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Good day

I am not revamping, or continuing this blog. It is a nice blog though, so I’m keeping it (unlike that absolute smelly garbage with 3k followers I deleted just now). 

I know a lot, probably more than half, of the people watching whis blog came from that other infamous blog. It’s not bad, or good, but I’m sorry if destroyed something you liked. 

You can find me here: https://nasyatkar.tumblr.com/ now. I might even do a bit more of Die Anstalt occasionally, but no promises. 

I learned that ‘popularity’ is not necessarily a good thing, and that I don’t need it to enjoy the creative process, or even the result of it. And ‘good things’ can actually be bad if you look at them from a different perspective, from a different point of view, at a different point in time, so to speak. I can actually think now again. Reflect. Speculate. Intellectualize, even. I didn’t need to take them, you needed me to.

But I suppose it was important for me to go throught this stage in life. I don’t like it, and am, in a sense, ‘disowning’ it, but I still learned things. And that’s what counts. That might be the only thing that counts at the end of the day.

Good luck, and be skillful with the cards Fate dealt you.

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Are you alone?

Funny you should ask. Yes, and no. Say, that question reminds me of someone

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They look happy, don’t they?

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On hiatus due to studying. May occasionally post on weekends

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Knee kisses

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Darling, please Rescue me

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Fandom: Die Anstalt - Psychiatrie für misshandelte Kuscheltiere  Title: Notes Rating: K+ Pairing: Dub/Dr. Wood Summary: All night, the snow has been powdering the earth and the slanting hospital roof with sui generis crystals of fractal beauty. The first dawning rays seemed to have dulcified the celestial whirling, and the island froze on a fulgent inhale.

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Thank you for organising this, Kara. I had a lot of fun as well.

Well, it took a while and some back and forth, but the art swap by kakerlac, groccio and myself has reached full fruition! The overarching theme was “taking wing”. You should be able to tell which ‘section’ was done by who from the content and art style, since - great thing about two thirds of us - we’re all pretty distinctive. But here’s a reference guide anyway for those who do need it:

Row 1: [Sketch] borderlinedub - [Lines] groccio - [Colour] kakerlac  Row 2: [Sketch] groccio - [Lines] kakerlac - [Colour] borderlinedub Row 3: [Sketch] kakerlac - [Lines] borderlinedub - [Colour] groccio

Thanks for taking part in this with me, you two. It was a blast.

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Two more.

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https://8tracks.com/aplustre/my-sickly-friend

The intersecting word for this fanmix is “friend”.

Intro.  Dead Can Dance – In the Kingdom of the Blind the One-Eyed Are Kings

If it were within, within our power Beyond the reach of slavish pride To no longer harbour grievances Behind the mask's opportunist's facade We could welcome responsibility Like a long lost friend And reestablish laughter In the dolls house once again For time has imprisoned us in the order of our years In the discipline of our ways And in the passing of momentary stillness We can see our chaos in motion, our chaos in motion We can see our chaos in motion View our chaos in motion

1.  The Chameleons – Is It Any Wonder

I could feel the madness there But I couldn't see the streets for the houses And all the lies and fantasies Were suddenly malicious and dangerous

For every passing day you put me through What have I done to you? Is it any wonder that I never close my eyes?

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If that's what's waiting for me on the ground I hope I never come down Is it any wonder that I never close my eyes?

Here in this lullaby We'll leave them all behind Thoughtlessly wasting time We'll be gone in the blink of an eye

Is this really where the story ends For all those so called friends Is it any wonder that they think I've lost my mind?

If that's what they think then fine We'll leave them all behind

Is it any wonder?

We'll leave them all behind Hearing these words of mine

2.  The Sisters Of Mercy – I Was Wrong

You say stay and never leave You say meant for ever I could believe you, but I don't You say we're almost all alone together All alone You say You say you will I know you won't

I was wrong I was wrong to ever doubt I can get along without I can love my fellow man But I'm damned if I'll love yours

In a bar that's always closing In a world where people shout I don't wanna talk this over I don't wanna talk it out I was quite impressed until I hit the floor Isn't that what friends are for? Pain looks great on other people That's what they're for

3.  Pulp – Like A Friend

Don't bother saying you're sorry Why don't you come in <...> Every time I get no further How long has it been? Come on in now, wipe your feet on my dreams You take up my time Like some cheap magazine When I could have been learning something Well, you know what I mean I've done this before And I will do it again Come on and kill me baby While you smile like a friend Oh and I'll come running Just to do it again You are the last drink I never should have drunk You are the body hidden in the trunk You are the habit I can't seem to kick You are my secrets on the front page every week You are the car I never should have bought You are the dream I never should have caught You are the cut that makes me hide my face You are the party that makes me feel my age Like a car crash I can see but I just can't avoid Like a plane I've been told I never should board Like a film that's so bad but I've got to stay till the end Let me tell you now: it's lucky for you that we're friends

4.  Curve – You Don't Know

I'm sick of you my sickly friend I used to think on you I could depend But now I know to my power The truth of it, the day and the hour You can trust me You can trust me I'm your ally I'm your albi I've made a view my tricky friend There was a time when you and I could pretend But now I know to my shame That there's no reason, there's no blame You don't know your destiny yet You're too wrapped up in what you think That's all you want to hear That's all you want to share

5.  Sad Lovers and Giants – German Cars

I’m in love with German cars Gliding past me On the Autobahn Stainless idols With silent hearts Never turning As we drift apart

Are you a lover or a friend? Its not easy to pretend That you Won’t leave me in the end Its not easy The end

It is harder to say goodbye Than spend the future unsanctified By the kindness of your empty heart Kill me softly as we drift apart

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I know That its been A little sad In times

6.  The Church – Almost With You

See the chains which bind the men Can you taste their lonely arrogance It's always too late And your face is so cold They struggled for this opulence See the suns which blind the men Burnt away so long before our time Now their warmth is forgotten and gone Pretty maids not far behind Who you trying to get in touch with I'm almost with you I can sense it wait for me I'm almost with you Is this the taste of victory I'm almost with you See the dust which fills your sleep Does it always feel this chill near the end? I never dreamed we'd meet here once more This laugh reserved for a friend

Outro.  Аквариум – Мой друг доктор (Aquarium – My Doctor Friend)

Мой друг доктор не знает что со мной (My doctor friend doesn't know what's wrong with me) Мой друг доктор не знает что со мной (My doctor friend doesn't know what's wrong with me) Я позвонил тебе, сказать что люблю (I called you to say that I love you) Лучше б я был глухой и немой (It would've been better if I were deaf and mute) Теперь мой друг доктор не знает что делать со мной (Now my doctor friend doesn't know what to do with me)

Ты читаешь меня, как книгу (You read me like a book) Так смотри, что на первом листе (So look what's on the front page) Читаешь меня, как книгу (You read me like a book) Твое имя на первом листе (Your name is on the front page) Мне не стать святым, даже если сам Папа (I won't become saint even if pope himself) Растворит меня в святой кислоте (Dissolves me in sacred acid) Но мы с тобой одно (But you and I are one) И если ты не слышишь меня (And if you can't hear me) Наверное, ты на другой частоте (You are probably on a different frequency)

Все дивятся на Солнце, никто не знает (Everyone wonders at the Sun, no one knows) Сядет оно или взойдет (Whether it sets or rises) Я стою под твоим балконом (I stand under your balcony) Я жду пока он упадет (And wait for it to fall) Иногда твоя любовь highway (Sometimes your love is a highway) Иногда твоя любовь гололед (Sometimes your love is a glazed frost) Я все равно не сверну, я никогда не сверну (Either way, I won't turn, I will never turn) И посмотрим, что произойдет (And we'll see what happens then)

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I played The Sims a little because I felt terrible yesterday, and I took some screenshots that I thought you might wanna see. Bertram looks awkward on all of them.

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Fandom: Die Anstalt - Psychiatrie für misshandelte Kuscheltiere  Title: To the Birds Rating: G Pairing: Dr. Wood/Dub  Summary: Wood plays the role of the red balloon. A chaotic poem of sorts.

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https://8tracks.com/aplustre/of-submarines-and-lighthouses

1.  Adorable – Submarine

I'd like to be alone Away from your port of stone But your lighthouse is calling out You, coming up for air Have locked on to my distressed flare Run aground, all hands going down

You are like a submarine Gliding under me And you hounded me out, you hounded me down

Though your submarine is out of sight Still you're haunting me like the harbour lights Though your submarine is out of sight Still you're haunting me

I could not lose you Even if I choose to Hear your sonar call, under my hull

2.  The Church – The View

Relationships can be like water Deep and shallow the popular bed Springs to mind my undetected closure <...> Oh yeah, oh yeah, it's nice up there Be a lighthouse, don't block out your view <...> Sometimes healthy living should be crushed Now I search for hours Rubble kills my fingers looks I'll only stop when it hurts a lot My heart is slender, my wooden tambourine's drenched in blues Redesign your answer <...> Take this daring leap Wake you've been asleep Go attack your life The paint is peeling scrape to save what's yours

3.  Interpol – The Lighthouse

What do the waves have to say now? What do the waves have to say? Now now Slow down And let the waves have their way Now now Slow And let the waves have their day

And I warned them

Here I've been living On roofs made from sin I put an outward "Begin, begin"

Here I've been lucid I'm living within Inwardly urgent And sinking again The lighthouse

4.  The Sisters Of Mercy – Dominion

In the heat of the night In the heat of the day When I close my eyes When I look your way When I meet the fear that lies inside When I hear you say In the heat of the moment Say, say, say

Some day, some day, some day, dominion Come a time Some day, some day, some day, dominion Some say prayers Some say prayers I say mine

In the light of the fact On the lone and level Sand stretch far away In the heat of the action In the settled dust Hold hold and say In the meeting of mined Down in the streets of shame In the betting of names on gold to rust In the land of the blind Be...king, king, king, king

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We serve an old moan in a dry season A lighthouse keeper in the desert sun Dreamers of sleepers and white treason <...> Turn the gold to chrome Gift...nothing to lose Stuck inside of memphis with the mobile home

5. The Drums – Submarine

Throw me in the submarine And push it into the sea Let it sink down, down, down

I remember everything Racing you across the bridge I was rolling, I was swimming, I was falling

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I did not want to let you go But I knew I had to

And I remember everything I even loved your family All I've ever given you was love (And your heart has two sides?) And I can't stick around to lie anymore

I'm laughing that I'm crying I'm laughing that I'm crying as I sink Down, down, down

6.  Pulp – My Lighthouse

Some laugh at my lighthouse, they say it's just an ivory tower But I don't mind, because I know Their envy grows by the hour See, I have a purpose up here to guide the ships upon their way All this is mine; it could be yours too What do you say?

It may seem strange To talk of love and then lighthouses It's not strange To me Hey All alone You and I in our high tower That's the way To be

7.  Gorillaz – On Melancholy Hill

Well you can’t get what you want But you can get me So let’s set up and see ‘Cause you are my medicine When you’re close to me When you’re close to me So call in the submarine ’Round the world we’ll go Does anybody know? If we’re looking out on the day Of another dream

8.  Adoro – Leuchtturm

Ich geh mit dir wohin du willst (I'll go with you to wherever you want)

Auch bis ans Ende dieser Welt (Also to the end of this world)

Am Meer, am Strand wo Sonne scheint (On the sea, on the beach where the sun shines)

Will ich mit dir alleine sein (I want to be alone with you)

Komm, geh mit mir den Leuchtturm rauf (Come, go up with me to the lighthouse)

Wir koennen die Welt von oben sehn (We can see the world from above)

Ein U-Boot holt uns dann hier raus (A submarine fetches us then from here)

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Hey, halt dich fest, das U-boot taucht (Hey, hold tight, the submarine dives)

Gleich wird die Sonne untergehn (Same as the sun will sink)

Ich glaub wir sind schon ziemlich weit (I believe we are already rather far)

Ich kann den Leuchtturm nicht mehr sehn (I cannot see the lighthouse anymore)

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Slowly, softly, like someone pulling on a string, the pieces of his heart knit back together, breaking in reverse.

- Locus Minoris Resistentiae, Chapter 3: Until You Came by borderlinedub

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Die Anstalt headcanon voices

Dr. Wood (crossed with Driven Like the Snow, “theirs, ours, lost in the drift are...”)

Dub (“please show me some etiquette”; crossed with Like a Friend, “come on in now, wipe your feet on my dreams”)

Dolly (“it is wrong to make fun of me”)

Kroko (“salted meat, a sullen relapse”)

Lilo

Sly ( “the product in the packaging”  verse)

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This drawing soothed my headache.