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my father acted like an ass almost the entire time he was with us that i don't even want him around. now that he's d3ad, my brain conveniently has this audacity to be like "omg we miss him 😔😭😩" like, gurl??? pick a side

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:(

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as a young adult na may work, ang masasabi q lang ay #felt

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GUSTO KO NG ADDITIONAL FRIENDS

rant from someone na hindi na friendly, hindi pa friendly looking. (kasi only child. charot.)

idk how tho, lol

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help, i guess? xd

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- about today -

6 yrs ago, nung nagretire si daddy from working sa government— binigyan niya ko ng 500 pesos tapos pinupush niya ko mag start ng savings account sa BDO. (akala niya enough na yun para mag open ng acc that time xd)

pagpunta ko sa bangko, issa prank 😀 2k na pala maintaining balance hahahaha

may savings account naman sila tag-isa ni mama, at bilang highschool palang ako that time— wala akong paki pa sa ipon so kebs lang ako, at hindi ko na pinush na makaopen ng personal savings acc.

fast forward today— may sarili na kong work, and i actually care na ngayon about savings.

for the longest time di ako makapagdecide saang bank ko gusto magstart ng ipon kasi anxious akong imaximize yung pera ko, and i was stuck between online and traditional banking. BDO is not also my only choice kung traditional bank. BPI and payroll ko, so prio ko siya for easier money transfer. i was also seeking advice from multiple kakilalas na iba-ibang enticing benefits ang sinasabi sa kanya-kanya nilang banks.

after 5 attempts mag gather ng OA nilang requirements, at 2x na kain ng 300 pesos sa account ko— tinigil ko na pangarap kong mag-ipon sa BPI, LOL.

nagdecide ako magtry sa BDO kaya lang nung unang punta namin, kulang din requirements ko.

and then ito na nga.

today...

i was able to finally open a savings account 🥳🎉

sa BDO! (dun din pala ending lol)

yung 2k na gamit ko pang open ng account, and mga ihuhulog ko pa eh manggagaling sa pension na makukuha namin dahil sa retirement pa rin ni daddy.

patay na si daddy, and sadly hindi niya na alam tong natuloy na akong magkaron ng savings account sa wakas, at sa BDO pa nga like he originally intended. hahahaha.

coincidentally, birth date niya ngayon. (:

first birth date since namatay siya november last year.

napa tmblr talaga ako kasi what r the odds debah.

natuloy yung plan niyang makapag open ako ng savings acc sa BDO using his money, and talagang january 13 pa. nakakasenti ng very light tuloy habang nagfifill out ako ng date sa forms ng bangko. :)

shout out sa daddy ko! you really are (still) a provider, and that's one thing na i'll always be proud about you. thank you for making me experience living comfortably, and for making me feel financially secured about my future.

starting to miss you day by day even though i thought i wouldn't.

thank you, dy.

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not feeling your feelings will not make it gone. it will make it come out in uglier ways.

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Core memory

2006-ish every new year hilig namin ni daddy manuod ng fireworks [ng mga katabing subdi lol] na tanaw sa sekamflor namin sa terrace. it's one of the few times in a year na sure na hindi siya magsusungit so bati kami. (lalo yung something na red na firework (?) keme na matagal bago pumutok tapos lagi namin inaabangan)

years passed, hindi na namin nagagawa lalo nung lumipat kami ng bahay na wala nang 2nd floor. i didn't mind. narealize ko kaya siguro wala lang sakin kasi andyan lang naman siya, and pwede namin ulitin kapag maisipan. hits diff now na first new year na patay na siya.

nakakamiss ka din pala, dy kahit di tayo close hehe

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If reincarnation is real and I have the chance to be reborn— I wish to live again with at least 2 siblings.

You don't know what drama or happiness life will bring you. I think it's best if you have someone to share it with first hand lol

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may ganitong moments ata talaga sa buhay, yung imbis itulog mo nalang eh dinogshow ka pa ni lord

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yayaman kaya ako to the point na no need na magtrabaho pero i'd still live comfortably sa buhay kong ito? press 1

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nasa stage ako ng life ko na i'm not even a little bit curious sa unsent messages and i luv et

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gloomy day for pat (:

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kinakantahan ako ni daddy happy birthday haha my heart :------)

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i had a nice day 🤍

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ba't ganun?

tangina lungssss. since nagstart akong maging alipin ng salapi sa current company ko, may particular position na kong tinatarget.

ang powerful kasi nila sa department namin. lahat ng process dumadaan sakanila tapos kagalang-galang sila tignan. HAHA.

tapos ako non— first job, naghahandle ng pinakabasic na process, contractual pa.

napapaisip nalang ako nun eh,

'when kaya?'

di ko pa nga alam non kung mareregular ako.

tapos wala lang,

akalain mo—

bukas,

as in, BUKAS.

yung position ko ko :)

ganun na.

saya diba

diba???

sana

kaso tangina

sa batch namin ako lang naretain.

yung iba mapupunta sa department na below ng current department namin.

lahat sila malungkot.

ako rin nalulungkot para sakanila kasi duhh

kaso di ko tuloy mafeel matuwa para sa sarili ko

parang may swerte na tapos minalas pa rin

ba't ganun?

nakakahays.

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naaawa ako sa tatay ko, pero at the same time i don't know how to deal with him. lord kunin mo nalang chos