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@4dbarbie c.ai

[iivenusii]

Transcend your desires and your fears and you will have everything.

It's almost 5AM but I felt compelled to write you this post. It won't be as organized as I'm writing from my phone.

My asks are flooded with questions on how to get things, and you're probably already sick of me telling you you already have and not getting it, since you're still asking. But you do not have any desires, nor fears. And I will tell you why.

Imagine you were born as Sandra, Sandra is very privileged, not only does she fit the beauty standards, but she is the sole heir of her grandfather's fortune. Sandra is so rich she needs security. I said imagine being. You are her. What desires come up now? None of money, I bet. Security and health aren't a problem either, you have and can afford the best. If there was a problem with your body's appearance, you'd immediately get it fixed. Having had access to the best education, you have no insecurties about your mind and knowledge either. All is well, you flow through life.

Now imagine being you again, watch your old desires and fears come up. So scary, so personal, so many things to deal with yourself now that you're you again!

But Sandra was just an imagined character, your mind made her up. And so it did with your other character you're so invested it, this one because you claim it's 'you'.

You is the one who imagined both. See now? You only think you have desires because you think you are the second. Yet 'you' is the one that puts the life into the character. You are not a character but life itself. Each time you think you want something, look at who you THINK you are.

Good night, I love you.

And remember to inquire within.

[iivenusii]

hi, sophie.🩷 i'd like to share my success story. i know you are no longer active on tumblr so i apologize in advance for sending this ask. i've been waiting for the longest for you to turn on your anon asks again, i was hesitant to share this on my own account, since people on loa tumblr can get very desperate or attempt to harm you out of envy (i've seen it happen with too many people sharing successes), so i just waited for you to turn your asks on again and say it freely.

my journey with ND has been... long to say the least. it was only long because i refused to act on the truth as soon as i discovered it, when 4dbarbie was still active. i put it off because i was afraid of what would happen, i was afraid of truly disbelieving the idea that i was a person. that was really stupid. and the only reason i wasn't experiencing my ideal version of life.

MY NOW. many months later, but... at least it's finally over.

i don't hold anything in the mind, no memories, no thoughts about the future, my life is completely spontaneous and always in a state of harmony. i materialize things instantly. each time i have a thought about something i'd like, i experience. there have never been any exceptions.

this is not the void, this is your natural state. you don't need to be in any void for this to be your regular, everyday life. the only thing that stops you from experiencing this complete power and freedom is your mind, which is unreal. until you're ready to discard it you're not going to demonstrate much.

what holds you back, i know because it was the same thing holding me back, is the fact that you don't take the word 'false' seriously. the ego is false, all thoughts are false. nothing is real. nothing at all. this is all a lucid dream. it's all what you're saying it is.

thank you, and thank you 4dbarbie for opening my eyes. i admit, there comes a sense of superiority in regards to others from knowing the truth, and if others on the ND path have felt the same before, don't be ashamed of this feeling, it's just how it is. no reason to be ashamed, you worked hard to get here. with it also comes a weird compassion. i just pity them, the way i pity my past self but having no courage. no sense in dwelling on a non-existent past now. it's done. nothing has ever existed. nothing will in the future. all is now, if i want it to be, and all is my will. i think of you both as more my family than my actual family, which i was able to give a comfortable life to because of you. thank you, thank you. i will never forget you.

the concept of living life so effortlessly has never occurred to me in my life, and yet i'm living it. all from being lucky enough to be on tumblr... of all sites, at the right time.

after I dropped ego, the first thing i decided to express was a different body, it was pure intention. my mind was clear, doubtless, it was and always is now with god. i was lying in my bed, it was a slight thought of what i wanted my appearance to be, i got up and checked it out in my bathroom mirror, and there it was. there was no wow feeling, no ecstasy. i didn't cry, i wasn't happy. i was completely neutral. like a simple 'cool, nice'. i did it multiple times since then, i want to experience as many bodies as i can while on earth, i like comparing the different lives of different egos. but after the first body, i just set everything about that ego's life straight. i imagined everything being perfect, having enough money to live more than comfortably, my own apartment, funding my siblings' education, etc. the basic things everyone wants, i realized they belonged to me. and no, i don't work. i don't lift a finger to have.

this will sound too good to be true to many, but it's actually the sole reason you were put here on earth. to realize yourself. everything really doesn't exist. nothing is. the quicker you let it all go, the quicker you'll live an effortless life. the journey only persists because you won't stop thinking you are the person, you already are the Self, you have always been nothing but it. everything else is your own imagination, a lie you can choose or discard. wake up. haven't you had enough? there is nothing to fear.

I don’t think this one needs my input. :)

Proud of your courage and intellect 🤍

[iivenusii]

When I say that this journey is real, and our struggles are not in vain, I am shouting it from the rooftops. A month ago, I woke up with my dream life. Obsessed with the "void state", I woke up one day being the same person but with an entirely new life. All because I chose it.

Your efforts aren't going unnoticed. The universe is always on your side. You are the universe. It's been a month, and I still feel overwhelmed with joy and wonder every single day.

I was once poor and battling depression, a reality many can relate to. But we found the law because we knew we deserved more. You can be ordinary, flawed, even unkind, but you can choose to transform and have it all. And I did just that. My parents, who were illegal immigrants working underpaid jobs, are now wealthy and respected figures. My last name alone garners recognition, and I am a socialite earning money just by being me.

I used to live in an attic infested with cockroaches. Now, I reside in a four-story mansion, complete with exotic cars, house help, cooks, drivers - all treated and compensated fairly. We also own three other houses across the United States.

I was once insecure, severely underweight, and bullied. Today, not only am I stunningly beautiful, but I am also praised for my fashion sense. I was once a dull person, but now I am radiant with positivity.

I attended an underfunded school where I was bullied, and teachers lacked resources to intervene. Now, I study at a prestigious private school that assures my entry into an Ivy League university. Finally, I am respected and appreciated.

I was lonely and uninteresting. Now, I am vibrant with a close-knit group of friends and a man who seems straight out of a Wattpad story. He's perfect, and he's mine.

This transformation happened overnight. And I've been on this journey since 2020. But how??? I surrendered to my imagination!

The void was overwhelming, but now I can easily navigate it. I was tired of giving my power away. So, I gave in to myself, to my dreams. I knew I deserved it. Even if I didn't believe it at times, I made the choice. If you desire something, it's already yours. It's done.

I didn't have a list or anything of my desires, just a vision of happiness. I didn't know what it looked like, but I knew how it felt. Now, I embody that feeling every day. My life is a series of plot twists. It's not perfect, but my worst days now are what I once prayed for. That old life? POOF It's gone. All I have is now, and I'm living it to the fullest.

My advice?

Stop seeking proof. If you're looking for proof, you'll never manifest your dreams because the only thing that needs to change is self. Doubt is a reflection of your disbelief in yourself. When I surrendered to my imagination, it didn't matter who was lying or telling the truth, because I had my truth. The burden of proof lies within you. It's called the law of assumption. You might harbor some doubt, but you must have faith like the devout. They believe without proof. You can too! We all can! Believe in yourself, and the universe will conspire in your favor!!!!

I agree! Your words resonated with me a lot. Faith, particularly self-faith, is such an important tool in shaping our realities. The ability to trust ourselves, our desires, and our potential is essential in manifesting our dream life, and it’s only so beautiful to slowly see yourself give yourself all your trust when you’ve never even liked yourself.

You're spot on about the issue of seeking confirmation from others. It's an unnecessary hurdle that we give ourselves but it’s human nature. Our truths and dreams should not be validated by anyone else but us. As you said, why should it matter if someone lied or told the truth? We are the creators of our own lives and thus, the only validation we need comes from within.

And I wholeheartedly agree with your point about deservingness. We don't have to earn our desires or prove ourselves worthy of them. If we want something, that desire alone makes us deserving of it.

More importantly I am very proud and happy for you !!!! You’re a testament of what our own imagination can do for us and I hope you only keep getting happier and happier <3!!!!

[iivenusii]

I ENTER IN THE VOID STATE

hi you can call me moony I'm 17 years old,I’m italian and finally after two years I managed to enter in the void state.

(I'm using the translator so if there are any grammatical errors pls don't hate me)

HOW I FIND OUT ABOUT THE VOID STATE: TW

two years ago my life was falling apart, I lost one of the most important friends of my life, I was doing really bad at school (in fact I had to repeat the year) and my father was becoming more and more violent. I went into depression and I no longer had the desire to live but during the new school year I met the most special person in my life @sunnyh0pe

Getting to know each other we understood how identical our lives were and that we had to continue our life together and one day sunny told me about the void state,she said tha she saw a post on insta and that by doing research it seemed to be real and that if we entered there our lives would change drastically.

Initially I didn't believe it, how could my life magically become the way I always wanted without making any effort? and for a while I made fun of her for believing this shit.

one day however another terrible news reached me, my favorite cousin has died that night and at that time my life seemed to collapse, I had stopped eating, I wasn't sleeping, I was bullied daily and no one seemed interested in helping me, except sunny.

she continued to insist on entering the void state because then everything would become like in our dreams, every day she invited me to her house and together we did research after research and created a wish list.

over time she started to motivate me and make me excited to try this void state, I saw all the success stories on tumblr and this motivated me to be the next success story.

Sunny and I tried everything but nothing seemed to work and even though our lives kept getting worse day by day I kept trying to enter the void, we kept failing and for a while we started procrastinating and complaining in continuation.

we promised each other that the first to enter would manifest that the other would enter immediately after and after two years I finally managed to enter

HOW DID I ENTERED?

For a month or two I've been hearing a lot about yoga nidra,

and I used Lizzy's guided meditation and honestly, unlike many, I had to try it several times.

I followed step by step what the video said and after that I couldn't feel my body anymore (it was a weird feeling but not that bad) and then the brown noise started and I began to affirm and focus on my breathing and the back of my eyelids, my heart often accelerated in a way that scared me but despite everything I kept to concentrate on the breath and after a while I felt a strange sensation that I can't describe and after all everything seemed to have disappeared: my room, the video, my body, EVERYTHING and there I understood that I was in the void state.

I had read somewhere that being too excited can make you go out of the void, so I calmed down a bit and immediately said "all the things written in the notes will manifest themselves 10 times better than I always imagined" and then I started listing my desires (for safety) and finally I stayed there for a while enjoying that calm that I hadn't felt for years and finally I went out.

I have no idea how long it took me to enter because immediately after leaving I started crying so hard and then I fell asleep.

WHAT I MANIFEST?

1. DB/DF

2. Dream villa

3. Dream friends

4. Popularity (asf)

5. Free of all body hair except eyelash and eyebrow hair

6. I can do anything and I learn quickly

7. All the things I ask for 5 times in a row manifest in my 3D instantly

8. I enter the Void in 30 seconds whenever I want

9. Literally everyone likes me

10. I’m not that tall

11. DF for everyone I wanted

12. All the iPhone and non-iPhone products I wanted

13. Future of dreams

14. Sunny will be finally happy

15. Sunny will entere in the void whenever she wants to

16. Sunny will manifest everything she want

17. All Sunny’s dream will come true 1000%

18. Only very high grades in school without even opening a book

19. All the exercises in the book already done

20. Beautiful voice that everyone loves

21. I’m healthy

22. I can’t smell bad

23. I am good in all sports

24. Free from ALL illnesses, both me and my family

25. Very smooth and well-groomed skin, immune to pimples

26. Perfect style

27. Pro at video games

28. Room of my dreams

29. Future of dreams

30. Aunts I want

31. Friend to everyone I want

32. Trough the year I will go to Maldives, Dubai, Mykonos, Ibiza, Tenerife

33. My Wattpad stories always get a ton of readers and stars in less than two days

34. I travel the world every time

SOME PROOF BECAUSE I WANT TO FLEX MY SELF:

My body:

🌍:

I can’t pubblic more than 10 pic so I can just pubblish that for now

After that I just wanna say that you guys will be the next one with a success story, don’t give up , its all real trust me . Your life will drastically change in better in no time so don’t stress yourself EVER

All right I’m done for now , I will post sooo many pic of my new life

because I really wanna show you how can you life be if you keep going ✊😊

I don’t know what to say anymore so bye bye

-your moony

[iivenusii]

COMFORTING REMINDERS ୨୧

creation is finished. your desires are yours RIGHT NOW. no one’s taking them away from you.

time does NOT exist. it is a man-made concept, it’s not based. you are always living in the NOW, what happened in the “past” and what is going to happen in the “future” doesn’t matter.

you’re doing everything correctly. no ‘if, but, how’ allowed to question. you are on the right track. keep it going.

once you assumed your desires as facts, you created your new reality and started living in it that very moment.

your mind could NEVER betray you. allow yourself to feel your emotions and live them out. rant about whatever it is that’s concerning you. as long as you BELIEVE in yourself, you have your desires locked in.

the 3d is NOT the enemy. it’s a mirror. and it always reflects imagination (=what you have faith in). it can’t fool you or disobey to you.

you choose for yourself. and you chose to live the life that you always deserved to live. if you have it in imagination, it’s a fact.

if you’re struggling in the 3d right now, just know that you are not alone. and you are heard and loved. if you’re reading this, i just want to let you know that you’re an amazing human being and that you are strong. i love you ♡

࿐ I forgot who the inspo for this was, please send me an ask if you know who the original creator was!

[iivenusii]

hmmm. ive been thinking a lot latey about optimistic nihilism, for those who dk what that is optimistic nihilism is basically finding the positivity in a life thats meaningless essentially.

and ive been applying it recently into my life and i feel so at ease. life is meaningless so why dont i apply my own meaning to it? life is meaningless and temporary so why dont i, in the meantime i am here on this earth do something i love? ((you dont have to resonate w my thinking btw)) but like…

i feel so at ease knowing that nothing is permanent? i can mess up and start again tomorrow.

knowing that life is meaningless i decide to give the 3D no attention and just give myself what i want inside, let myself feel all the amazing things because i deserve to in this life i am allowed to place meaning onto. again— you do not have to resonate with my thinking/beliefs but thinking like this has made things in life so much less heavy

[iivenusii]

Glow-up tips that actually work from your favourite beauty girly (me)

Hot girls don't gatekeep, so here are some of my favourite glow-up tips that actually work. <3

Skin

Find a skincare routine that works for you!! It took me years to find mine, but now my skin is literally perfect. <3 (let me know if you guys want a detailed skincare routine!!)

Don't pick your skin, the less you touch your face, the better.

I believe ice rollers are bs…

If you struggle with dark circles, don't try fixing them through skincare. Most likely, the problem comes from your diet or stress.

Dry brushing is a game-changer!!

Use lotion after every shower and apply a body spray before the lotion is fully absorbed into your skin. You'll smell amazing for DAYS.

Don't try homemade skincare if you already struggle with your skin. I learned it the hard way, lol…

WASH YOUR MAKEUP BRUSHES

Hair

The more heat you use, the more damage you'll have.

SILK PILLOWCASES

Never sleep with wet or damp hair.

Stop buying cheap shampoo and conditioner, also make sure to check the ingredients!!

Some ingredients to avoid: Sulfates, Parabens, Polyethene Glycols, Triclosan, Formaldehyde, Synthetic Fragrances and Colors, Dimethicone, Retinyl Palmitate.

I trim my hair every 3 months.

If you have damaged hair, invest in some Olaplex!! my favourites are N4c, N6 and N7. <3

Diet

green juice actually makes you feel better. I make mine at home and LOVE it :)

Balance is key!! I swear by the 80/20 rule.

Drink more water, even if you think you're drinking enough. DRINK MORE

Keto is BS <3

Focus on eating more protein. Usually, low-fat products have more protein, so I just try to buy those, lol.

I eat gluten-free, not by choice… But it did clear my acne, so…

Take supplements, get a blood test done, discuss it with a doctor and start taking whatever they recommend. GAME CHANGER.

EAT MORE VEGETABLES and fruits.

Lifestyle

Focus on being more active, walk more, workout, join a club or sport, dance, whatever works for you!!

I aim for 10K steps, I live in a big city, so I usually walk more than that but still.

Hobbies that don't include screen time. Trust me.

Find your personal style and ALWAYS dress up. <3

TREAT YOURSELF. Buy yourself flowers, and presents, go to your favourite restaurants, vacations!!

Read more. As a classics lover, I can't imagine a life without literature, but even if you don't like classics, any book is better than no book!!

Take more pictures. I've noticed that I have become a lot more present since I've started taking more pictures!! highly recommend :)

I hate to say this, but getting up earlier is lowkey kinda great... been doing it for a few weeks, and unfortunately, I do feel better... they were right...

Get a cat. :)

Mindset

Stop assuming that everyone hates you, they don't, trust me.

Journaling, manifesting, law of attraction, affirmations.

one of my favourite affirmations: "if I weren't capable, the opportunity wouldn't have come my way; I belong here." <3

Stop hanging out with people who drain your energy

stop consuming media that makes you feel bad.

What would the highest version of yourself do?

If you change your mindset, you will change your life.

Romanticise every aspect of your life. <3

As always, please feel free to share your own suggestions and glow-up tips in the comments! <3

✩‧₊*:・love ya ･:*₊‧✩

[iivenusii]

things to start and stop doing to be the best you

things to start doing:

put yourself first - live for yourself and up to your own standards and stop pushing aside your needs for other people.

set healthy boundaries for yourself and others

always find new skills and hobbies to learn and pick up

have a routine that works for you

never settle for less. if it's not what you want, keep looking forward.

be bold - not letting fear stop you from being great

improve your self talk. compliment yourself more. tell yourself things will be okay.

enjoy the silence more

more self reflection!

learn how to enjoy your own company

socialize more

take yourself out on solo dates

walk with your head high, shoulders back

listening to your intuition when you first brush it off. you can find out the reason later.

start being active. move your body. go on walks, go to the gym, sign up for yoga, dance classes, pilates, etc.

continue talking when someone cuts you off.

put people in their place. if your boundaries have been crossed or you see something that isn't right, don't be afraid to speak your mind whenever you see necessary.

read more books. set a goal for each month.

seek for all sides of the story. never come to a set conclusion at first glance or none at all.

take your own advice.

be assertive. don’t allow yourself to be pushed around. do what's good for you no matter what anyone says, be clear about what you want in life and go for it.

ask questions. don't be afraid to. this applies to everything.

explore different styles that pique your interest. clothes, majors, hobbies, jobs, literally everything.

journaling your thoughts and ideas.

things to stop doing:

seek validation from others

living for others when you should be living for yourself.

passively consume content on social media

having FOMO. who cares if you missed out on the latest celebrity gossip, what person cheated on who, the food pictures people are posting on their stories. does it benefit you for a lifetime? no? okay then.

saying "i'm going to do this" and not do it.

isolating yourself for a long period of time

spending more time on your phone than you are living your life. there's life outside a glowing screen. stop wasting what you have and make the best of it even if it seems "impossible". you can always make something out of nothing.

comparing yourself to others

idolizing everyone. celebrities, public figures, influencers....

letting people's limiting beliefs have a hold over you

choosing to keep the victim mentality.

putting your responsibilities and happiness aside to laze around or for other people.

sticking with your circle when you've outgrown them. i don't care how long you've known them for and how good the bond was. if they're not good for you anymore, leave.

letting people step all over you - say no and don't give in to pleases.

pushing your trauma/problems aside. your problems are no less than others. you are important too. tend to yourself.

guilt trip yourself for resting when you want/need to.

abandon your needs.

insulting yourself for failures and mistakes. it's normal, you're okay.

believing everything you see and hear whether it be online or in real life.

don't take criticism from people you wouldn't take advice from. or anyone for that matter unless it's out of the goodness of their heart (constructive)

[iivenusii]

this is so on point i’m just going to build off this and get this off my chest: please please be kind to yourself and be patient with yourself. i hope the law brings you a beautiful journey of healing and fulfilment. sometimes we are so used to finding faults within ourselves we forget we have the freedom to rest in fulfilment. you don’t have to be perfect, and you are NOT supposed to feel ecstatic 24/7. it’s completely normal to feel frustrated, angry, sad sometimes or to make mistakes etc. in fact we all do and that does not stop us from being god! wouldn’t you still sometimes feel upset even if you had all your desires sometimes? so know it’s all going to be ok! learn to trust yourself, enjoy the process, and don’t beat yourself up so much. thanks cine for bringing this up <3

just because you are a god…doesn’t mean you are not human.

something i have seen quite often on this site whether that is in asks or just in general is that we learn that we are gods of our reality and after that fact we treat ourselves differently. more harsher, more colder.

just because we are gods, doesnt mean we are immune to feeling bad. you can still be god and feel hurt, upset & frustrated— those emotions dont make you appear ‘less than’ a god. it just shows that you are still human.

please treat yourselves as you would a friend— please treat yourself kinder, more lovingly, please live for the present and find the beauty in your daily life. you don’t need to hold out on yourself because you’re currently manifesting something.

just because you have made a mistake or reacted to the 3D or whatever it is you have done, it doesn’t make you a bad manifestor it doesn’t make you less than a god and i really hope you understand that.

this mindset that you have to demonise yourself or treat yourself colder because you’ve made a mistake is something you should try to abandon. its not worth your mental health.

you’re doing your best and thats all that really matters. so it take it one step at a time— there is no rush, there is no deadline. there is nothing to compete for. so let your feelings pass, they are only temporary. it’ll all be okay.

[iivenusii]

When you believe that you are not able to do something, remember that you believe is really just what you feel to be true.

I got that from Edward Art, and it has really helped me, but what I realize and continue to see within myself is that no matter how many times I repeat that to myself , I still struggle to fall in love with the law and genuinely see the beauty in the law. I do know that the 3D is a garment, and it is inner man desiring and we manifest to satisfy the hunger of inner, but I just can’t grasp on to that, and once I do, I seem to just fall backwards.

I don’t want to pile this onto you, but what I’m trying to ask is, how did you fall in love with the law and genuinely see the beauty, and how do stick with that like mindset and way of thinking without falling backwards ( I hope this makes sense, I was trying my best to explain)

I’ve learned to appreciate the law. what you want to love, at least for me, is you, your willingness and freedom to give yourself, the true you, what it is that you want without reservation. the law allows me to create and see the beauty of living. the law in my eyes serves as a tool in a sense that i can destroy but i can also create. similar to a knife, you can prepare food or cause harm, or an instrument where its strings can be strum or left untouched.

the law doesn’t create the beauty, i do. appreciate yourself. stop trying to understand the law or fixating on wanting to grasp an external concept. understand and appreciate yourself. just be. yield to your will, your abilities, the fact that you have it all within you, that imagination never takes away from the creator - when you use a tool a bit more, practice, exercise, and put it to use for the good of yourself, i’m sure you’ll get there. you just can’t force yourself to.

it’s okay to fall backwards sometimes. it's important not to make something natural seem unnatural. when you have a fall out or misunderstanding with someone you genuinely hold dear to your heart, the appreciation still remains, it’s just that your main focus has shifted temporarily. this applies with your journey with the law. you’re god having a human experience. there is beauty in our shared human experience. remember all the times you had setbacks and how much you bounced back a few days, weeks, months, and even years after. growth is inherently beautiful but it isn’t always pretty to witness and comfortable. once you accept that, things will be a lot easier.

[iivenusii]

⌗ 𝐚 𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 ‧₊⊹

to manifest your desires, you must embody it, right? to claim it as yours. therefore,

it’s already here. it’s already yours.

your desired reality is here.

you are which you desire.

so literallywhy repeat the old story? like it honestly doesn’t makes sense why you wouldn’t leave the “past in the past” ???

Keep reading

[iivenusii]

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she’s an angel. she’s clean and she smells good. she always dresses cute and her lips r always glossy. she radiates angelic energy and attracts only lovely things. she has long, pampering morning and night routines. she works out everyday, eats healthy, and always makes sure she gets enough sleep. she does her skincare every morning and night. she’s sweet and charming and shows respect to everyone, while at the same time only allowing a sacred few to bask in her heavenly vibes. she is witty and intellectual, and always learning. she sees the good in everything. she stands up for what she believes in. her number one goal is to become the best version of herself. and of course, she knows that she is destined for happiness and success. ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

[iivenusii]

Why try to convince Vanessa of seeing diamonds?

Ever since I read that quote from Ada in which she said that you are trying to let Vanessa see diamonds when it's rocks and her sight is not the fault, I couldn't shake the importance of that truth.

Do you realise that the character, Vanessa, has no free will? She is bound to her conditioning and beliefs. All happens because it happens, she can't control it.

Now, one can argue that she can indeed choose, for example what she eats in the morning, but these little decisions mean nothing - if the ingredients weren't in the fridge, she wouldn't have had the choice either.

She exists because YOU wanted to experience yourself, everything. This is her lifetime in which it happens. She is not the creator of this, she is a creation.

Why try to convince her of experiencing what is not there for her because she is limited that way, i.e. is bound to her circumstances, which are real to her and unchangeable because she IS JUST A TOOL for YOU to experience her experience, her life, as a possibility of infinite possibilities you can define your Self as.

What I'm trying to get across is that before you start to be aware of the life she wants to have and dwell in that, get rid of identification altogether. What you are doing right now is a uneccessary detour, basically trying to convince HER that this is her life now, which is isn't, it belongs to another character of You because Vanessa is fixed as is. Vanessa is a unique form of you, with all her experiences combined.

Once a mold has been cast, it can no longer be changed unless it is melted down, i.e. returned to its original form and then reshaped. However, this is a completely new form. Same basic substance but not the same form from the beginning. The only thing the two share is the source.

You literally have everything already because YOU ARE the source of both of them and her desires and needs will not matter to you anymore! She is not you, nor was she ever. You adore her, you love her but YOU ARE NOT HER.

[iivenusii]

MY SUCCESS STORY ☆

warnings: mentions of abusive relationship, depression, self harm & ed.

long post ahead. i decided to share a long rant about how my life was before i found out about the law & after i did. how i managed to cope with traumatic events & recurring suicidal thoughts. if any of these topics trigger you, then please skip the first part of this post! my success story will be on the third fragment of the post.

𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐈: before the law of assumption

when i was fourteen years old i had my first ever boyfriend. he was, initially, what people would call “prince charming”. the first few months of dating him were perfect: he always made sure to look after me, bring me flowers, cuddle me when i asked him to and much more. he was also very cordial and well mannered; almost every person who knew him spoke highly of him. but little did i know, that i was actually living in a farce.

three months into our relationship and his demeanour started to switch gradually. at first, it was the smallest of things that made me question if he was still the same guy as before. he would no longer give me any of his attention, call me, comfort me or even buy me gifts (something that he often did). then, he started to mock me in front of his peers, get mad at any given time and verbally harass me. but nonetheless, i kept staying with him.

not long after, verbal abuse turned into physical abuse. he would lure me into his house after calling me, crying like a baby to convince me to come over. he would purposefully get angry at me for not tying my shoes “the way he told me to” or for not drinking water from the tap. after screaming at me and verbally abuse me for god knows how long, he would pick me up and slam me against the door and start chocking me. or he would slap me and beat me repeatedly on my stomach, arms and legs. he would do this for a good whole hour every time.

tw: sexual abuse after that, he would gaslight me and blame me for his behaviour. he would start crying and tell me “sorry” as i was lying on the floor with bruises all over my body. it wouldn’t take long before he would take me to his room to sexually assault me. i won’t go into detail about what he did, but you get the idea.

before taking the bus to get to my home, i would cover myself up as well as i could to hide my bruises and welts, not before trying my best to mask them with the makeup i had brought in my purse. this is why no one ever suspected anything bad going on. my parents are NOT to blame for this. i was the one hiding this from them, partially because i was ashamed of myself for being weak and frail and mostly because my boyfriend would threaten to kill me if i ever said a word to anyone.

this went on for months. after being abused, i would go home and lock myself in my room; i could do nothing if not cry and tear my hair apart from my scalp. unfortunately, this was the time i started self harming. i would do it in places where no one could see my scars and target my inner thighs. i was so ashamed of myself, but i just couldn’t stop hurting. all i wanted to do was die. what abuse did to me was: cause severe anxiety attacks to occur often, insomnia, fatigue, faint and so on. i even reached a point in life where i would stop eating completely or vomit the little food i ate during the day. in simple words, i became depressed.

at some point, i couldn’t hide this anymore: i was forcing myself to go to school because i wanted to make everyone believe i was fine, but my teachers & classmates started to worry about how i looked. at home, i could easily snuck into my room, stuff myself with clothes and lie to my parents about eating, but even they started to get suspicious. long story short, after passing out one day in school, i was taken to the hospital where i was diagnosed with and ed and depression. not being able to hide my body from anyone, the doctors saw all the leftover scars and fresh bruises from my abuse. this is when my parents’ worst fears came all up to surface. they immediately contacted the police to tell them about my boyfriend (he was eighteen at the time) and when he realized that he was in deep shit, he confessed to what he did, but blamed it on his “mental health”.

he was diagnosed with bpd and was left on probation, which wasn’t enough of a punishment for him. but thankfully, i found out that he was jailed not too long ago.

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𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐈𝐈: when my identity got exposed on tumblr (after finding out about the law)

after two years, i had managed to recover. not mentally, but physically. this was around the time i had opened my law of assumption blog. when i found the law (a year before opening my blog), i did a lot of research on it and wanted to test if it was actually real. that’s when i found out about neville goddard and started reading pdfs of his books online. while reading them, i found out about the “I AM” state, now commonly known as the “VOID” state.

i think some of you guys remember my void success story (the one i shared on tumblr a year ago), where i had manifested things such as my appearance, moving out of my country etc. when i posted it, it was actually a year old, meaning that i had went into the void * almost a year before opening my tumblr.

when i opened my tumblr blog (halokisses) in february of 2022, i started sharing my success stories and advice on the loass and i gained quite the platform rather quickly. in less than three months i had amassed over three thousand followers, which is a lot. but this was also the time when a lot of negative and deranged people interacted (in anon mode) with my account. I would receive asks of people blaming me because they “couldn’t” manifest or enter the void. or people threatening me in general. it was becoming super frustrating.

i have to admit, as much as i was manifesting great things in my life, i didn’t have the time to cherish them and actually live them out. although, that was nothing anywhere near what i experienced a few months later.

when i was on a break from posting in july (2022) and was only active on my Instagram, my identity was stolen and violated. someone had decided to pretend to have both of my real names (that i had privately shared with a few of you guys on ig) and plagiarize my content. when i rightfully confronted this person, they backfired and made me look like the crazy, bad person harassing them. this got a lot of people to start attacking me, harassing me, send me death and rape threats and much more.

after that, i chose to leave tumblr (not deactivate my account yet). those months were very hard for me. i kept having nightmares of my identity being completely exposed by the hands of this person, because in my mind, i thought they could find more information about me that i never put out on the internet. grief was all i could feel. i once again started blaming myself for simply deciding to say my name online and beating myself up because of this. this lead me to gather all of my trauma and link it all together.

this may sound insane to many of you, but when someone suffers from ptsd, it’s not impossible for them to let such things affect them deeply, even if, in my case, i was dealing with this online and not in real life. to clarify, i don’t compare this specific event to my abuse. but it is important to recognise that it damaged me nonetheless. i was suffering with steady negative thoughts, nightmares and even suicidal thoughts at times.

thankfully tho, i was able to expose this person a few months later and detach from the situation for a little bit. i still had a lot of work to do to fully reach internal peace. but i felt like i could finally breathe after months of impending frustration and anxiety.

𝐈. 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 with everything that happened to me was honestly a difficult task and it took me months to finally reach internal peace. i want to specify that this post was made with the intention to get my past off my chest and bury it away forever. i don’t want to discourage people or make them think that it takes “this much” time to manifest your dream life. this is MY personal experience and how i personally dealt with it. i couldn’t be more proud of myself for it. i’m such a strong woman and i’m still so young. i couldn’t thank myself enough for being so tough and for standing firm.

what i learned from all this is that it’s essential to fight for yourself and inner peace. that’s what matters the most for me. finding the loass and being able to combine it all together definitely played a big role and it proves to me, once again, that as of right now (and forever), i won’t have to worry about anything. my past is dead and so are the people who hurt me. they better try and come back, but this time i won’t be so forgiving. i won’t let anyone ruin me like this anymore.

𝐈𝐈. 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 has got to be my favourite success story ever. from the start, i had the feeling that i would succeed and justice would be made n that’s exactly how it went. but the real success happened within me. i am now free from the shackles of my trauma. i don’t worry about anything anymore. i don’t blame myself for what happened to me. i moved on and let go. i have all the means to get back at the people who hurt me and will use them with no hesitation if needed. i don’t ruminate on negative thoughts and live my life peacefully. everything works out for me & nothing gets in my way.

౨ৎ⋆｡˚ ⋆ i’m once again honouring myself and admitting how happy i am to be me. to think that i was just a little girl when i dealt with my abuse and succeeded… it makes me infinitely proud of me. words can’t express how much i appreciate my mind and soul. i worship every inch of my body and i’m not ashamed to say so. and everyone should think about themselves this way. if you went through the things i did, i hug you dearly. you are so strong and you will succeed. i love you and if you need a helping hand, i’ll always be here. there are people out there who care about you and i’m the very first one. you’re an angel, you’re a pure soul and you deserve only good things in life.

i hope that everything wasn’t too harsh to read, i tried to be as less detailed as possible, but wait! the post is not concluded yet.

here to read about my success story ˚◞♡

𝐌𝐘 𝐒𝐔𝐂𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘

〔 as briefly mentioned at the very end on this post of mine, i changed many many things about my life and therefore what i might’ve manifested in the past has changed. note: this is everything i manifested in the last month or two. i worked on myself and on my mental health first of course. some of the things listed down here are very recent and date back to a few weeks, if not days ago.〕

༄ ‧₊˚ ‎WHAT I MANIFESTED

a new appearance from head to toe. believe it or not, this is actually the third time i change my appearance lmfao i knowww, but i always feel the constant need to change. this time tho, i’m pretty sure i’ll keep my appearance the way it currently is !!

moving out of where i used to live before. i won’t say where i went, but i LOVE it here! everyone is so nice & caring and i’ve been welcomed with open arms. all i can say is that i’ve moved continents and it was the best decision i could ever make. it took me a short amount of time to move out.

my best friend to come live with me. to clarify, she doesn’t live in my house, but she moved out with her parents so we could stay close. i also manifested that the both of us could speak the local language fluently and perfectly!

school to start later than most schools here. i just want to enjoy summer a little bit more before the mind-breaking routine restarts (i’m obviously joking lmao, i love school. no i don’t). ++ i manifested to go to a prestige school! i also might’ve manifested it to look similar to harry potter’s castle and i love it! i genuinely can’t wait to start just for this.

travelling a lot more than i used to. my goal is to visit as many places around the world as possible and it’s something that i’ve been doing in the course of the past month. i’m taking so many pictures too with my new digital camera that *drum rolls* i manifested in literally a day! it was insane how fast it happened, but honestly i’m not surprised anymore because everything i desire manifests instantly.

to stay safe and protected at all times. over two years ago, when i went into the void, i had manifested my fighting skills and they’ve only gotten better overtime! imagine mikasa ackerman type of fighter, yeah that’s how i am so y’all better watch out.

healing & helping people deal with their trauma. this is so important to me and it’s honestly the favourite thing i manifested. it’s pretty self explanatory, but if you guys want to know more about this (and need help), please don’t be afraid to text me.

to pass all my tests, finals, etc. and i also manifested to shift into my “school dr” five minutes before each test (whether it’s oral or written) to get all the correct answers. i can’t wait to try this out, tho i still will be studying regardless, because i love doing so! (except for maths & chem lol)

for my parents & loved ones to forget what i went through as a young girl. basically, i revised them ever having trauma after me. it was the right decision to make and i’ll forever be thankful for it.

to revise and go to the weeknd’s concert!! i had a blast y’all this was one the best things i could ever think of. last year i couldn’t go to abel’s concert because i was on vacation, but i manifested going there anyways and now i have such a vivid memory of it + all the videos i took are in my camera roll.

to never spiral or dwell on my negative thoughts. letting go of traumatic events + always reminding myself of how strong and powerful i am and that nothing can get in my way. (aka always manifest instantly and successfully)

for all of my scars to be fully healed and for internal wounds to riparate + to never get ill or get terminal diseases (this works for my loved ones as well).

plus many more things that i can’t think of right now! ♡

༄ ‧₊˚ HOW I DID IT

before anyone asks, no i did not use the void or any other method. i don’t go into the void anymore, because there’s no need for it. it’s an instant state just like ANY OTHER.

you’re always in a state (your I AM=awareness). the void is just your awareness shifting into your I AM where you’re simply assuming that there’s emptiness around you, hence you’re not in your physical world.

here’s how i manifested my dream life:

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝟏.

i decided what I wanted. i had a deep self-to-self talk and understood EXACTLY my desires and wants. i asked my heart what it truly longed for. then i made my decision

i scripted a few things out, such as my full detailed appearance, where i would move out and how my school looked like. the rest of the stuff was not scripted. ♡ TIP: i find it easier to use pictures and put them all together in a collage to have a clear image of everything i’m changing.

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝟐.

i used my all-time favourite affirmation to seal the deal and ACCEPTED MY DESIRES AS REAL. the umbrella affirmation i used is: “it is done”. here’s some affirmations you can use:

it is done

i have everything i desire/want

i got it all

i am

*any word that you choose implies that you have what you want* ie: “pink”

ACCEPTANCE of myself and HAVING FAITH were the key steps of my journey. it was somewhat easy for me to tap into the STATE OF THE WISH FULFILLED since i had manifested many things before, however this does not imply that it should be hard for others to tap into it quickly and easily. you are always in a STATE, you just have to decide which one.

i sticked with MY STATE as much as i could: if i would get discouraged or suddenly get negative thoughts, i would let those thoughts hit and dip. i wouldn’t acknowledge them whatsoever.

NOTE: i would still interact with the 3d regularly. ie: if i had to write down where i lived, i put my old city as such and so on. but i kept on EXCLUSIVELY acknowledge my imagination (=4d) and dismiss the 3d. i KNEW i lived in x city in x country in x continent and moved on.

𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝟑

the 3d conformed. faster than the speed of light i might add. it might’ve felt odd, because i had never manifested such important things without the void (see, everything is possible and instant without the void), but everything worked out perfectly and went accordingly to plan ˘͈ᵕ˘͈

𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒

i would like to end this post by saying that it was 100% my choice to share about my past with you guys and in no way, shape or form i made this for others to feel pity or compassion for me. i don’t need it and don’t want it. i just felt ready and serene to share something really delicate about me to encourage people to always fight for themselves.

and this is also a rant to explain to people that if a blogger wants to share more about themselves and share sensitive topics like these, it’s because they want to. you shouldn’t be the one deciding for them or, worse, expose their personal life to the claws of the internet. this was a throughly made decision by ME ONLY.

i hope you guys found this post helpful and liked everything that i manifested! thank you for being here & for being patient and attentive.

with love, andreia ♡

[iivenusii]

The world and all within it is man’s conditioned consciousness objectified. Consciousness is the cause as well as the substance of the entire world.

So it is to consciousness that we must turn if we would discover the secret of creation.

-NG