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@ryebreadgf / The Truth About Grief, Fortesa Latifi / bone deep, m.v.e / Sidewalk, Richard Silken / unknown / 60 hours, m.v.e / @itsblackleader / Salt, Nayyirah Waheed / @heavensghost

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i simply do not have 1 nonchalant bone in my body. i am emotional, passionate and dramatic. and it’s quite beautiful.

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Just wanted to share some shockingly good news in these difficult times. The full article is really worth reading. [Find it here]

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How I fucking love you

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That post-visit depression bout to hit different

I have no words

I just want to be swallowed by the earth

I love you so fucking much

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James Baldwin.

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Non-existence sounds so nice

So so so so fucking nice

I’m so tired

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Ahhhhhh, disorganized attachment 🙃🙃🙃

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So you can repost something I reposted on tiktok but you can’t text me back? Got it.

This is what I meant by you feel farther away than you used to

I could feel your mental health changing, with all your drinking, with the way you would respond to me, the little delays in your responses

But I wasn’t gonna tell you that because it didn’t feel solid enough

I also knew you wouldn’t want to talk about it so what was the point?

I wasn’t going to force you into a conversation you didn’t want to have

But now you’re not texting me back and it makes me feel like I was right

This entire thing is self-indulgent and I know that

This is not about me, it’s about you and your mental health

I know you probably feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders

But that doesn’t change the fact that I miss you

It doesn’t change the fact that you’re the only one who’s there when I get lonely…

It doesn’t change the fact that these changes in your behavior scare me…

It doesn’t change the fact that I know you can toss me aside when your life gets too hard

Maybe I’m just dramatic

Or maybe I’m not

I’m just a sad girl who’s a little less sad when you’re around

But ultimately I just want the best for you

Do whatever will make your life feel manageable

I’ll be around…

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the coolest people are actually weird and fucked up and strange and peculiar and they just dont care. the coolest people are actually lame as hell and they rock it. this is what ive learned

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FOUND family??? you think i just found them like this??? babes this is FORGED family. Me & the bros were scrap metal in a junkyard (very valuable, very sharp, very dangerous, uncared for) and we GOT IN THE FUCKING FIRE TOGETHER. WE did this. we said I AM NOT LEAVING YOU and melted into each other for better or for worse (it’s for better) and we are A FUNCTIONAL UNIT now. DO NOT SEPARATE. BATTERIES FUCKING INCLUDED. FOUND family my ass, we built this non-nuclear family unit from the ground up, don’t devalue this!!! it was is and will be a labour of love!!!

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I HAVE TO DO THE WORK SO THAT MY LIFE CAN BE DIFFERENT AND I CAN REAP THE BENEFITS

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Franz Kafka, the metamorphosis / Jane Austen