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Alhamdulillah. I’ve achieved my short-term goal which is passed the exam. So what is next?

One thing for sure....in medical fields, it involves life-long learning. The process didn't stop once I passed my exam. In fact, I should be more equipped with knowledge as a specialist.

Ya Rabb...Guide me. 

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i am a writer

i actually love to write. but never realizing it before. This topic pop up in mind after i found an ah-ma-zing book. i should have bought this book earlier.. but i didn’t.. gosh !! 

But... better late than never, right ? hihihi

Anyhow

i suppose i should unlearn about myself because as far as i remember, since i was young, i always associate my self with negative thought and always always always downgrading myself. Pity me.

So, where do i begin ?

;)

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Part II Exam

Alhamdulillah, i’ve passed my part II Mpath Exam...hoorayyy!

The most stressful and djosiyfdqwhd47663 situations i ever been

Where do i begin?? Hmmmmmm....

Our exam was on 8th may till 17th may 2023.

Raya was on 23.4.2023. About 2 weeks before exam.

Man came to kelantan and we spent time for 2 days before going back to Tgg for Raya. So basically he followed me to Uni and stay at the library with me.

Went back to Tgg on Friday morning and raya was on saturday. On sunday, we went back to kelantan. Ita got engaged on raya day 3 (monday). Spent two days in Kelantan before went back to Perak. We went back to Perak on Wednesday. I bring along 3 luggages with me. I luggage for books, 2 for clothes. Stay at Mak’s house till saturday.  Argh....so stressful. I even end up with nervous breakdown and cried that night. Next morning, Man bawak jalan2 naik motor, pusing his kampung.

Then followed Man to KL because he had class over the weekend. We checked in @ Sunway Putra Hotel. But then his lecturer cancelled the class. Went back to ipoh on Sunday. From monday till wednesday, study hard T_T. Then on Thursday, Man sent me off to Conezion Putrajaya. I stayed there for about 2/52.

Stayed with Vasu. We had 3 days before the exam begins. 

day 1: Theory I - need to answer 5 essays

day 2: Theory 2 - need to answer 5 essays

day 3: Morphology - 9 stations

day4: Ospe coag & misc

day 5: Ospe BB

Break for 3 days

- Ita came and slept @ conezion.

-Went out to ioi mall with ita on saturday. Did some shopping.

-On Monday Man came to visit me. He had class @ KL.

day 6 (Tue): Clinical exam - got case of PNH, MM.

day 7 (wed): Viva

----end of exam-----

i did really bad for morpho. In fact, i confidently said that i failed the exam.

Then went out again with nita on wednesday. Went to Sukiya. Ita slept @ conezion.

Man came to fetch me on Thursday. After checked out, we went to Jea’s house to pick up my cakes. So delicious. Then drop off nita @ Putrajaya and straight away go to PD. But i couldn't really enjoy the moments because of the exam..argghhhhhh.

Then went back to KL on friday because Man had class on Saturday. I bought my airline ticked for saturday evening,but decided i want follow Man back to Ipoh and went back to Kelantan via bus from Ipoh.

On friday, went back to KL. We stay at Ibis Hotel. Had buffet for dinner and breakfast. Still not in the mood because of the exam,,,agghhhhh.

Checkout on Sunday. Parked our car at kl sentral. Took LRT to Man’s class. Then i went back alone. Drop at KLCC. Spent some time alone. Go to aquaria alone. Not really enjoy the moments because of the exam, arghhhhh...

Man finished class around 5.30 pm. He dropped at KLCC. Then, went back to KL sentral. Had my dinner at Nu sentral (Dobuyo). Later that night, went back to Ipoh. I’m so tired...mentally tired. Arrived home around 12 midnight. I was my birthday..yayyyy.

21 May 2023 (sunday) :

After subuh, i slept again till 10am+. Then Man cooked Nasi goreng for breakfast, yummmy. But i had no appetite. Tomorrow result out. That evening, went out with Man. Man bawak pusing2 Ipoh.

Bus to Kelantan 1045pm that night. Mentally tired.

22 may 2023 (monday):

I’m so so tired. When lecturer said i passed....i cried like crazy in front of them. unbelievable

24 may (wednesday): decided to go back to hometown. And plan to go to kapas island with family.

On Thursday went back to TGG. Before that, take my result from siswazah office.

On Friday, went to Kapas Island. Overnight there. So much fun.

On Sunday drove back to Kelantan.

Monday and Tuesday (which is today,,,hehe), just stay in my room. Today went to coffee with Vasu @ Superdough B.

Tomorrow we had makan2 for our lecturers and staffs. But most of the lecturers are not available. Its school holiday.

and now..here i am...writing this note...

fiuhhhhhhh

[lforlavender]

Pengalaman patah kaki

Tajuk...tak menahan..hahaha

20 dec 2022

kisahnya ms aku kt hrpz, musim hujan..terpeleot kt koridor hospital..maka patahlah kat 5th metatarsal bone. So aku sempat 2 minggu je di hrpz.nasib baik surat ke husm semua dh settle.

2 minggu pertama, aku duduk di kota bharu sorang2. laluan nk baik ke ganu pn tutup. teruk banjir kat besut. then yuni,ecah,wafa ada dtg jln2 kt sini tuk 3 hari. lepastu man pula dtg. Sempat balik kg dengan Man, before next appt. Masa tu pakai POP, berat oii kaki. nak mandi pn kena berbalut kaki.

1st appt 2 Jan 2023

Ms 2nd appt ni, aku tukar cast, guna fiberglass.ringan sket kaki and nampak kemas. Lepas tu di bagi mc lagi sebulan. So Man ajk aku duduk ipoh. So, duduk la kt ipoh dgn man n pinaz. sronok nya hari2 nampak man, tp bosan giler time diorang pergi kerja huhuhu. Nothing much happened here. Towards the end of my stay here, br dpt pijak kaki. Then back to KB for my 2nd appt on 30 Jan. Before that, singgah KL dulu sb man ada kelas. kami stay kat komune living. then balik ikut Raub. aahhh...memorable place.

2nd appt, 30 Jan 2023

Fracture uniting, di bagi mc lagi. tp MC tak laku rupanya..huhuhu. Terpaksa masuk kerja. Alhamdulillah,lecturer faham, aku tak pergi everyday. Sedih giler ms man nk balik ipoh...duk nangis je. Sebelum balik, dia bli sume kelengkapan aku..alhamdulillah

3rd appt, 27 feb

Kali ni g appt sorang2, Naik grab je. aku tgk xray mcm x byk beza je dr prev x-ray. nampak uniting la. so, request nak discharge. sb nk exam dah pun. Smoga akan terus oke. Cuma, ms solat,skg aku masih solat duduk atas katil. Tak berani lagi nk solat mcm biasa. dh lama tak bersujud.hummmmmmm

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Tentang masa lalu..dan orang2nya

Kamu yang dari masa laluku..aku rindu.

Zaman keanak2an, yang gembira bergelak tawa bersamaku.

Zaman remajaku, yang setia mendengar keluh kesah, kisah gembira cerita cintaku,kisah anak2 yang baru nak kenal dunia.

Zaman awal dewasaku, yang bersama2 ku mencari makna hidup dan memaknakan hidup, kita melakar impian bersama-sama, berharap agar dpt menua bersama..tapi.....

Zaman alam rumahtanggaku, bersama engkau yang tak ku sangka2,semoga kita sampai ke syurgaNya. Engkau bukan dari masa laluku. Tapi engkau yang akan selalu ada menemani di sepanjang jalan hidupku selepas ini. Engkau yang akan menua bersamaku. Menjadi saksi jatuh bangun ku.

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31.01.2023, Tuesday.

Now in KB. Balik ke kb hari Ahad hari tu.

Petang Jumaat gerak ke KL. Jem betul jalan. Sepanjang jalan hadap Man duk berleter...comel..hihihi.

Kitorang stay kat Komune living,KL. Tido kt sini 2 mlm. Hari sabtu,Man ada class.

Ahad pagi, gerak balik ke Kelantan ikut Raub.

Sebelum tu,singgah ke suka dessert dlu. memang suka betul.hehe.

Alhamdulillah, sampai kelantan pkl 6lbh cmtu. Sampai2, air xde pulak..sabar je lah.

Isnin follow up. fracture dh bersambung,tp still ada area yg tak bercantum. mc lg sebulan. tp......ak xleh continue mc. mmg kena masuk kerja dah. habis appt, terus check in air bnb sb xde air punya pasal..huhu.

today is tuesday, dh check out dah. Man dh siap bli barang keperluan siap2. esok nk masuk kerja dah.

bercampur baur perasaan.

Sedih....Man dh nk balik Ipoh nanti....

huhuhuhuhu

[lforlavender]

11.1.2023

Genap seminggu kt sini.

Bosan. Tersangat bosan.

sebab aku belum start study betul2 lagi agaknya. actually, banyak je benda yg nak kena study. tp aku yang xde semangat nak start..huhu.

Semangat2...yosh...

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9th Jan 2023

Almost seminggu aku kat Ipoh. Memang bosan bila hari Man ngn Pinaz masuk kerja. Terkebil2 sorang2 kt rumah ni.

Malam tadi Man bawak keluar. Finally...tp seksa juga nk keluar ke parking kereta. Kena hadap 5 steps of stair dulu..huhu.

Mak nk try berubat ikut cara alternatif. Mak siap jumpa sensei cina mntak ubat. Haih la aki ni...dh menyusahkan Mak..huhu

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Selamat Tahun Baru 2023

Pejam celik, dah setahun aku bernikah. Masih ber PJJ.

Sempena setahun, macam2 plan dh buat utk spend time dengan Man. Tp Allah ada plan yang lagi best !!

Ditakdirkan aku patah kaki. Amik kau..sebulan lebh dpt cuti rehat. Memang dpt spend time betul2 dgn Man kali ni..hehe.

But kesian kat dia, terpaksa menyusahkan dia..huhu. Dia kene masak..papah ke bilik air..teman gi appt. Ni nanti ujung bulan ni, nk kena teman gi appt lagi. Sekarang aku kat Ipoh, duduk kat rumah Man.

Today day 2 kat Ipoh. Both Man n pinaz tgh kerja skg ni. Sorang2 je la kt rumah. Esok Man ada kelas kat Penang. Lusa kat kelas kat KL pulak. Penat nya jadi Man..huhuhu

Hari ni seharian duk melepak depn tv je. Masuk bilik tuk solat n toilet break je. dh start study sikit2. May nanti nak final exam dah.

Ya Allah...Kau permudahkanlah urusan suamiku. Jaga dia selalu.

I Love You Syg ;)

[lforlavender]

The Day (25.12.2021)

Alhamdulillah. Settled.

Rs mcm mimpi. First time aku tgk dia face to face ms dia naik atas pelamin utk sarung cincin. Aku mmg sengaja tak pakai contact lens so that aku x nmpak sgt dia n org2 lain..haha.

Segan nau nk pandang dia.Nak salam dia. Berpeluh tangan dia..hehe. Photographer lak suh buat aksi2 yang...haihhhhh...segan aihhh.

Hari berlalu dgn cepat. Lepas majlis balik ke rumah kami. Mlm tu lapo. Dia masakkan maggi 🤣. itu je makanan yg ada kt rmh aku...haruuuuu

Mlm tu azzi ada dtg dgn haziq utk beri hadiah kawin..hidang karipap segera je la...tu pn nasib baik ada karipap...hehehe.

Then, family pulak smpai tuk sesi buka hadiah..heeee

Hari yang memenatkan..fuhhhhhh.

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The day before the wedding(24.12.2021).

Aku sndiri tak berapa ingat aku buat apa jari ni..huhu. Sb ms tu rs penat sangat. Mlm tu siblings dtg,settlekan goodies.

ptg tu family Man sampai. Kami masak nasi goreng bodoh2 tuk family dia 🤭. Ms ni aku belum jumpa dia lagi. Adik2 aku yg tengok Man dulu..hehe.

Ptg tu aku g resort. Mlm tu tido kt resort. Che Nah pn ada dtg stay kt resort tu mlm tu. Mlm nye br start pakai inai...disaster 😓.

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25.Dec.2021

Alhamdulillah. Sah menjadi isteri Man dengan sekali lafaz. Few days before wedding,mmg sangat penat. Penat sangat2.

Aku pulang ke Trg pd hari Selasa petang. Smpai dekat maghrib. Lepas tu terus ke rumah aku..settlekan apa yg patut.

Lepak2 dulu mlm tu. Penatttt.

Hari Rabu....ke K.T. Settlekan apa2 yg patut.huhu

Hari khamis seharian kt pusat servis kereta. Penat yakmat..huhu. Nasib baik ada Ati dgn Nini temankan. Ms ni la br mncari tudung nk pakai ms nikah nanti..huhu

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Semakin dekat dgn tarikh nikah.Makin berdebar. Allah.....Allah....Permudahkan.

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Counting days.

Macam mimpi,kan sayang. Cpt sgt masa berjalan.

April kenal.May decide nk kahwin. On my birthday,he called my perents. October both families meet each other thru online platform. End of october settled all forms. Nov booked our honeymoon place. And now, the count down begins.

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another surprise delivery from him. thank you, sayang. I can't wait to be yours.

💜

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Of family planning.

Sebenarnya, ak blm sedia nak ada anak. We've discussed on this matter, dan Man pn setuju. Plan untuk merancang dulu untuk setahun pertama. Katanya, biarlah kami kenal each other, honeymoon puas2 dulu.

And for that, aku plan nk ambil OCP. Dah beli pun yasmin tadi. Masa advised kt patient dulu, rs simple je benda ni..nk kena makan pil je pun. Tp bila diri sendiri nak makan, rasa anxious pulak. Consult kwn2 kat O&G, baca sana sini. finally rasa yakin nak ambil Yasmin.

Smoga serasi.

💜