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Life update..

It's great being a mom and just as I thought I'm spared with mental health problems.. Well I'm not. Panic attacks have gotten into me lately which i thought has something to do with my physical health but all came clear. So i went to check my mental health and yep.. It was all in my head.

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Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na may toddler na ko at siguro magugulat na lang ako na may teenager na ko haha. Nashoshock pa rin ako everyday na "huuuyyy kaya ko pala to?!?"

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Kaninang umaga hindi ako makakain. Parang naglilihi stage ganon and so nag pt ako and tyl dahil talaga nga namang negative. Kalaunan eh umokay naman na ko at nakakain din.

Tapos buong araw nagtutulog tulog baby ko so akala ko dahil pagod lang kasi nga lumabas kami today. Bigla namang ngayong pagabi na pagkakapa ko sa noo nya aba mainit. Another sick day nanaman huhu.

So kaya siguro ako ganon kaninang umaga ay dahil nafeel na ng katawan ko na hindi nga maayos pakiramdam ng baby ko. Weird noh pero tyl sa gantong klaseng weirdness. Ganto pala yung sinasabi nilang malakas ang pakiramdam ng nanay.

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Say it with me:

Everything that leaves is replaced by something better. I never lack.

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Mag uumaga nanaman at ikaw ang katabi~~

This song hits differently now 🥹 actually everything hits me differently from the songs to the little things I enjoy. I must say that being a mom is having a new personality and there's no switching back to the old you.

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Im in my “if not now, then when?” era and I hope something good comes out of it

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Hello! I just want to update this blog but so much has happened that I don’t know where or how to start hehe.

Maybe this list will do

My baby’s birthday is coming up. Preparationssss!! I hope I won’t miss a thing. Or someone ✌️

I always joked about how I wanted to be a mother as a profession and look at where I’m at hahaha. Jokes on me

A lot of things going on in my mind right now that I can’t even sleep. Excited? Scared? Sentimental? Yes? No? Emotions all at once! I guess this is my hormones finally going back to normal after being pregnant for months.

I guess this is going to be a mommy blog from now on? Coz girllll I can’t even have a me time haha my world is now revolving around mommy duties and keeping my sanity intact. So again, hello! Wow rebranding yarn? Haha

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Clean sheets, amazing experience 10/10. Changing sheets, the worst 0/10. Why does something so good have to involve so much suffering

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sometimes love is just doing things without having to be asked, making a cup of tea for someone as they’re working, packing an extra lunch because you know they’re rushed for time. Love doesn’t have to be expressed in grand gestures, to me, the little gestures of love matter more.

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Baby L birth story..

Since nagstart ang 9th month ng pregnancy ko, naging weekly na ang check ups ko then nung 37th week ko 1 cm na ko (cervix dilation kineme) tapos 38th week came and 3cm na nga daw. So tinanong ako ng ob ko if gusto ko ba magpa admit na pero nasakin naman if gusto ko naturally magdilate eh kaso excited ako so sabi ko sige admit na ko.

The plan was to give birth normally...

I was admitted and waiting sa labor room for a good contraction...

Everything was good and contractions came 1-2 mins already but my baby's heart rate was not so good with every contractions I'm facing.

I was told by my ob na cs na daw. Chill lang pagkasabi at di na ko tinanong for consent so alam kong emergency na yon. Syempre natakot ako.

I wasn't really taking ferrous sulfate dahil sa lasa so yun agad ang pinag alala ko na baka need ako salinan ng dugo pag hiniwa ako but the Lord is good and gracious.

Wala pang 1 hour tapos na ang operation ko tho sedated ako kasi nga halos hablutin ko yung kamay nung nag aanesthesia dahil di ako makahinga gawa ng kaba and the fact na mamamanhid part ng tyan so akala mo di ka humihinga.

Nagising na lang ako na nanay na ko.

Buti na lang naexcite ako na magpa admit. Siguro eto na yung sinasabi nilang mother's instinct 😊

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Magpapa 4d ultrasound sana ako para makita ko ichura ng anak ko for safety purposes na din na hindi maging mara clara buhay ng anak ko na maipagpapalit sa iba tapos magiging masama ugali kaso ayaw ni baby magpakita huhu. Spine, pwet at batok lang daw kita lol

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Nakakamiss dumapaaa

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Laura

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Life Update:

I'm a married woman now

Soon to be a mom

I'm excited

And a bit scared

But I'm happy (most of the time lol)

I guess that's all that matters

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