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BTS IDOL MV & LOVE YOURSELF: ANSWER

DETAILED ANALYSIS & DISSECTION

(more like just an excuse for me to gush & fangirl over them) 😆😘💜

ANKARA PRINTS, African Wax Prints:

First of all other than their hanboks which is a representation of Korean culture & tradition, their suits are actually ANKARA PRINTS (also known as African wax Prints & they are really beautiful). ▪︎ Confirmed by (twt): BTS_ARMY_INT

They mentioned that the track is inspired by African beats & they integrated African beats with Korean classical beats (& traditional Asian instruments) so beautifully & intricately. Not just their suits & the beat, but the animals in the background as well.

I guess this is their way of saying that music is universal & just cause they are inspired to use different beats from what they expected to be using, no matter what, there will be people making comments about their roots so instead of caring, they will show their appreciation for each & every culture & every genre they are inspired from.

In Korea, if you’re in an idol group, whether you’re a singer or rapper, there are prejudice against them, their songs & their abilities. Especially for rappers & in BTS’s case since Namjoon & Yoongi were underground rappers & hip hop artist, people don’t consider their music to be “authentic hip hop” or “hip-hop genre”. Of course, they tackled this particular prejudice in various song, like RM’s DO YOU (go stream his mixtape, it’s a masterpiece) where the lyrics are

I’m not pop, I’m not rock, I’m not funk, I’m not R&B or hip hop

All the kids who don’t know what they are yet dig, earlobes

“skirt and skinny jeans? that’s not hip hop!”

So is A$AP not hip hop?

Are you more hip-hop than A$AP and Kanye?

Hobie’s reference to his Mixtape with that Airplane. Of course, his mixtape was well perceived & it’s a masterpiece but among all the praise & appreciation there were those authenticity comments about being rappers & such. Basically, he’s free cause he realized that he stayed true to himself & he was just improving & getting better at what he’s doing I was always just me.

So at this point, they are coming to terms with whatever people call them cause no matter how hard they try, there will be people trying to degrade by labeling them. And even if the label isn’t derogatory, haters will find ways to attach negativity to it.

Ship & Globe:

So a ship, compared to an airplane, reaches it’s destination a little later so this might be the reference of the start of their career. A ship represents journey, crossing, adventure & exploration. Crossing the sea is a symbolic making of the journey across life (in this case their careers as well). The globe represents how despite their beginnings were they made the journey & are going around the world, & we can use the airplane to connect it to Airplane pt.2 as well

Same try, same scar, same work

(We still) Wherever we go in the world

We’re still the same as before

Yeah remember this? OMG, I was ready to fight the person who said that ok, I legit went to scroll through the messages but I was like I need to pay attention to him, he’s much more important. So this isn’t just for a simple filter but it’s for so many other things that they do that gets criticized. Or when people DEMAND they do or don’t do something.

The glasses of course, I still wheeze when I watch the vlive cause Tae really states his opinions and tells people to not say those things & that the specs look nice on him. But it’s also a little sad that he had to address it. It does look good on him, look at him, just look at him, cutie.

This also this reminds me of his mullet, where fans stated their opinions regarding it, which is totally fine. But to say something to the point where he feels so conscious about it is just sad.

SHOUTOUT TO THIS ARMY, YOU THE REAL MVP. YOU NICE KEEP GOING 💜 ▪︎ Video cr (for gif & screenshot) : BTS & ARMY News

Keep on chit-chatting, saying this & that (talking, talking, talking)

So just mind your own business

The way the sentence is structured & said (sang) is actually kinda sarcastic (if you watch a lot of dramas or variety shows they say this often to people who are overconfident or basically trash talking). In this case, to haters or the general public who nitpick everything, they say & do. Or just basically talk trash about them & try to spread rumors & stuff.

1. So the dinosaur/monster thingy in the first pic might be how BTS views haters as so they are kinda pointing to the monster as they sing the next few lines which are

Keep on chit-chatting, saying this & that

I do what I do, so you do you, you can’t stop me loving myself

2. Jimin’s drawing might also be the reference to how he views haters or people who criticize him & so on.

3. For Yoongi’s drawing, it’s Shooky but it’s holding onto 2 human stick figures while smiling & the measurements might be a reference to Ddaeng (I knew watching Tazza 1 & 2 & Running Man is gonna come in handy one day 😂)

18,13,38 ddaeng

So these are Hwatu card combinations also called Go-Stop. So basically the higher the number, the higher the points & chances of winning. So 1,3 & 8 are special cards & form the highest combinations, while 18 & 13 are equivalent, 38 is the ultimate combination. It’s undefeatable. So when a player has those combinations, they would say DDAENG or good ddaeng.

‣ Basically its an indication that no matter what people or haters say, they have the winning combinations, they might not have the ultimate combination but they do have the 2 special combinations. And even without 38 (not coming from one of the big 3 companies I guess?), they are doing more than fine in their lives & music careers.

4. Jin’s drawing of a whale = Kore

The whale teaches one to listen to their inner voice & understand the impact of their emotions which affects their daily lives & also to follow one’s own truth. So when a whale ‘enters’ your life it’s to evaluate where you are, the actions & emotions that have brought you to this very point & what can you do to alleviate existing drama & find peace. ▪︎ Information Cr: AnimalSpirit.info

‣ So this might indicate Jin (as well as BTS) coming into terms with whatever they had to go through (all the negatively, criticisms etc) to reach where they are at the moment.

And what they still have to go through & endure in order to achieve their goals as a group & individually so they can reach a destination they are all meant to reach & hopefully be at peace with where they reach.

Whales are also amazing communicators & are able to connect & communicate with other whales over thousands of miles away. The whale supports us in communicating clearly from our hearts and connect deeper with our loved ones.

‣ So this explanation might be referencing to Jin’s relations with the BTS members & their relationships with each other basically. It does not matter what haters say or what comes their way, they have each other so they will be able to come out stronger than ever.

얼쑤! 좋다! = Ursoo! Johda. Deonggideok kungdeoreoreo (Drum beat sound)

So ursoo is an exclamation people make to indicate their excitement or joy. Johda as well, it translates to Good or it’s good (Sian uses this phrase a lot 😂) also to indicate approval or joy.

I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Yoongi & Hoseok are wearing sweaters with vivid colors. Hoseok’s sweater is yellow, it might be the reflection of his personality & how we see him. We do call him our sunshine so that might be the case. However, the reference to Face Off where the character gets a totally new face, this might be the indication that he can be a superstar at times, a superhero at times & he has other faces that even we don’t see or know about.

So his sweater color & character, Snow White is probably more related to comments about how fair or pale his skin is. Usually, for men, slightly tan or just tan skin is preferred so this might be a reference to his awareness of the comments & how he does not get bothered by now. Also cause he prefers to stay in his hotel room to rest & compose music (e.g In BV1, Summer Package 2018) people assume he’s lazy & indifferent. Which is not the case & 24 hours is not enough to do all the things he has to do, let alone give heed to haters.

He’s aware of the comments & jokes we make about him not posting on SNS & that fans assume he does not care or love us. But he’s reassuring everyone that he loves himself just as he loves his fans.

This part has 2 meanings, first are the lyrics where they say that there are many sides of them that they discover every day and instead of worrying about those sides, they accept themselves no matter what side it is. As for the people trying to reach out to Tae, it might be the representation of fans who try to invade their personal space, hence Runnin’ man

Remember Tae said he believes that rabbits exist on the moon? It actually comes from a Korean mythology → Moon Rabbit

Representing prosperity & longevity

Of course, people trying to pull Jin down cause he’s so confident about himself.

The stereotype that all Kpop idols/artists look the same. (Like seriously? I can recognize which member is it by simply looking at their hands or their neck)

See how despite the shark being so vicious & enormous, it does not faze them & they just keep dancing & singing You can’t stop me lovin’ myself.

Another indication that no matter what haters or anyone says or comes at them, they know themselves & each other & ARMYS. They know as long as they stay true to themselves & keep loving themselves, nothing & no one can affect them personally & professionally.

The overall mv, is so vibrant & extravagant & the CGI is so obvious, unlike other MVs where CGI is used to make it seem like it’s naturally present or happening. This is another jab to the stereotype that Kpop Mvs have to maintain a certain standard visually.

Traditional Korean Representations in mv.

LOVE YOURSELF ERA Special post.

Good God, Namjoon makes me feel all sorts of things here.💜🙌🏼

BONUS:

Save Me end position.

I’m Fine:

Gifs: Belong to me, do not crop logo.

A/N: This is just my own analysis & opinions. I might be totally off the real representations but it was fun to read up and analyze. 😄I’m exhausted 😴

MASTERLIST

BTS As Boyfriends:

Jin ● Yoongi ● Hoseok ● Namjoon ● Jimin ● Taehyung ● Jungkook

BTS reaction: You comforting them 😢: Hyung Line• Maknae Line

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halluheaven · 6 years

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jimin / under pink skies

summary: jimin is a ftm trasngender teen who just wants to live a normal life, and hopefully this new town and school would give him just that. But, a cute boy with pink lips and earrings and dark hair being in his homeroom class wasn’t in his plan. He doesn’t have time for a crush, espcially with his huge secret. No one in this school could find out, not even his crush, Jeon Jungkook.

story warnings: themes of depression, anxiety, self harm, suicide, and involes sex, drugs, and languge

genre: angst/fluff & some smut

Edited by: @bts-aesthetics-for-the-soul

chapter 1 / jimin

Instead of finding the things in your life that seem wrong and hard, focus on what is good and pure.

At least, that was what Jimin’s therapist said. Sounded like something that you’d see on a fortune cookie, but pretty much everything everyone said to Jimin could find it’s home in a packaged, styrofoam tasting cookie.

“Be true to yourself and don’t label yourself. You’ll find out who you are soon enough.”

“Don’t give up, you have so much to live for.”

Why does everyone get so corny and weird after you try to commit suicide? It didn’t help Jimin feel any les alien and outcast then he already did. Those pills seemed like such a good idea for the longest time. Jimin didn’t believe in an afterlife, but dying into nothingness would be better than living in a body that felt foreign to him.

“Things will be okay. We’ll find a new school for you. Get you a new gender therapist. New friends. We’ll start over.”

His poor mom. She supported him to the end, which made him so grateful but also ashamed. If only he would have been normal, maybe none of this would have happened and his mom wouldn’t be so worried all the time. Wouldn’t get all the migraines she did. Wouldn’t need so much of the government’s money for doctors and anxiety medication.

All Jimin knew was that he couldn’t try it again. It’d almost killed his Mom when he tried, when she found him on the bathroom floor. Numb. Passed out. Hoping for death.

It had just made things so much worse.

“I don’t get it. I have a good life. A supportive mom. I’m starting testosterone soon. A new school. But, I’m still so fucking depressed.”

Jimin stared long and hard at the stranger in the mirror. He pinched at his soft, fleshy chest and looked down at his foreign looking genitalia. A few seconds looking down was enough for him. He hated it.

Then, he began the tedious work of putting on his binder. It was a pretty new one his Mom had gifted to him for Christmas and it fit like a glove. He loved it. It was hard to part with everynight, hard to sleep with those stupid fleshy lumps on his chest getting in the way with every position that he lay in.

After a good ten minutes, the binder was on, and now his chest was flat, just like it should be. Reaching over to the bathroom counter, he grabbed his folded Calvin Klein boxer briefs and slid them up his slender legs.

After that, two long socks rolled up and shaped, all ready for packaging. He tucked them into his briefs, shaping it again and looking it over into the mirror. He liked to think of his self confidence like a health bar in a video game: whenever he added something to change his appearance, make him feel more like himself, the bar would go up higher and higher.

It was like he could feel his confidence rising as he dressed himself, creating the perfect illusion of what he should look like, what he feels like inside. He shook his head full of pink hair, running his fingers through it to shape it over his eyes.

Grabbing the beanie from the counter, he placed it on his head and tucked in some of his hair. His black nail polish was a bit chipped, but he didn’t feel like putting on a fresh coat this morning. He was more focused on his body, his body passing.

No one seeing what was underneath.

“Jimin? Are you ready for school?” His Mom’s small, timid voice called from just outside the bathroom door. Jimin licked his chapped lips, grabbing his black skinny jeans and blue hoodie and quickly scrambling into them.

“I’m coming,” he mumbled, grabbing his socks and shoving the on his feet.. His pale blue converse were worn and stained, but he didn’t have time to clean them. It would have to do.

He opened the door to find his small mother waiting outside. The oversized sweater she wore nearly swallowed her and her eyes were bloodshot from lack of sleep. “Are you ready?” She asked, looking him up and down and then giving him a small smile.

Jimin engulfed her in a warm hug, kissing her cold cheek. “Yeah, I’m ready.”

“Did you eat breakfast?”

“I’ll grab a poptart on my way out.”

“You sure that will be enough, baby?”

“I’ll be fine, momma.”

He gave her a reassuring smile, brushing her graying hair from her eyes and behind her ears. She nodded slowly, taking in a shaking breath. “Hey, it’s going to be okay. This is a new town, new school, we live thirty minutes away from my best friend now. I promise things will work out.”

It was hard for him to say, because Jimin didn’t feel that way. He was trying so hard to focus on the good and pure in his life, but everything seemed so grey and colorless. It was hard to see anything that was good anymore. He missed his old home and the cherry tree in the backyard. He missed the ice cream truck that would make its rounds around his neighborhood every Friday, the cotton candy sunsets and the neighbor that always practiced piano with the windows open almost every evening.

Everything was foreign here, everything felt strange. Even the sunsets were different. Some friends felt more real online than in real life. He knew Yoongi was his real friend, but he had a feeling he somehow knew part of Jimin’s secret.

It was easier to keep a secret online than to someone’s face.

Jimin grabbed his backpack from the kitchen counter and the strawberry pop tart from next to it. It had a little pink sticky note on it with a heart, saying “I love you, baby. Good luck on your first day of school.”

He loved his mom. Maybe that was one good thing in his life right now. She supported him, she loved him. But, nothing was perfect. His mom was obviously sick with worry for him, sick with fear Jimin was going to try something again.

Three times. Three times Jimin had tried to kill himself, and his Mom only knew about one. The one she knew about her nearly killed her. He couldn’t do that to her again. But, living hurt more than dying. He remembered being little and trying to hold his breath for as long as he could.

He passed out more than once trying to do it, once even in the middle of class. His mom was petrified when she picked him up from school.

“Why would you do something like that?”

“I was tired of breathing.”

Jimin was more than tired of breathing, he was tired of living in the wrong body, tired of people not seeing him the way he should be seen.

The bus was waiting for him as he peeled open the silver poptart wrapping and bit into the cookie. He hoisted the backpack over his shoulder, giving his mom a little wave before heading out the door.

New town. New school. New life. And hopefully soon, a new body.

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