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↷ at: hotel calgarie's shitty bar.
* and it’s six types of fresh hell, signed / sealed / delivered in dingiest corner of new york that 𝚎𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 can muster: about as neutral as it can get, hotel calgarie is safe for this shit. whiskey burns, highway to HELL down the velvet of his throat, third one since he’s taken place at this 𝗀𝗈𝖽𝖿𝗈𝗋𝗌𝖺𝗄𝖾𝗇 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗅𝗁𝗈𝗅𝖾 — and it begs the goddamn question, 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 ? ( god, we were kids together. too young to know any better, us against the world ; misguided children, believing that 𝚆𝙰𝚁𝚂 could be fought with little more than puerile conviction. oh, how the world turns on that assumption alone … ) 𝗐𝗈𝗆𝖺𝗇 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗋 takes her place at his side, + there’s a significant part of mournful spirit that still 𝖜𝖆𝖗𝖒𝖘 at the mere sight of her. “ cara mia, ” a wistful fondness in the way he greets carmen, murmured below the wheezy exhale of an air conditioner on its last legs, “ this isn’t where we dreamed of our first meeting. didn’t we always think of something better ? something that didn’t serve fuckin’ … jack as top shelf ? ”
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Four times, David! That means something. Four times. Twenty-four hours a day I live with the aching possibility that you might call me to do something. Don't you know, David? Every time you sleep with someone... your body makes a promise whether you do or not!
VANILLA SKY (2001) dir. Cameron Crowe
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* this grief, unpredictable tidal wave of it all ( … ) you can’t ever hope to predict 𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚊𝚕 𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜, can’t time them by analog / hope to god that decimation is only minor, that it will only ever take the parts of you most 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃 / it hits him at strangest times, the ache of it. bone bruise, he thinks, the way he’ll carry it with him, stamped on softest maw. what’s a king, but a little boy, lost ? “ they’ve never changed it. 𝗌𝖺𝗆𝖾 𝗌𝗁𝗂𝗍, 𝖽𝗂𝖿𝖿𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗇𝗍 𝖽𝖺𝗒, 𝗌𝖺𝗆𝖾 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄𝗂𝗇’ … wallets, yanked out, emptied. rinse, repeat. ” liquor - loose, uneasy in what’s arguably his own palace now, val steals sideways glance at viktor ; god, i was so scared of you when i was a kid, y’know that ? they’re the things that go unsaid. terrified me. now, i don’t know what to do with that fear. “ no. ” gratitude shines something 𝖤𝖡𝖴𝖫𝖫𝖨𝖤𝖭𝖳 when he latches onto refilled glass, tucks it tight to his chest / the light catches on signet ring, glimmers with all of its horrible promise. “ i haven’t … been up yet. s’too … ” too soon / too morbid / knows, intimately, that something beneath his ribs will crack, 𝗳𝗿𝗮𝗴𝗶𝗹𝗲, when he does. i don’t want you watching when i fall apart.
𝐕 , VALENTINO MORENO ... ( @eg0died )
𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘢𝘯. 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘤𝘺𝘰𝘯 , 𝘯𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘪𝘥𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵
grief presents itself in ways that no two share the same resolve, manifested with external differences, but implicit judgement advances in a steal gait emerging from the shadows, settling in the adjacent right sided seat to lev's prodigy. moreno blood. there will never be a right time, to pluck valentino out of his anguish will always be too soon and yet, it can undoubtedly be claimed that a few days since lev's passing is, in fact, too soon. “ they did the same performance yesterday. ” but he too finds difficulty in a parting glance to him, the one now to be called godfather, the one possessing his father's resemblance, lev's likeness. as if all the years have washed away and viktor sits there harboring secrets already known to the man holding all the cards. they will never be rid of him. he is there in the dimly lit audience, in the vacant office watching from above, in the remnants of what is left after those who pledged loyalty have been bled dry. “ they'll do it again tomorrow. ” he espies the nearing empty glass of alcohol on the table and a second glance is offered with no comfort presented in the inevitable, the answer he knows. “ have you been upstairs? ”
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* the thing about this city, it’s rotted from the very insides ; overeager fingers pry into its guts + come away 𝗧𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗦𝗛𝗘𝗗, stained, forever changed / fuck knows it’s a good way to make your money, but it robs you of something. comfort to be found, then, in making a tentative peace with 𝚍𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚜, 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚌𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎 … oh, how she’s learned ! life’s work, to make a study in where to push boundaries / where she can take a sharp, inquisitive mind, how she can fashion something finely - honed out of rough - hewn 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘵: case study, currently sprawled across pavement, babbling about birds. jesus. “ do you think of being an 𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗺𝗮𝗹 often, then ? ” cant of the head, keen cut to the way russet hues narrow. 𝗂𝗇 𝗋𝖾𝗌𝗉𝖾𝖼𝗍 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗉𝖺𝗇𝗍𝗌𝗅𝖾𝗌𝗌𝗇𝖾𝗌𝗌, 𝗐𝖾𝗅𝗅 … “ explain to me how that’s going to work. ” all five foot nothing, balanced in teetering louboutins and anchored by twist of sharp features, somewhere between amusement + a sardonic kind of concern, is this kid fuckin’ on something ? — - “ i don’t think we’re quite the same size, honey. ”
location : anywhere / open to all
— SUN-BLEACHED HAIR gleamed under flickering street lights, flushed fingers stained with crumbs of salt & vinegar chips; a desire or a punishment, he would never know. Pierced ears rang with the chants of a crowd that adored Orpheus — But cared little for the boy behind the glory; for after all, wasn't he only just a boy? Jagged as he may be, he felt nothing like the man he was to become. In a dog-eat-dog world, what does his lack of fangs mean if not naivety? — It certainly only rewarded him with a flat after a victory. Wanting to impress the audience around him, he darted off in his car deep into the night, unsure of where he was going. All roads lead to where we are meant to be — No, that's not how road works. Perhaps if he had been slower, he wouldn't be in this situation. He wonders, intently, if eating snails would help in his placement. The french seemed to be doing alright. Or perhaps it would make him faster. It was a theory to be tested. " If I could be any animal, 'ppose I would like to be a seagull, " his voice had no intended target, simply noticing the other around him and deciding to ask one of the questions that had been burning in his mind. Another chip was shoved into his mouth. " Tell ya' wha', perhaps I'd be a dog. Wha' 'bout ya? " His discarded pants laid on the floor next to him, wet from the weather and paid no mind as his eyes finally looked up. " Ei, listen — Can I borrow your pants? Mine are gone as a spell."
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* blessed be it, night off from a pointedly maudlin routine grown wearisome with its age / only so many hungry gazes she can bear, burnt into skin tired of shameless exposure. ( keeps the bills paid, fine, but jesus … 𝗈𝗇𝗅𝗒 𝗃𝗈𝖻 𝗌𝗁𝖾’𝗌 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐𝗇, not like she can turn around + tend fuckin’ bar. ) devoid of its glamour, blue moon is dualfold: home, the first place you run from. 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐩, 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐫, on the other hand … oh, the anonymity ! perfect example, she supposes, when figure tumbles out of back door with ridiculous proposal. noise that abounds isn’t what one would expect — rough, edged in dirt / 𝙶𝚁𝙸𝙼𝙴 / grit, not a nectarous titter but a husky chuckle that resonates deep. made worse, of course, by the 𝗺𝗮𝗿𝗹𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗼 that hangs between elegant digits. ( noticeably devoid of usual manicure, sheen worn off ; there are bite marks down to that vulnerable quick, red - raw, aching. ) “ isn’t getting punched in a parking lot the worst cliche ? ”
𝗟𝗢𝘊𝘈𝘛𝘐𝘖𝘕: outside the dive bar's parking lot, late night post fight.
𝗪𝗜𝘛𝘏: anyone it's an open starter baby !!
⠀#⠀ A HELLHOUND OFF THE leash, just for tonight. nothing but copper scraps and freshly earned bruises to call a reward. should be a real fuckin’ celebration to live and see another day, can’t help the anarchic nihilism that bleaches his outlook, ( childhood sun - stained bedroom walls and the notable cross shaped 𝐅𝐈𝐅𝐋𝐓𝐇 / this far in life, intwined anger and blood inside . . . call it a concrete revelation: you’re fucked, man. ) doors swing wide with a callous push, the tips of his nerves fading into dreaded obscurity. terrible, cheap liquor brings the best, impulsive ideas. and fuck, he needs to feel alive again ! “ c’mon, hit me. ” spoken as a sober thought, cacophony of limbs jolt with drunken brilliance, “ what, never punched a guy before ? shit, tonight's your lucky night, isn’t it ? so t'fuck you waitin’ for. hit me. ”
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* they stick out, fuckin’ dogs’ balls amongst the filth / suited, neat, caricature of police procedural. she’s even got a 𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐋𝐀 folder sat, face down, alongside cappuccino that bears signature print, revlon stain on dirty china. there’s 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍 for meetings in public — element of surprise when she slides into adjacent booth, unnoticed until she’s greeted + promptly ignored. 𝖳𝖸𝖯𝖨𝖢𝖠𝖫. agents these days … sculpted brow arches, practically into her hairline — “ tsk, tsk, agent tenant. do you kiss your mother with that mouth ? ” rich lacquer taps staccato into diner table ( oh, she notes the grease that collects just underneath ; doesn’t wince, to immeasurable credit ! ) — “ if you were angling for a 𝗉𝖺𝗒 𝗋𝗂𝗌𝖾, this is the wrong way to go about it. ”
𝗟𝗢𝘊𝘈𝘛𝘐𝘖𝘕: local city diner, morning rush.
𝗪𝗜𝘛𝘏: anyone it's an open starter baby !!
⠀#⠀ THERE’S AN INDENT OF where a heart should be. damp and apathetic rhythm, a mere echo in new york’s cavernous soundscape. escape the pouring rain and cavalier gaze of his coworkers, find sanctuary in the off - beat depravity of city diners. something quaint in all it’s common man pestilence, faint reminder of a childhood dead in the way, ( this is what your father saved you from: 𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐒𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐌𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐘. ) pallid gaze watches the world appear and erode, note the tiniest details over the papers’ horizon, just unfortunately, not beside him: “ sorry, whatever you said must've been the next bloody second word of christ or something much less important. does it look like i was listenin’ ? ”
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Havana Rose Liu in AMERICAN HORROR STORIES, 3x04 "Organ", directed by Petra Collins.
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* easy enough, to lose track of how oft sacred position is taken ; pews bear peculiar patina now, 𝗌𝗁𝗂𝗆𝗆𝖾𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗁𝗂𝗌𝗍𝗈𝗋𝗒 𝗂𝗆𝗉𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗂𝗇 𝖿𝗂𝗇𝖾 - 𝗀𝗋𝖺𝗂𝗇 ! ( only tradition he can fuck with, it is … sunday service, knees bear the constant stain of it: forgive me, father. i spit my confessions at your feet, preening cat with still - twitching KILL in dripped - red maw, no 𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 can save me now. ) helena exists in blissful tandem with it all, partner in crime in so many ways … new ones born of devastating circumstances, he supposes. ( speaking of: sunglasses in church ? really ? calvin kleins stay firmly on, a careful shade to hide slashes of indigo that give away a sleepless night or six. ) swift kiss brushed against the planes of their cheekbone before he plucks lit cigarette from their grip, inhales deeply enough that there’s an accompanying noise. guttural. “ and father paul keeps tellin’ you it’s rude to litter in the 𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚛𝚍. ” artless flick of ashes onto floor, case in point ! it’s the faintest hint of a grin that curls along the 𝖇𝖎𝖙𝖙𝖊𝖓 ridge of his mouth, but fuck, it’s something. “ c’mon then, honey. you got the guts, take ‘em. ”
𝗟𝗢𝘊𝘈𝘛𝘐𝘖𝘕: by the pews of st thomas' church, evening.
𝗪𝗜𝘛𝘏: anyone it's an open starter baby !!
⠀#⠀ ACHING FOR GUIDANCE, prayers are few and far between. how many nights since last confession ? rosary 𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐃 on skin and brush off the ashes of white powder off leather - bound bible, ( the pious question a mere set up to a macabre joke: there simply ain’t enough graves to count ‘em all, father. ) cigarette dangles between closed lips and brought to life by the flame of a lit candle, plucked from operatic display. legs meticulously cross over, sat by the edge of front row pew, ( low chuckle reverberates as instincts cry beneath war - torn skin. some doomed kismet this is ! ) “ y’know, it’s rude to stare. ” raven gaze still spired on the divine scene in front, smoke unfurls in tandem with their lazy smile, “ especially in the house of the lord, no less. could take your eyes . . . 𝐀𝐒 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄. ”
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𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 iron 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝖋𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖘 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝚛𝚘𝚝.
⁽ ˑˑˑ ⁾ ᵒᵗʰᵉʳʷᶤˢᵉ ᶜᵒᵐᶤᶰᵍ ᵗᵒ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃˢ˒ @𝚎𝚐𝟶𝚍𝚒𝚎𝚍 .ᐟ brought to by claire ( twenty4, she/they ) + dependent on pulptv. gleefully exploring the following themes: familial curses, affectionate. family, both affectionate + derogatory. 𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚎𝚡𝚢, 𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚒𝚏 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚎𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚌𝚑𝚞𝚛𝚌𝚑! ; girlhood as something to be gnawed at, turned sharpened + weapon in spun - sugar fingers ... nine inch nail's closer, pulsing in the background. 𝗐𝖺𝗋𝗇𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗌𝗂𝗀𝗇 ?
dont look at this. char directory tba when im not dead exhausted.
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