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Summary: It was an afternoon spent with your circle of friends. From bowling to stuffing your faces in your favorite barbecue place. With a lot of deep talks, insecurities, and truths unfolding involved, Jinyoung, the guy you thought was your best friend, put all your pieces back together. He wasn't just a best friend after all.

Characters: Park Jinyoung x reader x Mark Tuan ft. Got7

Genre: fluff / romance

A/N: Hello, welcome to my first imagine :> Hope you like it.

Word Count: 1,914 words

Bowling is one of the activities you and your friends enjoy. But no matter how many times you go, you still couldn't get the hang of it and it frustrates you everytime and wears your energy out.

"Aren't we going to eat?" You whined as you were about to leave the bowling place. "Calm those monsters down, (Y/N)." Mark chuckled. Your..

You do not know how to explain your relationship with Mark. You're sure that you aren't just friends. It's different than the rest.

There were a lot of teasing from your friends as to how you guys really suit each other and how much you like each other without admitting, even forcing the two of you to confess.

"Barbecue night, it is!" Jackson exclaimed as they all went to their own cars. There were ten of you so two cars were enough for transportation.

JB, Youngjae, Bambam, Yugyeom were at Jackson's car. I'm at Mark's car with Hannah, Mina, and Jinyoung.

Mark went straight to his car and had the engine started. You were about to proceed to the passenger's seat but Hannah beat you to it unconsciously. You felt a pang of jealousy as to how it seemed like the seat belonged to her. Like she was entitled and so used to seating there.

Mina went inside the car without saying anything. You were left with Jinyoung standing there. You felt his hands on yours as he lead you towards the car.

"Hey, I brought my car. (Y/N) and I will use that. We'll see you there." You realized that Jinyoung came when you were halfway through your game which explains why he brought his car with him.

You and Mark know each other very well but not enough to understand one's complexity. Unlike Jinyoung. Jinyoung knows and understands everything. He is your best friend among all nine.

You two were silent for the first few minutes of the ride. The barbecue place isn't really far but Jinyoung is driving extra slow today and is taking all the longest possible routes. You knew he wanted to talk. The way his fingers play with the steering wheel, sometimes playing with his lips.

You were about to break the silence when he spoke, "What is your relationship with Mark? Really, I'm so confused."

"We're friends, Jinyoung."

"Don't you even get me started with that." He shut you up immediately.

"(Y/N), we all know what's going on between you and Mark and Hannah. And if everyone is oblivious about the tension, then I am not. I know you too well."

It was last week Tuesday when Hannah, Jinyoung, and Jackson came over your house and had a few drinks, played a few games, truth or dare. If there's alcohol involved, a lot is exposed.

Of course you were all curious when it comes to each other's relationships. And Hannah is probably one of the most mysterious one. And you just happen to ask her the most recent guy she had a fling with.

"That night at your house. Do you remember how Hannah confessed that she and Mark had a thing? And how she kept her feelings because you started telling things about you and Mark?"

You flinched.

"Then a few days after when we were complete and were at their resort. Do you remember drinking too much that you asked questions about what she feels about Mark and tried to pick a fight with her when he was literally sitting in between? How you became so mad when we stopped playing spin the bottle and asking you to sleep? How you were begging us to play one more round because you had a lot of questions to ask and things to say? How you cried after that?"

By this time, Jinyoung had stopped driving and parked the car.

"(Y/N), I couldn't forget how you started sobbing when Hannah hugged you. How you pushed her and kept on telling her to stay away. How desperate you sounded calling me and asking me to keep her away from you. I couldn't forget the pain on her face. Even if you were drunk she knew there was a reason. She knew the reason. And even if you kept on saying there was no reason why you were crying, I knew it was because of that. Your cries were too painful to hear and to believe that there is no reason behind that."

Your hands were gripping on your dress so hard your knuckles turned white.

Everything from that day flashed into your mind. When you woke up in the middle of the night but can't see anything, couldn't even get a grasp of your phone or any phone to give you light. But you knew Hannah and Mark weren't in the bed when all of you could fit since three beds were next to each other.

The next morning instead you find both of them on the sofa. Lying close to each other given the small space they have. And you tried to act unaffected all through out the day.

"How can I forget how painful those two days were for you? And now you expect me to not notice everything? How you two try to act like everything's fine especially around Mark? Mark who does not know a single fucking thing."

"Jinyoung, stop." Your voice came out so weak that you even surprised yourself. Tears were pouring out endlessly.

He immediately pulled you into a tight hug and kissed your temple. "(Y/N).."

He wants to say something. But all that came out from his mouth after your name was a sigh.

Everyone was settled and had already started eating when the two of you arrived. "Hey, what took you so long?" Mark greeted you with a smile and patted the empty seat next to him. You were hesitant but you didn't want him to think that something's wrong.

Jinyoung was on your other side, acting like nothing happened and conversed with the others. "Oh, we had some things to drop off."

"I haven't eaten anything yet, I was waiting for you."

Even with laughters and a lot of silliness, you couldn't help but drown on your thoughts and be awfully quiet. Mark, being the good guy he is, noticed this and decided to ask you about it while the bill is being settled.

"Are you not feeling well today, (Y/N)?" He has his arm on your shoulders and used the other to check your temperature.

"No, no, I'm fine. Just a little bit tired, I guess."

"They're going up the roof deck after this. Do you want me to drive you home?" Jinyoung is watching the two of you and he gave you a small nod, signalling you to let Mark take you home.

"Is it okay?" Your voice is really unsure and fragile tonight. "Yeah, of course, baby." His gaze was soft at how fragile you looked. "Let's go."

The drive back home was quiet. Not awkward-quiet way. But a comforting one. He had his hand wrapped around yours while the other one was securing the steering wheel.

His phone rang and you saw Hannah's name. "Can you answer it and put it on speaker for me, please?"

You didn't say a word but you did it for him anyway.

"Hey Mark?"

"Yeah?"

"Can you drive me home tonight, please? I really need to go. Something happened at home and everyone's not suited to drive right now and-"

"Hey, hey, Hannah. Calm down. I'll drop (Y/N) and then I'll drive you home. Is everything okay?"

"I don't know, Mark. I don't know but they need me home-"

"Are you okay?"

The call ended right when you were in front of your house. "Thank you, Mark."

You heard the car door shut and footsteps towards you as you were about to open the door. "(Y/N)? Did I do something wrong?"

"It's still Hannah, isn't it?" Your question caught him off guard. "What?"

"Just answer me."

"No." His answer was full of uncertainty and he knew it.

"I'm not dumb, Mark. Just answer honestly." You were fighting the tears at this moment and your hands were shaking so much you had to hide them in your jacket.

"I'm sorry." Even if you knew the answer, it still broke you when you heard it coming from him.

"Of course you're sorry." You let out a forced laugh. "You should go. She's waiting for you. Good night, Mark." These were your last words to him before turning your back against him and shut the door.

You spend a lot of time crying but you knew it wouldn't help so you desperately called for Jinyoung to come over.

"Fuck." He cursed at the sight of you, wrapping you in his arms when he came.

Hannah is close to perfect. She grew up in Australia and her dad is Australian. She's just the perfect mix. She catches everyone's attention wherever she goes by just simply walking. She's more on the girlish side, she's so careful with her actions, and she's the kind of girl that everyone would want. She's the kind of girl that makes people want to protect her.

"And then there's me. I speak whatever comes into my mind, I don't filter my words, I act like a guy most of the time. We're just so different, Jinyoung."

"Stop it. Your strong personality is something you should be proud of. I honestly love that about you. You tend to be independent most of the time and defend yourself from everyone. You do act a bit like a guy, yes, but that's adorable. You appear so strong on the outside but you're just as vulnerable as Hannah when it comes to people that you care for."

Your tears stopped pouring at Jinyoung's words.

"And don't you ever compare your physical appearance to her's. You don't see it do you? The way you catch everyone else's attention? If I were a stranger in the same crowd as you, you would definitely catch my attention. You have this aura around you and it's not something that can be ignored. Always remember that."

You have your head on his chest while he is playing with your hair. His words were very effective and it calmed you down.

"It's Mark's fault if he couldn't see that."

You muttered a small thank you and you remained in the same position and not talking.

"Jinyoung?"

"Hmm?"

You got up from your position to face him.

"Why can't it be just you? All this time I kept on wishing it was you."

"What do you mean?"

"I can hang around with you without feeling insecure even when I'm surrounded by pretty girls. I can talk to you about everything, even my insecurities. I'm being myself so much when I'm around you. Why couldn't it be you, then?"

Your body was on fire with all that came out of your mouth.

"What do you mean why can't it be me? (Y/N) it has always been me. It took you so long and so many heartbreaks to realize that." You were studying his face. You never had the chance to appreciate your best friend's attractiveness until know.

"Are you going to let me in and give me a chance to prove to you?"

"No, Jinyoung. I think you have already proved so much."

He broke into a grin and hugged you so tight.

"We'll take it slow, baby."