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ELITE ‘LIMITLESS’ MV #1 ROUGH VER.

on october 20th, 2017, worldwide media’s new boy group elite has finally debuted with their first single and mini album titled limitless. the album has a total of six songs, three of which where elite members venus and han had taken part in writing the lyrics. below is the confirmed tracklist for the mini album which is now available for digital purchase on naver music. elite has also been confirmed to be promoting their title track ‘limitless’ along with their b-track ‘good thing’ for the next three weeks on music shows before preparing for their next mini album which is rumored to be released later in the new year.

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HANEUL.

jerking off crosses his mind, but he decides against that just as well. his fingers drum against his blanket harder, in tune with the white noise of the dorm. his mind wanders to the time he had spent in the practice room, how much he wanted to change something he did, or something he should have done. there isn’t mistaking the way he jumps at the sound of chiwon’s movements across the room. he settles back down before the other has made his presence known by calling out for him, and he doesn’t respond, a smile being held back. of course, haneul is not ever let off that easily, and soon after he feels chiwon’s nose pressed against his own and breath on his face. “ someone might think you’re gay or some shit with that attitude, dude. ” is all of a response he gives, eyes still shut tight.

he knows. he knows better than most, especially since despite their playful nature, there’s always been something more heartfelt in the undercurrent of their relationship. it’s an interchangeable thing—with chiwon (attempting) to be there for haneul when it gets too much and haneul (always) being there for him and the whole of elite whenever they need it. 

haneul’s their pillar, but sometimes chiwon wonders—then who’s haneul’s? 

so maybe this is him trying to provide some form of comfort. maybe this is him at least trying to ease some of his burdens, in the quiet way that he slides under his sheets and intertwines their fingers, the ghost of the words i’m here for you laced in each breath. 

(it goes unsaid, but the both of them know what he means, and that’s enough.) 

instead, chiwon withholds a laugh, and releases an indignant scoff in its place. “well, dude, what if i am? jesus. you’re so quick to judge.” there’s a pause before his words sink in, and this time, he actually does laugh in embarrassment. “wait, this isn’t me coming out to you. wait. this isn’t me not saying i’m not gay either- fuck. can we not have this conversation?” 

he lets out a huff, fingers reaching up to flick the other on the forehead. “fuck off, i hate you. all you need to know is that i’m always gay for you. want me to prove it?” chiwon raises his eyebrows in a dare—not that haneul can actually see him, he realises a little belatedly. “you’re boring, hyung. entertain me.” 

sleep doesn’t come easy these days, if even at all. it probably has something to do with their (debut), a concept so sacred to them it’s almost unreal. or, also known as: a bundle of nerves, excitement, and an entire lifetime ahead (together). if chiwon’s already this on edge, he can’t imagine what haneul’s actually feeling. 

“hey, hyung. seriously, though. are you good?” chiwon worries his bottom lip between his teeth, in an eager motion to get an affirmation that he’s okay, he knows he isn’t alone. 

that’s because he really isn’t. be it in a dorm full of nine boys or just two, there’ll always be someone by his side (a promise). chiwon isn’t going to break this one. 

+ CRAVING

[fmchiwon]

suhofm:

             there’s people walking by and the sounds of car horns could be heard from the streets outside. the smell of roasting coffee beans filled the air, resting gently within nostrils. sat in the back, just so know would know who he was, was the redlight trainee that sat at the forefront of redlight music. fingers wrapped around a pencil, other finger tips walked across the pages of a textbook as he read. a laptop lit up his face even more, with a webpage opened to the online education that he was receiving. his ears stayed up, awaiting for a call of his order. which would come rather soon. he rose to his feet, getting up, and making his way over. he goes to reach for it, before there’s suddenly another hand. “oi.. sorry,” he states, a bit flustered. he must of been wrong; though he wouldn’t fully admit that out loud.

breaks come by far and few these days, with the notion of only practising programmed into his system. it’s of no surprise that chiwon’s looking a little more haggard than usual, but there’s no helping it. no one said it would be easy—after all, he’s sold more than his time away to this industry (ie: his goddamn soul), so of course he’s bleary-eyed and just bone fucking tired when he randomly reaches for a cup that he assumes is his until he feels the warmth of flesh against skin. it’s what makes his head snap up in surprise. “shi- sorry!” there’s a pause, before his eyes widen in recognition. (shock, horror or dread, chiwon? pick your fucking poison.) a guarded smile graces his lips as he tries to subtly withdraw his hand, and he hates himself for being thrown off balance. “h-hyung. hi?” 

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NINA.

     “ you’ve grown really tall, ” she says like an observation. it’s toneless and unenthusiastic. she turns her side to him, conversation cut short.

resuming her previous activities, nina picks up a chocolate milk next to the one she just dropped. she won’t pick that one again. she doesn’t want to remember the isolation and loneliness gurgling its way up her lungs. she’s more than just some person to leave behind, someone who’s existence never included stay. not to her mom, not to her school friends, not to chiwon. it’s been seven goddamn years.

how does he tell her he never intended for it to happen? (how much of that is the truth?)

seven years is a long time, he supposes. but this is chiwon, for god’s sake, and he’s never known anything other than to run away under the virtuous pretense of sacrifice—or at least, that’s what he’d thought when he decided that leaving would be the best for the both of them. a burden lifted from her shoulders.

no one should have let a thirteen-year-old chiwon make decisions.

but he’s here now, still the same (warm hands, eager smile, bright eyes), but different (fragile heart, and so so so much regret). is it enough to make up for all he’s done? 

this is him at twenty-two, seeking for absolution. 

(he’s not very good at it.) 

his smile falters slightly when he gets pushed away. she isn’t rough, but it’s enough to remind chiwon of his place in that moment and he releases her without an argument. he’s the one who put them in this predicament, after all. 

“yeah, i. did, i suppose.” it’s too lacklustre of a reply, and chiwon finds himself raising his voice slightly and desperately rambling on about anything that comes to mind just to keep her attention. “i’m even taller than my hyungs now! they keep telling me it’s really unfair, and tell me to stop growing, but i swear drinking milk really does wonders—”

pause.

he can’t do this. not with her. especially since all nina has deserved was honesty, and she means too much to him to brush off like this. 

one year of friendship, forgotten in seven. 

except the problem is, he’s still yearning for it.

“nina.” he grabs at her arm, gently willing her to turn around and look at him. “i never meant to leave you like that—i was stupid, okay? but there’s never been a day where i don’t regret that, i should have at least told you, or something. but i- i thought it’d be better if i didn’t because i thought it’d. hurt less. or whatever. i didn’t think it mattered anyway. i was probably just some clingy kid. but i’m... sorry.” earnest. sincere.

please believe me.

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that face brought back a time when she felt fine in her own skin, laughing was easier, and she liked learning new things. nina was still fresh, didn’t like hanging with the other teens because she hadn’t learned to make friends. she didn’t realize she was allowed to. staying was a foreign concept to her.

he looked well. grown up tall and fine — enough to tower over her as they both mimicked each other in movements.

   “ you… ” her hands thuds the chocolate milk back onto the shelf, “ why are you here? ” all of a sudden, she wants to say. but there are some emotions that don’t reach her tongue.

convenience store runs are a necessity.

it’s something that chiwon always proclaims, and he’s constantly the one to volunteer when asked to grab a few snacks for the members. or, this is how he ends up here at two in the morning, at least. (mental checklist: ramen milk chips ramen milk chips ramen milk chips.)

he’s bundled up all in black, a sight for a man who’s both tall and broad in the middle of the goddamn night, and jesus, he really hopes no one misunderstands. it’s why he sheepishly lowers his head into his hoodie when he enters the store, eyes trained on the floor so that he can grab what he needs and go. it’s not as if the tired-looking cashier actually looks like he gives a fuck, but still.

ramen milk chips.

he’s all but left with the milk, which he reaches for at the same time as another figure that comes out of seemingly nowhere. an apology is already on his lips as he moves to offer her the carton, but he freezes as he catches sight of who it is.

milk? check.

“n-nina.”

( to: nina.

here are all the things i never got to say. remember when we met? you were this cool ass trainee that entered hjh and what the heck, i wanted to befriend you instantly. and then you turned out to be wonderful and amazing and all things good, and you taught me how to trust. somewhat, anyway. we had a good time, didn’t we? when we were still stupid young chiwon and cool young nina.

but then i left.

i miss you. i’ll always be eternally grateful. )

“nina!” the split second of confusion and horror is gone, replaced quickly by his usual enthusiasm that everyone speaks of. (except, maybe, this time it’s not so genuine after all.) he masks the shock and his thudding heart with a bright grin, and throws his arms around her smaller frame to pull her into a tight hug. “how have you been? you’re doing so well, oh my god, i love happiness with all my soul. wait, you’re sunbae now! nina-sunbae! i suppose i should call you that, shouldn’t i? god, i’ve missed you. but… i should ask you the same.”

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+ CRAVING

@fmhaneul

comfort is the silent whirring of the fan in the dorm at 1AM. comfort is the way the room’s only filled with soft breaths and the unspoken knowledge that everyone’s still drifting in and out of sleep, more or less.

comfort is in haneul’s arms.

this is how chiwon finds himself making his way to haneul’s bed with all the caution a six foot boy can muster (which turns out to be, well, not so much), blanket hanging loosely off his frame as he carefully wedges himself beside him. 

this isn’t necessary, but chiwon thrives off affection and he knows haneul will indulge him. 

probably.

“hyung.” 

the syllable fades off into a whine, and when haneul doesn’t respond instantly, chiwon huffs and leans in so that his nose is almost pressed against his. he places both of his hands on both sides of his face, because he knows haneul’s awake—but even if he isn’t, chiwon’s getting his way anyway. “haneul, i swear, if you don’t give me attention right now i’m going to kiss you.” 

he’s not saying that it’s much of a threat, but, well. this is chiwon after all.

(he probably still will, in the end.) 

[fmchiwon]

if you could guarantee one thing for tomorrow, what would it be?

+ HONESTY WEEKEND: ACCEPTING

he hums, “but isn’t the beauty of this world the fact that nothing ever stays constant today and tomorrow?” he’s calling bullshit. “so i don’t know. nothing? except probably how good looking i am, ha.” 

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what's the price you're willing to pay for your happiness?

+ HONESTY WEEKEND: ACCEPTING

“i’m already happy, what’s that supposed to mean?” 

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what is your biggest fear? why?

+ HONESTY WEEKEND: ACCEPTING 

being trapped in a recurring cycle, where it repeats, repeats, repeats—

“caterpillars. why do they exist? they’re a mistake in itself, seriously. i’m scared of ghosts too, i swear they’re just out to get me—”

[fmchiwon]

hello babies !!! i’m jin and this is the loml ryu chiwon aka c.won ( nineteen, model / child actor, elite’s lead dancer & vocal, and the sweetest boy to ever exist ) nD I RLY SHOULDN’T BE JOINING bc school n exams are a goddamn mess thnx ***………..but i still love u dw anw i’m here and i’m super hyped!!! u can find me on discord or twt (u can ask me for either!!) but i’ll mostly be on the im’s jsghfhdj . like this post pls and i’ll (v eagerly) come to you to plot!!! meanwhile u can find chiwon’s bio here and plots here (wip!) for ur viewing pleasure but w/o further ado here is some stuff abt him under the cut!

#1

just clearing stuff up bc his bio wasn’t that explicit and detailed! 

has been in the industry since he was five unfortunately n started out as a child model / actor

his family wasn’t that well-off but his parents had big dreams!!!! big hopes!!!! just……. not for themselves but for him…… mostly bc they missed their chance to shine a long time ago so now they’re projecting their aspirations onto him aka using him as an outlet to fulfil their dreams smh

he signed on with hjh ent at first but he found it so ?? stifling ???? esp since he had to grow up under the limelight and it was altogether just Tiring

modelling n stuff rlly took a toll on him bc he was expected to manage himself even at a young age and it stressed him out ??? ? ? ? so much, altho he got to hang out w the #starz but yea not enough compensation

it was kinda expected that along the way he discovered a passion for dance?? like i mean he was surrounded by idols…. and he often skipped modelling / acting lessons just to watch the sunbaes in the practice rooms

so he was more than happy when his contract was set to expire when he was 15,, he got the fuck out of that hellhole even tho his mom disapproved

their relationship has been tense ever since, mostly bc they lost their main source of income and she doesnt rly talk to him unless for him to send money back to their family

kinda has beef with hjh now, doesn’t make a habit of associating w them much. as a result, there have been like…….. wild rumors abt his absence and leave from the company

but in aug/sept of 2012, he secretly went for an audition that worldwide media was having, and entered as a trainee in october with dance

yeh now he’s here anxiously waiting for elite’s debut

#2

if u knew him, u’d be surprised at how much on-camera chiwon = off-camera chiwon

the only difference that on camera chiwon is calmer and kinda intimidating bc his stage presence is off the charts?? 

but his smile is one of the first things people notice simply bc of how prominent and bright it is, n he’s vvvvv charismatic and always makes u feel like the most important person in the world whenever he talks to u bc he focuses all his attention on u

he’s literally always the epitome of bubbly and affable, whether u know him personally or not!! v playful friendly and energetic and always tries to see the best in people, it’s almost to the point which it’s unrealistic

never seen without a smile on his face, he always has enough love to go around. constantly the moodmaker!!! he’s super perceptive to his surroundings so once he senses the atmosphere going down he’s immediately there to bring it up

doesn’t seem forced at all, 100% genuine and ppl actually doubt him for it bc how has the cruelty of the industry not wear you down?

but ha it actually has, he’s actually hella insecure about a lot of things except that he doesn’t let anyone in on his feelings, cries a lot into his pillow when he thinks no one’s around and makes sure that he’s always bright and happy the next day

he never lets anyone even think for a second that he’s upset or smth though, whatever he does feels really genuine

on a s/n Drop Dead Gorgeous is he even real

LIKE FOR REAL HE’S SO FUCKIN HANDSOME 2017 adonis @ his finest

knows how to make everyone happy (except for himself…..) and in a way its a substitute for him to fill up on his own deprivation of love n happiness

but he has the biggest heart, tries to take time out to help everyone when he can, and is super affectionate and can come off as overbearing / overwhelming at times

but he’s also a Heartbreaker ; /  mostly bc he’s super nice n flirty to everyone and it can be kinda misleading at times? BUT ITS NOT INTENTIONAL especially since he doesn’t seem to understand that it’s not ok to go around dropping random kisses on people and proclaiming his love for them all the time

once secretly dated a female trainee to protect her from the company finding out that she was gay

but that quickly turned into rumors wherein he dated another male trainee which….. may not be entirely false

a good friend, will always make time to listen to u and offer comfort

in a lot of ways he’s like a shelter and has been described as such by a lot of people that are close to him? mostly bc of how reliable and sturdy he is and how much he’s willing to take just about everyone in

haha but when he gets angry thats a whole different story

has the ability to stand up for others and will never hesitate to do so, esp if he doesn’t like what ur doing. he’s v stubborn and strongly-opinionated, however he’s almost always unable to stand up for himself, and instead he absorbs all the criticism he hears and takes it to heart

humble to the point of demeaning. he doesn’t believe that he would even be here without his members and (family…..ish)

gets a lot of hate for his singing bc when knetz heard his voice in one of their earlier releases they were like uhhhhhhhhh whomst and got a lot of criticism, mostly bc they think he’s just another untalented pretty face and that’s it

like but he’s constantly improving? and he rlly rlly works super hard to be better, and now he even drops small covers sometimes

ok but dance is the goddamn love of his life )-: posts a lot of dance covers and choreographs some dances too!

tries to contribute by learning how to compose and write lyrics, he’s constantly learning n experimenting w the help of the staff and his group members

SPEAKING OF WHICH he’s a total softie 4 them ok like to the level where he would give anything up for his members they’re his FAMILY n literally the only ppl who he’s ever seen him down

v loud, makes his presence known almost immediately

also he’s so!!!!! boyfriend!!!!!! icb

a TREE he’s so tall smh (perfect 4 u to lean on, cuddle, and be the small spoon to)

fashion is another passion of his, his entire wardrobe = fashion week all year long

a little hard to get super, seriously close to though bc of how much he bottles up inside himself. but he’s a little way too trusting and that fact gets taken advantage of a lot

has pet names for everyone

looks like he cant be taken srsly but he’s really observant and sharp, listens and watches his surroundings and hence he can AND will use ur words against u if u go against them

HE’S JUST A SWEETHEART TRYING 2 MAKE IT IN THIS JUNGLE OK thank u <3

if u read till here u deserve a gold medal

#3

i’m rly just here to develop my chara so i’m definitely open to any kind of plots at all! i mean it when i say that so plsplspls hmu w any ideas u may have whatsoever!!! or at least until i sort out a proper plots page or smth yikes…

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레이백사운드 (LAYBACKSOUND) - 4Hours (feat. Lee Bada)

[fmchiwon]

  i. i never fucking loved you. i told you i did, told you i did so much and i never meant it. told you i’d die without you / didn’t know what to do without you / couldn’t live without you. i lied through my teeth. gritted teeth, red lips, & me, lying to you. making you feel good. me, leaving. making you feel so, so bad.

  ii. i loved seeing you break like that. so willing, so pretty – so desperate to fall in love. so i turned myself pretty for you / nice for you / perfect for you. and then i cracked your spine. sticky, wet tear trails on your rosebud cheeks, gasps as your heart shattered. i never loved you but seeing you wrecked, torn in half? perfect.

  iii. here is the truth: i am a heartless murderer and i get off to destruction. you, wondering: why? asking, don’t you miss me? begging, please? a ballet dancer, spinning around in this web of lies. this web of i love yous. the truth hurts, doesn’t it? here, listen closely, let me whisper this in your ear: i never loved you, but there, when you were lying on the bathroom floor, sobbing—there, i almost did.

CONFESSIONS, by esther liv

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