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Someone being patient with you on your bad days is one of the softest forms of love

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Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

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The ocean is everything I want to be. Beautiful, mysterious, wild and free.

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“I’m the one that’s got to die when it’s time for me to die, so let me live my life the way I want to.”

— Jimi Hendrix, Jimi Hendrix - Axis: Bold as Love

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“Always end the day with a positive thought. No matter how hard things were, tomorrow’s a fresh opportunity to make it better.”

— Unknown

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“You need people in your life that are further along than you, people that are more experienced, people that are out of your league. You need to be exposed to new levels so that you can go to new levels.”

— Joel Osteen

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“Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask yourself if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future.”

— Deepak Chopra

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“I’m slowly learning that some people aren’t good for me, no matter how much I love them.”

— Unknown

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My first Father's day without you. My soul is still reeling as my feelings spin out of control while the world keeps turning and I miss you. It's amazing to see all of the people that ask about you, reminisce, tell tales, and pause to remember all that you did, you were, and still are. I can never describe all the feelings I hide, it's enough to take me, break me, tear me apart, bury me inside all of these broken memories and heartbreak and longing of you as I come home and wish to hear you say hello.

I miss you, viejo man, mi querido papa, who was there at my lowest and highest and all in between. I wish you could see how much more I wish to be, to have you share in my triumphs and cheer me up when I'm weak. Mom is trying, she really wishes she could be more, but we all know, we've endured, and we love you every day more. Thank you for all that you've been and still are.

I miss you, pop. Happy Father's day with all of my heart.

-H. Murcia 3:49 PM 6/19/2022

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"Inseparable"

Cradled in my arms I felt you leave

Spirited away in an instant

So very far away from me

The vessel remained in my arms, limp and cold

Some strange object I'd never held, no longer my kitten

Not my kitten, not anymore, and grief unfolds

Without your shadowing I am in shade

Without your bright eyes I am without light

Carrying now this grief, so grave

With my bare hands I tore the earth apart

To return you from whence you came, that wretched night

And though I bathed, stains remained on my broken heart

I felt you leave, but still there is something here with me

In a treasured empty space, both occupied and hollow

An indelible mark left on me by your love and memory

Goodbye my darling girl, my dear, my oldest friend

Gone now where I cannot yet follow, but still I know

We are inseparable, unto the end.

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“The words you speak become the house you live in.”

— Hafiz

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A Big Step.

It’s been almost 6 years since my dad died. And today I took a step I never was sure I was gonna take again. I went fishing; and I know that seemed like a stupid thing. Fishing is easy. Fishing is just a sport. But to me it was the one weekend a year I spent with my Dad. I would go fishing and spend the night at our family cabin, he would help me, it would be something my dad and I could share forever. And after his death, I couldn’t bring myself to do it. But today. I did. And although I’ve been fighting back tears all night and have been trying to act strong, it’s physically and emotionally tearing me apart. I’ve been told I should it should be happy, but it’s so physically hard to be. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed it, but he was missing. He wasn’t there to help with my fish, part of my world is missing. And right now I’m not sure how to handle it.

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“You can’t go back and change the beginning, But you can start where you are and change the ending.”

— Unknown