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decided to watch Good Will Hunting and the only good will someone could offer me right now is a bullet between the eyes

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Drew carrying Punks body to the arena after attacking him. Dropping him in front of Punk's hometown crowd. Stealing his bracelet with the names of his loved ones.

That changed my soul.

(Yes please do alerudy with the rosary)

I had to explain the significance of Punk wearing a Celtic top to the interview after the match in Glasgow, days after Drew had done a tour of Rangers stadium and my American friends had no clue it meant anything.

That mf was playing Games.

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That punkintyre feud was everything, it had it all!!!! Oh I miss it !

Funny enough I remember seeing some ghostsoap fanart based on it. 😊

Drew shoving the beads in Punk's mouth and choking him with them? Catch me writing something AleRudy rosary based on that because God if it didn't make me hard.

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hey guys, did i do well? did i do it right? hey, hey guys-

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Can I kiss your eye

No, I don't want mouth germs on my precious bitchy blues.

Also, taking this as an opportunity to talk about the time I slit my eyelid open on the handle of a nightstand.

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Are you a wrestling fan ?

Thx!

I know enough to get by, a friend of mine is a big wrestling fan so most of my knowledge comes through him but I was big on the Punkintyre fued when it was happening.

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Farah has walked in on Alex flexing to Sexy Boy.

She walks back out, only to return with a camera.

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She's in the midst of a rant about work when it stops her, standing still in the doorway of their kitchen with her eyes wide and mouth open.

Standing there, feet aching in her boots as a papercut leaves the tender flesh between her fingers stinging, Kate realises how truly forgettable her problems seem to be.

The image is almost soft. Her wife, leaning over the kitchen counter as she ices cupcakes to look like flowers. Pink icing smeared over her hands, a burnt batch abandoned off to the side and the handle of a spatula helped between her teeth.

If it weren't for the crotchless panties and the bra that barely covers her nipples, Kate would call it homely.

"Don't suppose you'll let me lick icing off of your tits when you're finished?"

Sarah doesn't look away from the cupcakes nor does she drop the spatula from her mouth, she simply spreads her legs.

"Making me work for it? Cruel."

And yet she finds herself pressed against her wife's back, a hand reaching for her cunt.

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i love so many people in my life so much and when it's returned i always find myself shocked

yes, i have a great relationship with my mother why did you ask

having a best friend who is so openly loving is an evil experience for me because why am i crying at a video where you call me one of your best friends because i believe it without a doubt

i love his gayass, my cowboy brother in christ

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having a best friend who is so openly loving is an evil experience for me because why am i crying at a video where you call me one of your best friends because i believe it without a doubt

i love his gayass, my cowboy brother in christ

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It's a death sentence, delivered with NHS standard shipping.

It's easy to ignore the symptoms, to dismiss them as a symptom of age, to ignore the cornered gazes that scan over his rapidly slimming figure.

But to have it thrown in his face? He'd prefer a bullet.

He swears to himself that he won't let Nikolai fall into the role of caretaker, that he'll free the man from his upcoming role as widow.

John has always been a liar.

And so he finds the pilot helping him out of bed in the morning, driving to and from the hospital to receive treatments that won't save his life, but prolong his suffering in the name of survival.

It's a prison of sorts. Stuck in a body that no longer works as it once had, without work for fear it'd strain him too much to attempt. He watches in real time as he becomes frail, pondering the weight of his existence and the mark it will leave in his wake.

Nikolai, for all his skills, has never mastered the art of shielding his sorrow. John bleeds it dry when he sits the man down to make funeral arrangements.

A grey car, a mahogany coffin and a non-religious service.

With the life drained out of him, he's asleep long before the Russian retreats to weep in the privacy of their bathroom.

It's cruel, losing his sense of self.

To take a guess at the day and meet worried eyes in response.

To rely on his partner, a man whose fingers had explored every inch of his body with lust, to hold him up just so that he can take a piss.

Nobody thought to warn him about the humility that is death.

His last moments are spent in tranquillity without lucidity. He's medicated to the maximum to allow him to rest in peace, and his eyes are glazed as they peer at the ceiling.

Nikolai wakes to a cold shoulder pressed against his own.

He shoots himself three weeks later.

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it shouldn't need to be said but just to make it perfectly fucking clear, this blog is pro-Palestine

if you can withstand watching the atrocities happening in Gaza and to Palestinian people and still claim that Israel holds no fault then you are scum and my god, you are not welcome here

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the other day my friend and i saw a video that was "your months, your dc duo" and we got Batman and Superman

the immediate reaction was to high five and get real happy about it

and then we had to work out who's who

he's Superman because he has whimsy and kindness in his heart

i'm Batman because i'm half an orphan

anyway that's what happens when you make two autistics wait for a bus

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Day 1: A Woman’s Day @kcdfemslashweek

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i love this blog because you guys are so nice and even if you didn't truly care, you pretended to and it was kind

noone gives half a fuck but i gotta tell people because i'm real excited

i preordered the Lego Arkham Set

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this and some Kate Laswell pussy would fix me

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I did a thing!!

Because of this!!!

I would wear the shit out of this

OH MY GODDDDDD

I can't decide if I want one or want one with her in it