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Star of the morning, collapsed in the weeds.

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Darker dreams await beneath the former Lakeview Mall.

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been reading the Gormenghast books........so crazy. lots of scenes worth illustrating!

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Why so I feel so useless all the time?

Honestly.

What is it

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I’m at an insane cross roads. 

Basically. I have to apply for my spouse visa within the next 4 weeks. 

I’ve been collecting the documentation, we’d be fine if we applied .

but...

I don’t know if I want to. Don’t get me wrong, I love my partner, it’s more, I don’t love the UK. I’ve been here for almost 4 years already and although its been great for school, I don’t know if I can do another two years. I miss the states (and Canada more accurately). However, I’m trained for the London Theatre scene and I feel like that’s what I’ve been pouring my heart into for the past few years. Yet I also feel so weirdly happy when I think about walking away from it. I have no idea what to do. Do I tell my partner I’m not up for it? Moved to NYC and try to continue to persue my work, and then what? See if we can get a US visa in 2 years after he’s done training? ugh

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R and I Made our first punk song for JP and that felt amazing. Honestly, he’s a fucking G. I’m really glad he’s helping out more with the project. Today I emailed someone suer high up in the theatre scene and she told me she’d love to see our show holy shit. I don’t know when this will happen but I feel good about it. 

Do I know who I am yet? No. Is that okay for today? Yeah I think so. Do I wish I could figure out what I fucking want? Abso-fucking-lutely but for today I am a theatre-maker. Maybe tomorrow I won’t be. But I’m finding it nice to just give things a shot right now. 

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gonna start problems. oatmeal cookies are good

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Guess who’s back.

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by Sam Heimer

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Warming the cabin in the morning at Tets’ehxe (Drum Lake) in the Shúhtagot’ı̨nę Nę́nę́ (Mackenzie Mountains) of the Northwest Territories, Canada.

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Faux Pearl Crescent Drop Earrings

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by lisa_indever

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sometimes i just sit and think about ways a genie can grant wishes.

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