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(In general) This could be you or others being “wrong” as in claiming wrong info or behaving wrong.

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“The discovery of truth is prevented more effectively, not by the false appearance things present and which mislead into error, not directly by weakness of the reasoning powers, but by preconceived opinion, by prejudice.”

-Arthur Schopenhauer

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If you’re currently in a serious relationship and most of the above don’t sync well with your partner; I urge you to save your time, efforts and soul, and move on.

It is what I did with my ex I broke up with a few days ago and we were about to get married. After all the things I’ve endured to contain the relationship; him totally (kept) being a narcissistic ass, thoughtless, selfish, fussy, scrappy, aggressive and aggravating EVEN during my severe fibro flare-up days (due to all the stress he’s had me put me up with previously); and not to mention reversing what’s happened in his head blaming me for everything; refusing to acknowledge or own all the wrongdoings; was the final straw.

I was also feeling very suicidal for days. I had a few “attempts” and many plans & strong “wishes” as well. And he knew and witnessed all of it. Our last day: He pushed — I backed off; he pushed — I said “Please, not today, I feel really sick. I can’t right now.” Then he got even more triggered as I was not responding to his aggression. He felt that I don’t care about him and don’t love him. And that it’s always about me. None of this is true, I swear to God.

“You always excuse your illness to treat me bad. I won’t let you manipulate me anymore. I don’t care about your illness anymore. I’m going home.” while proceeding to pack up. What a projection eh… All I did that day was to interrupt his sentence twice to assume what he was gonna say in a joking manner. And yeah…

All the “improvements and healing” I thought he’s had during these 6 months we lived together was just a facade I madly wanted to believe in. I still love him so much and this is gonna be real hard for me. But something deeply shut down in me. If someone is still crossing the line when it’s a matter of life and death, that right there is NOT love.

The sooner I choose myself, the less damage I will get which I’ve had more than enough in life let alone in this relationship. I’m sick of getting stuck in fight & flight mode, traumas, stress; being in shocking frustration; having to express and validate myself and health issues; giving up from myself for the sake of “love”. Not anymore.

Na-uh.

I thought I’ve healed a lot and had a big enlightenment over the last 2 years of isolation enough not to put up with bullshits like this. I’m disappointed in myself. Even though, I had certain boundaries and rules in the beginning and was never willing to negotiate; he crushed me hard progressively.

He unloaded all his baggage in time. I resisted a lot but eventually I watched my ID dissolve and my soul fade away. I wasn’t even doing my spiritual practices anymore, for instance, because he judges and mocks. And there are so many other things like this and different things…

Anyway. I hope I survive. And when I do, I hope I can be more than my survival and finally start living rather than just existing. My potentials still await me. I know it.

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Time flies by…

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hey you don't have to respond to this but I hope you had a happy new years.

- nae

I’ve been away sorry I saw this very late. Hope you had a happy one as well. Mine was chaotic lol

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111 Portal New Moon day in 2024

The artwork is for the 111 New Moon portal day 🌑 January 11 was also the first New Moon of 2024. Hope you planted your seeds yesterday. It’s essential to pray like a religion practitioner; meditate like a yogi; make a ceremony like a witch; envision like a true dreamer channelling their desires; or worship the technicalities of Quantum mechanics like a scientist if you will (in universally powerful days like this). All works. One of the most human things to do is to have a belief system after all. Hold on to and act on it.

[I know the post is not timely but hey.. at least I’m not 7 years behind like Ethiopia really is 😝]

Anyhow. Where were we? Oh yes… May this year be the best milestone of the deserving souls. So be it ✨

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Song credit: Belle Sisoski - Hold on

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[original image & meme credits are unknown | all the editing & alterations are done by me]

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Let’s see then… HOW…?

[credit for the original image & meme is unknown - all the editing and alterations done by me]

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Cold Moon Ritual of 2023

do not share the link!

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Wow.. It’s been so long, eh…

I’ve gone through quite a lot since about July ‘23. In brief, I finally had my uprising, and achieved more than I could have ever imagined since then. I’ve had huge progression accompanied by stagnation and regressions (no wonder 🥴). Up and down… and up - hop into the void; and up - lap around the oblivion of the so-called mind…

All in all, it’s been chaotic, beautiful, overwhelming, challenging, and full of growth and expansion. I’m truly proud of myself, and grateful for all the support I’ve had from my loved-ones (❔) not to mention the mighty divine power.

I’m in Türkiye since September ‘23 for many reasons like health, family and other personal stuff. It’s been and will be a long visit until about the end of February 2024 (‘till I go back to LA). And oh… I had my 16th right leg surgery on the 15th of November as I happened to rupture my knee ligaments on my 2nd week here. < laughs tragicomically > I’m still recovering, hardly but also quickly, I guess?

I would probably throw some more knick knacks here and there when I feel like expressing myself or updating my beloved (👁️) blog.

I’m mentally in the zone for art, inspiration and creation. I will do my best not to falter, that I can promise as one of my major New Year resolutions at the very least.

Remember, life goes on no matter freaking what. Time operates impeccably, relentlessly.

Let’s challenge that bitch but also flow with it.

Let’s breathe consciously and purposefully:

Allow our deepest desires sink in to fire us up for the upcoming year.

Reminder! Today is the last day of the very last New Moon of the year. Set yer damn intentions and be on them for the next 2 weeks.

May our — the deserving-ones in need — screams be heard and silent screams be heard even louder by the universe.

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“ Y̲̅o̲̅u̲̅ k̲̅n̲̅o̲̅w̲̅ w̲̅h̲̅a̲̅t̲̅’s̲̅ w̲̅e̲̅i̲̅r̲̅d̲̅? I̲̅’v̲̅e̲̅ b̲̅e̲̅e̲̅n̲̅ d̲̅o̲̅w̲̅n̲̅ h̲̅e̲̅r̲̅e̲̅ s̲̅o̲̅ l̲̅o̲̅n̲̅g̲̅, i̲̅t̲̅ s̲̅t̲̅a̲̅r̲̅t̲̅e̲̅d̲̅ f̲̅e̲̅e̲̅l̲̅i̲̅n̲̅g̲̅ l̲̅i̲̅k̲̅e̲̅ h̲̅o̲̅m̲̅e̲̅: I̲̅’v̲̅e̲̅ f̲̅o̲̅u̲̅n̲̅d̲̅ b̲̅e̲̅a̲̅u̲̅t̲̅y̲̅ i̲̅n̲̅ t̲̅h̲̅e̲̅ t̲̅h̲̅o̲̅r̲̅n̲̅s̲̅ a̲̅n̲̅d̲̅ c̲̅o̲̅m̲̅f̲̅o̲̅r̲̅t̲̅ i̲̅n̲̅ t̲̅h̲̅e̲̅ p̲̅a̲̅i̲̅n̲̅. ”

— Momentary Existentialism

Original Image Credit: Pips Corpse

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Just Chillin’

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When a candle is dead but its flame lives on

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