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Today, I’ve told someone about myself. 

Today, I made a friend from Netherlands. She told me about herself; but she didn’t know me before today. I told her today. I’m glad I made a friend.

Today, I’ve re-opened my tumblr page. I honestly forgot this page existed. This will be like an update log. Reading back on my previous posts, those were written, directed to a girl I had a one-night-stand with who I thought liked me for me, who was the first girl I was with after my ex fiance irl. I realize I was too eager, now.

Today, I’ve solidified my belief in this simple truth: A man cannot blame his current problems on his past self. There’s a choice to be made each day. Toxic behaviour can be reprimanded, it needs constant daily effort poured into it.

Today, the theme song is The Rubberband Man by The Spinners. It’s dope.

Today, I’ve learned something about myself. I tend to put others’ satisfaction above myself - I really shouldn’t be pouring all of this energy for someone in the Netherlands who probably is testing me about my limits of crazy, but I like talking to her and we joke and laugh and it’s just comfortable. I hope at the end we can still be friends at least!!! If it doesn’t work out. I am a pessimist after all! 

Today, I need to realign my life back into Me Time again. Tomorrow is my brother’s birthday. And then I have work for the following two days. That’s exciting for me, to finally be doing something aside from the daily monotonous thing called “staying-up-for-her-because-she-makes-me-feel-good” I am so simple sometimes. Most days I think to myself and wonder why I am the way I am. But at the end of the day I think I am used to it now. It’s not that hard for me to bounce back from things, if I just expect the worst every time, I won’t be shocked at the outcome.

Tomorrow, Wednesday, June 25th, she should be receiving a set of pink roses, vase, bear, and a card. I haven’t bought these things for a woman ever since my last long-distance relationship back in highschool. My dumbass thought it was nice to put a letter saying how the flowers should be placed by the kitchen to remember her cat in a positive way. YKNOW IM PROBABLY AN IDIOT FOR THAT. Whatever, I can’t change it now. What else should I talk about, oh yeah, if you’re reading this, fuck you cuz idk you lol.

06/23/2020

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Today is my first ever official day off and I got a lot of things done!

Cabin filter change, oil change (took longer due to the 10-15bolts I had to remove), fueled up the car, bought pizza, cooked, cleaned car, hooked up my camera unit, ahhh feels good.

07/15/19

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It's like firing a gun, you took a shot now it's just handling the recoil. Don't even sweat it. Ezpz.

Sun, 06/09/2019 @1930

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There are many fishes in the sea

Yes, there are many fishes in the sea

"Teach him how to fish, and he'll survive for eternity"

But amongst the masses I saw thee

And in its chaos, you lost me

Sat, June 8, 2019 @0249hrs

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Name, Rice

Age, 25

Height, 5'5

Location, Canada

Sexual orientation, a Megatron dickholder that morphs to fit your pussy just right

Sexuality, into females of any type however they present themselves to be that suits my likings

Status, single

Generally likes straightforward/honest people, cheesy stupid jokes, art, music, autos, and adventure... MOBA action/adventure/historical/comedy/romantic shows or movies.... Can't stand horror, I find it stupid.... can't stand thriller, I find the storytelling to be even stupider as it overstates the facts with dramatic music.... games, sleep, long drives, b-ball but no so much lately..

About, wildcard personality; depending on whoever I meet and however close I am to them. I roll off bad energy with humour, even if it means making a fool out of myself. However, don't confuse that persona remains the same once crossed/wronged. When I fight, I fight for survival, so bones will break either yours or mine, or his or whoevers. Cops will be involved. Shit will be crazy. 🙏

When I get into a relationship, I am completely for that person's well-being, and thus remain monogamous. But lately, I'm beginning to realize monogamy isn't ideal unless it leads to tying the knot. Therefore with this theory...the term open relationship is suitable for me.

I often reflect on how my actions affect others. I don't judge based on rumours, impress me in person and you'll have your verdict.

I have tons of baggage ranging between lust, and love, and honesty. I'm quite observant. If you know you're doing something you shouldn't be, and you know it'll be a problem once I found out, chances are, I *already fucking know*... If I ask about it, be honest, because chances are, I *am waiting to see if you're a lying pos*.

I am as sweet as can be, but like all things, it's balanced with a strong sense of justice once wronged. I am forgiving, however I will not forget. If you did me wrong, there are only two outcomes: either I cut you off from my life, or we're fucking constantly and if you're female well we're gonna be having tons of hate-fucks.

I used to have no problems showing affection, but as I am carrying a heavy baggage, the weight is wearing me down and I act cold. Once I'm comfortable enough, you'll see all of my tags come into play. I like roughing up my woman, gagging her, blindfolding her, tying her, locking her up, making her crawl on the floor towards me like a slave, whipping her ass til it's red for pissing me off or when I'm stressed out, degrading her into worthless pos, pulling her hair, forcing her into sex though she constantly rejects it, fucking her in public places such as on the side of the road, by the lake, in a ship, in a dressing room stall, in the washrooms at the mall, at work, on my boss' office, in my car, in her car, at the parking lot, in a back alley, in a public park, on the balcony, by the windows with her face pressed up against the glass, on the backyard, in the shed, on her mom's bed, living room, stairs, elevator, her friends washroom, especially at parties we both disappear one by one so we could fuck and come back normal, or fuck with the door open at a family gathering and act normal when we hear someone passing by. Bathroom, toilet seat, sink, bathroom floor, bathtub...

I like ripping off her underwear (not new ones cuz that's expensive and I'm not paying for a replacement), making holes on her pants, cutting off her shirt or bra because I can't be bothered taking it off slowly, I like slapping her face and making her choke on the dick... to tell me how much of a slut she really is, and how she wants to be fucked really badly only for me to stop and not do anything until she's driven into madness and takes control.

I also want to see her getting fucked by someone else, but someone that I am aware of that I know because not knowing isn't as exciting as being aware... I want her to be used up as I watch and observe from a distance, out of their sight... Seeing how much of a slut she really is to want someone else's dick that badly. Want her to moan and beg for more... Slap her and make her call me Daddy and tell me she's a fucking slut who wants dick.

But I also want her to be responsible, pay her bills and not be broke, have plans for her future, can take care of herself, and is an angel in the streets.

I want her to be honest about everything, and anything. No matter what the fuck it is, we will figure it out...either we find a solution together, or Remove the problem.

I used to be into ERP, but I haven't done that in more than 6-7 years.

I haven't been in a relationship since my longest and seriously fucked up but real was on 2015-2018 (dates vary on/off relationship).

I'm all about Jesus, but I'm only human. 🙏👑

I don't just do these things to anyone I spend the nights with... It'll have to be something real if you want to be treated like my cumdump property... Daddy's gotta keep quality service in check, afterall.

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She makes me sad.. because I have had this image of who she is - the perfect woman - but lately the veil is coming off, and I see Her. Not the woman she pretends herself to be, the woman she portrays to be, the woman she aspires to be, but Her - as we all have our real selves - I saw Her. Her, is the current on-the-daily version of herself. Without the filtered thoughts. Without the fake smiles and laughter. We see this version during the most stressful times in a person's current mood, and it's important we find out what they're like...because anything else is just a rhythm, an echo, a wave. Who are they really when they're angry? What are they like? That's the real shit that hits me home. Because that's the type of shit you'll know you'll deal with if it works out.

05/05/19

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I have a problem interacting once I realize how I feel towards a person I become dysfunctional. I can easily get my way, say my fuckboi lines to those I don't genuinely care for as I know they won't be in my life for anything significant. Why is it we doubt ourselves when it comes to things that matter most?

05/05/19

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Being with her feels like a million dollars

Her smile fills me with joy, and her sadness fills me with sorrow

04/30/19

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In my sorrow, I drowned myself in tears.

I've never been the type to show vulnerability. I was always one step ahead of refuting pain by inflicting pain onto others. And yet with you, I die. In each phrased word, in each sentence, in each line. Time and again, I've died for you.

04/24/19

04/25/19

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The chase is great, it's exciting, exhilarating even, up until the dust settles and you're faced with the decision to get tied down to your choices. Because you know deep down once that pos is locked, you'll have to deal with it everyday of your life as you wait for something else exciting come your way. And can you live with that?

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“Develop a sense of self. A solidness that can’t be attacked.”

— Sylvia Plath, from a journal entry featured in “The Unabridged Journals,”

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Me: seeing V for Vendetta trending today

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