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Have you ever wondered what wouldโ€™ve happened if Katniss and Peeta became mentors for the 75th Hunger Games and how their wedding might have gone? Well if you haveโ€ฆ I wrote a fanfic for it. ๐ŸคฃโœŒ๏ธ
I really love going back to my old fandoms.
Also everlark has been and always will be my favorite to write.
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EVERLARK RECS
These fics recs are for @kylorexy because she's now in the next Everlark obsession stage and ready to read some Canon Divergence and Modern AU.
I am going to start with 8 of each, but please add your fave for her OR your own fic (10 fics aren't enough!). These are mostly classics of the fandom.
Canon Divergence
Refugee by DustWriter
The Next will Never Come (it isn't complete but ends in a good place)
Alone in a Crowded Room by Pompeiigraffiti,ย wollaston
Hero of The Story by @muttpeeta
The Miner's Wife by MockingjayFlyingFree
The Greatest Sacrifices by Ronja
The Victor by Quothme
Your Smile is a Thin Disguise by @absnow
Modern AU:
Rebel by HGRomance
C'est La Vie by @awhiskeyriver
Drifting between Blue and Grey (it has been deleted)
Crash My Party by Court81981
Lone Star Of Mine by Jenye
Violets in the Mountain and Three Words that Became Hard to Say by PenelopeWeaving
Degrees Of Separation by @louezem
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hi! do u have any everlark fic recs?
Man I have so many! I began trying to reread them all and catalogue them because of this ask and then I realized I was overthinking the question and itโ€™s been ages.
So hereโ€™s an imperfect, incomplete list:
So for Peeta POV canon compliant trilogies:
Peetaโ€™s games: this is the most โ€œfamousโ€ one. Itโ€™s very good!
Sheโ€™s a survivor: this author has completely 1.5 of the original books and is still writing. Iโ€™m really enjoying it.
The boy with the bread: I think I just skimmed through this one to my favorite canon scene (โ€œshow entire workโ€ search for โ€œcaveโ€ ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚), this is just because I found it after the other two above (itโ€™s me, hi, Iโ€™m the problem its me.)
Other recommendations:
Short fics from both Peeta and Katnissโ€™s POVโ€™s: I love how each sees the other as so much better than themselves.
Letters from New Panem: Canon divergent so they get to shyly flirt in school and I adore it.
Lovefool: I love this incomplete modern au. Itโ€™s the cutest! The story ends with Everlark in a good place even though external conflict isnโ€™t resolved.
Even Days: Hereโ€™s a canon divergence working through Peetaโ€™s hijacking: https://archiveofourown.org/works/47639170
Here is the recent โ€œThis Would Have Happened Anyway (District 13)โ€ challenge: So many talented writers here! I havenโ€™t read them all yet but Iโ€™ve read work by most of the authors before and I know theyโ€™re excellent!
Time Is Never Found Again... Or Is It?: Incomplete fic about Katniss getting a time-travel do-over.
The awkward in-between: I love this one because itโ€™s canon divergent after the first book. Peeta and Katniss go camping and talk about the train track scene. Also they eat pawpaws, which are underrated and delicious. The story is unfinished but the camping scene is everything to me.
There are so many more fics and drabbles (some only posted on Tumblr, some in ao3) that I either canโ€™t remember right now or can remember but canโ€™t find to link. I know Iโ€™m leaving so much out. This fandom is both prolific and talented and itโ€™s such a delight!
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Katniss, looking over at Peeta: He could end my life at any point and I'd thank him.
Haymitch, rubbing his temples: I'd thank him, too.
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an unnecessarily long analysis of the song my limb by hayley williams within the context of katniss and peeta's love story that no one asked for
DISCLAIMER! THIS IS CHAOS AND I'M SLEEP-DEPRIVED.
/i have a very detailed everlark playlist that is currently the most important thing in my life, and i've always wanted to discuss more about why each song made the list because they are all genuinely special to me. i do have few pretty short posts that touch on this, however this song is too good for me to not overanalyze it/
verse one:
if you gotta amputate, don't give me the tourniquet
you wish that i would run away, sever what isn't working
but i'll let my body bleed out, leaning to my left side
if your part of me is gone now, do i wanna survive
the key subject here is a sense of codependency that exists in this particular relationship [from hayley williams โž› whether itโ€™s with the band, whether itโ€™s in a relationship, i canโ€™t see the beginning and the end of myself and the other. and that is what โ€œmy limbโ€ is about]. it's about being so intertwined with someone that you might as well consider them a literal part of you - your actual limb. and how you can't cut it off and move on without it even though it's bleeding out and putting all of your other parts at risk.
โž› because if he dies, i'ill never go home, not really. I'll spend the rest of my life in this arena, trying to think my way out
this type of imagery appears repeatedly throughout katniss and peeta's love story. while the behavior described in the song is meant to be damaging to oneself, it's crucial to note that the codependency that does happen in katniss and peeta's relationship does not come from a toxic place. their wound is external. it is not their own nature that is unhealthy, but rather the nature of the world in which they live in. there is no conditions for healthy relationships in their current reality.
these two children have a genuine bond that they are continuously being forced to break and resist. they are continuously put in life-or-death situations, where they have to chose who gets to live and who gets to die. and yet, despite the obstacles, they both keep putting each other first.
the fact that this is something that has remained consistent in their relationship, that they choose and protect each other even when they shouldn't, is not only sensible given their circumstances, but also quite powerful, and gives this verse a more โ€positiveโ€ interpretation.
chorus:
my limb, my limb, my limb, my limb (don't let go)
my limb, my limb, my limb, my limb (let go)
my limb, my limb, my limb, my limb (don't let go)
my limb, my limb, my limb, my limb (don't let go)
the repeating lyrics of the chorus continue the theme of self-sacrifice. they are a direct mirror of the berries, the beach, and the suicide kiss - all of the pivotal everlark moments that confirm that they aren't letting go of each other.
verse two:
funny, of the two of us, you always were the gentle one
shy little rabbit, teething on a shotgun
or the tragedy of peeta's hijacking and how he was unconsciously preparing himself for it.
i am not implying that it was his fault or responsibility, and i don't believe it was necessary, nothing was. however, there is a reason why certain narratives include certain people.
and when we look back at the story, we can see how it was almost predictable. that it was foreshadowed, not only by the conversation on the roof in the first book, where he tells us that he wants to prove that the capitol doesn't own him, but also by who he is as a person. then we can see how his hijacked and true selves are entangled with one other.
/before i go into my thoughts on how the two are linked, i think it's important to briefly (don't trust me) talk about how i perceive peeta, as well as how frequently he is misunderstood and why this occurs/
because of the unconventional portrayal of their personalities - which stems from the fact that they are not restricted by their gender - both him and katniss are frequently characterized as a "surprise" in ya and literature in general. they definitely go beyond our preconceived notions of how men and women should behave.
however, i've noticed that when certain people (mostly the mainstream media and the more casual fans) try to delve deeper into this topic they end up reinforcing stereotypes rather than breaking them. they say - she's the tough one, he's the gentle one, and any other characteristics placed onto them rarely stray far from these two images.
but no one is just one thing. by failing to recognize that there is just as much softness in katniss as there is roughness in peeta, you are just merely making them switch gender roles instead of going beyond them.
/and like. i get it. obviously, those who have just seen the movies or read the books once aren't going to dive that deep into who katniss and peeta are, but such viewpoints are still prevalent, and they certainly don't help them/
then there is the infamous you could live a hundred lifetimes and not deserve him quote.
peeta tends to be often looked upon as some sort of a saint with no flaws that never does anything wrong. which, apart from the fact that it isn't true, also provides you a very dull and unreleastic character to work with. when he is described in this way, he loses his complexity, which he has a lot of.
maybe we can partially blame some of those feelings on katniss for putting him on a pedestal at times, but then we create a whole new problem in the general perception of thg because of people's unwillingness to understand that katniss's point of view is flawed, just like she is, and that it isn't the absolute truth.
that pedestal exists, not to say that peeta is actually perfect and that she can't deserve him, but rather, as a reminder that she feels in debt to him - because he saved her life and continues to do so. as a reminder that young people in love tend to idolize each other a little, that understanding other people comes from understand yourself too and that she has just started that journey! her perception of herself is damaged and just plainly wrong at times.
that pedestal exists because at the end, katniss is quite a sad girl with an utter lack of self worth who doesn't see herself as being deserving of goodness that she so clearly sees in peeta.
so, while absolutely wonderful, and kind, and good, he is not without flaws. he isn't perfect.
and neither are his feelings for katniss (and he exists outside of them). it doesn't make them any less complicated because he was aware of them in a way she wasn't. they don't make his narrative any less confusing and painful. it doesn't mean he is any less afraid of them. katniss runs away from them because she already knows what love can do. peeta is seeing love for the first time, trying to prove to himself that it does exist and that he doesn't have to be like his parents.
although he appears to be more emotionally mature than katniss he is still just a child. a traumatized, insecure, stubborn, lonely, prideful, scared child that is also just trying to survive. his emotional maturity wasn't created from a good and safe place. he grew up with an abusive mother, a father who repeatedly betrayed him by failing to protect him, distant brothers, and as a result of that he feels insignificant and unneeded.
much as katniss survived by numbing herself out, in the years after her father's death, by letting her feelings happen outside of her, i feel as though peeta did the exact opposite. that he grew fixated on attempting to comprehend everything and everyone. that he became obsessed with overthinking and overanalyzing his thoughts rather than feeling them. his drawings and paintings are an escape form and his ways of surviving is escaping.
there is this sense of loneliness that follows him, is stuck to him, that affects the type of relationships he builds with other people - distant ones.
/unpopular opinion i think/ peeta has always struck me as more closed of than katniss. sure, he is social, and friendly, and calm and funny and confident but that's the image he shows to other people. every time katniss mentions seeing him at school, she always says how he was surrounded by friends, yet they never show up, and we don't even know their names. even his friendship with delly doesn't feel like anything more than an ancient childhood memory to me. he doesn't appear to have someone he can confide in or count on. he doesn't let people in. he too has walls.
it's just that, while katniss's walls are so obvious, peeta's are unexpected and hidden. regardless of how far away we think katniss is from others, she still enters this story as part of a team. gale and her are reliant on each other. they are partners. while i doubt they spend much (if any) of their time talking about their feelings, they are aware that they are needed - by each other and their families. peeta doesย notย have an equivalent to that.
so when i think of him, i don't picture a guy who wears his heart on his sleeve and is naturally open. we can see how good of an actor and liar he is, so him being open is him making conscious decision to do so and not something he can't control.
peeta goes through life hiding from others whilst katniss hides from herself.
it takes actual hard effort for him to let people and in many ways i think that katniss is the first one with that privilege. that she is his exception. and that it wasn't instant. that it did happen slowly.
we may be inclined to think the opposite considering how fast he admits to his crush for her, but that isn't the same as actually opening up, and he isn't admitting it to her but for her. he admitted his feelings to the capitol, not to katniss because they were useful for protecting her.
and then it's them talking on the roof, and protecting each other in the arena, and the cave kiss, and not wanting her to die or for him to die as a liar, and the berries and thinking that it's real (because it was), so he confesses to them in a way (still not directly) and when he is met by an extremely confused katniss he shuts her out for 6 months before apologizing and admitting to them again. (repeating) it was a conscious choice on his side.
other people see his love for katniss, not because he doesn't know how to hide it, but because he wants them to see it - it's the only time honesty was beneficial for him.
/and because he wants her to see it too. because even when he believed that her feelings for him were platonic he couldn't escape that he felt safe with her. he notices how protective of him she is and realizes that no one has ever protected him before. no one had ever looked at him like he was precious, but she did. so he wanted her to have his trust. and there is still so much he keeps hidden. he is still opening up slowly.
we rarely see him being comforted by katniss and being the "weak" one. and it has nothing to do with her. he's the one who isn't prepared for it. he is apprehensive about being looked after. katniss may be challenging in this area too, although not as much as peeta. because her home was once a happy and safe place and being with peeta reminds her of those times while peeta is experiencing feeling safe for the first time. that's terrifying. he must be strong and and he must be capable before he can even consider himself worthy of love. so it will take a long time for peeta to break that, to allow himself to show sides of him that are fragile,messy and ugly.
โž› his face takes on a special look when he concentrates. his usual easy expression is replaced by something more intense and removed that suggests an entire world locked away inside him. i've seen flashes of this before: in the arena, or when he speaks to a crowd, or that time he shoved the peacekeepers' guns away from me in district 11. i don't know quite what to make of it.
there's a reason this is one of my favorite quotes. you can see that (still slow) progress here. to me, katniss is indirectly saying that she wants to be a part of his inner world. that she recognizes its intensity and desires its privilege even if she doesn't yet completely understand it. and peeta is on his way to granting it to her/
previously i highlighted a few of his flaws, but what is the loudest is this tendency to hide from others which results in bottling things up and letting them fester inside of him, particularly anger.
i keep thinking of that scene in cf where he finds out katniss and haymitch have been lying to him and he smashes a lamp across the room. and, unlike katniss, we almost never see peeta lose control of his emotions and that isn't a positive trait really.
he, like the rest of us, never learned how to express anger in a healthy manner because, after all, it's supposed to be terrible, right? however, this is not the case. anger should not be associated with hurting or lashing out at people. the way to deal with anger is to let yourself feel it. not to repress it. but how can i expect peeta to be any different when the first attribute he associates with his mother is anger? and the one thing he wants to prove to himself is that he isn't like her. he can't be like her because he isn't like her, so he buries it deep within himself, leaving us with a flood of rage that is begging to be released.
and that is what worked so well in his hijacking. this is it. this is the shy little rabbit teething on a shotgun.
his hijacking is a tragedy, not only because he dreads becoming a piece in their games as a form of defiance, but also because it creates a complete lack of self control in a character who prides himself on it - the one thing he's certain is entirely his.
you take an abused boy and abuse him some more, then you take away his agency, rendering him powerless over emotions that aren't even his, while giving an outlet to those that are, that had been waiting for a moment like this one. you take that anger, that he is so deathly afraid of, and you make it his primary way of communicating. you make him hurt the one person he trusted the most, felt safest with and then you blame her for everything. you make his hurting her fault and her responsibility.
and clearly, we know that the only real culprits of this crime are snow and the capitol and no one else but them, but hijacking works with the already existing insecurities and fears of its victim. it feeds off of its host. and considering that, it couldn't have found a better one.
verse two:
guess we were collateral damage, kissing in the crossfire
limpin' over dead leaves, i wish that they would cover me
THE! SUICIDE! KISS! i will literally never shut up about its importance.
by that point in mj katniss has avoided confronting her feelings for peeta, attempting to keep them hidden - even warning us that if necessary, she will murder him. however, when the opportunity to fulfill her promise presents itself, rather than becoming his killer she becomes his savior. despite the fact that โ€betrayingโ€ him at this point would have been a forgivable act to do, she resists it by stomping on all of her previous words. she places his life before hers and begs him to stay with her. it reveals katniss's desperation to save peeta when being forced to pick sides - and how every single time he wins. how he, along with prim, is her greatest downfall.
for peeta, no other event has had such a tremendous impact on his current state. his episode is over in a matter of seconds, and he is more alert than he has ever been during mj. the significance of stay with me is that is tied to the moment in cf where katniss asks him the same thing. but what is it about this particular moment that wakes peeta up and that influences his recovery in a such a positive way?
well, before that scene in cf, katniss has told us that her choice and freedom is with gale, but when she is under the effect of sleep syrup and is forced to let down her barriers, the person she asks for is peeta. she shows that she does want and does need peeta, but that she believes she isn't allowed to, as if her desires aren't her own. she "surprises" us, again, as she did in mj (by saving peeta). she tries to fight against herself, her hopes and impulses both times, but she fails - and peeta notices that!
i believe it was the first time peeta trusted in katniss's (romantic) feelings for him. from this point on they've (k+p) begun to change in subtle ways and they look like more of couple - spending more time together, the impossibly good embrace they share on the train, the rooftop scene, the fact that during the quell, katniss is completely unconcerned about cameras in relation to her feelings for peeta...
so, he slowly allows himself to believe that what they share is real (it always was). and that's why the memories of that moment bring him back in mj.
essentially, both scenes show us the separation of katniss's words, actions and feelings.
both scenes consist of peeta choosing to believe katniss again after a period of feeling โ€betrayedโ€ by her and of katniss unconsciously freeing herself from the limiting expectations that she and others had built for her.
that is why the ''suicide'' kiss serves as the ultimate testament of their devotion for each other and the one that puts everything else into perspective.
!BUT ALSO! this part (in the song) kills me since it's obvious that the relationship in the song is doomed. that it never actually had chance to survive. and how scary it is that that was almost katniss and peeta's fate.
some may believe that katniss loving peeta was a safe decision. snow wanted it, demanded it so it should've protected her because it would have made him happy or โ€slowedโ€ down the revolution. but that's simply not true.
the revolution, the war, were always going to happen. it was stirred up by the berries, definitely, yet it existed before that, it was unavoidable (for good reasons) but even if we ignore that, even if by โ€convincingโ€ snow of her love for peeta katniss could have stopped the war they are still prisoners to snow. they are still awaiting a destiny not unlike finnick's one.
and it is hard to imagine all the ways snow could've used them just to prove it. it would still be heartbreaking to go through that with one another even if they didn't love each other.
but they do! so it would be even worse.
in the canon universe they are in so much pain during because they do love each other. intensely. it was never a safe choice. it was never an easy way out. they can't win.
/from the valley song, the bread, the dandelion, the berries, the pearl, the beach it is always real. ultimately katniss and peeta were both punished by katniss showing how much she actually did love him/
their love was stolen from them. taken, tainted corrupted and transformed into something evil. it was twisted so that they couldn't want each other. so that they can't choose each other because it would be for snow and not for them.
/but it cannot be!!! actually loving someone and showing it can never be for snow. those berries are an act of defiance for him because they are an act of love. their love is freedom/
so while they did they did get the best possible ending, there was still so much that was taken away from them. you can't escape the feeling that they deserved much more than they've got. that they were cursed from the moment they were reaped. that their love story will always somehow be a bit of a tragedy.
/but it will be okay. they have each other/
anyway... if you're still reading, thank you and i'm sorry.
/and obviously these are all just my opinions and you may not see it like i do and that's fine. this has been living inside of my head for way too long so i'm just glad it's finally out/
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silent girl septemberโ€ฆ sleepy girl septemberโ€ฆ solitary girl septemberโ€ฆ
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In New York tonight, loads of enemies to lovers will begin
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โ€œA person has to keep something to herself or youโ€™re life is just a layout in a magazine.โ€
โ€” Grace Kelly
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Alec: is literally the thirstiest fucking mf on the planet. Rips his bfโ€™s clothes apart when they started dating, fucked him while he was literally turning into a demon, had sex in a church.
Magnus:
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Anyway Midnights is giving off this genreโ€ฆ
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Cinematic parallels
The one where the millionaire dad almost dies from life-threatening health issues, but his three good-for-nothing, ungrateful kids keep fighting over stupid shit
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Imagine if you walked into someone else's mind. Imagine if they walked into yours. Imagine that you couldn't tell which was which. Imagine that it didn't matter. Imagine that the membrane between you was so thin that what is you and what is her can no longer be clearly defined. Imagine that "mine" and "your" fell away, leaving only "our". Imagine that the reason you can't tell was because you are, on a fundamental level, the same person. Imagine you were two halves of a soul that were never supposed to be put together. Imagine that you smiled. Imagine that you've been fighting all year, but when you first get the chance to exist in this primordial, spiritual space, all that exists is gentleness and peace. Imagine that this is all you ever wanted. Imagine that she touched your cheek. Imagine that you were soulmates. Imagine that this was never acknowledged again. Imagine that the first thing she did when she woke up was walk to you and kiss you. Imagine that you never knew. Imagine that I watched this scene thirteen years ago and it permanently rotted my brain from inside to out.
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I noticed that a few of you haven't read the short Clace stories, so Iโ€™m leaving some links here:
A Long Conversation (Takes place at the end of Lady Midnight)
Our Waking Souls (Takes place during Lord of Shadows)
A Love that Never Tires (Takes place at the end ofโ€‹ Queen of Air and Darkness)
Also this one short story about the TMI gang celebrating Simonโ€™s graduation from the Shadowhunter Academy:
Short extra TMI gang story (Takes place a few weeks after the end of Tales from The Shadowhunter Academy)
And some Extra Clace Scenes that take place during TMI (Most of these come at the end of the new editions of TMI, but I decided to put some links to them as well in case any of you haven't read them. I tried to use only links from tumblr but I couldn't find any for some of the extras):
Deleted Prologue of City of Bones (This was the original prologue for City of Bones from Jaceโ€™s POV)
When Midnight Comes (Jace's POV of his first kiss with Clary in City of Bones)
Because It Is Bitter (The Seelie Courtโ€‹ kiss scene during City of Ashes from Jaceโ€™s point of view)
Wayland Manor Scene, Extended Version (Original, longer version of the Clace โ€œmanor houseโ€ scene from City of Glass, chapter 9. It was toned down for the published version of the book)
Jaceโ€™s PoV Manor Scene (During City of Glass)
The Act of Falling (The alley Clace scene during City of Fallen Angels from Jaceโ€™s Pov)
Dirty Sexy Club Scene (The Jace and Clary club scene during City of Lost Souls before it was toned down)
Dirty Edom Cave Scene (Jace and Clary cave scene from City of Heavenly Fire before it was edited down)
And just a link to a bunch of extra TMI scenes (Including โ€œAwakeโ€ the scene where Jace and Clary meet for the first time, written from Jace's POV. This link also includes some of the extra scenes listed above but you'll have to scroll down to find them)
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What have you had your entire life that I didnโ€™t give you? Iโ€™m not getting into it. Iโ€™m doing this thing. OK? I donโ€™t owe you fucking anything. I blame myself. I spoiled you. And nowโ€ฆ youโ€™re fucked. And Iโ€™m sorry. Iโ€™m sorry youโ€™re a hothouse flowerโ€ฆthat youโ€™re nothing. Youโ€™re curdled cream. Maybeโ€ฆ Maybe you should write a book or collect sports cars or something. But for the world? Nah. Iโ€™m sorry. Youโ€™re not made for it.
When I was expecting with you, I thought youโ€™d save me. I thought youโ€™d love me, and then myโ€ฆmy mother would love me. Even from the beginning, you disobeyed. You wouldnโ€™tโ€ฆwouldnโ€™t eat, likeโ€ฆ like you were punishing me for being born. You made me feel like a fool, like aโ€ฆlike a child. You were a child. And now you come back hereโ€ฆโ€ฆand all I can think isโ€ฆ What? What, Mama? You smell ripe.
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feeling the weight of the unlived life today girls
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