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“how’d you get so big?” words bounce up and 

down like the six-year old two steps away

and shy, wishing she didn’t voice every curiosity

wishing she could be okay not knowing

i stare down

eyes at six-feet and hairline farther and knowing

that she must think me a tower, a colossus 

impressive or terrifying

maybe both

my mouth opens, lips stuck together

i do not know how to tell her the 

how-to guide

how i wished myself big when his hands

closed in, how hard i prayed to be 

large enough to never be fucked with

that cowering and small i stretched my arms 

until aching thinking that i could become

tree or sky or far away from here

so i tell her, “eat your vegetables.” she 

takes this in for a moment, nodding as if 

she understands like a song she knows by heart

i tell her to open her palm real wide

until her muscles ache a little

and i call her bigger while she is still so small

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You gotta date someone u can have fun at a grocery store with

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ive literally never felt this way ab anyone before its some scary ass shit man

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i am not a saint in love

never broken in two to make a whole

a selfish lover, always holding myself 

together by holding you close

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Hace unos dias vi una serie de gifs de Marie Kondo explicando que a la hora de ordenar nuestra ropa debemos elegir la que nos produce felicidad, y para no sentirnos mal por la ropa que queremos botar, agradecer el tiempo que estuvo esa prenda estuvo con nosotros y dejarla ir..

Esto me llamo la atención y luego en Netflix descubri que habia una serie de ella, donde va a casas de personas y las ayuda a organizar. Me gusto su método y quise compartir algunos de sus consejos con ustedes. Quien sabe. Siempre se aprende algo 😉

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Water Lilies 1915 

Claude Monet

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Look what I found.

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me: i’m not sure about this outfit friend: you look fine let’s just go!! me:

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i am not a river anymore

haven’t been running