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napapagod na akong mag work, gusto ko ng mag-asawa. charing but not charing. kaya sana kung bigyan man ako ulit ni Lord, sa masipag magtrabaho sana o kaya kung di naman labis, AFAM na lang, Lord. hahaha

yung expenses ko this month, pang walang karapatan mag-pahinga. bumili ako ng aircon, tas nagpagawa ako ng study table, cabinet at bed frame sa tito ko. dalawang beses pa nasira sasakyan ko so far this month. not to mention yung vanity ko.

hay, i want so many things in life and for myself. i pray to be able to survive and do all of this by myself if hindi ako magkakaroon ng katuwang sa mga pangarap ko.

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haha, ang saket naman.

his dad messaged me a while ago at nag-aaya siya lumabas. madalas kami lumabas ng late night ng family niya noon para lang sa BK or anything that's open at this time.

ang sad kasi napaka-dalang na ang dad niya yung mag-initiate. and i told him na next time nalang at nagdahilan na lang ako na busy sa work and i want to see them soon din.

i know it's a bad idea to keep this communication with them. if i continue this, alam kong mas matatagalan lang ako maka-move on at mas magiging masakit lang the fact na, i wanted them to be my parents too - and it will never happen to me. napaka-sakit talaga punyeta, pero what can i do.

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Shet. Sobrang nararamdaman ko nanaman na sobrang broken ko after what happened to me. Naiwanan talaga ako at hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin nare-regain yung worth ko, basura pa rin yung pakiramdam ko kahit anong gawin ko.

Di ko na alam ano yung gagawin ko to heal. I am really trying my best.

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Sino si carl

wala, basta isang piece of shit hahaha

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“Before the truth can set you free you need to recognize which lie is holding you hostage.”

— Unknown

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do you also get that sudden hit of regret and disgust? just planning our upcoming Baguio trip then, everything Carl and I "did", just suddenly popped in my head.

not sure if i miss him, his body, the lust i felt (since he's the only person i had this feeling with), or if i am angry or i regret doing it.

i just literally smashed my pillow and said "putangina" out loud. i wish we didn't do that. or i wish we are still doing it. idfk.

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“Never, never tell them. Try and remember that. Never tell anyone anything ever. Never tell anyone anything again.”

— Ernest Hemingway

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see you both soon. ❤️

miss q kaü. huhu @chescarriffic @ginniemouse

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I promise you that this heartbreak you think you’ll never recover from will be a distant memory one day. I promise that you’ll look back on it with a new perspective and lessons learned instead of guilt or pain.

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maybe, this year is a time for myself talaga.

i just signed another contract with a direct client. i'm thriving sa career ko ulit and this time, all earnings are for myself. binigyan ako ulit ng chance ni Lord to make my financial decisions right.

nakaka-excite na i want to do and buy so many things. for myself and for my house - that will be constructed this year! ang sarap mamili ng mga gamit sa bahay.

tho, malungkot - kanina iniyakan ko nanaman si Carl kasi bigla ko siyang namiss. madalang ko lang naman to maramdaman kasi mostly, galit ako. hay, i am truly in the process of healing siguro and i know it's not linear.

ang hirap lang din kasi naiisip ko na baka sa swerte ko sa work eh malas naman ako sa lovelife. wag naman sana kase sayang naman pala ako??? hello?? i mean?? haha charing.

i will give it all to myself this year.

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gandang hapon 🖤

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saket ng ulo ko talaga sayo @chescarriffic sana sa next life natin, ako ang nanay mo para makurot kita sa singit at ipapag-face the wall kita. haha.

hulaan niyo anong topic namin 🤭 (clue, napa palo nalang si ginnie sa noo niya hehe) ✨🤍 @chescarriffic @ginniemouse