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tomorrow i'll have to go to work again... 💀 only 4 days to go, and i'll be on break for three weeks... 😭 and more importantly, around two weeks, i'll go to a psychologist... i'll finally be able to free some of my thoughts... 🥹

on another note, i'm really starting to regret accepting the offer for my current job... 💀 i feel like too much is asked of me, i just can't speak to unknown people however i encounter a lot of unknown people through this job and they want proactive people but it's just not in my nature at all...

maybe it will change after the break but yeah... i feel like the best job for me is a repetitive one, that doesn't make me growth or anything. just a repetitive job where i'm not asked to be proactive.

sorry for the vent but i just needed to!

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i really hope the end if shinteni doesn't mean that the merch will decline... because if it really means that, i'll have to buy as much as i can of merch. 🔥🔥

and if i can go to Japan next summer, i'll buy plenty of tenipuri/shinteni merch there (Animate i remember you)

I don't want the prince of tennis merch to decline... please... I'll keep buying lots of sanada merch 😭😭😭😭😭😭

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the all star gacha before tenirabi's eos is probably the only way i can get Ryoga's ur and ssr... that's why one of my objectives before the eos is to get every card of him, evolve the cards, and take a screenshot of the before evolving and after evolving so that i can have some memories in my phone before everything actually ends... 😭

i'm going to do this with every one of my oshis on tenirabi tbh but the one i love the most takes priority i guess.

and thankfully it's advancing well! thanks to the exchanging tickets of the all star gacha and the gacha itself, i got nearly all of Ryoga's ssr! i just need the ur now! (there are two or three ur of him i think?)

bonus : the three ssr cards i got of him thanks to the gacha (the others were thanks to the exchanging tickets) + a ssr of Fuji and a ur of Yukimura i got thanks to the gacha! 🤍 good luck to everyone with the all star gacha! 🤞

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learned yesterday that imas deresute is going to end their service too... i guess tenirabi eos wasn't enough for me to suffer.

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tenirabi end of service announcement yesterday, and now the announcement that shinteni is going to end soon... why do you do that world???? 😭😭😭

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woke up to the tenirabi end of service announcement... I DON'T WANT IT TO HAPPEN!!!! 😭😭😭 this game has accompanied my youth, as i started playing it during my first year of university and even during my first job, and even during my current job... 😭😭😭😭 (even through i don't like it as much as i thought i would)

i just really don't know how to feel aside from being sad... i don't know if they'll do a new game or not but still i'm going to miss tenirabi... 😭😭😭

update : i'm an idiot but i just understood now that since the game won't be available offline, i won't be able to see my cards after the end of service... thank god i got screenshots but i wanted to see them offline... 🥲

update 2 : i wasn't lying to you when i said i would mark everything in my personal calendar (it's in japanese but it's here)

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i rarely talk about this anime on my social networks but guess who bought a school agenda for a single illustration? it's me! 🤡

it's a Saint Seiya themed school agenda and i really liked this Hades illustration i just couldn't get it out of my head, so i had to have it even though the agenda in itself won't be used.

it was kinda expensive but do i regret it? absolutely not.

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ngl probably one of the highest scores i got in this kind of event (with the tokubetsu shiai and all).

the weddings themed event really got me fired up this year... 😅

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i know it's only a pop up store but ANIMATE IS GOING TO OPEN A POP UP STORE IN PARIS IN JULY!!!! 🥹🥹 i hope i'll be able to go during my summer break or before... 😭

the picture is basically saying 'first ouverture of an Animate in France' and details about the date and where it is.

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we're only on the 5th day, and yet, i already got it... i probably beat a record of mine with the tokubetsu shiai... 5 days is really fast... 😅

but the best is that thanks to this event's UR, i got another oshi with the wedding theme! 🤍����

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not me who nearly bought Blue Lock volumes (even though i didn't watch the second season of the anime) because i have a crush on Kaiser and wanted those volumes because he was in them.

today was not a good day, so i guess i needed to see a fictional crush of mine.

still, i will buy those volumes one day.

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after 3 months of just bottling it up... i just broke down this morning. i cried in the toilets of my workplace... 🥲

it's just stressful to always be told 'be more proactive!' when it's not in your nature at all... being proactive makes me anxious and fearful, and yet i'm really doing my best but i just really don't feel like anyone is seeing my efforts... hence why i broke down in tears.

my colleague is the only one who sees my efforts because we're both anxious persons (though he has a treatment and not me)

and it's not like i don't want to do my best, i clearly want to do my best, but i don't know if it's worth it...

anyway, i'll just try to keep on doing my best, and if it's really not enough... i'll see what i do at that moment.

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after a lot of hours playing, and buying medals, finally.... I FINALLY GOT THE UR!!!! 🥹🥹🥹

but tbh if the next ranking UR is one of my oshis too (unless it's ryoga bc i have no objectivity when it comes to him) i'm just gonna do my best, and if i don't get the UR, it's fine.

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found a tokuryoga fic that was updated days ago on ao3... but it's in chinese so i can't understand it... 😭 i should've continued learning chinese after high school... 😭

p.s : i read every tokuryoga fic on ao3, and i love that pairing so much i need more.

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thanks to tenirabi's current event, i got Tezuka's SSR... since the launch of the game, i wanted that card so much.... and now it's here!! 🥹🥹

i haven't gotten any SSR with the wedding gacha so far, so i hope that i'll get Yuushi's UR card in ranking... i actually did achieve it one time (to get a UR for Sanada) so i'll do everything possible! 🔥

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more healing though shopping yesterday! 🤍

i was so glad my best friend asked me if i wanted to come bc if i didn't i wouldn't have brought the tenipuri guides... 🥹🥹 (and an old playstation one jp game but i can't play it)

also the sakura compact ver i love it sm! 🤍

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happy pride month everyone! 🏳️‍🌈🤍