That she’s slipped, she’s angry at herself for it. I can see the cogs in her head.”

“Why don’t you say something?”

“Because if I say something she’ll get more upset with me, I just have to be there for her.”

“Why don’t we call it a night in the tub and go inside? It’s getting cold anyway,” Tara suggested.

“That’s a good shout, come on.”

The pair headed inside with the wine and their towels and waited for Penelope and JJ to emerge from the bathroom. Emily decided to set up a little corner for her Jay. She wanted her to still enjoy herself and have fun but didn’t want to stop their fun at the same time and didn’t want JJ to feel worse than she felt currently.

JJ came out shaking her hands in her own world, she completely didn’t notice the women now sat inside.

Emily snuck over behind her and grabbed her hips, pulling her up for a cuddle.

“Gotcha!” she cheered and JJ screamed and began to laugh as Emily began tickling her sides.

“MAMA STOP!” JJ screamed and kicked out her legs as soon as she could. Emily smiled at her little one and JJ huffed.

“Not small,” she grumbled and crossed her arms.

“It’s okay to be,” Emily said and helped JJ off the floor.

“Not.”

“It is Jay, no one minds.”

“I mind,” JJ grumbled and stomped off to the corner. She sat in the corner Emily had made for her and kept her arms crossed defiantly. She was grumpy and did not want to be disturbed.

“Okay, you just sit there and let me know if you need anything, okay baby?”

“Whatever mama,” JJ replied, turning away. She grabbed her iPad and headphones and slid them on her head ready to submerge herself in Peppa Pig, although she was definitely not small.

About an hour passed and the girls looked over their JJ in the corner, she was engrossed in her show but they were ready for sleep. Unfortunately, Emily did not bring any of her little nighttime things, not even her paci which meant it would be a nursing night- if JJ settled enough to allow it.

Penelope and Tara went to the bathroom first to shower and get ready for bed whilst Emily attended to the little one.

“Hey sweet girl, you okay?” Emily asked. She slipped the headphones off JJ’s head and JJ whined loudly.

“What wan mama?” she’d slipped a lot further and it made Emily smile, the way her little voice came out.

“It’s bedtime. Do you want to shower?” Emily asked. JJ thought about it for a moment and tapped Emily’s chest.

“Wif wo!” she said and climbed out of her nest and into her caregivers lap. Emily was so glad the hour to herself in her own world helped her slip properly, slip enough to not care about anything else.

“Of course, monkey. That's fine. Now we have to wait for Tara and Garcia to finish as they are hogging the showers but then we can jump in and get ready. “

“Paci?” JJ asked, leaning back into her caregiver's hold and looking up at the raven-haired woman.

“Mama didn't bring it, baby, I'm sorry.”

JJ huffed and turned back around with a pout on her face.

“But we can nurse all night if you like.”

“In here?”

“Yeah angel, the girls don't mind.” JJ blushed at the thought of the other woman seeing her doing something so vulnerable but knew they truly didn't mind. And plus, Tara had seen it before.

Emily got JJ showered and ready for bed in her pyjamas and they snuggled up on one of the pull-out sofas.

“Mama, mama,” JJ cooed and reached for Emily under the covers, with the fan on it was cool and nice which all the women appreciated.

“Mama’s here,” Emily smiled and grabbed her girl's hands. It wasn't long until JJ was latched to her nipple, nursing. Penelope walked past and cooed softly- despite the blanket over her face, it was still a cute sight.

“Pen, can we have a towel for her to sleep on?” Emily asked, thinking in case of accidents.

“In case she has an accident?” Tara asked.

“Oh I can do better than a towel for that,” Penelope said softly and ran to her bedroom. Emily was grateful they both understood but felt the glare from her little one.

“Its’ to keep the sofa safe from your little bladder,” Emily teased and tickled JJ’s side a little. JJ wiggled under the covers and pushed the hand away, still keeping her latch on Emily’s nipple. Nursing was her favourite comfort.

Penelope returned after a few minutes with a waterproof bedsheet. Emily smiled and they worked as a four to put it on. JJ climbed straight back under the covers and reached for Emily, ready to go to sleep - the whole might have exhausted her.

It wasn't long before she was fast asleep, the other women chatted a little more about the smaller girl, endearingly. JJ, big or small was always the most protected of the group, the most loved and cared for. They all adored their sweet thing and wanted to keep it special- even on girls’ night.

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bluey playroom!

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Vintage Bear in the Big Blue House Stickers.

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hello! I Found your blog and really liked it! Could you please make a “Bingo Heeler” (from Bluey) themed outfit? But also not extremely feminine. Thank you!!

Hey anon, hope you enjoy! ☺️🐶🧡

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I've seen "I don't know how to play with toys anymore" a few times lately and just wanted to point out-

Playing with toys looks different for everyone, even actual children!

Playing with toys can look like: 🧸🪁🚂

Taking pictures of your toys and writing captions for them

Brushing or grooming soft toys or toys with rooted hair

Ordering or sorting your toys by colour/species etc

Making up stories, poems or comics about your toys

Dressing or accessorising your toys

Imagining your toys talking to you or each other, forming opinions of their own, etc

Drawing your toys

Taking your toys for a walk outside, even in a backpack or pocket if you don't want to carry them openly

Making lists of the toys you have and where you got them etc

Feel free to add your own ideas