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Dropping in to say goodbye.

So ever since November of last year, I've been locked out of this account. I logged out and realized that it wouldn't let me log back in without using a confirmation code sent to my old phone number which I have not had since September. I was only able to use te mobile app but I completely hated everything about it and at this point, I had no motivation to go here to begin with.

Anyway, I know this is most likely going to fall on deaf ears but I'm just doing this for myself now. If anyone of my followers would like to continue seeing my content, it's better to just subscribe to my youtube channel or follow me on twitter if you (for any reason) need to get in touch with me. I'm more active there and honestly, it's a lot better for my mind since people actually talk to me there.

A big reason I'm leaving is because ever since I got locked out of tumblr, I realized that I never really truly connected with anyone here. I've made acquaintances but most, if not all of them only ever talked business with me. Every interaction I've had was either me trying to start a conversation that ends immediately or a reaction to content that I post. I received messages but guess what. Most of them are just anonymous messages and a lot of them are just hate messages. I tried lying to myself that hate messages are still messages and that it was still engagement with my audience. But that was all that ever came. Endless anonymous hate messages of people telling me how to do my job or that (INSERT VA HERE) is better than me. I'd only ever see a positive one in a sea of negatives when people think I'm close to killing myself. I was jealous of people who had a lot of friends. I was jealous of those VAs who were popular enough to have fans love them so much that they would come and attack me. I was mad at myself for not being able to fake positivity and just spouting out everything my mind wrongfully assumes. A lot of it resulted in pointing all the blame on to myself. Friends tried to help me understand that I'm going about it the wrong way and that I'm hurting them in the process but I didn't listen.

Eventually I did try to end it all. I failed. Thankfully due to my roommates at the time finding me and getting help. In the process, I lost a lot of my friends due to my behavior and even my roommates had to leave because they didn't want to live with the burden of having a suicidal roommate (we weren't close at all). Ever since then, I've been living alone but forced to go to therapy or be put in a psychiatric hospital.

A year later, I finished therapy and my therapists signed my clearance. I believe I've gotten a lot better because of it. Not 100%. I still get waves of depression from time to time but overall, leaving the toxic environment that is tumblr has improved my mental state.

So yeah, I don't know if I should delete thos account but I won't be coming back here again. And with that, goodbye everyone.

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Just saw the Japanese Spider-verse trailer and my ultra weeb instincts kicked in and I couldn't resist doing this.

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OPEN YOUR MOUTH!!!

Have some drunk rage! A little clip from Thanksgiving’s stream.

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Ignorance isn’t always bliss. Original Comic by Ben Hed https://www.instagram.com/pet_foolery/  CAST Pixie ⯈⯈⯈ Leafuchii https://www.youtube.com/user/leafeon121 Brutus ⯈⯈⯈ James Dijit https://www.youtube.com/JamesDijit MUSIC Daydreaming Harmonica ⯈⯈⯈ Non Non Biyori OST Are You Okay? ⯈⯈⯈ Non Non Biyori OST SUBSCRIBE ► https://bit.ly/2x7JlSA Twitter ► https://twitter.com/HapaxVA   E-mail ► jintrov@gmail.com

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I wanted to be part of this thing too.

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ok it’s been a long while, beside the fact I’ve remained with no good ideas different than what the others showed at the end of BATIM chapter 5 don’t ask me how this came up but I’m sure of very few things about this: Bendy here is Joey’s 30 years old son, he’s blind and suspected to be possessed by a demon (he eventually swing from very nervous and sweet boy to creepy fury)

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Ignorance isn’t always bliss. Original Comic by Ben Hed https://www.instagram.com/pet_foolery/  CAST Pixie ⯈⯈⯈ Leafuchii https://www.youtube.com/user/leafeon121 Brutus ⯈⯈⯈ James Dijit https://www.youtube.com/JamesDijit MUSIC Daydreaming Harmonica ⯈⯈⯈ Non Non Biyori OST Are You Okay? ⯈⯈⯈ Non Non Biyori OST SUBSCRIBE ► https://bit.ly/2x7JlSA Twitter ► https://twitter.com/HapaxVA   E-mail ► jintrov@gmail.com

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Ignorance isn’t always bliss. Original Comic by Ben Hed https://www.instagram.com/pet_foolery/  CAST Pixie ⯈⯈⯈ Leafuchii https://www.youtube.com/user/leafeon121 Brutus ⯈⯈⯈ James Dijit https://www.youtube.com/JamesDijit MUSIC Daydreaming Harmonica ⯈⯈⯈ Non Non Biyori OST Are You Okay? ⯈⯈⯈ Non Non Biyori OST SUBSCRIBE ► https://bit.ly/2x7JlSA Twitter ► https://twitter.com/HapaxVA   E-mail ► jintrov@gmail.com

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In honor of the release of BATIM Chapter 5, I put together a fan-made audio drama with the help of @hapaxva, Thomas Fears, and HyperVoiceActing.  Hope you enjoy.

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Amazing stuff right here!

The Dark Harvest Episode 1

Oooohh snap, it’s finally done. 

So as you may know, I’ve been working on this shit since the dawn of man. Took me a while to finish it because I’ve been working on college stuff and also I’ve been animating for Tsioque. Hell, I’m surprised I finished it at all this year. I didn’t quite make it in time for halloween, but that was my fault because the cartoon was already done but I refused to upload it because I keep seeing small mistakes here and there….oops.

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It’s ironic seeing some people who have been judged their whole lives by people who don’t know them are judging someone they don’t know especially without context.

I’m only going to say this once.

For the millionth time I’m seeing certain things regarding me popping up, first on twitter and now it’s found it’s way back into my tags here and tbh everytime it ticks me off more and more so I feel like tackling it ONE more time before letting it die and not saying anything about it. 

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WHAT A DAY!

Car needed a smog test so that the DMV would let me renew my registration. It fails because they found a bunch of issues. $140 JUST TO DIAGNOSE the issues. They waive the diagnosis fee if I choose to get it repaired there. They find out that some parts/sensors needed to be replaced, the repairs all cost a total of $2150. I’ve been having to go back and forth all day from places to the mechanic and they tell me that they need to keep it until tomorrow to get everything done. I go home and the light at the front door is burnt out. I replace the bulb and the glass cover just falls off due to stripped screws and hits me on the back of my head and then to the ground and breaks. Now some dude cock blocks me from getting the triple word score in scrabble using the most BM power move of all time.

fuck you November 2, 2018!

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A little help...?

So… I really hate having to write this post, but… turns out we’re completely out of money until mid November… that means that we p much don’t have money for food, and I’m dead sure mom didn’t pay one of the bills that expired on the 30th…

I’d really hate to ask this but this is going to be a long and rough winter season… but if anyone could considerate landing me a hand and donate even a few dollars, it would help out a lot.

I’ll force myself to finish the commissions and take new ones. I’ll organize commission streams for quick bust shots. I’ll try to find new ways to allow me to reopen Patreon if anyone is interested in that. I’ll try to see and find the most profitable website to set up a shop if anyone is interested in that.

I’ll… I’ll try. But I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I shouldn’t be saying this but… I’m scared of things getting worse than how they are…

If you feel like helping out, you can donate at my PayPal.Me link. You can keep out an eye on my commission page to see when the slots will open up again and their current status.

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A little early for Halloween but whatever. Semantics and all that. It’s halloween in quite a few places!

Original Comic by @Pet_Foolery from Instagram https://www.instagram.com/pet_foolery/ CAST Pixie ⯈⯈⯈ @leafuchii Brutus ⯈⯈⯈ Me MUSIC Nonbiri Seikatsu ⯈⯈⯈ Nichijou OST Intro Theme ⯈⯈⯈ Batman (TAS) OST Kore Wa Ochi Desu ⯈⯈⯈ Nichijou OST

SUBSCRIBE ► https://bit.ly/2x7JlSA Twitter ► https://twitter.com/HapaxVA E-mail ► jintrov@gmail.com

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A little early for Halloween but whatever. Semantics and all that. It’s halloween in quite a few places!

Original Comic by @Pet_Foolery from Instagram https://www.instagram.com/pet_foolery/ CAST Pixie ⯈⯈⯈ @leafuchii Brutus ⯈⯈⯈ Me MUSIC Nonbiri Seikatsu ⯈⯈⯈ Nichijou OST Intro Theme ⯈⯈⯈ Batman (TAS) OST Kore Wa Ochi Desu ⯈⯈⯈ Nichijou OST

SUBSCRIBE ► https://bit.ly/2x7JlSA Twitter ► https://twitter.com/HapaxVA E-mail ► jintrov@gmail.com

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A little early for Halloween but whatever. Semantics and all that. It’s halloween in quite a few places!

Original Comic by @Pet_Foolery from Instagram https://www.instagram.com/pet_foolery/ CAST Pixie ⯈⯈⯈ @leafuchii Brutus ⯈⯈⯈ Me MUSIC Nonbiri Seikatsu ⯈⯈⯈ Nichijou OST Intro Theme ⯈⯈⯈ Batman (TAS) OST Kore Wa Ochi Desu ⯈⯈⯈ Nichijou OST

SUBSCRIBE ► https://bit.ly/2x7JlSA Twitter ► https://twitter.com/HapaxVA E-mail ► jintrov@gmail.com

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The phrase "You catch more flies with honey" comes to mind.

OMG YOU’RE SO RIGHT! THIS SO MUCH!!!!!! I LOVE YOU~~~ BLESS!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN’T BREATHE HOLY HLAKSHKGHALSKGJADSFLKGJ

Did I do it right?