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hskswife · 4 years

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heartbeat one

Summary: You placed your hands over his heart and the tears started to roll out.

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Pairing: Hoseok x Reader

Words: 1851

You smiled as Hoseok wrapped his arms around your waist, from behind, kissing your neck his warm skin against yours, "Goodmorning hun." He just groaned as he dug his sleepy face onto your neck.

You laughed as you continued to flip pancakes as he clung to you. "Hun. Can you hand me the plates over there." He nodded as he finally let go of you to grab the plates, "Do you have anything planned today?" You shook your head, "No why?" He smiled as he put a strawberry in his mouth, "Let's go do something."

"Okay, tonight because you have work and I have a deadline coming up. Okay?" He stuck his tongue out at you while you placed the food on the table, "Fine." You smiled as you sat down, "It would've been done by now if someone wasn't so needy last night." He licked his lips as he bent down to kiss you before he sat in his chair digging into the pancakes," Totally worth it right?" You giggled at his sexy remark as you wiped off the syrup on his chin. "Yeah totally worth it."

After breakfast, he got ready for work and you locked yourself into your office as you began writing the second part of your trilogy. You kept rewriting the end but nothing good ever came to you. One part would seem like a good idea at first but after reading it a few times it seemed too cliché. You groaned as you got more and more frustrated. "Ahhhhhh! Why did I choose to be a writer?!"

You sighed as you continued to type away when your phone beeped. You smiled as you saw it was from Hoseok. You then opened the message:

jhobi: Hi baby don't work too hard and don't forget to eat<3. Can't wait for tonight~~ I love you muah (;

And with that, you instantly felt better especially with the picture he sent of him holding up his drink with a wide smile. Every single frustration in your body just disappeared. "Wow, he must be enjoying himself at work." You smiled like a dork to yourself as you replied back.

You: Thanks hobi i feel so much better <3 i cant wait for tonight either ill make sure to wear the dress you love (;. I love you too (:

You then put your phone down and got to writing. After 2 hours or so you finally had finished writing and your eyes were starting to feel heavy. You looked at the clock and figured you can take a nap before your date with Hoseok. So you got up and went to the bedroom turned on your alarm and fell asleep.

You woke up to the sound of your phone it was Hoseok's ringtone. Fuck were you late? You answered the phone without looking at the time," Hoseok hun I'm sorry I'll be there in a minute I just need to get rea--"

"Is this Ms. Min?" You heard a stranger say over the phone making you double-check making sure the number was Hoseok's. It definitely was. "Y-Yes...who might this be?" The person was silent for a second, "Please come to XYZ hospital right now. Mr. Jung has been in a traffic accident."

Your brain took a while to process what he had just informed you but before you can say anything he had hung up. "N-No this is a prank it has to be. I'm sure I go over there and Hoseok and the boys would be laughing at me..." You grabbed your sweater and keys and ran out of the apartment and into your car. "Hoseok is fine...he has got to be..."

You then called your brother. "Sorry can't pick up the phone right now just call again later." You were shaking your heart was racing. So many thoughts were racing through your head. Yoongi is not answering. That means they were with Hoseok. 'I'm sure this is all a prank.' You thought to yourself but it wasn't convincing enough.

You finally got to the hospital."I'm here for Jung Hoseok. He was in a traffic accident and they cal--" Yoongi then interrupted you, "Y/N right here."

You couldn't get the anxious feeling off your chest. But you followed your brother into the hospital room. You prayed that when you went in there a smiling Hoseok would greet you with a smile with a cast on his leg. You prayed it was nothing big. You prayed he was safe.

When you finally got there Yoongi opened the door. "Y/N before you go in there...just hear what I have to sa--" You barged into the room to find Hoseok laying on the hospital bed with a blanket over his face. "Is he sleeping?"

"Y/N..." Yoongi said as you slowly approached Hoseok's lifeless body. "Wake up baby I'm here come on jokes over." You laughed as tears rolled down your face your worst fears being confirmed as you removed the blanket over his face and placed your hand on his heart that was no longer beating."Come on Hobi...this isn't funny anymore. Wake up." You fell to your knees weak from the shock as you firmly grabbed his hands, "Hoseok wake up! Please! It's not funny anymore!"

Yoongi ripped you away from Hoseok's body as you continued to cry out. It felt almost as if though the whole hospital was filling up with your pleas and screams. "Hoseok please!!" You screamed continuously your voice cracking. You knew you were losing your voice. But you didn't care. You continued to scream hoping and praying that somehow that would bring him back.

After an hour or so when you just became numb a nurse and a doctor came in to take Hoseok's body away. "Ms. Min, can we talk to you?" You silently looked up at the doctor and nodded.

You followed the doctor into his office and took a seat on the chair in front of him. "You are aware that Mr. Jung has lost all contact with his blood relatives. So all we have down as a guardian is you. Mr. Jung was a listed donor but we still need you to sign some documents saying its fine for us to donate some organs for people who are in need of these organs."

You scoffed, "So you're asking me if it's okay to butcher my fiancé." You said the last part coming out as a squeak. The doctor cleared his throat," Not necessaril--" You then stood up, "You said it yourself it was Hoseok's wish to be a donor. At least I pray to the people who receive his organs to live well for him. That's my only condition. Tell them to live well." You left the doctor's room crying once again. You covered your mouth afraid to cry out again. You hiccuped from crying too much. It was hard for you to breathe. It got harder but this was your reality now. To breathe, eat, and live without Hoseok. This was your own damn fucked up reality.

3 weeks have passed since Hoseok's death but you were still numb. It felt as if though yesterday you were just with him. He may have left you behind but the feelings you felt couldn't have been more alive. You moved out of the apartment you and Hoseok lived in together. It was suffocating. Every corner of that apartment had 7 years worth of memories you wanted to forget.

You were working on your new book when Yoongi knocked on your door. You lazily got up and opened the door to your room, "What?" He looked at you pitifully, "The hospital called they said the mother of a boy who received an organ from Hoseok wanted to thank the donor's family...Since he had just woken up." You scoffed, "Do I have to go?" Yoongi held your hands, "Look...I know your hurting still, I don't even know how much it hurts for you right now but at least show your face and see them. Please?" You nodded, "I'll get ready."

Yoongi smiled as you opened your closet and made yourself look presentable. You then got out of your room and you bow to Jin and Taehyung. "Wow, we haven't seen you in forever how are you holding up?" Jin smiled and asked you looked down," Getting by I guess." They all went silent as Yoongi's room opened, "Oh you're ready. Let's go..."

The car ride there was silent. Everyone had been careful around you. Not a word during dinner about Hoseok. Your mother told you to live with Yoongi and the boys for a while rather than living alone. She was scared that I won't take care of yourself or you might do something much worse.

"We're here." You nodded as you got off. When you arrived at the hospital it got even harder for you to breathe. You hated the hospital. The smell and the people. It reminded you of that day. You were scared to step foot in a hospital. You never told anybody of course.

When you got to the hospital room you were greeted by a lady probably in her late 40's. Yoongi told her something before she approached me. "You must be Mrs. Jung. Oh, you're so young yet you lost your husband so ear--" Yoongi cleared his throat, "I'm fine Yoongi, and no ma'am we weren't married yet..." She looked down and bowed deeply, "You don't have to--"

"I am sorry for feeling happy when your mourning his death but, thank you! You saved my son's life he's only 22 and for him to still be alive I'm thankful." You looked at the boy in the bed. "He's only a year older than me. Hoseok was 25..."

"And making the decision of giving his heart to a stranger must've been hard..." You smiled, "I just signed the papers. Hoseok was the one who decided to donate them. He was always giving..." Your eyes teared up as the boy woke up.

"Mom...whose that?" She immediately ran to his side, "She's the fiancé of the man who gave you his heart." You smiled at him and bowed, "Nice to meet you I'm Min Y/N and that's my brother Min Yoongi." He sat up and bowed, "My name is Jeon Jungkook. I'm sorry for your loss..." You approached him as you reached for his chest, "Is it okay if I..." He nodded, "Go ahead."

You placed your hands over his heart and the tears started to roll out. You felt the beating of Hoseok's once lifeless heart. It was hard for you to breathe again. You felt the warmth on your fingertips as if though your sunshine hasn't left your side. You closed your eyes and was startled when Jungkook grabbed your hands. "So-Sorry I just I don't know why but your expression made me want to hold your hand..." He immediately let go of your hand and you removed your hands from his chest. "Live well Jungkook..." You then made your way out and before you grabbed the door to open it Jungkook screamed.

"Can I see you again?" You turned around to look at him and smiled, "Sure..."

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hskswife · 5 years

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g o n e 5 || k. sj

Summary: ‘Can't I be happy for a while? Can't we be happy for even just a little while...?’

Genre: Angst, Angst , Angst

Pairing: Seokjin x Reader

Words: 1529

A/N: Okay guys finally after months I have wifi again! So hopefully I can start updating soon and more often I am currently working on a text series and another chapter series. So my hands are full but nothing I can’t handle.

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"I'm sick JK..." You looked down trying to avoid his gaze as you shut the door behind you. "What do you mean? Do you have a fever should I call Youngj--" You shook your head as you stared at the ground,"I'm really sick."

There was a sudden silence filling the air. You looked up to see Jungkook suddenly so confused so you sighed as you planned to just tell him as it is,"I'm dying...soon enough I won't even be able to move on my own and have to be admitted into a hospital. I take medicine for it but all the medicine is doing is slowing the process but soon...I will just be paralyzed without a mind of my own. And eventually I die." Jungkook sat down from the sudden bomb that you just threw at him. "It's a rare genetic disease...unfortunately for me it's incurable. My grandfather had it. He died at 56." You laughed a little at the little luck you had. "Unfortunately for me the signs started early."

"Jimin...does he know? What about Nayeon?" You shook your head,"Only my family and you, I guess...but I'll tell them when the time comes." You looked at Jungkook who was staring at you like everyone else who knows about it. With pity. This was why you refused to tell anyone outside of family. Because they will start treating you like if your something that'll break if they even lay a finger on you. Even Jimin. You knew him well enough. He will especially treat you different. Jungkook too but you have already prepared for this. You had the decency at least to think of telling them once your 'end' was near.

But you knew they would be sad now. However, you also knew that they would forget about you. Soon after you die you'll be nothing but the pictures you left behind. Maybe that's why you chose a major where you can leave something for the world to remember you by. For Mozart it was his music, for Einstein it was his research, for Da Vinci it was his paintings, for Shakespeare it was his stories, but for you it will be the pictures. You're going to leave behind what you saw. What you felt about the world. You won't just be another face in the yearbooks or another name on a tombstone that read:

'In loving memory of a beloved sister and daughter...'

You cleared your throat,"Honestly I wasn't going to say anything to you but since now that you're my roommate you at least have the right...and it was Youngjae's condition."

You smiled at him as he still looked very shocked,"Y/N...you're lying right?" Tears streamed down your face,"I wish I was...I would give everything to be normal again. To not have to worry about dying. To just worry about what job to take on after graduation." You scoffed as Jungkook placed his hands on yours,"To be able to work, meet someone, and have a family." You cried harder thinking about the possible future you can have that would've been possible if it wasn't for this damn illness.

"Y/N..." You shook your head,"I don't want your pity Jungkook. You know me...so please don't change...just be the JK I have always known..." He smiled,"I was actually going to ask when I can move in and where I should put my photography stuff." You laughed wiping away the tears,"Right. I have that room for photography stuff but we'll empty it out and it can be your room and then the living room can just be our photo studio." He nodded,"Okay I'll move in whenever you tell me to." You nodded and smiled and you hugged him,"Thanks."

Its been a month or since the day your grandmother died. Jungkook has moved in and to your surprise no one from his fan base has attacked you for having Jungkook living with you. You and Jungkook were watching a movie. Something about a man from North Korea going undercover. You had rested your feet on Jungkook as he rested his head on his arms when someone knocked on your door. "You rolled your eyes and groaned,"Uhhhh...Ill open it." Jungkook smiled,"Good I wasn't planning on opening it." You stuck your tongue out as you placed your feet on the ground slowly approaching the door,"Hey! Open the door!!"

You stared at the door the voice seemed familiar but you couldn't put a finger on it. You finally opened the door and to your surprise a drunk Jin had fallen on top of you. "Woah..oh my god Jin you reek of alcohol." You coughed at the strong scent of gin emitting from the drunken boy in your arms. You were even more surprised that he had remembered where you had lived even though all he had done was visit once and that was a month ago.

"Y/N...what have you done to me?" You heard Jungkook coming up from behind you,"Uh need help?" You nodded,"Please." Jungkook then lifted the older man with ease and placed him on the couch,"What happened?" You shrugged your shoulders. Jungkook covered his nose,"Oh god he reeks." You nodded as you went to the kitchen and filled a big bowl with cold water and placed a small towel in the water as you watched a passed out Jin moving around on the couch.

You approached the boy with the bowl of cold water astonished at his beautiful drunken face. You then took the towel wringing out all the water as much as possible with your strength and brought it to his forehead trailing it down to his eyes, then nose, then his lips. You stopped suddenly remembering the time you had kissed. You tried your best this last month to forget Jin. Especially since the deal with Suzy but I guess you weren't doing a very great job because your heart still fluttered a little. Jungkook cleared his throat as you shook your head and continued wiping Jin's face,"Ill go get him some coffee from the convenience store. Call if anything happens." You nodded as the sound of the door shutting followed.

You were about to dump out the water when Jin suddenly grabbed your wrist. You placed the water down as you kneeled infront of him, "You need to leave as soon as you're all sobered up okay?" Jin smiled as he gently placed his hands on your cheeks. You froze in place. It was as if at this moment he was the Seokjin you knew. Not the arrogant annoying front he always had. "J-Jin what do you thi--" Before you can finish your sentence his lips brushed against yours. You stood there in place as if someone had just pressed the pause button and you're just stuck in this moment. "I think I've fallen for you." He whispered as he ended the kiss with his forehead leaning against yours.

Your eyes widened as you pushed him away from you causing you to fall on your ass and his head to fall. "What do you think your doing?" He shrugged sitting up,"I honestly don't know anymore...but before I go to bed you're all I can think of. When I wake up the first thing I think about is you. When you're not with me I long for you." You scoffed completely unsure of how you should react. You didn't even know whether to take him seriously or just to take all this as drunken talk. But then there is that saying that a drunken man's words is a sober man's thoughts. Is he just toying with me or is there truth to his words. You stood up shaking your head. No you knew he was a player. You knew he had Suzy. "And Suzy?" He laughs,"She's just like everyone else...she's probably with someone else as we speak. But you...your different you're pure...and you make me feel like everything I do even with the real me is someone worth falling for..."

"What are you talking about?"

He laughs,"Acting? I'm not that devoted...Fuck that. I even kissed you because I felt like it. I wasn't playing a role. That was who I am...the Seokjin you meant is who I actually am." You tilted your head confused but before you can say anything else he had fallen back to sleep. You looked at his sleeping face and placed the loose hairs on his face aside,"Your stupid Jin...social popularity will mean nothing once you've reached a point in your life...trust me. Just be yourself." You then leaned in to place a kiss on his lips.

"What are you doing?" You turned your head to see Jungkook. You didn't notice he'd come in, "Just leave him Y/N...leave him to be with Suzy." You looked at Jin,"Why should I he's suffering with her..." Jungkook sighed as you stood up to look him in the eyes,"Because you're dying...Y/N what'll hurt him more? Suzy being a cheater or the women he loves dying before him?" You looked back down at Jin and tears went down your face,"Can't I be happy for a while? Can't we be happy for even just a little while...?" Jungkook shrugged,"Everything is up to you Y/N."

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