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Dear you (an early judgement, may Allah give us easiness to let our good intention come true) You, who had birthday on Jan 4th, I wish a tons of best wishes. May Allah let you do your best, always keep you on the right path, His path, always bless every good things that you do, forgive the wrong things, even better the He prevent you from doing so. There is something about that make me believe that Allah really loves me to make us a pair, aamiiin aamiiin. I am so lucky that I knew you, that we met again, that we communicate again, that we decide getting to know each other for more serious intentions, that Allah gives easiness for our good intentions, may Allah always keep this good intention. On your birthday, you surprisingly gives me a gift which I ever jokingly asked from you as an anti mainstream movement. You knew it too that it was a joke, but you, a super silly and a joker, make it real. I was super surprised. I can't even say a word for you. I am just saying "gemes" that I want to "nyakar".. Even if I don't say it, i think you knew it already lah 😬

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Dear you

Assalamualaikum Hai kamu Ga terasa ternyata udah a few step closer yaa Semoga semua rencana ini tetap terjaga niat baiknya, terjaga kelancaran dan keberkahannya Semoga tujuan dari semua proses ini membawa kita pada kebaikan dan mendekatkan dengan Maha Pemilik Cinta 😊 Anyway, I feel a lot of butterflies trying to escape from my stomach while I heard you say that first three word 😆 Thank you Alhamdulillah

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Humanity really doesn’t exist. Instead of having full media covering on the genocide occurring to the Muslims, Jews, Christians, Syrians, Arabs, etc. in Aleppo, the media full coverage is focused on Kanye West and Donald Trump; steering the focus away from a genocide currently occurring on Muslim lives. The entire world is watching innocent Muslim lives die at the hands of their government without offering an helping hand, and the only thing people care about is Donald Trump, the same person who’s discriminatory and racist against minorities the most. Wake up, humanity is dead. The civilians in Aleppo have no where to run, and ZERO hospitals to go to for their injuries. The world is coming to an end. Educate yourselves, question everything, research yourselves, because relying on the media will leave you blinded by the truth. Ya Allah my heart hurts, please #PrayforAleppo

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Dear Bapak

Assalamualaikum Bapak, apa kabar? Bapak, kangen

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How to care for a sad person ☺️

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Dear kamu

Assalamualaikum Hai kamu I am sorry that several time I let myself fall, fall for his attitude and his word. I am so sorry

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Dear kamu

Assalamu'alaikum Hai kamu I want to say sorry as I often felt like I keep butterflies in my chest

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Relationship (?)

There are a lot of possibility regarding two person relationship. The A need B. The B need A. The incision when they need each other. The B could deduct the A's capabilities The A could also do the same. The incision where they could drag the other down. The relationship could either bring a better impact for the person who involved, or worsened them. Is B brave enough to take a courage and have a journey with A? Is A want to have this journey with B?

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Love at the first sight

No such thing as love at the first sight. It is a big big BIG bull shit. Full stop.

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Just wanna sit down all day. Under the sky and trees. Sitting on the grass. Feel the breeze of the wind. Masya Allah. "So which of your Lord's favor would you deny?"

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Dear aku (2)

It's 12.44am. I am not sleep yet. A few hours ago, I already prepared to sleep. But because of a few things like your superordinat come to the boarding house and asking, its normal that you are still awake, right? Firstly I thought that I should just sit and wait, and then trying to get an excuse to sleep first, but its kinda hard to do that. Udah ga ngerti lagi. Lebih sayang sama diri lah. Tapi harus tetap respect. Learn good communication. Learn how to behave, learn how to communicate, and learn how to integrate all the things.

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Pencapaian (1)

I scroll down my juniors, my colleagues, and my seniors social media. I envy them. They have reached what success seems for me. They have going abroad. They have climbed the mountain. They have finished their higher education. Tapi, bukankah tidak fair untuk mengukur pencapaian seseorang dengan diri sendiri. Tiap orang sudah ada jalannya masing-masing. Ada kesulitan dan tantangan sendiri. Sekarang yang menjadi pertanyaan adalah apakah saya sudah berusaha maksimal untuk mencapai sukses versi saya? Apakah saya sudah berusaha menghisab diri dengan maksimal untuk dapat memperbaiki diri? I guess no. I still full of my need, full of procrastination, full of doubt. Doubting myself, doubting my capability. Not people who doubting me, I am. Such a coward right? I am afraid to challenge myself. Be brave! Be true! Be good!

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This one photo hit me. Hard. Yesterday, my mom called me to ask me wether I have called my father or not. Honestly, I called my father several days ago, and he sounds fine, so I guess everythings going well. And then, my mother told me that my aunt dreamt last night that my father died, my aunt saw my late grandparents come to pick my father up. I dont want to believe it as the dream is just a dream, and i thought people who was seen dead in a dream should be a good sign that he/she will have a long years, ya ga sih? And now I realize that, whether its okay or not, I actually have an obligation to ask, to call, to keep communicate with my father. I am just so rude. I am just full of myself, full of this whiny little thingy that keep my head think somewhere else. I am so wrong. I always pray that God will grant me His heaven, but I do really act like a spoiled slave, not giving the best, not trying he best to make Allah grant me. Allah The Most Merciful, The Most Kindness, The Forgiver. Allah, please remind me when I forgot, please remind me when I am weak, please remind me when I am almost lost. Please keep me in Your straight path, please keep me in Your lightened way, please keep me away from everything that distract my love to you. Strengthened my heart just for you thus You are the One who rule our heart, please make our heart always go through You. Aamiiin

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Kangen rumah

Today I miss home. actually I could gather little piece of home by doing small things. I could use the same detergent to wash my clothes and using same fabrique, so that I feel home when I am doing my laundry or getting my dried clothes or even when I am using the clothes or snuggling in my sarung when I sleep. I could use the same spices and do the exactly same step to cook, so that I could feel home when I cook and eat. I could call my mom, my dad, my sisters or my brother and speak to them via loudspeaker so that I could feel like they are around me and we are talking in the same room. Now, I miss home for the things that couldn't be replaced. I simply miss home as I could kiss my mom's and dad's hand after I've done shalat. I simply miss home as I could secretly sip my mom's coffee or dad's tea and watched them asking us who took theirs. I simply miss home as we could discuss about everything in dining table. I miss home.

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Dear aku

Assalamu'alailum Hai kamu 😊 Iyaa, kamu yang sedang futur. Sedang tidak dalam kondisi pikiran yang sehat dan stabil sepertinya. Tidak ada pekerjaan yang beres, ibadah memprihatinkan, memikirkan hal hal yang lain, dan lebih memprihatinkan lagi, sempat berpikir untuk ingin merasakan falling in love so hard. Kondisi normalnya adalah I tend to refuse this statement as I dont want to fall. I want to feel the love, not fall into it. Tapi entah karena apa, sempat berpikir seperti itu tadi. I am not myself, i guess. Semoga segera normal lagi. Perbaiki bacaan Quran, shalat wajib, shalat sunnah, dan puasanya diusahakan lebih baik lagi. Sometimes, things better left unspoken. Realized the wrong of doing that, and not let it happen again. Aamiin yaa Rabb.

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Menikah (2)

Beberapa bulan yang lalu, saya pernah menanyakan kenapa sih kita sangat disarankan untuk menikah. Waktu itu, saya masih menunggu waktu untuk berdiskusi karena hal ini akan sangat panjang untuk didiskusikan. Kemudian, beberapa hari yang lalu saya menanyakan hal yang sama pada orang yang berbeda tapi menurut saya kurang lebih terdapat kesamaan dengan keduanya, sama-sama tarbiyah 😊 Jawaban beliau, menyukai lawan jenis adalah fitrah. Allah sangat menjaga hubungan antar manusia, sehingga diaturlah tentang pernikahan itu. Tidak ada yg salah dengan menyukai lawan jenis, akan menjadi salah jika memperturutkan apa yang diinginkan sehingga tidak sesuai dengan apa yang telah diatur. (Okey, kalimat terakhir tambahan dari saya sendiri sih). Jawaban ini sebenarnya kurang menjawab sih, mungkin karena udah sering denger sih 😅 Astaghfirulloh Pertanyaan saya berikutnya, what is so great in aqad nikah which could make Allah's arsy could be moved? Ini belum terjawab. Harus banyak baca sih. Balik lagi, menikah sebelum dan sesudah adanya Islam sangat berbeda. Peran, kewajiban, dan hak tiap anggota dalam pernikahan telah diatur. Masya Allah 😆 Menikah, yah tidak hanya menikah sih semua komponen hidup, tidak melulu tentang logika, tidak melulu dapat dirumuskan dengan sesuatu yang eksak. Kita, berdasarkan ilmu yang standar, menetapkan keinginan ingin ini itu, sedangkan yang baik untuk kita tidak seperti itu. Ayo diniatkan lebih baik. Ayo diikhlaskan lebih baik lagi, semoga semua kegiatan bisa berkah dan menjadi ibadah, toh tujuan kita diciptakan Allah adalah untuk beribadah kan? 😊