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PLEASEEEE give us another story i love ur writing so much and love u 💗

Hi all! I know I've been away for long - don't really have much to say about that. This is the only short I've been able to come up with these last few months. Enjoy!

Burned (1/1) (jegulus)

"How? How do I talk about it? How do I say any of it out loud. How do I just let it become real? It'll live forever in the air between us." Regulus wasn't yelling, but his voice was a force, each word hard and bitting. But underneath it all, it was also filled with a desperate little boy reaching out for any ounce of reassurance.

"Regulus," James breathed.

Regulus' hardened and stiff body faltered and his voice cracked; "No James. Please."

"I just want to know that you're okay," James said.

"Okay? Okay? James I'm not okay I'm never going to be okay." Regulus words were harsh, and filled with a decade's worth of anger.

They stared at each other, Regulus clenching his teeth and fists, his chest heaving. His body doing everything but breaking down like it wanted.

James simply waited.

"How am I supposed to reconcile that the people I love and belong to, the only people I ever wanted to care about me, are also the people who didn't give a damn about me? About what it would do to me to go through that? About what it would do Sirius or our relationship? How am I supposed to ever be okay again?"

James didn't know what to say and he felt horrible for pushing. But as he looked at Regulus, he just held open his arms, waiting, ready for Regulus to fall into them.

Regulus was still angry. James could see the sparks of embers, ready to erupt into flames all around him. James was the only one who ever could feel safe walking into that kindling. He was the sun after all, so he couldn't be burned. But Regulus, well he would set himself on fire, with ease, letting himself get close to James only for him to fall harder than Icarus ever would. His whole body melted into James and he allowed it, he succumbed to the flames, and his tears were the only thing that fell.

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To all 1602 of you,

I love you and appreciate you so much ❤️

More shorts to come!

with love,

floralemby

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Where the story begins (1/1) (jegulus)

Regulus was ready. Or at least he thought he was. After Barty, he wasn't really sure he would be able to love again. He had always been a closed book, locked tight, never letting anyone in. Barty had known him well, but their personalities and their own unresolved and I acknowledge trauma had resulted in a tumultuous relationship that blew up in the end.

When he finally pulled himself out of the rubble, mended his heart with ice to keep the pieces of it together, and rekindled his friendships with Barty and Evan, he still needed space to learn who he was and who he wanted to be.

When he met James, James had told him he wasn't looking for anything serious. He wanted to have fun and mess around. Regulus appreciated the clear communication, and let himself go a bit to have fun. Ease himself back into dating.

But now, he was getting used to having the sun in his home. His heart and every inch of his skin warmed but the smile, the eyes, the touch of James Potter.

James had told Regulus he loved him one night and Regulus so surprised. He hadn't let himself love James despite falling quickly for him because he thought James just wanted fun. He didn't let himself get too focused on the daydreams of their future, or the possibility that this could last more than the summer, and now he was planning weekends away.

When James told Regulus he loved him, Regulus melted. He thought he wouldn't be able to handle it, and is still desperately afraid of losing James, of ruining it all, messing everything up. But everyday since, James has loved him loudly and sweetly and in moments just for them. And Regulus has let himself love James too.

He has let himself fall asleep the fastest in James' arms, a place he feels so protected and comfortable. He has let himself make space in his life for James' many friends and family. He has let himself shift into the space that James has made for him. He has let himself have every feeling, the good the soft and the tough ones, those moments of spilling tears and letting James just hold him.

And Regulus never knew he could be this ready. The universe brought James to him on purpose now, because they were meant to be, but also because they needed one another to help them grow through all that they've been through.

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Jegulus idea: Regulus replaces snape in canon but was in a relationship with James that ended tragically. But he doesn't hate Harry. Mostly he has angst and is constantly in between adoring harry as his own person and just harry being a living reminder of "the consequences of my actions. In fact it's Regulus nick name for harry.

Ok I love this idea so much! It would be a really cool like actual fic length story!!! I wish I had more time to write friends! So in the mean time I would encourage you to write it and let me know when it's done because I'm here for it!

with love

floral

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Hi! So you’re probably tired of getting these request but I was wondering if you could write jegulus angst? I’m sorry, I’m a sucker for that and I like making myself cry by reading tons of angst in the middle of the night haha

Hello! I really am back just to hurt your feelings so sorry but not that sorry about it! I'm actually never tired of these requests but I do feel bad sometimes that you aren't just getting sunshine and fluff. That being said, you get what ask for! (sorry its taken so long) with love

Aftermath (1/1) (jegulus)

This wasn't the first time they had slept together but it was the first time it had felt incredibly close and intimate. James was holding Regulus, laying on top of him, when he heard Regulus crying.

"Are you crying?" James asked.

"Uhhh... yes," Regulus replied, only a small hesitation as he wasn't able to hide his emotions any longer.

He quickly moved his hand to try and wipe away his tears, but James got to his cheeks first. Gently moving his thumb to swipe away the tears, James stared at Regulus who stared back.

"Do you want talk about why you are crying?" James asked next, voice to sweet and smooth Regulus was shocked he felt enticed to answer his question.

"Hmmm" Regulus hummed. He let himself be still, to think, to feel. His tears still rolling gently down his cheeks as James' body remained draped over him. Instinctively protecting him.

Regulus felt James hand on his shoulder, squeezing slight. "Open up to me, love." James whispered into the dark.

And for the first time, Regulus wanted to. He wanted to give everything to James. More than his devotion, attention, and body, Regulus wanted to give himself to James in a away he rarely even gave to himself.

And then he cried harder.

Regulus knew that his initial tears were because he felt so safe. He felt so loved. He felt so wanted for what felt like the first time in his whole life. Regulus knew that he wanted all of this, this everything, this life and the next with James. And he knew that his current tears were because he couldn't have any of it.

He opened his eyes and looked at James' worried face. Looked at his glowing golden eyes, and his soft brown skin, and left himself feel James' warmth for what he knew now would have to be the final time.

And when he spoke it was ice cool. It was agony. It was slashes and cuts and bruises. It was every curse and dagger and punch he knew how to throw. It was a simple, "James, I can't do this anymore."

It was as hard as it was easy. It was four crushing, devastating, life protecting words: "I don't love you."

And just like he knew it would, he felt the sun pull away.

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hi not a request but I love your writing so much- you’re so talented and reading your fics are literally the highlight of my days. tysm for your blog. I give you hugs you very amazing person 🫂🫂🫂🫂

Hello you sweet kind lovely human!

Thank you so much! I love hearing that people enjoy my writing as much as I enjoy writing my pieces. I know I have taken so many steps back lately and I hope to get back to more regular posting but I can't commit to that just yet.

Keep coming back! You are all welcome here!

with love

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Birthday Wish (1/1) (jegulus)

It was James' birthday and all week he had been saying to Regulus he didn't want anything, not a party, not attention, not gifts. Nothing. And yet he had a made a big plan to host all of his friends and then go out after.

And Regulus was a bit confused because when Regulus says he wants nothing, he means nothing. Not getting out of bed, not lights, no sounds, just vegging out. Maybe at most he'll want James to hold him.

For now, Regulus has decided to just go along with the plans. To let James be his bubbly outgoing self. It was his birthday after all.

Everyone came to the house, drank and chatted, laughed and laughed. Finally they went out, went dancing, and James was having a hard time keeping his hands PG with Regulus dancing all over him.

When they finally got home, they fell into bed. They didn't care that they were hot and sweaty from the bar, they would have to clean up the house tomorrow anyone. Or later today at this point. But when James rolled over and nuzzled into Regulus' arms, Regulus knew what was going to come next.

A kiss. On his cheek softly.

A squeeze. Of his ribs gently.

A sigh. Deep from his soul.

And then, the whisper.

"Reg?"

"Yes love?"

"Thank you."

"Anything for you."

"It was a lot yeah?"

"It was busy, yes. But did you have a good time?"

"Yes."

"I'm sensing a but?"

"Could we just not see anyone at all tomorrow?"

There it was. James' real ask, always struggling to tell others no when it would make them happy to celebrate him. Regulus couldn't deny him anything anyway but this was an easy request.

"Of course. I'll even answer the door for take always." And regulus kisses James' head.

And finally the last whisper into the dark before James quickly fell asleep, "I love you."

"I love you too."

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HEYY

Dude your lil fics are AMAZING, like SO FREAKING GOOD! Whenever I feel overwhelmed by something, I always come to read your work and it helps so much!

Thank youu soo much for these absolutely beautiful fics! Kudos to you<3

Hello!

You are so kind! Thank you so much!! I haven't been posting much lately and this just further solidifies for me why I was writing as much as I was before (and that it's okay to take a step back)

Keep going back. You are appreciated and so loved!

with love

floralemby

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Just popping in to say hi and I hope life is working itself out for you

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Hey!! Hello!! Hi!!

Life is crazy and everything is a mess. But it's a beautiful and sad and incredible and stressful mess.

I am so grateful for everyone who is still reading and liking and reblogging and checking in.

You all deserve to experience all of life and I hope you feel loved all the way through it!

with love

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not reading fic, not writing fic, but a third, secret thing

(scrolling tumblr while thinking about fics I want to be reading and writing)