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[kayaydays-lie]

https://discord.gg/8cXTszQ

Hey there! So recently, I made a Discord server for anyone who kins! We try and make sure there’s a category for every fandom, as long as there are enough people who kin from it! If it’s not on the list, don’t worry! We have a general kin section too!! And hopefully, eventually your fandoms will be added to the list too!

I should probably mention this is a double friendly server too!

Here are a few things you can expect in the server!:

-          You can change your name colour anytime! Thanks to one of the bots we have, all you need is a hex code!

-          We have different roles for different fandoms! Members can suggest fandoms through a bot, and it’ll all be posted to a specific channel! Once the required number of votes have been reached, the fandom will be added as a role and a category! Each category includes five channels for now. Kin list, kin general, kin vent, canon calls, and memories!

-          System friendly server! We have an entire category for systems!

-          The server is pretty much automated. From self-assigning roles, to changing your name colour, it’s all done by bots! We try and make sure there’s at least one Mod online at any given point in the day, so please feel free to ping them and ask for help!

-          If you have any triggers, you’re always welcome to add them to the triggers channel! We also have a masterlist channel, where I categorise the triggers and put them in alphabetical order so it’s easier to look through!

Note: We’re aware that as more people join, the trigger list can become pretty big. Obviously, we don’t expect anyone to remember every single trigger on the list, and therefore no warnings will be given for accidentally mentioning a trigger and you’ll just need to delete the message. HOWEVER, depending on how serious the topic mentioned is, and how often the person’s been mentioning triggers, we may need to talk to them. If in doubt, please use the Blacklisted channels.

Note: We don’t have any NSFW channels. We have a separate server for that. It’s mentioned in the rules channel if you wish to learn more.

Here are the current roles you can get on the server! We’re always expanding too, since the server’s fairly new, so don’t worry if any of the fandoms you kin from/enjoy aren’t on the list!

Note: If any of the fandoms listed are your triggers, don’t worry! You won’t be able to view any of them unless you assign yourself that fandoms role!

Info For New People!

-         Please don’t let the large amount of people in the server put you off! We’re all very friendly and overall, I think the server has a really nice atmosphere! Please at least try it, and if it’s not for you, you don’t have to stay!

-         The majority of the server will be hidden for new people. This is just to prevent spammers. You will be able to access the rest of the server by doing your introduction and reading the rules. The rules tell you how to access the rest of the server!

Aaaaand that’s all I have to say for now!! We look forward to you joining the server if you do join us!!

https://discord.gg/8cXTszQ

[kayaydays-lie]

100 Reasons NOT To Kill Yourself

1. We would miss you. 2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again… 19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don’t even know you and I love you. 57. I don’t even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. You’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you’re proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate 94. Sherlock season three. 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen

IF that isn’t enough:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696 Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433 LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255 Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743 Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438 Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673 Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272 Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000 Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253 Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453 UK Helplines: Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111 Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600 Drinkline: 0800 9178282 Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614 India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669 Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7 suicide hotlines; Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430 Australia: 13-11-14 Austria: 01-713-3374 Barbados: 429-9999 Belgium: 106 Botswana: 391-1270 Brazil: 21-233-9191 China: 852-2382-0000 (Hong Kong: 2389-2222) Costa Rica: 606-253-5439 Croatia: 01-4833-888 Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67 Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908 Denmark: 70-201-201 Egypt: 762-1602 Estonia: 6-558-088 Finland: 040-5032199 France: 01-45-39-4000 Germany: 0800-181-0721 Greece: 1018 Guatemala: 502-234-1239 Holland: 0900-0767 Honduras: 504-237-3623 Hungary: 06-80-820-111 Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90 Ireland: 1800-247-100 Israel: 09-8892333 Italy: 06-705-4444 Japan: 3-5286-9090 Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292 Malaysia: 03-756-8144 (Singapore: 1-800-221-4444) Mexico: 525-510-2550 Netherlands: 0900-0767 New Zealand: 4-473-9739 New Guinea: 675-326-0011 Nicaragua: 505-268-6171 Norway: 47-815-33-300 Philippines: 02-896-9191 Poland: 52-70-000 Portugal: 239-72-10-10 Russia: 8-20-222-82-10 Serbia: 21-6623-393 Spain: 91-459-00-50 South Africa: 0861-322-322 South Korea: 2-715-8600 Sweden: 031-711-2400 Switzerland: 143 Taiwan: 0800-788-995 Thailand: 02-249-9977 Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800 Ukraine: 0487-327715 Uruguay: 095 73 8483 You will be missing out on every single wonderful thing yet to happen to you.

[kayaydays-lie]

Anti anxiety.

[kayaydays-lie]

gentle reminder if you aren’t proud of your past choices or who you were and you worry about if you’re a good person, you’re already getting better. bad people don’t care if they’re good or not. you deserve to be happy and loved. you’re a good person. every day you’re improving and healing, and that’s more than what bad people could ever say

[kayaydays-lie]

Spend some time doing one of your hobbies today. Things can get busy so be sure to cut out some me time. Watch an episode of your favorite show, paint something small, read a chapter or two, get to the next checkpoint in a game, whatever it is. Do you daily.

[kayaydays-lie]

making a mistake doesn’t make you a mistake.

[kayaydays-lie]

Open relationships seem to be becoming more popular which is cool, but this should be kept in mind:

If your partner is allowed to flirt and mess around with other people, and you’re not, you’re not in an open relationship. You’re being strung along, manipulated, and emotionally abused by someone who wants to do what they want on their terms, and control you at the same time.

Get out.

[kayaydays-lie]

In the wake of hearing some very sad (also personal) information, I decided to throw this out there:

Trans People Are Wonderful! They Deserve Representation And Respect!

- MTF? The most beautiful girls in the world - or handsome, if they’d prefer! Sparkling like a star!!

- FTM? The most handsome boys in the whole world - or beautiful, if they’d prefer! Radiant like the moon!

- FTNB/MTNB? You’re all stellar and delightful! Truly gorgeous individuals, as handsome and/or beautiful as a sunbeam!!

- Genderfluid Folk? Super fantastic!! Your identity and its presentation are phenomenally you-like!!

- Demigender boys and girls? Delightfully demi!! Just like me!! We’re all extremely wonderful!!

- Agender? Astounding! A wonderful reminder of the diversity of gender - we’re ALL wonderful reminders of the diversity of gender!! Woo!

- Other, unlisted identities I’m not as well-versed in? Still valid!! Still beautiful/handsome/gorgeous/wonderful!!! Still very important to the world and to the redefinition of gender language and identity!!

The world may treat you differently - they’ll say you’re lesser, other, not who you are - but those people are wrong. You are strong because you perservere in the face of indignity, you are true to you and yourself in-or-out of closet, and you are you by virtue of knowing who you’re meant to be.

~ Mod Lyca

[kayaydays-lie]

I originally was going to explain my story, but I don’t think I can do it. It won’t benefit me, and it most likely won’t benefit others. I’m sorry, I just can’t bring myself to say what I’ve gone through.

However, this post was originally going to be a post for those who’ve been going through a dark phase, or feel really low. I’m hoping I can help at least one person, even if I don’t help anyone, I’m hoping this can at least comfort someone.

If you’re someone who’s had a really difficult time, I understand. You may feel as if your problems aren’t worth it, since you may believe others have it worse than you. But trust me, everyone’s problems are important. It doesn’t matter whether you believe someone has it worse, all that matters is that it’s making you feel as if you could break at any moment.

You matter. Your problems do matter. Your feelings matter.

I know I’m just some stranger on the internet, maybe my words don’t mean anything to you. Anything I say may seem meaningless, after all, we don’t know each other. I understand, but please, please hear me out.

Feeling depressed or suicidal is horrible. You feel as if you can’t escape the constant torture of being trapped within your own mind that keeps telling you you’re worthless, that you’re not good enough, that you deserve to suffer. Maybe you haven’t told anyone in fear of how they’d react, maybe you want your friends to not know because them not knowing is the one shred of normalcy you’ll feel. 

But please, try to keep on going.

It’s difficult, it’s so damn difficult, I understand that. Living each day, the next one being more torturous than the last.

You just want the pain to end. 

But don’t give in. Don’t look at that knife, or that rope, or those pills. Step away from those things you know can harm you. 

Take a moment to think about yourself.

You feel broken, you feel as if each day will continue to get worse, you feel as if no one can help you, you feel as if you don’t matter, and trust me when I say I know how it feels. But you’re not alone. You’ll never be alone.

Loneliness doesn’t necessarily mean you don’t have any friends, loneliness can also mean that you just don’t feel as if you don’t have anyone to talk to about how you feel. You can see others around you being happy and constantly torment yourself, wishing you could be as happy as them.

I’ve been called a liar, I’ve been called selfish, I’ve had people not being able to cope with my feelings. What once made me happy is now gone and now I feel empty. But I kept pushing on. Even now, I don’t know why. I can’t find a reason to live. Maybe it’s natural human instinct? I don’t know. But I do know this, if you can keep pushing through life even when everything’s gone to shit, then you truly are a brave person.

Please, talk to someone. Please tell someone how you feel. Sharing your problems will help you feel a little better. If you don’t have anyone to talk to, or don’t want to tell anyone close to you, well, my dms are always open. 

Please remember that you’re not alone. You’re never alone.

And even if you feel as if you didn’t accomplish anything today, well, you managed to live another day. And in my opinion, that’s a huge achievement.

Suicide Hotline Numbers

Argentina: +5402234930430

Australia: 131114

Austria: 017133374

Belgium: 106

Bosnia & Herzegovina: 080 05 03 05

Botswana: 3911270

Brazil: 212339191

Canada: 5147234000 (Montreal); 18662773553 (outside Montreal)

Croatia: 014833888

Denmark: +4570201201

Egypt: 7621602

Estonia: 3726558088; in Russian 3726555688

Finland: 010 195 202

France: 0145394000

Germany: 08001810771

Holland: 09000767

Hong Kong: +852 2382 0000

Hungary: 116123

India: 8888817666

Ireland: +4408457909090

Italy: 800860022

Japan: +810352869090

Mexico: 5255102550

New Zealand: 045861048

Norway: +4781533300

Philippines: 028969191

Poland: 5270000

Portugal: 21 854 07 40/8 . 96 898 21 50

Russia: 0078202577577

Spain: 914590050

South Africa: 0514445691

Sweden: 46317112400

Switzerland: 143

United Kingdom: 08457909090

USA: 18002738255

- Kaede

[kayaydays-lie]

Urgh, sorry I haven't been posting much.

I've just been feeling awful for the last couple of weeks and it's just been getting worse and I've lost motivation to do anything, can't even get myself to get out of bed.

I'll try and find some things to reblog, but if I keep going inactive, well, you know why

- Kaede

[kayaydays-lie]

i honestly think the discord server sounds like a lovely idea! 💕

https://discord.gg/dG6RtQH

Here you go! I’ll make an official post about it once it’s properly been set up!

- Kaede [Monika Shift]

[kayaydays-lie]

Actually, the last ask gave me an idea.

I’m a huge fan of Discord servers, so do you guys think it’d be a good idea to make a vent/positivity server that you can join? It’ll be a nice way of getting to know new people, and knowing you’re venting to a group of people who care might help!

Please let me know if you guys think this is a good idea, and I’ll be sure to make it!

- Kaede [Monika Shift]

[kayaydays-lie]

hey, i kinda just wanna vent/get some positivity maybe? idk. ive had a lot of issues with my identity and i recently got diagnosed with depersonalization disorder and a lot of its just fucking up my life. i depersonalize so hard i dont even know who i am anymore and i barely ever even feel real or like i matter or that i change anything. i cant feel that people care about me, i barely even feel human sometimes. (1/2)

(2/2)

i just feel like such a failure all the time and like nothing i do will ever matter or amount to anything. i feel constantly like no one cares and i can feel myself slipping into a horrible mental state and i kinda just,,, feel like no one would care if i died. im really sorry for kinda venting in your inbox, im kinda just a mix of feelings and i dont rlly know how to sort through them… -m

Hey there! Please don’t ever apologise for venting and asking for positivity, that’s what this blog is here for! 

Now, while I can’t truly understand how you feel, I did have a friend who was in a similar situation. They had a few issues with their identity too and believed they didn’t have their own personality.

Things seem to be pretty hard for you, I can definitely empathise with that. Feeling like a failure and feeling like no one cares is awful, no one should have to feel like that. 

People do care, they will always care. Maybe you can’t believe that right now, but trust me on this one; there will always be someone who cares. I’m not sure if saying this will help you, but I care. You’re going through a really difficult time, a time where you shouldn’t feel as if you’re alone, and I’m just an ask away if you need to talk. 

If you’re not sure how to sort through your feelings, I’d suggest writing down your feelings as they come to you! It’s better to have everything written down in front of you, then it’s easy to sort through them once they’re all written down. Maybe sort your feelings into two columns; one column is where you put what can be changed, the second column, is where you put the problems you can’t change. Then, I suggest looking at the problems you can change, try and figure out a way to deal with that problem, and see if it starts to help you feel better.

As for your depersonalisation disorder, I’m not a professional, so I can’t really help you with that. However, I’d strongly urge you to talk to someone, preferably a professional who can help you, and see what happens from there on. If money or transportation is an issue, perhaps see if there’s anything online that could help?

I did a quick check on Google, and I found these websites that may prove to be slightly helpful?

http://www.sound-mind.org/depersonalization.html#.WzUN3tJKiUk

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depersonalization-derealization-disorder/diagnosis-treatment/drc-20352916

There’s an app that I use to vent, it really does help, and there are also groups within the app for people who need to vent about different things. The community on there’s lovely, and you will always get a few comments from people who try and help!

https://get.vent.co/YLSd/QMXEx7KB2N

I hope I helped a little, if not, well, I hope venting helped you to get everything off your chest! You’re always welcome to come back and send in another ask if you want to, and please feel free to update me on how things are going for you!

I wish you the best of luck, and please remember, there are always people out there who will care about you! 

- Kaede [Monika Shift]

[kayaydays-lie]

To the depersonalisation disorder anon, I’m sorry for the delay in responding to you! It’ll be up within the next few hours, please bear with me!

- Kaede [Monika Shift]

[kayaydays-lie]

I do this thing where if i have to go to a family event where I will be expected to be a girl I pretend I am a SPY and I am IN DISGUISE AS A TEEN GIRL and my mission is to EXTRACT INFORMATION FROM MY GRANDPARENTS without giving away my real identity. works every time.

your dress and makeup is now a DISGUISE

your ‘birth name’ is now an ALIAS

getting told by your parents to be nice and not yell at anyone being racist is MISSION BRIEFING

your entire extended family are now FOREIGN DIGNITARIES and you gotta make it thru the evening without being discovered as a RADICAL SPY

carrying a small water pistol and one of those fake-lipstick pens in your purse helps to get in the zone. the best part of being a spy is the nifty gadgets everyone knows that.

BONUS if you have to bring a friend of another gender with you to pretend to be your boyfriend. you are both PARTNER SPIES and one of you has to be the cranky but soft-hearted veteran and the other has to be the endearingly-assholeish rookie. 

[kayaydays-lie]

Hello or good evening ! I am Cutekiins, this blog is managed by the mod Yukina Kosaka, delighted to meet you. Unfortunately, my account was hacked and then deleted, I lost all my subscriptions and subscribers as well as my creations. I’m sorry for all the people who asked me…

However I decided to start all over again, do not hesitate to ask me for requests !

I can realize :

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 Stimboard.  Positivity.  Icon.  Aesthetic.

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If you don’t mind, could you re-blog this article ?  That’ll be lovely of you !

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[kayaydays-lie]

Hello, I'm sorry to bother you, I'm Cutekiins, my account has been hacked and deleted, I lost all my requests and creations as well as my subscribers and subscriptions, could you please re-blog my message ? Thank you so much...

Oh gosh, that sounds awful. If there’s any other way I can help, please let me know!

But anyways, please follow @cutekiins!!

- Kaede